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Title: Melt down
Post by: Bowie-esq on September 30, 2013, 05:14:02 pm

 Always think I'm in control of my feelings and then bam, out of nowhere I have another melt down. Full on sitting on the floor hiding behind a chair crying, dribbling, pulling hair, scratching.

So much pain and anger and hurt just comes bubbling up to the surface.

Laying on the couch alone feeling still inside.

It will pass x

Title: Re: Melt down
Post by: mecch on September 30, 2013, 05:45:09 pm

Oh my, sorry to hear it.
I looked at your recent posts and didn't notice much turmoil. So wondering if there was a trigger, here?  Something brought you suddenly to this state?

Title: Re: Melt down
Post by: Bowie-esq on October 01, 2013, 02:12:28 am

Just trying too hard, working too hard, putting pressure on myself instead of feeling.

As always, work in progress and it will pass
X

Title: Re: Melt down
Post by: mecch on October 01, 2013, 06:18:37 am

OK I guess you don't want to spill details. Its one thing to be overworked and burnt out.  But you specifically said "pain anger and hurt"... Which sounds like something else operating...

These days I have to work much to hard, so I get irritated or angry, that's for sure.  For not being more proactive.  Or even sometimes I couldn't be more proactive, there are just crunch periods....   Also angry at myself for buying into the rat race and always trying to maximise my salary cause it doesn't really seem like "enough"....