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Offline wolfter

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Another thanks
« on: January 15, 2012, 10:53:27 PM »
Sometimes I wonder what I'd do if I didn't have you all.  In "real" life, I'm surrounded by many wonderful and great people whom I truly cherish.  But I sometimes also feel so totally alone when surrounded by the masses. 

I'm usually not proned to depression and mostly have the upbeat life of the party personality.  I'm hyper emotional and try to avoid that place.  I do great most of the time without much effort.  I can usually derail it when it happens.  I'm not sure what happened yesterday but I went to that dark abyss yesterday and struggled to leave it.  I was surrounded by so many happy couples just laughing and loving. 

I grieved again like it was a recent occurence.  My brain and emotions were going a million miles a minute and I was suddenly at a loss how to control it.  Thankfully, I managed to excuse myself and be in private for my little breakdown.  Maybe I AM the girl  because I cried and couldn't make it stop. :o 

I did the 3 mile walk home in the single digit temperatures which helped a lot.  Even though I didn't log in, I trolled for a while last night for perspective.  A while ago, this might have been a crisis.  But thanks to you all, I was able to accept and deal with it.  So thanks to each and all.  I was definitely back in that good place by morning.  I had to be, I worked a double today. 

And NO, it wasn't a white zin induced moment.   :o  Seriously though, thanks all.  It's too bad we didn't have this support system decades ago, but am eternally grateful they exist now.

Greggie (who really likes remembering being called that)
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Offline OneTampa

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Re: Another thanks
« Reply #1 on: January 16, 2012, 12:05:23 AM »

I know what you mean. I have a similar personal profile of survival and upbeat tendencies.  But I also go into down periods at intervals as I mentioned in a previous post here.  Of course you know that it is natural to grieve and have such moments from time to time. 

I am reminded of lyrics from a Bill Withers song.  A few of the words I love but assign my own meaning. I use the following verse as a metaphor for crying and then feeling better afterwards:

...I see the crystal raindrops fall
And the beauty of it all
Is when the sun comes shining through
To make those rainbows in my mind...

Even though the following verse from the same song is also potent, I tend to focus on the one above:

...no time for tears
Wasted water's all that is
And it don't make no flowers grow...

I am so glad that you find comfort and support from these boards.  I do too.

Take care.
"He is my oldest child. The shy and retiring one over there with the Haitian headdress serving pescaíto frito."

Offline tednlou2

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Re: Another thanks
« Reply #2 on: January 16, 2012, 04:03:12 AM »

Crying doesn't make you "the girl."  The world would be a better place, if more men allowed themselves to not be afraid to show emotion. 

Glad to hear you allowed yourself to feel those emotions and didn't try to squash them. 


Offline denb45

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Re: Another thanks
« Reply #3 on: January 16, 2012, 11:48:22 AM »
Crying is good, even I do it sometimes, I used to hide it from others, but, I don't anymore, sometimes it just flows and flows, then it will stop on it's own, after I'm done crying it feels so much better  ;) it's hard to discus a lot a my feeling, they tend to be kinda out there, and others don't always understand them....
"it's so nice to be insane, cause no-one ask you to explain" Helen Reddy cc 1974


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