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Author Topic: What hell it is to be alive  (Read 3758 times)

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Offline lydgate

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What hell it is to be alive
« on: October 13, 2006, 02:20:24 AM »
I have a best friend. Her father -- one of my best friends -- just died. Of a heart attack, age 62. I'm flying from Iowa to Bombay, the fastest ticket I can get.

My computer is wet from tears. Oh but god, what hell it is to be alive.

Her finely-touched spirit had still its fine issues, though they were not widely visible. Her full nature, like that river of which Cyrus broke the strength, spent itself in channels which had no great name on the earth. But the effect of her being on those around her was incalculably diffusive: for the growing good of the world is partly dependent on unhistoric acts; and that things are not so ill with you and me as they might have been, is half owing to the number who lived faithfully a hidden life, and rest in unvisited tombs.

George Eliot, Middlemarch, final paragraph

Offline Eldon

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Re: What hell it is to be alive
« Reply #1 on: October 13, 2006, 02:31:42 AM »
Hello Jay,

I am sorry to hear of your loss of your best friend. Please, I DO send my condolances to you and the immediate family.

Make the BEST of each Day!

Offline Cherie

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Re: What hell it is to be alive
« Reply #2 on: October 13, 2006, 02:40:56 AM »
I am sorry for your loss.My thoughts,prayers and hugs to you all.

"An adventure may be worn as a muddy spot or it may be worn as a proud insignia.It is the woman wearing it who  makes it one thing or the other."

Offline Queen Tokelove

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Re: What hell it is to be alive
« Reply #3 on: October 13, 2006, 02:53:50 AM »
Indeed, I am sorry for your loss. I have never lost a close friend but has lost my parents, biological mother and adopted father. When my best friend lost her father, it really almost destroyed her, but since I was familiar with the experience I helped her through it. Grieve for your friend but also celebrate his life. I honestly believe that even though someone is not here on earth they are still with you. Some even become guardians, which I'm sure your friend prolly will be to you. Bright Blessings...

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Offline newt

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Re: What hell it is to be alive
« Reply #4 on: October 13, 2006, 03:16:35 AM »
Sorry, J, to hear this news.  Swift & safe flight eh? "Cut is the branch that might have grown full straight, / And burned is Apollo's laurel" - matt
"The object is to be a well patient, not a good patient"

Offline bobik

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Re: What hell it is to be alive
« Reply #5 on: October 13, 2006, 06:18:33 AM »
Jay, much strength in the next days.


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Offline angels4kelly

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Re: What hell it is to be alive
« Reply #6 on: October 13, 2006, 07:18:56 PM »
Hi Jay,
I'm so sorry for your loss and that you're feeling so sad right now.
I'm sending bright healing light to you and warm positive energy!

Take care of yourself, sweetie

Love ya'.




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knowing yourself is true wisdom.
Mastering others is strength;
mastering yourself is true power.
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but the staying down

Offline allopathicholistic

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Re: What hell it is to be alive
« Reply #7 on: October 13, 2006, 08:06:04 PM »
strength for your friend and you. safe flights too

Offline carousel

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Re: What hell it is to be alive
« Reply #8 on: October 14, 2006, 02:00:33 PM »
« Last Edit: February 15, 2007, 11:37:45 AM by carousel »

Offline Life

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Re: What hell it is to be alive
« Reply #9 on: October 14, 2006, 02:10:59 PM »
Jay..  My condolances and prayers....

Offline Alain

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Re: What hell it is to be alive
« Reply #10 on: October 14, 2006, 02:51:38 PM »
« Last Edit: November 03, 2006, 08:43:52 PM by cowandalehouse »

Offline Basquo

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Re: What hell it is to be alive
« Reply #11 on: October 15, 2006, 04:32:55 AM »
You're flying to Bombay?  as in INDIA???  It sounds like YOU'RE the best friend!!!  Have a safe journey.

Offline Jeffreyj

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Re: What hell it is to be alive
« Reply #12 on: October 15, 2006, 08:15:11 AM »
I am sorry for your loss. My Dad died suddenly from a heart attack last month.

We had the family together, and tons of pictures with him and the family all over the livingroom. Then we had a party, told fun stories, as many laughs and tears were shed. It was a celebration, just as he would have loved it.

I hope you can find the inner strength inside of you, to remember and love, and move on. I'm sure he would want you to get on with your life!

With much Love,
Positive since 1985


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