Author Topic: Young And Scared Help. (Read 9166 times)

KMF559 · « **on:** September 15, 2008, 12:33:24 am »

Dear Modz and Memberz of PoZ here iz my story sorry for my writting btw.

About 68 days ago I had sex with escort woman me and a friend about one a week or two after the last one I had met.I also worry because they have sex with lots of people and I had a cutt on my pubic area about half an inch away from my penis I wore a condom and even had my boxers on and also had sex with them at .different times I know Im so sorry And I can't belive what I was thinking at the time I didnt think much about it because Im stupid and immature.Befor that I was into workingout allot after awhile I started to go out for awhile about awhole month didnt workout much.and couldnt life as much weight as i did when i started.and after awhile I noticed this lil white thing on my gum line my mom said it look like mouth sore or herpie or somthing like that..then after awhile I noticed these lil red dots on my thighs and bump under my arm pit thats when I started thinking about the escort women ..I then thought okay imma get a hiv test and get tested..well saturday came along whic was last saturday and I got pretty drunk and I woke up sunday with a I guess a hangover feeling bad I started thinking more and more about hiv looking stuff up and then I went to work monday and my back was hurting alil I work at a tire place.Then tuesday came along and I started feeling worse I called in sick and went to the health department to get blood taken they said it would take about two weeks that day I was feeling bad even worse.I got home didnt eat nothing really felt like throwing up went to bed then woke up at 2am and felt really worse I couldnt use the bathroom I had constipation I felt like something was really wrong and really felt scared so I had my big brother take me to the hospital where they took blood and said my t-cell and immune look normal.but they didnt check for hiv he said..Since then I've been having constipation and diahreahh when I do go I havent been eating nothing really for few day I was only eating one or two thing then would throw up I was also looking up sympthoms allot and reading more and more about hiv like everday I have been I've had headaches,chest hurts,back,hurts,felt like passingout,neck hurts consipation and diahreaah..even got lil chest rash my mom said it's from hairs on my chest cuz I shave but why is it bothering me now..?Please help me Im constantly on the comp I made myself try to relax but then my tummy starts to hurt and I think about stuff and think about whats gonna happen to me even when i looked relax and im not stressing as much i still get this feeling in my gutt im still having constipation and diahreahh and my tummy and neck still hurts and so does my chest im even having dreams about this stuff =( help and tell me what you thing please sorry if my story is mixed and dont make sense =/

Bucko · « **Reply #1 on:** September 15, 2008, 12:43:14 am »

KMF-

You wore a condom and were therefore protected from exposure to HIV, even if either of your partners were positive, and you don't know that for certain.

We don't discuss symptoms here because there are no HIV-specific symptoms, but if you're feeling poorly, make an appointment and see your doctor. While you're there, request a full-panel screen for STDs, not necessarily for this specific encounter, but because anyone responsible enough to have sex needs to be responsible enough to get checked every 4-6 months.

You were smart to wear a condom. You need to stay smart and use a condom every time you have sex outside of a long-term, mutually monogamous relationship and after you've both been tested. And don't forget the lube: lots and lots of water-soluble lube is a must when using a condom.

Good luck-

KMF559 · « **Reply #2 on:** September 15, 2008, 12:52:07 am »

Im sorry bucko it's just that lately I been feeling this way and crying and trying to not think about it but then it just hits me that why am I feeling this wasy why did I have this why did I do it ..Im always thinking about what if I have it I couldnt even go to the movies with my friend =/I started thinking and got scared and went home and last night at a party I was acting like I was okay but inside I felt like crap sad dissappointed in myself..I was just crying alil while ago befor I even wrote this Im sorry about saying the sympthoms it's just that Im so unaware Of what is gonna happen because of these sympthoms I've been having

Bucko · « **Reply #3 on:** September 15, 2008, 01:05:17 am »

KMF-

I am well acquainted with the horrors you are describing. Anxiety is a terrible thing, and it feeds on itself until it seems to take over everything unless you regain control.

So take a minute and breathe deeply...yeah, a whole minute.

Then repeat that you couldn't have HIV because you were protected: you wore a condom. Now tell yourself to go to the doctor and get a full-panel STD screen, because you should, not because you have to.

And lastly, you need to focus on something else. Get back into your workouts, keep your movie dates, chill out and focus on the future.

We're here to help with risk assessment and to give information of HIV, and since this isn't an HIV situation, there's not really much more we can do for you.

One last thing: look at the gray horizontal bar near the top of teh screen. Click on the link that says "All About HIV" and educate yourself, bud. You are going to be living in a world where HIV continues to be a real threat for the foreseeable future. You owe it to yourself to get smart on HIV, because living in fear and anxiety just isn't right, nor is it necessary.

KMF559 · « **Reply #4 on:** September 15, 2008, 01:21:01 am »

The thing Im most stressed about is how I been having these sympthoms and the cutt that was on my pubic region Im sorry bucko and I thank you very much for your replies it means awhole lott to me..<3 and I will read <3

Bucko · « **Reply #5 on:** September 15, 2008, 01:26:33 am »

The cuts around your pubic area were not a factor for two reasons:

1) They were not open and bleeding while you were having sex;

2) HIV is a very picky virus. It needs special cells to attach itself to a host. These cells are found in the anus, the vagina and the urethra (where you pee). They are not found hiding behind your pubes

Read up...get smart. Education is the best way to keep yourself safe, because if you know why you need condoms, you'll always use them.

Good luck.

Modified to add: The Prevention section gives you all you need to know about transmission, risks and safer sex in real-life.

KMF559 · « **Reply #6 on:** September 15, 2008, 01:32:05 am »

Oh it was shaved and I had shaved about an hour or so befor I had sex or alil more Im sorry I didnt put it all into my last reply and I will read..thanks bucko Imma read about it right now but I hope it just doesnt scare me more =./ <3

Bucko · « **Reply #7 on:** September 15, 2008, 01:40:10 am »

You'll be just fine, baby

Please don't forget to read the section of Prevention. It's great stuff.

KMF559 · « **Reply #8 on:** September 15, 2008, 02:28:37 pm »

Today I went to the walk N clinic with my friend and they said that my medi-cal card isnt working..I then ran to the bus where I got tired and threw up alittle stomach acid..I can't use the bathroom i feel all this stuff and feel like crap I dont know what to do I feel like my mom and dad arent taking this serious I feel like an idiot I can't act like nothing is wrong I had sex with escort women I feel ashamed and so so so sad right now =( and feel like something is wrong aslong with these pains that Im having just needa talk to someone sorry if Im doing anything wrong on this forum...

KMF559 · « **Reply #9 on:** September 15, 2008, 06:47:54 pm »

Im sorry but I just need to talk with someone is their an irc or chat on here =/ andy I have questions please help me..or someone

Andy Velez · « **Reply #10 on:** September 15, 2008, 06:56:07 pm »

No, we don't have chat rooms here. Call GMHC's hotline (212 807 6655) or any AIDS service organization in your area if you want to speak with someone.

Fortunately feelings and fears aren't facts. We've read your reports carefully. The facts of the situation, your fears notwithstanding, tell us that you absolutely were not at risk for HIV. Period. It's very common when becoming sexually active, along with all the exciting stuff, to also be anxious. I suspect that's playing a part in your worrying.

This is not an HIV situation. Really.

KMF559 · « **Reply #11 on:** September 15, 2008, 07:02:22 pm »

Thank you andy for the number Im really scared and what hurts the most is that I was reading In another thread about how someone is feeling and it's exactly how I feel ..Including we are about a weeks difference away from when we both had our encounter and feel the same way and have the same lil dots on our thighs =/ and they have not gotten test again yet their still waiting as am I..Im sorry it's just im really scared and also young and immature please don't give me a time out=/

Andy Velez · « **Reply #12 on:** September 15, 2008, 07:57:54 pm »

Feeling scared is undertstandable.

And if you insist on testing strictly for your peace of mind, and with all of those non-HIV-related symptoms not meaning a damn, you will for sure test negative.

KMF559 · « **Reply #13 on:** September 18, 2008, 05:00:36 am »

My question is if you get your T-cell and immune cells checked but they dont check for HIV around 11-12 weeks persay from your last sexual encounter would it show any type of infection or anything out of the normal for a person?Please reply back..

Ann · « **Reply #14 on:** September 18, 2008, 07:05:14 am »

KM,

The ONLY way to know your hiv status is through hiv antibody testing.

You didn't have a risk - you had protected intercourse. You've been repeatedly told this. If you've read the posting guidelines found in our Welcome Thread like you're supposed to, you will have read the following:

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Anyone who continues to post excessively, questioning a conclusive negative result or no-risk situation, will be subject to a four week Time Out (a temporary ban from the Forums). If you continue to post excessively after one Time Out, you may be given a second Time Out which will last eight weeks. There is no third Time Out - it is a permanent ban. The purpose of a Time Out is to encourage you to seek the face-to-face help we cannot provide on this forum.

Please consider yourself warned.

Ann

KMF559 · « **Reply #15 on:** September 18, 2008, 08:45:45 am »

ann please don't give me a time out..I really dont feel good could this all be do to anxiety or do I have it I got my t-cell's and immune cells looked at and they said it looks normal but i havent been able to use the bathroom and I feel constipation and diahrreah they took an x-ray of my insides and said it looked fine I just the worse is gonna happen and Im so alone and scared I just need help im really scared you have no idea or mayb you do but please bare with me please do Im not trying to make you mad ann im really not or anyone else on here.

Ann · « **Reply #16 on:** September 18, 2008, 08:50:18 am »

KM,

If you're worried about your hiv status, then go have an hiv antibody test. However, you will not be permitted to use this site to go on and on about your no risk incident.

Ann

KMF559 · « **Reply #17 on:** September 19, 2008, 01:58:41 am »

Today I will be getting my HIV results wish me luck..I LOVE YOU ALL FOR YOUR REPLYS I WILL SAY A PRAYER FOR YOU ALL <3 KYLE

KMF559 · « **Reply #18 on:** September 19, 2008, 02:19:07 pm »

I just wanna thank you all for having this forum.It helped me allot..Even though I was going out of my mind last week about what if's and thinking all this stuff and now I feel better Im gonna try to accept my results that I got which were Negative and live life allot more differently <3 You all.God Bless and take care.

And you all will be in my prayers

Now a quote from Andy"Stop with the fabber jabber your negative so get on with your life"

Andy Velez · « **Reply #19 on:** September 19, 2008, 04:41:06 pm »

LOL Gotta love that quote. That's a happy, if unsurprising, test result.

Should you have any further symptoms that trouble you, discuss them with your doctor.

And yes, now you can get on with your life.

Cheers,

KMF559 · « **Reply #20 on:** October 09, 2008, 12:11:27 am »

Sorry Im back.Okay yeah I was Protected But for some reason I have pains..and now today I checked the inside of my mouth and towards the back of it and in the inner top part it looked whiteish all around with like lil blood spots or like lil bloodish veins.and last night I had a blood taste in my mouth.I tested 10 weeks after my protected exposure came back negative tell me what you guys think?Honestly with work and Highschool I feel Like Imma break down like mentally have a nervous breakdown because I have not thought about HIV to where I was breaking down crying again but now it seems like it might just happen again.has anyone ever gotten aids within 5 months Honestly.I feel Like Im in a room and the doors slowly shutting again

RapidRod · « **Reply #21 on:** October 09, 2008, 02:36:35 am »

Anyone who continues to post excessively, questioning a conclusive negative result or no-risk situation, will be subject to a four week Time Out (a temporary ban from the Forums). If you continue to post excessively after one Time Out, you may be given a second Time Out which will last eight weeks. There is no third Time Out - it is a permanent ban. The purpose of a Time Out is to encourage you to seek the face-to-face help we cannot provide on this forum.

KMF559 · « **Reply #22 on:** October 09, 2008, 02:44:29 am »

No timeout Please I just wanted to know what you thought about the lil amount of blood And stuff.Sorry I will just not post I apologize to you all .But can I just get a thought on my last post.I can't seek help my mom is the closest person I got to talk to when it comes to comfort since no one else really speaks to me

Ann · « **Reply #23 on:** October 09, 2008, 08:29:20 am »

KM,

You tested negative after your protected sexual encounter. That result is not going to change - you ARE hiv negative.

If you're worried about your mouth, get mom to take you to the dentist. If you have pain, get mom to take you to the doctor. Whatever is going on, it has nothing to do with hiv. You are hiv negative. Keep using condoms for anal or vaginal intercourse and you'll stay that way.

If you come back to post more about this no-risk incident, you'll be given a time out.

It's time you got on with your life and high-school studies. You should be enjoying your teenage years instead of worrying about something you don't have - and won't have as long as you keep using condoms for intercourse. Read through all three condom and lube links in my signature line so you can use them with confidence.

Ann

KMF559 · « **Reply #24 on:** October 10, 2008, 03:22:13 am »

Ann I will Leave this alone I guess I'll try to stop thinking again.My Ex Gf is coming over sunday to watch sex in the city 2 with me If something goes down like giving her oral nothing will happen right or say if I lick her butt nothing will happen right I dont want nothing to happen to her Because oral no matter what you have you cant give it to anyone right not saying I hvae something but if someone did herpies or anything right you cant give it right from oral because yeah just curious can oral lead to anything!thank you I love you all and Im serious I pray for everyone every night since I found out about this place.

KMF559 · « **Reply #25 on:** October 11, 2008, 12:52:34 am »

Can my lasty question get answer.please.I think im I don't know what it's called but now every little bump I see I think it's something and even I got a flashlight and was looking in my throat what if my immune system is good and that's why I got a negative

Anna Thank you for your reply.can my last question get answer though please I will hope and pray for the best and hope you're right,SOrry but my last questions mayb they get answer love you guys :-*godbless.

Ann · « **Reply #26 on:** October 11, 2008, 07:12:01 am »

KM,

As long as you use condoms for intercourse with your girlfriend - or anyone else - you won't have to worry about hiv.

You tested negative because you never had a risk in the first place. Your bumps and whatnot have nothing to do with hiv. You do not have hiv.

I'm giving you that time out you've been warned about. Do not attempt to create a new account to get around your time out because if you do, you will be permanently banned.

Ann

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