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Anxiety, stress, or infected? Scared out of my mind
« on: April 12, 2020, 10:25:05 am »
Ok here it goes, Iím a straight 33y/o uncircumcised male, Iím HSV-2 positive & was in a relationship with a woman for nearly a year. Last October I had a one night stand with a woman I knew nothing about. I went fully unprotected, only vaginal sex. I came twice for sure but pulled out both times. I noticed my penis smelled weird when taking a shower afterwards, and I remember seeing some white fluids on the shaft of my penis. I asked the woman if she had came & she said no, this concerned me as well. It was a strong fishy smell, after washing it was mildly better but the issue persists for weeks after the incident(my first concern).

Then about 2-3 weeks later, I developed a bruise on my upper right thigh, about the size of a half-dollar coin. Have no idea what caused it but I do plenty of physical labor with my work, so I brushed it off. Not long after that, I had one of THE WORST HSV-2 outbreaks Iíve ever had! The sore was on the head of my penis was the size of a dime! It usually pops up & looks like a small cut/scab, this definitely concerned me since I hadnít had an outbreak nearly the whole year.

Furthermore, I started getting weakness in my legs & feeling fatigued more than usual. Then about a month later it was like I had ED, I couldnít get hard for my GF at all really. Iíve never had this problem & thatís when I decided to get tested.

43 days post incident is when I went in for a full panel STD test along with other basic bloodwork. When my results came in, the doctor referred me to an Oncologist. This shook me up pretty bad as I did not know the outcome yet & they wouldnít tell me over the phone, I went in though. The Oncologist tells me everything came back negative for STDís, but my platelets were low. He said they were not significantly low & wanted to test again just to be sure. I took another test but havenít received a callback about it. I know low platelet count can be a number of things but I also know one of those things is HIV.

However, I did feel slightly better when I received the news. Started feeling like myself again in a sense. I broke up with my gf in late January, out of pure anger & stupidity I had another one night stand(stupid I know) that week. Nearly the same story as the first time, unprotected, came multiple times, only vaginal sex. The only difference is the woman actually told me she had been diagnosed with bacterial vaginosis. I researched & found that this is usually harmless to men. However, I am uncircumcised so it may be worse for me.

Anyway, since then my symptoms have been far worse. First I noticed my fingernails on my middle fingers both have white horizontal lines right in the middle of my nailbeds. My tongue has a white coat thatís pretty bad even after brushing, also my taste is off. Like my tongue has been scorched or burnt but it hasnít, Iíve lost about 10lbs also. My pee/penis also smells really strong/bad since the second incident. When I pull my foreskin back it reeks of a yeast infection & head of penis is sometimes itchy/red. I can also see white/off white buildup on the bottom side of my penis head.. EVERYDAY!!

My appetite is pretty normal despite the taste in my mouth, Iím not fatigued like before but Iím still concerned. I want to see my Doctor & get tested again soon, itís been nearly 3 months since my last potential risk. I just feel like I canít tell anybody & thatís whatís eating me up the most...


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Re: Anxiety, stress, or infected? Scared out of my mind
« Reply #1 on: April 12, 2020, 10:41:36 am »
Hiya,

Sorry to hear that you have been feeling unwell and about the Herpes outbreaks. If you are not already taking herpes treatment to reduce the number and severity of outbreaks, you could consider talking to your healthcare provider about this.

It would also reduce the odds of you passing on the virus to partners even when you don't have a visible outbreak. Anyhow, nothing you posted is HIV specific, and a lot of it is simply not HIV related. Keep working with your doctor and, I hope you feel better soon.

Regarding HIV, if I understand correctly you had condomless intercourse in October 2019 & Jan 2020, you also had ongoing exposures from your then GF.  Considering more than 3 months has passed since your last sexual encounter I would suggest testing for peace of mind with an HIV antibodies test and for easier to acquire STI's whilst you are at it.

Here's what you need to know in order to avoid HIV infection:
Use condoms for anal or vaginal intercourse, correctly and consistently, every time, no exceptions.  Consider starting PrEP as an additional layer of HIV prevention going forward.

Keep in mind that some sexual practices which may be described as safe in terms of HIV might still pose a risk for transmission of other far easier to acquire STI's, so please do get fully tested regularly and at least yearly for all STI's including but not limited to HIV and test more frequently if unprotected intercourse occurs

Also, note that it is possible to have an STI and show no signs or symptoms and the only way of knowing is by testing.

More information on HIV Basics, PEP, TaSP and Transmission can be found through the links in my signature.

Kind regards

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Re: Anxiety, stress, or infected? Scared out of my mind
« Reply #2 on: June 14, 2020, 09:14:59 am »
Thanks Jim, I recently followed up with my GP for another full-panel test but for some reason hepatitis & herpes were not accounted for. Anyway, the doctor prescribed amoxicillin, my guess is I encountered gonorrhea right after my breakup. My GP is terrible about communicating results & doesnít ever tell me what was wrong, only what prescription to pickup(shopping for a new doctor). He has however referred me to an Oncologist again, for the same issue: low platelets & low vitamin D. Even last time, by the time the nurse opened her third vial my blood was barely coming out. She had to squeeze & rotate my hand to get the last one full enough. He also wants to do CT scans of my body to make sure there are no masses/tumors/growths. The amoxicillin seems to have worked for the foul odor on my penis but my tongue is still a little white some days. I do feel extreme fatigue still, bad headaches at night, & major decrease in appetite(1 regular meal a day).

I really want to get to the bottom of this & just figure out whatís wrong, it seems like the people that are supposed to be helping arenít. Last time when I received the exact same results from bloodwork & saw the oncologist, he said all STDs were negative & wanted to re-test. I waited months with no meds & received same results(low vitamin d & low platelets), possibly lower than before. Iím confused & running short on resources. scared out of my mind

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Re: Anxiety, stress, or infected? Scared out of my mind
« Reply #3 on: June 14, 2020, 09:24:35 am »
Hiya,

Regading HIV if you tested for HIV antibodies more than 3 months post your last exposure then HIV is not an issue.

Sorry to hear you feel unwell but it's nothing HIV specific and unless you have had ongoing exposures it's nothing to do with HIV. Keep working with your doctor and hope you feel better soon.

Best, Jim
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