For some reason my older post got wiped out I’m not so sure why as I was looking to add this reply on it.
I write here because I have not told anyone about my diagnosis which I got results today by the way, my CD4 is at 752, I missed my VL cause i didn’t take the results with me. I don’t want any traces of all this outside the hospital except for the pills ofcourse. I’m on one pill but they mentioned it is a combination of 3. They counseled me for a while as I was in really bad shape mentally.
I still have anxiety when I think about it but I’m kinda developing this new sense of bravery on my perspective about life. I’m coming to realization that very few things are meaningful in this life and we already have them. But we keep chasing a lot of unnecessary things.
I’m 30. I hope I’ll live a long life. Healthy life. I want to marry still and have a family. I don’t want anyone to know about this including my future wife. I don’t know how I’ll manage that. I’d love to hear about people who’ve lived with HIV the longest. It’ll help wrap my head around this is not a death sentence.
Love.
Jim Allen:
Hiya
I sent you an email, if you could reply to that it would be appreciated. Thank you.
Jim Allen:
Hiya,
Thanks for getting back to us. It was good to clarify and resolve some misunderstandings, and I am glad we straightened out some stuff like transmission. So we will leave it at that.
--- Quote from: sofeternal on August 27, 2024, 08:07:45 am ---Hi.
For some reason my older post got wiped out I’m not so sure why as I was looking to add this reply on it.
I write here because I have not told anyone about my diagnosis which I got results today by the way, my CD4 is at 752, I missed my VL cause i didn’t take the results with me. I don’t want any traces of all this outside the hospital except for the pills ofcourse. I’m on one pill but they mentioned it is a combination of 3. They counseled me for a while as I was in really bad shape mentally.
I still have anxiety when I think about it but I’m kinda developing this new sense of bravery on my perspective about life. I’m coming to realization that very few things are meaningful in this life and we already have them. But we keep chasing a lot of unnecessary things.
I’m 30. I hope I’ll live a long life. Healthy life. I want to marry still and have a family. I don’t want anyone to know about this including my future wife. I don’t know how I’ll manage that. I’d love to hear about people who’ve lived with HIV the longest. It’ll help wrap my head around this is not a death sentence.
Love.
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I'm glad to hear you have access to treatment. What treatment are you on? Is it TLD tenofovir disoproxil, lamivudine and dolutegravir?
You are young and have started treatment before HIV could cause any serious issues or damage. HIV with treatment isn't a barrier to a long and healthy life or marriage and starting a family.
As for not telling a future wife, I'm not sure about the legal situation in your nation, but I feel starting a relationship without sharing your HIV status is a mistake and getting married without telling is just drama waiting to happen.
Regarding the viral load, as you have started treatment and your initial CD4 count was perfectly fine the CD4 counts going forward aren't that important anymore, however, the viral load is what really matters as that is how you know from now on if the medication is working to suppress the virus and stop it from causing harm.
I know you have an appointment within a few weeks, so keep us posted on the viral load counts, until you have the viral load we'll ask you to only post in this thread, however, the other forum members can reply here and offer you support and their insights so feel free to ask questions, vent or raise any concerns you might have here.
Best, Jim.
sofeternal:
Yes I’m on TLD. Thanks for your input Jim. I feel like I have been having more gas than usual is it normal? I start the pill tomorrow as I wanted to start taking it in the morning
Jim Allen:
So some gas and bloating can happen for several reasons in people with HIV, however, this doesn't really apply to you.
Not everything that will happen is related to your HIV status, although, the stress, not sleeping or eating from the past few days certainly could cause some gastrointestinal distress. I hope it settles soon but if the issue persists talk to your doctor.