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Main Forums => Positive Women => Topic started by: seekay70 on February 03, 2008, 07:08:41 pm
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Ok so I have been off of here for quite a while, but I have been pretty busy, but things are so cool right now. Let me see, I am going to school....did awesome on my first class so that made me feel good, now on to the good part. About 4 weeks ago I went out with my sister and we ended up at the bar, ran into an old friend of mine that I knew when I was married to my first husband, 20 years ago. Well he proceeded to tell me that he had a crush on me all of those years ago and if I neeed a man to let him know. Well of course I looked at him like yeah rightttttttttttt. another line of shit, and he read that in me and said that is what I was thinking. Well we spoke a few times and I ran into him again on Friday night. Well of course, it has to be that time of the month for me so I shouldnt even think of these things. Well I got my sister drunk and as I was fixing to go I told Paul that we had to get home cause the sitter thought we were gonna be home around 10 and here it is 11:45. As we were leaving he asked me to give him a kiss......so I did, well throughout the night we had talked a good bt and I told him that there was a lot of baggage that I carried around with me and if he knew some of it, it might take he perception of me from way up here to way down here. Well I gethime and called him to let him know that I was home safely. He proceeded to ask me about my baggage and said "there is nothing like truth serum to get all the dirty laundry out" So I proceed to tell him about my husband infecting me....I was HIV pos and that few people in Br. County know this and it is not something I want made public knowledge, but if he wanted to carry on any kind of relationship wth me, he needed to know the truth and if he still wanted to proceed then that was his decision, but he needed to know the risks, and that as long as there was protection then kool, but the ball was in his court. If he wanted to go foreward kool if not then I would think no less of him, cause I do not expect any kind of relationship for me to be an easy one from this point foreward. He said he understood and would call me on Saturday, well he called me again at 2:17 am that same morning, when he got home he asked me if that had not been an issue would anything have happened between the two of us before now, to which I sated it would have happened a few weeks ago. Well I asked him on a date and he accepted....Saturday I wrote him a letter and again explained my situation to him and that any kind of relationship with me was a complicated one and if he wanted to back out theni was ok wth that but I wanted him to hear all of this again while he was sober. He called me again and asked me if we were still on for dinner, to which I said if that was what he wanted. Well I picked him up cause he cant drive due to possible seziures. We went to my sisters house for dinner....my neice who does not talk to strangers, let alone go near them was right there with him, talking and drawing and sitting on his lap. After we had supper we went to listen to a band play and talked about some past relationships.....went back to my other sisters where there were no kids, and went to bed....there was a lot of making out and promises that it would go foreward from there. He called me a while ago before the superbowl and said he would be up by my job to see me tommorow. But I was proud of myself because I laid it all out on the line with him as far as my status, and then got mostly nakkd with him in my bed and was able to restrain myself at least for a few more days. So now when I thnk about what happened and him I get that butterfly feeling in my stomach, and have a feeling that it is all going to be ok
Hope everyone is doing good!
Sherry
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Good to hear from ya, Sherry. I'm going to school also, about a year away from my degree.
I don't know what to tell you about the guy, except go for it if that's what you want. It's really too new and all to make any comments about it. Take care-
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Hie Sherry
Sounds good to me! i hope it works out with this guy. Keep us posted ;)