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HIV Prevention and Testing => Do I Have HIV? => Topic started by: Jay2301 on January 03, 2012, 03:05:08 pm
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I've been married for almost 18 years now. I have only ever strayed during one period of time when we were having trouble, about 3 years ago. During that time I had unprotected oral sex (both ways) with two separate females (I am male) of unknown status.
I felt horrible afterwards and I know that it was the guilt that was really getting me. I tested for HIV and was negative at 30 days past the second exposure, 50 days past the first.
I moved on with my life but this is something that comes back to haunt me every now and then. Most recently I find myself worrying again. I decided I have to put this to rest so I sent off a home access test today and now have to await results.
Finding this forum has helped me because previously I thought there was at least some risk to me, but after reading these forums I am trying to convince myself there is zero risk in this behavior. I keep telling myself that I will not be the first person infected in this manner and hoping that I won't get infected via some kind of fluke of circumstance.
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Even though nothing you have reported of your activities put you at risk, it was still a smart move on your part to get tested.
I certainly expect you to test negative, but now you will have confirmation of your negative status and you can put the ghost and your hopefully your guilt as well to rest.
You did what you did and you can't undo that. Accept that, take a breath and let it go. That is the best thing you can do for all concerned.
Cheers.
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Andy,
Thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate what you guys are doing here. The hardest thing is waiting for the results and it's nice to have an outlet to at least talk about this.
I suffer from anxiety, but i had it under control until recently I starting thinking about this issue; and somehow I let things get away from me. However at least reading this forum helps me.
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Meantime while waiting for the negative result I expect, make a real effort to focus on other matters in your life. It will make the waiting go much more easily.
Really.
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As suspected, the result is Negative! I want to thank you again and reiterate that I am really touched by the work you guys are doing on this site. You guys are definitely making a positive impact in people's lives.
Let me know how I can help. I can donate to help your site or I can make a general donation to fight this disease.
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A negative result is always happy news.
We're glad to have been helpful.
As for a donation, any AIDS service organization in your area can always use some financial support.
Cheers.
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Jay,
You can donate to the site with a check made out to AIDSmeds.com
Send it to:
AIDSmeds.com,
462 Seventh Avenue, 19th Floor,
New York, NY 10018.
Thank you!
Ann
please note that donations to AIDSmeds.com are not tax-deductable as we are not a registered charity - but donations are greatly appreciated and help keep the forums running - put "forums" in the memo line
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Sent! :)
Keep up the good work. You are really helping people.
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Jay,
Thank you. Much appreciated.
Ann