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Author Topic: Checking In Also  (Read 986 times)

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Offline TexasDragon

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Checking In Also
« on: January 27, 2021, 09:57:39 pm »
It has been a while since I posted, but I do check in from time to time.

It has been just over two years now - October 2018 - when I was diagnosed. First appointment with my ID doctor at the end of November 2018. Started Biktarvy in December 2018.

I remember taking that first pill thinking there is no turning back now. That is when it all became so real.

2021. I’m good - not all that much has changed - nothing really. Pill every morning. I am truly grateful for that.

I still get down on myself -“How could you be so stupid! You knew it was a possibility.” Learning to live with that - alone with that - has been the toughest part.

Know I care my friends!
Exposure 10-04-2018
Dx 11-08-2018
1st Appt 11-15-2018
11-15-2018 Blood Draw - CD4 468 11% VL 316,000
2nd Appt 12-04-2018 - Hep A and B Vaccines
Start of Biktarvy 12-14-2018
3rd Appt 01-15-2019 - All Good - 2nd Hep B Vaccine
01-16-2019 Blood Draw - CD4 934 28% VL 98
4th Appt 04-16-2019 - All Good - Final Hep B Vaccine
04-16-2019 Blood Draw - CD4 873 30% VL <20
01-13-2020 Blood Draw - CD4 1064 34% VL <20
09-29-2020 Blood Draw - CD4 972 32% VL <20
03-25-2021 Blood Draw - CD4 1168 38% VL = 26

Offline Mindless

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Re: Checking In Also
« Reply #1 on: January 30, 2021, 11:02:00 am »
I still get down on myself -“How could you be so stupid! You knew it was a possibility.” Learning to live with that - alone with that - has been the toughest part.

I feel you, I was diagnosed in early 2017 and I’m still blaming myself in exactly the same way.

Something I read comes to mind: “ignorant” people blame others for their misfortunes, people who are progressing blame themselves but the wise men blame neither others nor themselves.

I consider myself still in the learning phase, I hope that one day I’ll become “wise” and let go all the blaming forever.

Tha asidet, it’s good to know you’re ok! 🙏🏻

Hugs

Offline TexasDragon

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Re: Checking In Also
« Reply #2 on: February 04, 2021, 04:07:40 pm »
Thank you, Mindless.

I just had my meds re-approved. Every year I have to get a ‘medical necessity’ for Biktarvy between my online pharmacy (that my insurance requires I use) and my doctors office. Like anyone takes Biktarvy as some sort of supplement. Crazy.

I get anxious each time I have to renew - but it’s just part of the process.

Got my annual STI screening. I’m not as careful as I should be. Hopefully all is well.
Exposure 10-04-2018
Dx 11-08-2018
1st Appt 11-15-2018
11-15-2018 Blood Draw - CD4 468 11% VL 316,000
2nd Appt 12-04-2018 - Hep A and B Vaccines
Start of Biktarvy 12-14-2018
3rd Appt 01-15-2019 - All Good - 2nd Hep B Vaccine
01-16-2019 Blood Draw - CD4 934 28% VL 98
4th Appt 04-16-2019 - All Good - Final Hep B Vaccine
04-16-2019 Blood Draw - CD4 873 30% VL <20
01-13-2020 Blood Draw - CD4 1064 34% VL <20
09-29-2020 Blood Draw - CD4 972 32% VL <20
03-25-2021 Blood Draw - CD4 1168 38% VL = 26

 


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