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Main Forums => Living With HIV => Topic started by: JesusLovesYou on April 09, 2007, 11:47:39 am
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Hi my name is Luis and new to this wonderful website. I was infected exactly two years ago and have not been dealing with my HIV status the way I am suppose to and have lived these two years with many fears to confront my reality. My family and friends know about my status and they have been super supportive, more than I think I deserve. I was involved with drugs and was quite promiscuous even after several STD scares I continued to live life in the fast lane. I am currently on medications and despite the horrific side-effects i suffered in the beginning I am currently doing well. I've been coming to this website and reading several threads for quite sometime but have not bothered to become a member but feel like I can learn alot and perhaps share my story with any people who have been recently diagnosed. I would also like to give my admiration to those people who have been living with HIV for many years and are still with us, without you the contributions of you guys perhaps I would be in a different state of mind now.
Luis
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Welcome! Im sorry and glad your here all at the same time!
We are a diverse group and I'm sure you will find people to relate to in no time!
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Hi Luis.
Welcome to the forum. It's nice to meet you. I'm not sure we will help you escape from all of your fears but we can certainly try. You've got family, friends and now us. That's a good trifecta you've got going for you and it wouldn't surprise me to see you opening up a lot of new doors.
robert
ps...congratulations on your graduation also!
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Heya Luis! Welcome to the forums. I think it's terrific that your family and friends are so supportive.
As to the fear, I hope you will find this foum a safe place to talk about it... and maybe even get some tips for overcoming it.
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Hello Luis,
Welcome to the forums and I hope that you will find many of the answers you seek by reading through the threads and starting your own, like this one. As I read through your post I was struck by many comments you made and I would just like to add some perspective on some of the feelings you have expressed. You say you have been poz now for two years and do not feel that you are dealing with your status as you should and my suggestion to you is that there is no right or wrong way to deal with becoming poz. You do what you have to start adjusting and that adjustment can take so many forms that all that matters is you find your own path using whatever support you find works for you.
That leads me to my second suggestion and that would be for you to start working on forgiving yourself for whatever role you may have played in becoming poz. Yes easier said than done, but until you learn to really love yourself (with forgiveness being one of the highest levels of self-love) how will you ever feel worthy of being loved by others? And if you do not love yourself enough, you will see no reason to take care of yourself and to accept the support that is lovingly given to you by others, both personally and through these forums.
Luis, my friend, you have done nothing to deserve being infected with HIV and nobody here cares how you became infected, only that you are and that you found your way here. Welcome to the forums and the family you will find contained within. While we can never tell you how your journey with HIV will unfold, we can guarantee that you will never have to walk alone as we will be there when you need us.
Welcome to the AIDSmeds family.
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Welcome Louis,
Thanks for the very informative post and it is good to see you finally came in and posted. I hope you find what you need here, and I trust that you will be a help to others at the same time. This is truly the best of both worlds.
Love,
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Welcome to the forums, Luis. I'm glad that you're dealing better with the meds now. There are plenty of people on here that can help you with the meds and everything that goes with living with HIV. Never be afraid to ask!
Milker.
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Hello Luis,
So I am not the only new person to join today.
Welcome.
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Luis (and CarolAnn),
Glad you could pop in and join us. I haven't been dealing with this disease for very long, but I know that we all cope in our own ways. Don't beat yourself up over life....the HIV is doing that enough.
Take care,
John
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Luis,
Kudos for your monicker name. Being a Jewish woman, I think it takes guts to be open about your strong feelings regarding your faith.
Faith and hope have kept me strong through the worst times of my life.
Good for you.
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Luis,
Kudos for your monicker name. Being a Jewish woman, I think it takes guts to be open about your strong feelings regarding your faith.
Faith and hope have kept me strong through the worst times of my life.
Good for you.
Thank you Carol. I must admit, being diagnosed with HIV kind of Tampered with my religious faith but I've learned to accept my mistakes and I am responsible for my actions. I am a content individual who loves Christ and I love all people who are genuinely nice regardless of their religion.
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Luis,
I agree completely. I think that all religions have an underlying message, and that message is kindness. Bhudists, Jews, Christians, etc. all believe that kindness is the ultimate path the enlightenment. Some extreme factions of any group lose the message of kindness.
I am not sure if God exists, but the cohesion that religion should bring I think is good. Sadly, religion has brought a lot of bad too.
That doesn't mean that you should lose any of the hope and strength that your faith provides you.
Carol
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I couldn't agree with you more Carol. I have become a more spiritual person since diagnosed which has led me to change my nasty habits. You sound like a sweet person, I am glad I joined the forums.
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Hello Luis,
I’m not normally one to discuss my spiritual beliefs in public, but I do also have faith (uncategorized) and have friends of various beliefs – mostly Buddhist, Christian and Jewish. My strong non denominational faith in a loving God has given me more than I would have had without it. Mainly, the ability to grow and thrive in "the big bad world" while living with the challenge of HIV/AIDS. I am certain a loving God exists because I have years of personal experiences that wiped away any previous doubting.
To me, love in action can be a powerful and healing force. I hope you are met with lots of that during your experience here.
Daniel
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We've been had. JesusLovesYou is actually Ihavehope, who was on a Time Out. Both accounts have now been permanently banned.
Peter
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The Easter miracles continue...
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Sad. But thank you peter for providing a safe place for all of us to be ourselves even though we may disagree at times.
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The Easter miracles continue...
I'm telling you... it's like zombies coming back from the dead.
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Um, were I a moderator, I would be really careful for the next couple of weeks. These trolls are going to be back.
PS: As I lay my head down each night, I think the maker I am not a moderator.
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It's sad when you think of the people really needing help and reading all this shit and fleeing away. I hope the drama season closes soon.
Milker.
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There are more of them out there as I speak Peter.
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It's sad when you think of the people really needing help and reading all this shit and fleeing away. I hope the drama season closes soon.
Milker.
Be vewy, vewy quiet... we're hunting twolls.
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It's sad when you think of the people really needing help and reading all this shit and fleeing away. I hope the drama season closes soon.
Milker.
Oy Bubeleh! Don't be so serious! You're harshing the buzz!
Chief Rabbi Mattala
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Chief Rabbi Mattala
Jesus Loves You
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Jesus Loves You
Bah! What a show-boat he was! And an enabler. His first miracle was to turn water into wine at the request of his lush of a mother. And if she was a virgin, I'm the Grand Mufti of Cairo.
MtD
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YEESH!!!
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Pitiful.
How annoying that sock puppets can squeak through the gates undetected, but I've seen this before on another site and I'm not sure if there is a solution.
I guess I can un-ignore IHH now (whose posts always irritated me). :'(
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I hear you Daniel and personally if I hear .......YOU GO GIRL....one more time, I am going to barf........and I am not even on meds... ;D
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Oh good, it's not just me then. That one really warms the cockles of me heart.
Don't you love it when people waste your time with their personal madness?
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I guess I can un-ignore IHH now (whose posts always irritated me). :'(
Ditto. I think one should also be suspect of anyone who posts 35 times in about 6 hours. He was working miracles.
Edited to add: I can actually ignore them now, they took up way to much space with all the pictures and stuff.
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Maybe we need a new 'sticky' thread at the top of each forum, telling us who to put on IGNORE each day...
this stuff is getting ridiculous.
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Frankly I feel betrayed and angry. What about IHH was real and what wasn't? I feel as though I invested a lot of time reading his posts and .........for what?? So he could spit in my face?
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What is it three posts before you can send a PM...maybe it should be three days while we complete your background check? Sad very sad.
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It's VERY offensive considering the huge amount of time that this forum spent after IHH's diagnosis propping him up on countless threads. It's unfortunate that he sought refuge in the Unholy Trinity and was seemingly convinced that everyone here is evil and must be fought with espionage, including the use of defamatory and libelous blog postings with imagery directed at various and sundry members.
I try to adhere to not holding a grudge at people for things, but I'd be lying if I said I planned on doing that in this case.
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edited to clarify:
With a name like JesusLovesYou, it just makes me think about how jesus would respond to such deceit and betrayal.
Methinks he would have you burn.
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I just think it's sad that someone can be so unskilled with an alternick as to be detected in about 5 minutes like he was.
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I just think it's sad that someone can be so unskilled with an alternick as to be detected in about 5 minutes like he was.
Really! I read JK's thing about "3 hours from start of thread to bustage". Let's face it: we all can truthfully deduct about 2:55 from that time. Most of that time was spent discussing the fraud amongst ourselves whilst we waited for mods to show.
And like when Peter said, "We've been had"...all I could think of was, "not really". A few people posted welcomes here and there early on, but that's just cuz we're all so warm and friendly here, ya know?
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As friendly as a Jewish cabal can be, that is.
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Yah it blows that someone could be so callous, but it won't stop me from approaching new members with kindness and caring instead of suspicion and doubt. It won’t turn me into the kind of person I can’t stand. So what has IHH accomplished? Nothing at all.
Daniel
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I feel bad that Joe took the time to respond so thoughtfully to the initial post of "Luis," only to learn that he was a fraud.
Allan
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I feel bad that Joe took the time to respond so thoughtfully to the initial post of "Luis," only to learn that he was a fraud.
Allan
To misquote The Bard, "the quality of mercy is not strained."
Even though Joe's (and everyone elses) kind words and warm welcome were directed to a trouble making sock-puppet doesn't mean that they were wasted.
The inherent kindness of such intentions never are.
MtD
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Me thinks CarolAnn should go directly to the light.......................and keep on going.
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And to think I thought it was the "Carol Ann" in Mommie Dearest.
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To misquote The Bard, "the quality of mercy is not strained."
Even though Joe's (and everyone elses) kind words and warm welcome were directed to a trouble making sock-puppet doesn't mean that they were wasted.
The inherent kindness of such intentions never are.
MtD
You better be careful. People may start to think that you really are not that mean in real life.
Allan
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And to think I thought it was the "Carol Ann" in Mommie Dearest.
Barbara, please! Please, Barbara! Leave us alone! If you need anything, ask Carol Ann!
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And it would have been funnier if IHH had used "Helga" as his alternick
I'm not mad at you, Helga! I'm mad at the dirt!
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Wow,
It's getting as bad as the fears section. OK, not quite.
Jesuslovesyou. I must admit that this name raised my eyebrows a bit. I can't get into the head of people who do that. I well remember the somaforu incident. That was just weird.
Well, Jesuslovesyou is off in cyberspace performing all his miracles...latest one; wine into urine.
R
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We've been had. JesusLovesYou is actually Ihavehope, who was on a Time Out. Both accounts have now been permanently banned.
Peter
WHAT????
what do you mean JesusLovesYou is actually Ihavehope? why would IHAVEHOPE actually do that??? I am confused,,, whats this all about? isn't IHAVE HOPE the guy who just started the meds and were freaking out about having to start it?
WHAT????
Someone explain this to me?
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Any updates on this thread?
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Welcome Luis, I hope you find some comfort in this website the same way I did.
sadboy
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Here we go again. :o
Milker.
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go? don't you mean "gone"?
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Is it the same as "born again" ?
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Rise Sybil! RISE!
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This is really sad, and I am still curious about Carolann. Please inform, and thanks.
Love,
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I'll email Keisha and see where she is.
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Any updates on this thread?
What's to update? The person who started this thread was ihavehope. He has since been banned.
Carolann was frightened away by someone who sent her a vulgar PM. She was legit.
I'm locking this thread as I see no reason to beat a dead horse.
Ann