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Author Topic: Welcome back, Ann!  (Read 6778 times)

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Offline Peter Staley

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Welcome back, Ann!
« on: November 17, 2007, 12:11:33 PM »
As some of you may have noticed, Ann wasn't around much in the forums since her recent birthday.  Please read her new blog posting for the reasons why.

We barely kept this place running with out her, and I'm really glad she's back.  I hate the fact that she's been hurt like this, but I also know her strength.  From one sailor to another, I know she'll weather this storm.

Glad you're back, Ann!



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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #1 on: November 17, 2007, 12:25:37 PM »
Hi Ann,

So sorry to learn about what you're going through, but I'm glad you were able to write about it.  You said "I’ve not been active in the Forums because I felt so totally empty and had nothing at all to give." Perfectly understandable.  I also think with all that you've given to these forums, it would be more than appropriate to get some of that support back.  Especially in times like this when we feel vulnerable.  Thanks for sharing.  Glad to see you back.


Offline DanielMark

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #2 on: November 17, 2007, 12:31:50 PM »
I’m sorry this happened, Ann.

I wish I could give you a big ole (((hug))) this very minute!



Offline Cliff

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #3 on: November 17, 2007, 12:32:27 PM »
Hi Ann,

I'm sorry to hear about all you've been going through.  I hope you find plenty of support and comfort here.  You deserve it.  

Welcome back.


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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #4 on: November 17, 2007, 02:17:48 PM »
Welcome Back, Ann. Sorry to hear about what happened. You have been missed. :-*
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Offline bear60

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #5 on: November 17, 2007, 02:34:46 PM »
I know you are a survivor Ann.  It's all in the stars.
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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #6 on: November 17, 2007, 04:27:51 PM »
Dear Ann

I am glad to see you back here. So sorry for what happened.

Left you a message on your blog ((((Ann))))

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Offline OzPaul

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #7 on: November 17, 2007, 04:29:52 PM »
Dear Ann

Welcome back  ;D

I am sorry to read about your personal struggles of late. As you say in your blog, like a Phoenix you too shall rise again.

Sending you good vibes from OZ.


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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #8 on: November 17, 2007, 06:22:59 PM »
Dear Ann,

It's good to have you back. Your latest blog is eloquent and generous, qualities which will hardly surprise those of us who have the pleasure of your company.

Andy Velez

Offline BirdBear718

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #9 on: November 17, 2007, 07:26:56 PM »
Sorry to hear of your pain.  My heart dropped for you when I read your blog.
You WILL rise! 

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #10 on: November 17, 2007, 08:06:19 PM »

Welcome back. & I am so sorry for what you have been  going through.




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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #11 on: November 17, 2007, 09:28:14 PM »
Welcome back!!! So glad to hear you are again with us :)

Juan Carlos
13/03/07 1er diagnóstico /Peso: 79kg
19/04/07 CD4: 494 /CViral: ?? /Peso: 80kg
19/07/07 CD4: 659 /CViral: ?? /Peso: 79.5kg
06/03/08 CD4: 573 (después de meses muy deprimido) /CViral: ?? /Peso: 79kg
17/09/08 CD4: ?? /CViral: ?? /Peso: 84Kg
06/02/09 CD4: ?? /CViral: ?? /Peso: 85Kg /HCV: Neg /HBV: Neg.
07/03/09 CD4: ?? /CViral: ?? /Peso: 87Kg / Gym 3días/semana y Natación 2días/semana.
12/05/09 CD4: 470 /Cviral: ?? /Peso: 87Kg.
08/07/09 CD4: ? /CViral: ? /Peso: 77Kg.
09/12/09 CD4: 510 /CViral: ? /Peso: 78kg. No medicinas aún
10/01/10 CD4: ? /CViral: ? /Peso: 76Kg.
15/05/10 CD4: 320 /CViral: ? /Peso: 76Kg.
01/02/11 CD4: 291 /CViral: ? /Peso: 78kg.
05/05/11 CD4: 366 /CViral: ? /Peso: 78kg.
27/07/11 CD4: 255 /CViral: 138000 /Peso: 78kg.

Disfrutando y aceptando una nueva vida...

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #12 on: November 17, 2007, 10:50:27 PM »
Dearest Ann,
So good to have you back.  I know the other goderators missed you!  I was really saddened when I read your blog, but you write with such honesty and passion, I know you will get through this.  I posted a comment on the blog site.  Missed you-
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Offline lucas clay

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #13 on: November 18, 2007, 06:02:24 AM »
im so sorry to hear about this.
These things hurt far worse than any Physical pain.
The deception hurts wose than the deed it self.
Hang in there lady.


Offline lucas clay

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #14 on: November 18, 2007, 07:24:31 AM »

went to hit spell check, and hit post. something in my eye i guess.
The deception hurts worse than the deed itself.

Offline ademas

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #15 on: November 18, 2007, 09:41:05 AM »
Welcome back Ann!
I'm so sorry to hear about your troubles...been there, done that, and it hurts.
You have good friends here.  Don't hesitate to borrow an ear or a shoulder.
You've been here for many of us, and we--in turn--are here for you.
My best wishes.

Offline Alain

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #16 on: November 18, 2007, 10:08:22 AM »
{{{{{Ann}}}}}, you are in my thoughts. I am so sorry about all of this.

Offline komnaes

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #17 on: November 18, 2007, 10:19:44 AM »
Ann, just want to let you know that half the world, at this moment, someone is making a wish for you.. ;D

Aug 07 Diagnosed
Oct 07 CD4=446(19%) Feb 08 CD4=421(19%)
Jun 08 CD4=325(22%) Jul 08 CD4=301(18%)
Sep 08 CD4=257/VL=75,000 Oct 08 CD4=347(16%)
Dec 08 CD4=270(16%)
Jan 09 CD4=246(13%)/VL=10,000
Feb 09 CD4=233(15%)/VL=13,000
Started meds Sustiva/Epzicom
May 09 CD4=333(24%)/VL=650
Aug 09 CD4=346(24%)/VL=UD
Nov 09 CD4=437(26%)/VL=UD
Feb 10 CD4=471(31%)/VL=UD
June 10 CD4=517 (28%)/VL=UD
Sept 10 CD4=687 (31%)/VL=UD
Jan 11 CD4=557 (30%)/VL=UD
April 11 CD4=569 (32%)/VL=UD
Switched to Epizcom, Reyataz and Norvir
(Interrupted for 2 months with only Epizcom & Reyataz)
July 11 CD=520 (28%)/VL=UD
Oct 11 CD=771 (31%)/VL=UD(<30)
April 12 CD=609 (28%)/VL=UD(<20)
Aug 12 CD=657 (29%)/VL=UD(<20)
Dec 12 CD=532 (31%)/VL=UD(<20)
May 13 CD=567 (31%)/VL=UD(<20)
Jan 14 CD=521 (21%)/VL=UD(<50)

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #18 on: November 18, 2007, 10:49:57 AM »
Dear Ann,

Welcome back honey, and I am so sorry to hear about what has happened.
When your heart is hurt, it is sometimes harder to recover than from any "physical" ailments.    Please know that you are loved by so many people, around the globe.   I hope that gives you some comfort.

Much love to you,

"Remember my sentimental friend that a heart is not judged by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others." - The Wizard of Oz

Offline allanq

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #19 on: November 18, 2007, 11:39:21 AM »
Dear Ann,

You do so much to ease the hurt and suffering of others, it is especially sad to see you get so terribly hurt yourself.

I hope this pain will ease and that you can take some comfort in knowing how much you are loved here on the forums.


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Bottom right (Dinner): Prezista, Norvir, Isentress
Bottom left (Bedtime): Sustiva, Trazodone (2), Lipitor, Septra (no longer taking this)
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Offline Ann

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #20 on: November 18, 2007, 01:22:45 PM »
Thank you everyone, not only those of you who responded in this thread (and one or two others posted on my behalf recently) but also those of you who sent PMs. I really appreciate your words of love and support and I thank you all from the bottom of my (somewhat tattered) heart. Thank you too, those of you who offered support and sympathetic ears through programs outside the forum. I probably would have been a basket case without you all.

I haven't even begun to reply to the PMs - hopefully tomorrow. It's taken me ages to catch up after my absence and quite frankly, my head has been spinning with it all. I think I'm pretty much caught up now, except for PMs.

As for the other stuff going on in my life, I'm pretty much over the shock now and back on an even keel. I've ventured out a few times in the past few days to get reacquainted with old friends (and a very dear one in particular) and that's helped a lot. I don't think I realised how many friends I'd let go by the wayside these past eight years and it did my heart good to see how happy they were to see me. It's been a tonic getting back in touch.

As a very dear friend likes to say;

"C'est la vie,
C'est la guerre,
C'est l'amour."

(I used to throw it back to him, changing the last line to "say no more", said with a ::) )

I'd like to leave you all with another thing this dear friend of mine likes to randomly drop (sing) into a conversation;

"And I think to myself, what a wonderful world."

Oh yeah!

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Offline Teresa

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #21 on: November 18, 2007, 07:52:39 PM »

Im sorry that you had to go through all that.  Sending you lots of hugs and positive energy. You are in my thoughts and prayers!

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Offline david25luvit

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #22 on: November 19, 2007, 10:36:24 AM »
We may not always see eye to eye Ann but I think the world of you........
(if you recall I onced mentioned loving you more than my luggage)
Glad your back sweetie........
Hang in there..... :-*
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Offline Miss Philicia

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #23 on: November 19, 2007, 10:52:55 AM »
Dear Ann, thinking of you in the best of ways

All my best,

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Offline Robert

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #24 on: November 19, 2007, 11:05:31 AM »
well don't stop there.

You know what he also says?

"...I see friends shakin' hands, sayin' "How do you do?"
 They're really saying "I love you"

You know I do Ann.



Offline StrongGuy

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #25 on: November 19, 2007, 02:04:42 PM »
Ann just read your blog and sorry to hear about the shit you've had to go through. You're a tough smart lady and I have no doubt with time you'll rise out of this stronger than before.

Best wishes and glad you're back posting in the forums too!


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Offline heartforyou

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #26 on: November 19, 2007, 07:34:21 PM »
God, I hate to see you getting hurt like that. No one deserves that.
Regardless if that makes your partner look like shit, it goddamn hurts...

I hope you are not feeling too bad after this ordeal

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #27 on: November 19, 2007, 11:55:20 PM »

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #28 on: November 20, 2007, 12:45:15 AM »
It's a great life if you don't weaken.

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #29 on: November 20, 2007, 02:02:47 AM »
Hi Ann,

You probably won't remember me, and I haven't been on here in months.....

But I am Steve, also known as Fritzie.  I have the partner who had a few strokes starting in 2004, and I remember you responding to me during an awful time in my life.  After Sam had his initial stroke, and then my learning that he was HIV/HEPC positive, I didn't think that my life would ever stop twirling. 

It has, and both Sam and I are doing well.  He is still my "rock" in this world, and although life puts us through many challenges, we find strength to get us through them.

I found mine through AIDSmeds with a great group of people that cared enough to help a naive 40 something year old guy, get through some of the toughest times in his life. 

You have made such an impact here......

When I logged on tonight, the first place I went was your blog. 

I hope that says something....

I am sorry that your heart is hurting now.

Steve aka Fritzie

Offline Longislander

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Re: Welcome back, Ann!
« Reply #30 on: November 23, 2007, 01:09:47 AM »

I'm really sorry to have had to read that blog. You're a good, strong woman, and you're already coming back up.  When the time is right, there'll be someone even better for you.

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2/06   379/57000                    6/07 372/30500 25%   4/09 640/U/32% 
5/06   ?? /37000                     8/07 491/55000/24%    9/09 913/U/39%
8/06   349/9500 25%              11/07 515/68000/24     2/10 845/U/38%
9/06   507/16,000 30% !          2/08  516/116k/22%    7/10 906/80/39%
12/06 398/29000 26%             Start Atripla 3/08
3/07   402/80,000 29%            4/08  485/undet!/27
4/07   507/35,000 25%            7/08 625/UD/34%
                                                 11/08 684/U/36%


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