Worried to death over possibly high risk exposure

[solar_knight]

Hell eveyone,

First, I want to say so glad to find this forum.  I made a big mistake 3 months ago from today, when clubbing, got drunk and ended up going to a guys place.
Basically I got unprotected oral from him
I topped him serveral times with condoms on (4 in total), didnt ejectutated, i penatrated him gentlely, and each lasted 1 or 2 mins max.  HOWEVER the last time when he got off me I realized the condom wasnt on my penis, It could of slip off or he took it off on purpose, the condom was beside his legs.  I check the condoms for breakage and there wasnt, However one of the condom seem to have a little little bit of blood which freak me out to death.  Now 3 months is up and im so scare to go for testing cause I m sure that I have caught HIV. somehow just today I got into panic mode, whole body is weak and I took it as a sign that I been infect.  Also my foot and hands are shelding and peeling skin, so it possible syptomom of hiv.  SOrry for my english is poor   

[jkinatl2]

Hello!

Your English is fine, but I will try to write this very simply in case you are translating this message.

Your oral sex was no risk.

The lost condom was at best a low level risk. I highly doubt your friend deliberately took off the condom, It most likely slipped off as you withdrew. If that was the case, it was NO risk. Condoms do that sometimes if you do not hold onto them as you withdraw.

If you feel you must test for peace of mind, then by all means do so. It has been three months.

EVERY sexually active person who is not in a mutually monogamous relationship should be tested for all STDs including HIV at least twice per year anyway. It is the responsible thing to do for yourself and your partners.

Think of it this way- if you cannot mentally cope with the thought of getting tested, then perhaps you are not ready to engage in sexual activity. Sex is a wonderful thing, but it brings about responsibilities. These responsibilities include getting regularly tested for diseases including HIV.

[solar_knight]

thanks jkinatl2, im going to get tested for sure, it was stupid of me to do such time, will be first and last time. im just curious let say if I got uprotected for 10-20 sec and his is bleeding does that put me at high risk?  For sure I didnt see any visable blood on my penis.    This is my first experience with this as I dont sleep around.  I begining read stuff over the internet and seem ppl caught it during there first time

[Andy Velez]

No matter what details you throw into the mix, getting a blowjob is not a risk HIV transmission.

Let it go and get on with your life. 

You can go ahead and get tested if you want to but doing that would be strictly for your peace of mind, because you did not have a for real risk for HIV.