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Off Topic Forums => Off Topic Forum => Topic started by: John2038 on February 15, 2008, 03:19:10 pm
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What help you to forget this virus excepting nothing ?
For me, its when I look at the universe, read about it.
I also like to think that if the universe is oscillating and the time infinite, the probability is 1 that we will come back to life after this life, as this event has already happen.
The fact that we are here, alive and able to think is also fascinating, especially when the probability was not so obvious.
For e.g. for the basics:
- Most of the planetary mass in the Solar System is in the form of gas giants. And yet, we live on a rocky planet.
- Most of the total mass in the Solar System is in the Sun. And yet, we live on a planet.
- Most of the volume in the Solar System is in interplanetary space. And yet, we live in an atmosphere.
- Most of the volume in the universe is in intergalactic space. And yet, we live in a galaxy.
- Most of the ordinary matter in the universe (by mass) consists of hydrogen and helium. And yet, we are made mostly of heavier elements.
- Most of the particles of ordinary matter in the universe are photons. And yet, we are made of baryons and electrons.
- Most of the matter in the universe (by mass) is dark matter. And yet, we are made of ordinary matter.
- Most of the energy in the universe is dark energy. And yet, we are made of matter.
- The post-Big-Bang lifespan of the universe is very plausibly infinite. And yet, we find ourselves living within the first few tens of billions of years (a finite interval) after the Bang.
But we here.
That's for the stupid thoughts that I was willing to share. Cause thinking like that change positively my perception of this disease.
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To address your subject line, I never forget.
I forget to take my meds sometimes. I forget what I went into the pantry to get. I never forget the virus. Diarrhea. Fatigue. Wasting. Skinny arms. Plastic in my cheeks to ward off the stares.
I don't think about it in the same way like when I first seroconverted. I don't freak out. I simply never forget it's there.
It's a part of me since 1989. I accept without giving up stuggling to endure.
Weird virus, ain't it? So minuscule it can't be detected by the naked eye. So fragile it can't live outside the body but for seconds.
Perplexed: it contains a fierce sense of survival too.
Mike