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Author Topic: doing okay.....actuallly doing bad..been a while  (Read 1974 times)

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Offline trai

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doing okay.....actuallly doing bad..been a while
« on: March 08, 2008, 02:25:05 AM »
Well I have not visited the forums in a while or even the website....my own issues.  Not wanting to deal with things.

Anyway here I am.....hey to everyone.

It is amazing the things life throws at you.  I have been trying to live my life with HIV...and the complications it has caused.  I was finally able to go back to work 2 years ago.  Only to develop the dreaded OI ( haha) KSMY doctor who did not seem concerned since I immediatlly started HAART.  THE HAART caused me little problems.  The normal .....nasua and and a few other things....but they passed.  Go forward 9 or 10 months since then...and I am still getting new lesions and the old ones are still growing.  So finally me and partner confronted my doc......who was not concerned.....I managed to get him to finally schedule a cat scan against his objections.   Well in the mean time since then I decided to see an cancer doctor...at Emory Univiristy Hospital.

As soon as the request for my medical records came in......my doc there told my nurse he was only treating and only had been treating me for HIV not the KS cancer. 

Well I reschecduled the cat scan with Emory.....and it mostly came back very good other then one area of abnormal tissue growth in my colon.  My cancer doc has now scheduled me for me upper and lower GI. 

I am pretty much nasueated every day with periods of heaving and retching that has my partner so concerned he cannot sleep.  He is neg by the way.  MY Mother no longer knows what to do either.  They support me no matter what.

Which brings me to my point....I can't go coffee, tea, or me and then suddenly gag and retch at work.  I am no longer sure if I should continue working,.....or seek Long term Disability or Social Seceruity.

I no longer feel that I should work with a cancer that cannot be cured and also exposed to the cosmic radiation that my job entails. 

I am a flight attendant for those that do not know.

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Offline Miss Philicia

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Re: doing okay.....actuallly doing bad..been a while
« Reply #1 on: March 08, 2008, 02:57:33 AM »
I'm so sorry to hear that you are not doing well.  That seems screwy what your HIV doctor did to you.  Going on disability is a deeply personal decision for sure, but I would think being a flight attendant might make it easier.  I have a friend who did that for a living and went off of it for a while to recoup, and is back now as head purser for SAS.  Is the doctor advising you to consider doing this?
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Offline BT65

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Re: doing okay.....actuallly doing bad..been a while
« Reply #2 on: March 08, 2008, 05:30:21 AM »
Trai, so sorry to hear about the time you're having.  Only you (and your doctor) could answer the disability question.  It's so personal. 

Just wanted you to know, I'm keeping you in my thoughts.
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Offline Andy Velez

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Re: doing okay.....actuallly doing bad..been a while
« Reply #3 on: March 08, 2008, 09:55:53 AM »
Welcome, Trai. I'm glad you found your way back here tÝ talk about what you've been dealing with.

The most important thing is for you to be taking good care of your health. So whatever decision you make should keep that in mind. IF you decide to go on disability, I can tell  you that I've known many, many situations in which people have been able to return to work after dealing with serious illnesses. It's great that you have a supportive partner and your mother to help you get through.

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Offline Assurbanipal

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Re: doing okay.....actuallly doing bad..been a while
« Reply #4 on: March 08, 2008, 12:45:36 PM »

I agree with Andy and Philly that you need not think of disability as a permanent choice.  Most large companies (and I assume that, as a airline employee, that would include your employer) have policies that allow people to go on disability for a period to deal with serious cancers and other illnesses and then to return.  Typically there will be a progression from full pay to partial pay depending on the length of disability period and how much time you have worked there.  I went out on disability for almost 3 months after the complications of initial AIDS diagnosis and then returned part time to full time. 

Your concerns about exposure to radiation might also be worked out with your current employer if you like them.  Sounds like you are US based?  If so, susceptibility to cancer would appear to be a medical condition and you could ask whether they will make a reasonable accommodation to find you a different job that doesn't entail flying so much.

The first stop for info mation on your options under the company disability plans and whether reasonable accommodation is an option would be a company HR rep.  If you approach the topic in terms of cancer treatment you will likely get their immediate attention.

Good luck

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