Tested Positive on Finger prick Rapid test

[makjey]

It was a routine voluntary HIV testing sessions that my employer sets up every 6 months or so ( 05th December 2013). I went in did a finger prick test with the clinical nurse on TWO rapid tests by two different manufacturers.While i waited we chatting casually over her giving me her rehearsed counseling speech, after a few minutes she then told me i tested POSITIVE. Reeling from the shock i stormed out and could feel my world spin.I then left work and got into my car and rushed to the nearest clinic where i did another finger prick rapid test, that one turned out NEGATIVE, still shaking and distraught  i demanded another finger prick test and the nurse visibly annoyed at this stage did another one, initially it was clear but after a few minutes a VERY FAINT T line appeared. She then said it is possibly positive but to my eyes i could not see this faint line. Possibly i am in denial But have gone to have blood drawn to run other test (i,e Western Blot).

My sexual history:I am a 26 year old gay male. I had not had any sexual intercourse for the first half of the year ( January till June 2013). I then met my partner in July 2013 and we got tested together during that time ( August 2013) and we were both NEGATIVE plus he is also on PrEP. We had protected anal sex numerous times  but i have perform oral on him with him ejaculation in my mouth.

As far as i know we are both monogamous but in hindsight that is probably not true at this point.

I am extremely worried and at this point and i know it is possibly positive, I've experience what seemed like ARS symptoms two weeks prior to testing ( sore throat,swollen lymph glands, headache and a slight fever).

i am conflicted as i am not sure that my partner is telling the truth about him not having any sexual contact with anyone unprotected while we've been togather.

All i can do is sit and wait while the inevitable comes.

[RapidRod]

You need to be posting in the, "Am I Infected Forum."

[Jeff G]

If your western blot comes back positive I will move your thread back to just tested poz .

If I'm reading your post correctly you have consistently used condoms for anal sex . If that is the case them its highly unlikely you are HIV positive and highly likely you have had a false positive HIV test . The only thing to do now is to wait for the conclusive western blot test , then you will know .

Please read the posting guidelines for this forum so that you know to post in this thread only and that you get 3 free questions . Please save your third post to come back and tell us you do not have HIV . Best wishes .

[makjey]

Got the confirmatory results back and i am unfortunately HIV POSITIVE with a VL of 145431, waiting on my CD4 count results.Did not come as a shock though i am still sad in ways i cannot express in words.This still does not add up, i was in what i thought was a monogamous relationship for 2 years and never had sex without a condom perhaps i did other things that put me at right of contracting the desease.Im trying to find ways to be able to deal with this.

[Jeff G]

I moved your thread into I just tested Positive . Welcome to the forums .

Im sorry your test came back positive, the important thing is you now know and it can be treated if need be . Did your doctor discuss medications with you ?   

[makjey]

He suggested that if my CD4 count is below 500 i should consider treatment. We discussed Atripla as an option.

[Jmarksto]

makjey; 

Sorry to hear of your diagnosis, but welcome.  Your reactions are very normal - I recall leaving the testing office in a blurr.  The good news is that you found out relatively early and it sounds like you have good medical care.

Best, JM

[makjey]

Jmarksto;

I refuse to let this break me, i choose life . I am worried about my job though as this will restrict me in ways i cannot imagine. I am worried about my relationships with those close to me and not close to disclosing this to them yet.however I will make the necessary life adjustments and put my health first.