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Offline Mouse

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Did it!
« on: September 08, 2006, 12:13:23 AM »
Disclosed to everyone that was at the meeting Wednesday night, I mean.

For people that haven't been following me, I go to a youth group on Wednesday nights for gay/bi/trans kids. It's been like a month and 1/2 and I've gotten pretty close to a good handful of the people that regularly go. And I get along great with like 98 percent of the coordinators that have to attend the meetings. So, we're all pretty much cool!

Anyway, for a bit I was deciding whether or not to disclose to the group and I finally decided I'd like to. So I talked to a coordinator first and in turn she (with my permission) talked to some of the other regular coordinators and stuff. And last night (which was actually a larger group than normal, we've been having like six or seven kids and last night we had eleven) I brought it up - as casually as possible. We sort of go around the room first thing and say our name and how our week went, so I went last so I wouldn't like. Let the unavoidable shock shadow over someone else's chance to talk. Basically just said some stuff about my week and it was really an 'oh by the way' sort of thing, the way I said it, but I wasn't sure how else to do it. I didn't want it to be dramatic or all doomish. Like on TV when something happens and it's like DUN DUN DUNNNNN. Wanted to avoid that. Haha.

So since the two coordinators that were there already knew they sort of were able to direct the conversation into like a more like general topic about HIV instead of focusing all these personal questions on me. But they still did. I got a lot of bad questions: "HOW LONG DO YOU HAVE?" "How did you get it?" "Why didn't you just use protection?" To kind of cool questions like who important in my life knows, if I tell people I'm with, etc. Which were less rude and stuff. But anyway, they did go into a lot about how to prevent it and reminded everyone that I'm not going to plague everyone in the room or anything. It was VERY awkward, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be because people didn't have as much to say about it as I thought they would.

A couple people told me they thought I was mature and brave for being able to talk about it and that they appreciated me and are glad I'm in the group! And I felt definite unsure/awkward vibes from some people like they weren't sure what to say to me or how to act around me or whatever.

The thing is, I don't want people to have to feel bad about it. That's not why I said anything. I tried to explain that I was opening up about it so that they could understand me better and so that I felt more comfortable with them but I still got a bunch of "sorry"s and one really loud "that SUCKS!".

There is only one particular person currently that I'm worried about like losing as a friend or even an aquaintance but it's not really important right now. Haha. Maybe more on that some other time.

Generally, it could have maybe gone a bit better, but it DEFINITELY could have been worse. So that's a good thing!

Afterwards we went to the gym (yes, they have a gym in a church, wtf - you know, with basketball hoops and stuff) and attacked each other with Nerf balls and stuff. Fun! O.O;.

Offline emeraldize

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #1 on: September 08, 2006, 12:55:30 AM »

I hope you feel terrific. I read your previous post about wanting to share with this group. Excellent, excellent.

« Last Edit: October 31, 2006, 10:20:48 PM by emeraldize »

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #2 on: September 08, 2006, 01:19:18 AM »
Jaser, I really can't say this enough times: You are an amazing kid!

I've taken a quote from my own latest thread about my view towards disclosure nowadays; maybe it will help you with future disclosures (not that you need much help, to be honest, you're doing just fine!): 

"I’m really past caring what people think...it is no longer about who I can trust, but rather it is about separating the people I want in my life from those I don’t, based on their reactions. Simple as that really."

In the end how we cope with life issues comes down to our own personal perspective on everything.
It really is as simple as that.

I am at this moment cyber patting you on the back. So proud of you!


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Re: Did it!
« Reply #3 on: September 08, 2006, 02:17:31 AM »
You did it is right!  You set yourself to do something.  To open yourself up.  To take a chance and you climbed that mountain!


Sometimes it is so scary to disclose, and then one can wait in fear of rejection, that one forgets the real STRENGTH we all must have for this. 


We have to be patient and tolerant of the ignorance and even stupidity, but we can also believe in the good of others.


I gave my students this example of a premise- “Young” is a documentary exploring the stigma and challenges faced by different teenagers who happen to be HIV positive.  They are all Freshman and Sophomores.  I hope it makes them start to think...


Three cheers for the might of MOUSE!


Offline Matty the Damned

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #4 on: September 08, 2006, 02:36:39 AM »
Well done, Squeakie-boi. I'm very proud of you. :-*


Offline penguin

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #5 on: September 08, 2006, 04:16:51 AM »
well done jaser, that is indeed something to be proud of.


Offline Alain

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #6 on: September 08, 2006, 08:12:09 AM »
« Last Edit: November 03, 2006, 09:08:37 PM by cowandalehouse »

Offline joemutt

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #7 on: September 08, 2006, 08:52:37 AM »
Jaser, I think thats the coolest thing, in awe and admiration. :)

Offline Moffie65

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #8 on: September 08, 2006, 09:09:43 AM »

I got news for ya buddy, this event will be the first day of the rest of your life.  You may not understand today, what an important step this was for you to make, but I guarantee,..... no, promise, that way into your future life, you will look back on this step as one of the most important steps you have ever made.

Kudos for you bud, and please don't obsess about those who have problems with YOUR situation.  Accepting their bad energy into your life can gain you nothing but a big fat headache.  They have to deal with their own negative issues, and you don't even enter into that picture.

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Offline Christine

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #9 on: September 08, 2006, 10:26:44 AM »
I admire you! You are very brave, and courageous. Big hugs going out to you!
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Offline pozguy75

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #10 on: September 08, 2006, 12:29:25 PM »
Jaser!! I am so proud of you! It took a lot of courage to do what you did and it just goes to show you what kind of an adult you will be!! Kudos to you my boy...kudos to you!!

Big HUGS!!!

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Offline Tim

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #11 on: September 08, 2006, 05:46:45 PM »

I'm sorry that I'm a bit late to come to the table, but I too want to extend my congratulations to you on your undertaking, and succeeding, in this venture.  You've really got some cajones there, little man.  I'm so very proud of you.
Tim S., not to be confused with Tim Horn

Offline appleboy

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #12 on: September 08, 2006, 06:00:54 PM »
I am proud of you!  I know how you feel.  I did that infront of my church 2 weeks after I found out.  So I know the amount of inner strength it takes to pull that off.  Don't ever loose that inner strength and again I am super proud of you!
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Offline IzPoz

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #13 on: September 08, 2006, 08:20:30 PM »

I can't tell you how proud I am for you!!  You are an awesome person, and I hope you continue to be so.  I tell you one thing,  you are much braver than I am!!

Way to go!!
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Offline AlanBama

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #14 on: September 08, 2006, 09:51:44 PM »
Yay Jaser!  I am so proud of you honey!  You never know, the words you spoke may have made a profound difference in someone's life (a wake up call for them to be safe maybe?).

You are an amazing young man, wise beyond your years.

many hugs,

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Offline ACinKC

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #15 on: September 08, 2006, 10:26:29 PM »
Nice job Jaser... YOU got bigger balls than me my friend!  You are wise beyond your years and give hope to old farts!  Even tho im only 33!
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Offline aztecan

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #16 on: September 08, 2006, 10:45:00 PM »
Wow! I am so damn proud of you I could just burst!

Kudos to you, young man. This was an imporant moment in your life and you handled it like someone twice your age - or even as old as me!

Great going youngun. You Rock!!!  ;D


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Offline wellington

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Re: Did it!
« Reply #17 on: September 09, 2006, 01:15:00 AM »
Good on ya, Jaser. I can only imagine what things you might tackle in your future! maybe you should run for office ... kidding ;)


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