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Offline em

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living with HIV
« on: February 11, 2020, 12:06:42 am »
I have lived .

everything else in my life has gotten old while I waited for some day that it may seem may never come. that someday is freedom from having the misfortune of being burdened with living with HIV ? 

getting old >> wow I recall living day by day thinking when will be the last .

but that was a lifetime ago at his point all the children I new are now with children of their own facing the same problems just in a different time . I remember a day many years ago when I would  daydream  about a life i could have had without HIV that probably would have had catarosphies  of its own ..

believe it or not way back when I wore a younger man's clothes . I used to write letters to people .  I would think of the things to spend some time communicating over vast distances about life and things to be seen where I was and what the things they were doing .    now you can write detailed thoughts and instantly have someone else read them at the speed of light through texts .   some things change while some things remain the same .   the lives we live still are lived . 

while in the military this guy i new . was no longer there one day . he went awol deserted just decided it was not fun anymore pack a bag hit the road .  he sent me a letter . it would have been a text now . it simply said do not do what I have done .

i can only guess what happened to him . there was no forwarding address or return address on the letter

just my information with the short message and a bunch of questions in my mind .

that was almost forty years ago .    where has all the time gone ?  anyone reading this that thinks what is that old fool writing about  . someday you will be where I am thinking the same thing I am thinking .   he more things change the more they stay the same .

again I have lived

thank you for letting my write this here

all the best to you .

problems with hiv things to complain about . i am sure there is not shortage of that in the world HIV or not . just a message in the old style written to let you know that time will pass and hardship will be there in every life . so will the everything else

sorry to go on with a late night thought that really doesn't have any substance . but that is all i have to offer .
 all the best to you

Offline em

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Re: living with HIV
« Reply #1 on: February 12, 2020, 07:39:37 am »
My HIV journey

For me I was living in a homeless shelter. Where the standard greeting of the people I met was. Got a dollar ?   One afternoon this guy i met asked if I had a dollar I said No. He then said do you have a dime ?   This was the state of my finances at that time. I had just found a dime on the street and it was my last and only dime . SO I gave it to him. 

Life is like a box of chocolates .   I apologize if this comes across as bragging but my point is life does not always go the way you think it might . This is the message I am trying to convey is of hope that things can turn out far better than expected  and this is an example . 

  when I was as near to death as you could get.  out of no where got a windfall  of money . Did I buy a high priced sports car and a long trip on a cruise ship .  that would have been nice . Instead I payed off some substantial old dept. then put the rest down on a modest home that to me looked like a nice place to die. that was the future I was planing for .

That house has since been full of life instead of the death I fully expected and accepted to be my fate .  .   twenty three years later . Death did not come  a wife and two children have since filled the house with life. HIV or not  life still has problems that goes without saying .  In this case an unexpected life was lived instead of the short existence that had been thought .

A life with HIV .   

I am not saying this will happen for everyone. this was for me completely  unexpected.   

It has been a long journey rather then a short trip to a long dirt nap . 

all the best to you


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Re: living with HIV
« Reply #2 on: February 12, 2020, 10:31:39 am »
It has been a long journey rather then a short trip to a long dirt nap . 
<3 <3
leatherman (aka mIkIE)


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