Psychological Problems/Bi-Polar/Anxiety

[SANJUANDUDE]

   Sometimes I may use too many words to describe something, and this is simply because I don't know how to describe it.   Well yesterday, I was "let go" from my job as a waiter.  Yeah, what a loser, right.  He said to me, after only one month, "it's just not working out."  Oh' well, I'll survive.  But sometimes I feel that it may be me because I would go into this place and no click with the co-workers; however, they were about 20+ years younger than me.   I am 45.  This past year when I go out to work, the grocery store, or anywhere which is going to take a lengthy period of time, I just can't wait to get back home.  I hate being out now in public, and it seems to get worse as time goes on.  For a while, I thought it was just a little phase that I was going through, but no.  I don't know how else to say it, but if I am just going to the post office, and I know that will take just a few minutes, well then I am fine.  Well, as fine as it gets these days, but if I have to go to the grocery store or work as a server the anxiety just gets to me, and I'm not myself anymore.  Not at all!!!!  My employer said to me, and quite pleasantly yesterday just a little after noon, "this just isn't working, your a good guy, and it just seems that sometimes your not here and very unhappy.  I don't think it is this place as much but something outside."  I was thinking to myself, if only you knew.  It was a bit surprising to me because most places that I have ever bartended or been a waiter, even the truck stop (Petro) in Alabama, I was considered one of the best servers on the floor, and they hated to see me go when I relocated.  It's my head these days, not that I can't do the job.  I could go on all night about this.  My partner doesn't work any longer due to being advanced.  Thankfully, we are not broke, and there have been a few kind persons to help us out either by family or through the webpage via paypal.   It was the same way at another job.  Sometimes I would just have this anxiety with issues that is unlikely, HIGHLY UNLIKELY, to ever occur.  I don't get it.  Have any of you in here ever dealt with similar issues.  Does the virus eventually affect the brain chemistry...??  I have a physician appointment tomorrow and may or may not bring it up with her.

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[phost86]

  Sometimes I may use too many words to describe something, and this is simply because I don't know how to describe it.   Well yesterday, I was "let go" from my job as a waiter.  Yeah, what a loser, right.  He said to me, after only one month, "it's just not working out."  Oh' well, I'll survive.  But sometimes I feel that it may be me because I would go into this place and no click with the co-workers; however, they were about 20+ years younger than me.   I am 45.  This past year when I go out to work, the grocery store, or anywhere which is going to take a lengthy period of time, I just can't wait to get back home.  I hate being out now in public, and it seems to get worse as time goes on.  For a while, I thought it was just a little phase that I was going through, but no.  I don't know how else to say it, but if I am just going to the post office, and I know that will take just a few minutes, well then I am fine.  Well, as fine as it gets these days, but if I have to go to the grocery store or work as a server the anxiety just gets to me, and I'm not myself anymore.  Not at all!!!!  My employer said to me, and quite pleasantly yesterday just a little after noon, "this just isn't working, your a good guy, and it just seems that sometimes your not here and very unhappy.  I don't think it is this place as much but something outside."  I was thinking to myself, if only you knew.  It was a bit surprising to me because most places that I have ever bartended or been a waiter, even the truck stop (Petro) in Alabama, I was considered one of the best servers on the floor, and they hated to see me go when I relocated.  It's my head these days, not that I can't do the job.  I could go on all night about this.  My partner doesn't work any longer due to being advanced.  Thankfully, we are not broke, and there have been a few kind persons to help us out either by family or through the webpage via paypal.   It was the same way at another job.  Sometimes I would just have this anxiety with issues that is unlikely, HIGHLY UNLIKELY, to ever occur.  I don't get it.  Have any of you in here ever dealt with similar issues.  Does the virus eventually affect the brain chemistry...??  I have a physician appointment tomorrow and may or may not bring it up with her.

http://timehasshownme.com

Well, we all get slower with age:) I'm 49 and don't know were my day went,LOL!
Talking to a doctor sure will relieve your mind. That's probably all you need:)

[Ann]

You should definitely mention this to your doctor. There's no point in suffering in silence.

[mecch]

You have got a lot on your plate. Your other post informed about the health challenges of your partner. 

Please clarify the title of this thread for me, or others?  Are you bi-polar, diagnosed as such? Or is this something you are wondering you might be?  I read back through some of your posts but didn't see that mentioned.

Losing a job due to distance, being in a bubble, and also reporting that you want to be more and more reclusive.  This is not about aging, in my opinion.   I think you need more than just "a good talk" with someone, even the doctor. 

Seems to me you could be screened for depression and/or other mental health challenges, and/or cognitive problems.  Maybe you need treatment for depression?  Maybe you need some treatment to engage more with people and the world around you?  Post-traumatic stress, anxiety run amok?  Depression?  Something.

Or, are you already identified as bi-polar and being treated??

You shouldn't put up the feeling if you think its reducing the quality of your life. AT least get some counseling.

[denb45]

I don't get it.  Have any of you in here ever dealt with similar issues.  Does the virus eventually affect the brain chemistry...??  I have a physician appointment tomorrow and may or may not bring it up with her.

http://timehasshownme.com

YES, it sure couldn't hurt bringing that up @ your doctors appointment, it's a very good place to start