What do i do i want to die?????

[cheyguy212009]

i don't know what to do. my life really sucks i found out i have hiv i was OK. but after 2 months it is getting so much harder. i have a bf but he lives 40 min away and now I'm not able to see him. my parents look at me so different. and it hurts. lately i have been thinking about killing my self. thinking it might just make everything better. i wish everything would go away. can anyone help me what do i do I'm at the last point i just want to end it???

[BT65]

Cheyguy,

If you're at the point of wanting to "end it all," I would suggest going to the emergency room at the nearest hospital and talking to someone there about it.  But don't wait; you need help now.

[HopeandCope]

Please call your Doctor or the clinic you went to.  They can get you some emergency help.  My son is going though this too. I know it is hard to handle sweetheart.  You need to talk to someone. I am assuming you have told your parents right?  Do you have an okay relationship with them?

[Joe K]

Hey Chey,

My name is Joe and I suffer from clinical depression and so I can sympathize with how you feel, but you need to talk with someone, now.  Thoughts of suicide are not normal and you cannot ignore them.  I can hear the emptiness in your voice and I can only imagine how you must feel... because I have been there myself.  Believe me, when I tell you that suicide is never the answer to anything.  It will never make anything better, and being a parent myself, I can tell you, that your death would absolutely devastate your family and friends.

There is help, my friend, so please talk with someone.  If you believe it would help, feel free to PM me, with your phone number and I will call you, so we can talk.  I understand how you feel and I also know that you really want help, as evidenced by your suicidal thoughts.  You are not a bad guy, far from it, you are simply confused right now, so please let me, or anyone help.  Please do not wait, do this now.

Feel free to contact me anytime, if you think I can help.

[cheyguy212009]

thanks guys am tryin to get help but the place they sent me to they make u fill out stuff and u might not even get in for a month

[HopeandCope]

Fill out the paperwork and get an appointment.  In the meantime here is a number for the Samaritans.  It is a help line and they know what it is like to feel at the end of your rope. 1-800-365-4044