From Egypt

[nani]

I'm khaled  from Egypt ...I tested poz from year before ... I feel sad and disappointed actually  I broke up with my friends and lovers cause I prefer to be alone this time I'm afraid to go to Egyptian hospital  for aids to take hiv medicine ..
I feel my life is over  I don'tknow why Im writing this post but I feel comfortable  when I write it .....

Thanks

[Jim Allen]

Hi

So I am sorry to hear about how you are feeling at the moment, but your life is not over and you have far more to give and left to do. You have isolated yourself and you can also choose to change that. 

First go to see your doctor and start your treatment and care for yourself both physically and than also mentally.

Wishing you all the best and sorry that I could not sound more encouraging, I mean you well and feel free to keep posting we are here for you.

Jim

[Tonny2]

         OJO        HELLO...I'M SORRY TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR SITUATION, AND I CAN ONLY IMAGINE HOW AWFUL MUST BE TO GET A DIAGNOSIS IN THAT PART OF THE WORLD, BUT, I THINK YOU HAVE TO OVERCOME YOUR FEARS OR WHATEVER YOUR EMOTIONS MIGHT BE, BECAUSE YOUR LIFE IS VERY IMPORTANT TO YOU AND LOVED ONES, SO, PLEASE, GO AND TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, GET YOUR MEDS AND START TREATMENT, IS ONE OF THE TWO OPTIONS WE HAVE, THE OTHER OPTION IS TO WAIT AND DIE, WHICH I THINK THAT CHOOSING THIS OPTION IS STUPID NOWADAYS, IT TAKES, SOMETIMES, JUST ONE PILL A DAY TO KEEP HAVING A NORMAL LIFE, I TAKE FOUR PILLS TWICE A DAY, AND I'M GRATEFUL THE PILLS ARE THERE FOR ME, YOU WILL BE GRATEFUL TO HAVE IT/THEM...PLEASE KEEP WRITING ON HERE, WE ARE HERE FOR YOU, WE WANT YOU TO HELP YOU MAKE THE RIGHT DESICION AMD WE WILL BE HERE TO SUPPORT YOU WITH ENCOURAGMENT AND INFORMATION...YOU CAN LEAN ON US, YOU ARE NOT ALONE AND YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE ALONE, DO NOT ISOLATE FROM YOUR FRIENDS, TRUST ME, IT IS NOT A GOOD FEELING, I KKNOW IT BECAUSE I DID IT...HUGS...NAMASTE                            OJO

[harleymc]

Hi Nani
You won't take medications because you 'feel your life is over', did I understand that right?

You have back to front thinking.
If you take medications you can have a long and fulfilled life with love achievements and friends.

Go see a professional psychologist, get your thinking straight then get some HIV treatment.

Take care of yourself, if not for yourself, then do it for your family so they can be proud of you.

[CaveyUK]

Your life certainly isn't over.

HIV is not what it once was, and there is no reason you shouldn't live to old age, but ONLY if you take and stay adherent to medication.

I know it's harder in some countries than others to deal with it, so accept that is a problem (we have at least one other member from Egypt who posts here) but it doesn't change the above fact....take meds, and live a full and healthy life. The opposite of your life being 'over'.

And as others have said, seek psychological help if you need it, without doubt.

[mecch]

I visit Cairo regularly. Stigma is astronomically high.
http://www.cairoscene.com/In-Depth/Living-with-HIV-in-Egypt

khaled - you have got to seek out treatment and also other egyptians who have HIV and get support from them. I know it isn't easy but that's life, one of the challenges. Don't let your mind or your culture make you a victim.  Remember in some parts of the world, living with HIV is almost banal. So these things are relative. That doesn't fix the problem for you in Egypt but it may help separate the perception that things MUST be gloomy.

If I could go with you to the hospital I would but I would be there in spirit. Maybe you can find, somehow, locally someone HIV+ to help you along a bit and give you moral support.  If the doctors bully you, try to let it go in one ear and out the other. They have small minds, and shame on them, really. Not shame on you.

[nani]

thanks guys a lot for your  support words  I'm trying to contact with hiv+ in egpyt and take some support from them
....I thank God for this froum. that help me so much ......
mech .I always  read yur replays and comments and I I admire yur replay thanks man .......

[harleymc]

nani,
I do hope you start to feel better about yourself and your life.

A major thing that has helped me in wanting to live, has been volunteering. Find something you feel passionate about and find an organisation or other people who feel passionate about the same thing.

You make the world a better place, you feel good helping other people and the interactions with other people will help you and them feel good too. Give it a try you may find a reason to live long and with good health.

Big hugs.