Hollywood Forever

[ndrew]

HIV

I found you in a black trance
Waiting there like a limp flower
So you came and bought me a drink
And hot blood drained all my power

You found me behind the door
Pretending I was just a cold gun
I looked into you smoking eyes
And our skin touched the sun

Babble on like a pumping mouth
You do not easily let go of your prey
As you assemble all the people
And push them about in your play

And so I left you there in the cold
The rain shining all over the street
The drops little icicles piercing again
You only walk with backward feet

Is the rain so free and the cold
And will I every really know?
To see the storm clouds as they grow
But push the door and let it go…
Push the door and let it go…
______

Hollywood Forever

This is the last song a will sing about you
I have packed the final box in the living room
The utilities will all soon be turned off
And you will never know where I have moved

No microwave or TV
No computer screen
No pillows or couch
No loving touch

The memory is gone
Hollywood forever
Hollywood forever

This is the final hour of all these hopes
They have been swept up and into the trash
The windows are so clean I can finally see
The shadows and the light the sun has cast

No coffee table or rug
No hot chocolate mug
No ringing telephone
No “Welcome Home”

The memory erased
Hollywood forever
Hollywood forever

Here is the empty closet, the bed on its’ side
Here in the kitchen, the cupboard is bare
The silence smiles through this vacant space
Because now at last there is nobody here

No potted plants
No juice in a glass
No table or chairs
And no one to care

The future is now
Hollywood forever
Hollywood forever
______

Hollywoodized

Oh what luck
A buck and a buck
A team in a field
Surrounded by trees

Two wonderful friends
As the party ends
Share the Limo home
And everyone knows…

Oh what luck
Two new products
Sit bright in the store
And keep selling more…

A civilized union
A great reunion
A marriage of sorts
A best of friend sport

Two peas together
Two peas in a pod
Break out the band
There is money at hand
Gather your friends
The circuit party is on again
______

Soy milk in the glass on the table before me
Thinking I might have felt my cell phone vibrate
My hand moves to my pocket touching my leg
Thinking about standing up or eating but it’s too late

And it’s too late for you to call me now
The time difference is an snarling reminder
Of all the things that have pushed us so far apart
I try to picture you peacefully sleeping wherever there

I know that all of this will eventually pass
Like the moody waning sky out the window
Moving slowly through all of my life
Just another layer painted as the time just goes…
______

In here, I don’t know what to feel
I don’t know what to think
At all these rubber flapping feet
And you stand there like a bone
Distant and away from all the things
I would call home

How do we
Pick up these broken hands
As we fumble muted
And dumb
If you came to my door
And gently knocked
How would I even know?
Let the words be written
On the face of honesty
And then turn from me

Out there, the winds are hungry friends
They take my countenance and leave it
Dying in the street
Drawn down like the solar flare
Shining in our eyes as we
Wander everywhere

Where can we
Find a path togetherness
When they always end up
Spiraled down
Searching in the endless
Crowded room
For some special wound
If I have to let you walk
Turn around and turn to salt
Then I let you walk
______

Badboy

Bleeding through the words
I come to realize
You are not the one
You are not the prize

Slowly angel falters
On the precipice
Off the pedestal
Stolen was the kiss

Wrap me deep in shadow
Light beaming down
I was dressed in color
I was dressed the clown

And the angry man comes
With his smashing hand
Fisting me into night
Now I understand

Take care my dear and be well
Get the mail everyday
Water all the plants
I promise to obey

I will be very, very good
I will be a good boy
I promise never again
I will be a good boy
Never again
_______

I don’t want to come to Great Lakes
I don’t want to see the life you have there
Because I imagine our love
The way we were
Here in Hollywood

Don’t make me let you fly away
Crazy bird life is a spark orange phoenix
Red blooded and strong
Only now to split
In a matter of days

We used to run around this city
Now we only run around the phone
Circling cloudy distance
Our bodies have gone
Only voices now

If I were a spell maker
I would draw you like the moon fucks the sea
Closer to the sky
Closer to me
But how can I?
______

In here, I don’t know what to feel
I don’t know what to think
At all these rubber flapping feet
And you stand there like a bone
Distant and away from all the things
I would call home

How do we
Pick up these broken hands
As we fumble muted
And dumb
If you came to my door
And gently knocked
How would I even know?
Let the words be written
On the face of honesty
And then turn from me

Out there, the winds are hungry friends
They take my countenance and leave it
Dying in the street
Drawn down like the solar flare
Shining in our eyes as we
Wander everywhere

Where can we
Find a path togetherness
When they always end up
Spiraled down
Searching in the endless
Crowded room
For some special wound
If I have to let you walk
Turn around and turn to salt
Then I let you walk
______

Into The Distance

Driving thoughts and us
Spanned by such a space
And the red lights trailed
All my thoughts replaced

Sexton’s Transformations
And waiting in the rain
How do we recover
All this memory drain

And here I go into the distant
Fading in the sunset’s breath
Here I go in one instant
Off to the finish and the end

I thought the space
Between me and you
Would pull ever stronger
Drawing something new

We have not gone away
Like transparent ghosts
Drifting chains around
Nothing found nothing lost

And here I go into the distant
Fading in the sunset’s breath
Here I go in one instant
Off to the finish and the end

Wandered these streets
Where we shared so much
All the dancing music
Where we like to touch

Found some new toy
Moved  from L.A. to Chicago
Took the distant pictures
Now do I look where I go?

And here I go into the distant
Fading in the sunset’s breath
Here I go in one instant
Off to the finish and the end
______

StarFish

My friend
We moved through something then
Take my hand
Remember when

Our arms
Could not help let go
Remain
Together in our dreams

Angel,
You know we have the spark
We shared
The end before the start

The ocean
In the waters sway
And in it
All is carried away

Remember
The promise that we kept
When I
Spoke as we slept

The sorrow
Of silly goodbyes
Cannot change
The happiness in my eyes

Nothing now
Can alter the love
Or the hope
The perfect light above

Like starfish
We will be in time
Holding fast
As the memories unwind

My wish
That you have some
Of this
Angel love starfish flower boy....

______

Personal Slut (Valencia, California)

What do you want?
I cause accidents
when men look at me while driving
on the streets, it must be my eyes.
Rape me on the dinner table
in front of my Dad.
(I want somebody to make dinner for.)
One way to a man's heart is through his stomach.

Why?

I have a hideous third eye.
I tried to put a prosthetic forehead over it but it didn't match or would slip off.
Dogs shit backwards.
Bicycles circles drive on the ceiling.
Where are all the heroes in suburbia?
In hell...
I killed them.
In some Starbucks or Baja Fresh
Mom, Dad, and spawn guppies
and other yuppies
they bring puppies
for $6.00 2 ounce cappuccino and a shot of morphine.
Enough.

Maybe if you ask the right person
you could get the silver platter consumer dream.
When times are hard I
will carry you over a mountain
when a bear attacks you.

______

When the passing comes
I will hold
like the opal coral kiss
no more, the magnificent flag
that winds around
exhaled pinkishness.
Finally.
The sensual breath
so clinging
and fading marsupial warmth.
No more.
Will.
This is a flow
and captured honey bees no more.
When this fading
blurs the staggering mountains,
no more spiked,
and languorous between branches.
And the forever flower,
understanding on nothing,
pondering the cavernous nautilus.
Stretching granular labyrinth of
holding beautiful trees
no more
magnificent blooms
and no more,
more no,
and more.

I miss my homes...

Hollywood Forever

~Drew

[Eldon]

ASK, and it shall be given...

SEEK and you will find...

KNOCK and the door will be open unto you...

[poet]

Well that's the answer, Drew, and if I had been able to keep track of everyone's talents, I would have been able, poet to poet, to remind you that the curse of the poet is that we see right through.  We have no way to block what we see or that we see.  We see the truth of the empty apartment, not 'the new beginning' that it might represent for others.  And since we can't turn it off, when we are 'alone' we still see, whether or not the lights are on: we can feel very alone indeed.  Win