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Sťan_Dublin:
Hi everyone,

Just wanted to posted about this as it's being playing on my mind lately. I absolutely hate and fear going to the clinic to get bloods/reviewed and meds every six months. I have an appointment tomorrow and I feel ill and can't eat. It's nothing to do with the process. I'm not worried about the medical side of things just more having to sit in that environment, feeling shame, waiting, and just waiting to run out the door. It's funny because I know everyone there tomorrow is living with HIV and we are somewhat all going through the same process. I wish I could feel more empowered by my diagnosis and going there. I dream of the day it's GP led and you don't have to go to the clinic (it probably will never happen but one can dream). Anyway, I don't even know what I'm trying to say here but wanted to share. I live in Ireland btw x

Jim Allen:
Hiya,

Really sorry to hear you hate it this much and the impact it's having. Not sure what clinic you are visiting, I go to the mater hospital and that's okay but hate that it's in Dublin  :)

Anyhow, ill spare you the don't be ashamed speech and instead, just wish you the best for tomorrow.


--- Quote ---I dream of the day it's GP led and you don't have to go to the clinic (it probably will never happen but one can dream).

--- End quote ---

I have to be honest that I have the opposite thinking, GP-led would be my nightmare, in part because of my history with GPs being incorrect, leaking information, telling my ex-wife that I am a danger to the children because of my HIV status, handshaking transmission fears they had and near-death experiences all mean I could and will never do GP-led HIV care in Ireland.

There is a need for major investment and screening of GPs before GP-led is a reality, and I think it would be good as an alternative option in the future for those that prefer GP-led or those that really can't travel to clinics.

Jim Allen:
How are you doing & feeling otherwise?

Sťan_Dublin:
 

--- Quote ---I have to be honest that I have the opposite thinking, GP-led would be my nightmare, in part because of my history with GPs being incorrect, leaking information, telling my ex-wife that I am a danger to the children because of my HIV status, handshaking transmission fears they had and near-death experiences all mean I could and will never do GP-led HIV care in Ireland.
--- End quote ---

Oh Jim. That sounds awful. I had my shocked face on reading it. I go to James. They are all lovely in there, I just hate the feelings and stuff that comes up for me when I'm there. I do also fear someone will see me and tell people 'on the outside' about me. It's bloody ridiculous even saying it but here I am. I'm good otherwise. I hear in the UK they only go once a year to the clinics. I'd be very happy with that lol

Sťan_Dublin:
I also realised I don't know how to quote  ::)

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