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Offline bear60

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Just When I Thought
« on: October 20, 2007, 11:42:32 PM »
Just when I thought the week was over, that all of us here at AIDSmeds had  started to come to terms with Christines passing, I had a call tonight that a very close, dear, friend passed away today.  I have no words and nothing will suffice in trying to mourn this light in my life that has been extinguished. 
I am devastated.
Please include Ron in your thoughts and prayers.
Poz Bear Type in Philadelphia

Offline Oceanbeach

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #1 on: October 20, 2007, 11:46:43 PM »
Hey Joel,

I will light a candle for Ron on Mondat with Christines.

Offline MOONLIGHT1114

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #2 on: October 20, 2007, 11:56:35 PM »
Hi Bear~

You must be so overwhelmed, I'm so sorry about Ron.  I hope you continue to post your thoughts here as you get through this.

Much Love~

HIV+ since '93, 1/12 - CD4 785 and undet.   WOO-HOO!!

Offline Miss Philicia

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #3 on: October 20, 2007, 11:57:07 PM »
Joel, my heart goes out to you my dearest.  I know that this is two people very close to you to have departed in 1 year's time.  I wish I was there with you to give you a good hug, my friend.

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #4 on: October 20, 2007, 11:58:51 PM »
Hi, sorry for the news.... my condolences. I will keep Ron in my prayers.

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13/03/07 1er diagnóstico /Peso: 79kg
19/04/07 CD4: 494 /CViral: ?? /Peso: 80kg
19/07/07 CD4: 659 /CViral: ?? /Peso: 79.5kg
06/03/08 CD4: 573 (después de meses muy deprimido) /CViral: ?? /Peso: 79kg
17/09/08 CD4: ?? /CViral: ?? /Peso: 84Kg
06/02/09 CD4: ?? /CViral: ?? /Peso: 85Kg /HCV: Neg /HBV: Neg.
07/03/09 CD4: ?? /CViral: ?? /Peso: 87Kg / Gym 3días/semana y Natación 2días/semana.
12/05/09 CD4: 470 /Cviral: ?? /Peso: 87Kg.
08/07/09 CD4: ? /CViral: ? /Peso: 77Kg.
09/12/09 CD4: 510 /CViral: ? /Peso: 78kg. No medicinas aún
10/01/10 CD4: ? /CViral: ? /Peso: 76Kg.
15/05/10 CD4: 320 /CViral: ? /Peso: 76Kg.
01/02/11 CD4: 291 /CViral: ? /Peso: 78kg.
05/05/11 CD4: 366 /CViral: ? /Peso: 78kg.
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Offline Queen Tokelove

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #5 on: October 21, 2007, 12:34:37 AM »
You have my condolences, Bear.
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
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2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
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6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Offline Jeffreyj

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #6 on: October 21, 2007, 12:55:28 AM »
Sorry for your loss Bear. Some days are just a bitch, no getting around it.

Hang in there bud.
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Offline Dragonette

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #7 on: October 21, 2007, 05:56:20 AM »
Dear Bear,

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My deepest condolences.

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Offline J.R.E.

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #8 on: October 21, 2007, 06:11:59 AM »

My deepest sympathies go out to you on the loss of your friend...

Current Meds ; Viramune, Epzicom, 20mg of Atorvastatin, 25 mg of Hydrochlorothiazide.
Amlodipine Besolate 5mg-- Updated 9/24/2017

Diagnosed positive in 1985,.. In October of 2003, My t-cell count was 16, Viral load was over 500,000, Percentage at that time was 5%. I started on  HAART on October 24th, 2003.

 As of 9/18/2017,  Viral load remains <40
CD 4 @358 /  CD4 % @ 13

 65 years young.

Offline anniebc

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #9 on: October 21, 2007, 06:34:56 AM »
Dearest Joel

Love and thoughts are with you tonight as you grieve the loss of your friend.

Love and hugs
Jan :-*
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Offline Ann

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #10 on: October 21, 2007, 09:28:06 AM »

Please accept my condolences.

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Offline bear60

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #11 on: October 21, 2007, 12:24:48 PM »
Thanks to you all for your thoughts.
Just to make Ron a bit more real :
Ron and his partner George have been friends for almost 30 years.  In 1979 I bought my house in one of those developing neighborhoods and set to renovating it.  Another gay couple bought the house across from me and then Ron and George bought the house next to them. For 20 some years Ron and George were a part of my life here on our little street. They saw me through the passing of my partner Paul in 1995, they entertained me and Kurt at their home in Rehoboth.  This past year they both retired from their teaching jobs. George because he was forced out of his job after 20 some years due to his HIV status. Ron because he was getting more and more physicaly disabled from various injuries ( his back, mostly) and had decided that he had the time put in to retire with a pension.
They had big plans.  They had purchased a building lot on which they intended to build their retirement dream home. They would sell the little brick rancher they had turned into a little island paradise (with swimming pool).  Then this year Rons Mom died, and a week later his sister.  Ron was so distraught that he did not take care of himself and became ill with pneumonia and was hospitalized. Then 2 weeks ago apparently he went back in the hospital and died yesterday.
He was a drinker. He took pain killers for his back.  I didnt know how bad it was.
« Last Edit: October 21, 2007, 12:32:29 PM by bear60 »
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Offline Alain

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #12 on: October 21, 2007, 12:29:42 PM »
{{{{Bear}}}} sorry for your loss of your friend Ron.

With fondest thoughts.

Offline Iggy

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #13 on: October 23, 2007, 09:14:20 AM »

I don't know how I missed this.  I'm so sorry for responding so late.

Please accept my condolences on your friend and hopes that you are doing as best as you can right now.


Offline aztecan

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #14 on: October 23, 2007, 10:17:01 AM »

I am sorry for the loss you have suffered. I will keep Ron in my thoughts and light a candle for him.


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Offline Teresa

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #15 on: October 23, 2007, 02:44:07 PM »

So sorry for the loss of your dear friend. You and his partner are in my thoughts and prayers.

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Offline egello

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #16 on: October 23, 2007, 02:48:42 PM »
sorry about your loss.....
1/29/07 14 T, 300 k V, 1.8 %
2/22/07 197 T, 247 V, 6.8 %
3/27/07 164 T, <50 V, 5.4 %
5/28/07 177 T, <50 V, 8.2 %
7/28/07 214 T, <50 V, 9.6 %
10/3/07 380 T, <50 V, 10 %

Offline Matty the Damned

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #17 on: October 23, 2007, 05:41:14 PM »

Matty the Damned offers his condolences to you at this time of loss.

Vale Ron.


Offline Falkore

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #18 on: October 24, 2007, 03:59:03 AM »

Thank you for sharing with us.  We are honored to be included in this difficult time in your life.  I send you my heart felt condolences.

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Offline GSOgymrat

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #19 on: October 24, 2007, 06:46:11 AM »
How sad. I'm very sorry for your loss.


Offline BirdBear718

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #20 on: October 28, 2007, 03:38:17 PM »
I am sorry for the loss of your friend.   

Offline DAF

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Re: Just When I Thought
« Reply #21 on: October 30, 2007, 11:50:47 AM »
Hi Bear,

well That is why I had to leave the AIDS seen, for a while. But now I have come to the onclusion that the pain of the death of another is part and parcel of living wiht AIDS. I for one don't know how one lives without the understanding that comes from someone that's been there. I did it for several years. I have my seronegative partner and I just hid I went back into the closet. He was supportive of me and still is after 12 years together. But the fact remains that no matter how much he tries he will never be able to understand the crazey behavior that comes with being positive. Someone looses weight around me and I get worried. If someone is hacking and coughing alot I have to get away from there.  I have loost to death a lot of friends and over the time frame from 1982 to now I have seen over 1300 friends, and aquaintences die. It just never gets easy and the numb feeling that you talk of makes me feel like I have had my humanity altered by this disease.

So Please let me say even late as it is I wish you the the ability to mourn and take care of yourself.

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