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Author Topic: I can't stand it anymore  (Read 22068 times)

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Offline twofires

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #50 on: January 11, 2007, 12:03:14 am »
see, that's all you had to say

so you got some?

Who was it wrote; Give any one species too much rope and they'll fuck it up?
-Roger Waters

Offline allopathicholistic

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #51 on: January 11, 2007, 12:06:27 am »
oh.... i thought "buds" = friends ... i don't smoke, i don't drink, i don't eat fried chicken either (but i want to)

talk to us, we will make you laugh - seriously

Offline Strayboy74

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #52 on: January 11, 2007, 12:12:39 am »
so you got some?

I'm standin' at the end of a real long road
waiting for my new friends to come
I don't care if I'm hungry, or freezin' and cold...
I'm gonna get me some....   talkin' about friends....

you've got a great deal going for you.  I looked at your website.  leatherworking is a very lucrative endeavor.  I think you're caught in a moment you can't get out of.   If you aren't, pardon me for my attempt at empathy.

Know that nothing is forever... whatever you're experiencing... 20 years from now, 20 days from now, even 20 hours from now... things are gonna seem different.  But we'll still be here for you.

*hug*

-joseph

Offline twofires

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #53 on: January 11, 2007, 12:15:52 am »
just get the damn fucking llamas out of here

fucking like to insult me some more?? step up to my face and do so

UI already spent 5 god damn years in a federal prison, I would enjoy another bit for manslauhter

and DO NOT take that lightly; manslaughter gets you far less time than a few hits of LSD (3 years versus 5 years)

STEP UP!!!
Who was it wrote; Give any one species too much rope and they'll fuck it up?
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Offline Strayboy74

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #54 on: January 11, 2007, 12:23:04 am »
STEP UP!!!

I step up, twofires.

I've nothing to lose.

I come to you open and ready to talk about what bothers you.

Threaten me if you will... but you've already shown the goodness inside of you through other posts.

Talk to us.

-joseph

Offline Boo Radley

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #55 on: January 11, 2007, 12:24:26 am »
damn it YES!!!!!

so how is it I get my other thread killed when I just need a sympathetic ear??????????????

I'm not going back to dredge up exact quotes but when you toss obscenities or overly hostile remarks at other forum members the moderators step in to maintain civility.  Like I said in another post if they asked me not to write "fuck" I might argue but if I'm asked not to write "fuck you" it's a reasonable request.

I don't agree 100% but several other posters were sincerely offering advice to post in "Living with" because that's where we all usually discuss personal HIV related issues.  It was not meant to insult or belittle you.

I also wish you would return to your issues with the ASO (or whatever the organization is) because I'm unsure what you might attempt to do get better treatment.   I'm not sure I fully understand your crisis.   You've written several separate posts tonight all appearing to deal with these issues and I haven't read all of them.  I'm getting ready to walk my dogs and go to sleep so won't read them tonight.

I can definitely tell you a lot of the volunteers and even paid operators on crisis lines or other hot lines will hang up if they believe you're using abusive language.  If you think about being in the same situation as they are you might understand.  I am not diminishing the very real problems you have with the ASO but in all communication and correspondence you should not deflect your real need by using words or phrases that make some people immediately write you off.   That's easy for me to say because I'm not in your shoes but I cannot offer anything else but advice -- you're the only person in your shoes.

I hope you get a decent night's sleep and feel better tomorrow, even though nothing has materially changed.  If you want to release anger write a diatribe against the people interfering with your life now and we'll understand.  Vent in a manner that will elicit sympathy and you'll get it. 

Boo
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Offline allopathicholistic

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #56 on: January 11, 2007, 12:25:22 am »
oh, Andrew/ACinKC can't take his llama out because he's offline right now - However, the llamas arent an insult on you or any one person ...... We just use the llamas to possibly get someone to maybe laugh and then the discussion often changes for the better

Offline twofires

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #57 on: January 11, 2007, 12:29:22 am »
HA ha laugh my meds troubles away

WTF are you people trying to say to me???

the damn llamas are an insult



Who was it wrote; Give any one species too much rope and they'll fuck it up?
-Roger Waters

Offline Longislander

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #58 on: January 11, 2007, 12:30:58 am »
what are buds? pot?
infected 10/05 diagnosed 12-05
2/06   379/57000                    6/07 372/30500 25%   4/09 640/U/32% 
5/06   ?? /37000                     8/07 491/55000/24%    9/09 913/U/39%
8/06   349/9500 25%              11/07 515/68000/24     2/10 845/U/38%
9/06   507/16,000 30% !          2/08  516/116k/22%    7/10 906/80/39%
12/06 398/29000 26%             Start Atripla 3/08
3/07   402/80,000 29%            4/08  485/undet!/27
4/07   507/35,000 25%            7/08 625/UD/34%
                                                 11/08 684/U/36%

Offline allopathicholistic

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #59 on: January 11, 2007, 12:31:31 am »

Offline Longislander

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #60 on: January 11, 2007, 12:34:40 am »
ahh, thanks Alex. Not my scene, sorry.
infected 10/05 diagnosed 12-05
2/06   379/57000                    6/07 372/30500 25%   4/09 640/U/32% 
5/06   ?? /37000                     8/07 491/55000/24%    9/09 913/U/39%
8/06   349/9500 25%              11/07 515/68000/24     2/10 845/U/38%
9/06   507/16,000 30% !          2/08  516/116k/22%    7/10 906/80/39%
12/06 398/29000 26%             Start Atripla 3/08
3/07   402/80,000 29%            4/08  485/undet!/27
4/07   507/35,000 25%            7/08 625/UD/34%
                                                 11/08 684/U/36%

Offline twofires

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #61 on: January 11, 2007, 12:36:53 am »
ahh, thanks Alex. Not my scene, sorry.

what did you think, I need sex buds?

That too... actually....

georgia is turning out to be damned sorry for a fulfilling sex life.....
Who was it wrote; Give any one species too much rope and they'll fuck it up?
-Roger Waters

Offline Longislander

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #62 on: January 11, 2007, 12:41:10 am »
I thought there were tons of gay guys in Atlanta. When I went there a few years ago, I think there were 3 gay bars in the same shopping center?! Are you too far away from Atlanta?

And shoot, I don't know what sex buds are either.
infected 10/05 diagnosed 12-05
2/06   379/57000                    6/07 372/30500 25%   4/09 640/U/32% 
5/06   ?? /37000                     8/07 491/55000/24%    9/09 913/U/39%
8/06   349/9500 25%              11/07 515/68000/24     2/10 845/U/38%
9/06   507/16,000 30% !          2/08  516/116k/22%    7/10 906/80/39%
12/06 398/29000 26%             Start Atripla 3/08
3/07   402/80,000 29%            4/08  485/undet!/27
4/07   507/35,000 25%            7/08 625/UD/34%
                                                 11/08 684/U/36%

Offline twofires

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #63 on: January 11, 2007, 12:45:18 am »
then get out of my thread!
Who was it wrote; Give any one species too much rope and they'll fuck it up?
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Offline Boo Radley

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #64 on: January 11, 2007, 12:53:21 am »
And shoot, I don't know what sex buds are either.

Then come up to my place and I'll show you...

Boo the slut
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Offline Tim Horn

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #65 on: January 11, 2007, 08:13:21 am »
Twofires:

Okay, so you've now received a warning from Ann in this thread, with a good explanation as to why we decided to lock it:

http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=7723.0

The fact is, we received several complaints last night regarding your antagonistic behavior.  Like Ann says, you're free to bitch, cuss, and vent all you want regarding your situation... but to hurl all this stuff at others in the Forums simply isn't acceptable. 

No matter how bad people have it in the Forums -- and, yes, some people have it really, really bad -- it's simply not okay to take frustration out on others. 

I'm sorry, but I'm not seeing anybody in this thread suggest that you "take it elsewhere."  Early on in this thread, a few folks passed along some sage words of advice -- that you check in with a local AIDS service organization to help you find the best services in your area.  Nobody told you that they didn't want to hear what you had to say and that your issues and concerns have no place here. 

If all you wanted to do was vent -- and were not at all interested in receiving pragmatic advice from others (knowing well that this is what many people try to provide in the Forums) -- you should have said so. 

Okay, so you didn't appreciate Eldon's rhetoric... that's certainly a valid concern... but it's not as if Eldon was the only one responding to your message.  Either put him on ignore (you'll never have to read a message from him again) or simply bypass his comments. 

Another suggestion: it would have been better to post this thread in the Living With HIV Forum, not the Off Topic Forum.  Yup, there's plenty of banter here that, understandably, seems totally trivial to you right now.  Well, this kind of stuff doesn't fly in the Living With HIV Forum.  In fact, I'm moving this thread to that Forum now.

Twofires, I totally appreciate how frustrated you are... and I sense that the vast majority of people who have read your recent posts fully realize that your are speaking out of frustration.  But please... I'm begging you... take some time, or at least some deep breaths, before jumping back into the fray with more aggression and salty language.  A seven-day Time Out is the next step for us, should you continue taking things out on others... and this is something that we do not want to do.

Thanks... please stay with us and let us know how things evolve from here,

Tim Horn   

« Last Edit: January 11, 2007, 08:25:30 am by Tim Horn »

Offline twofires

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #66 on: January 11, 2007, 08:26:07 am »
firstly, I do NOT start hurling insults until I feel I am getting backed into a corner

secondly, kilfoile's remark out to get him banned forever

third, why do i feel like there is a knife plunged into my back???

offhand cracks that I appear to be off my meds? that I do not even kknow what kind of services are in my area? do you take me for a simpleton???
Who was it wrote; Give any one species too much rope and they'll fuck it up?
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Offline Dachshund

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #67 on: January 11, 2007, 08:44:50 am »
Believe me, I understand your frustration, anger and rage. No need to go into details, but after losing my insurance I can relate to what you are going through. Many here feel your frustration and we all feel like throwing up our hands with a big just f*ck it from time to time. Forget about what others post...it matters not. Solutions...I am not sure I have any? Empathy I can offer in spades, knowing full well it can't repair a transmission.

Hal

Offline Andy Velez

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #68 on: January 11, 2007, 08:55:54 am »
Two, I just want to say hi.

It's hard to know what to say to you even though I would like to be able have some conversation. I think others may feel similarly. We can't know exactly what's going on with your nor how it feels -- none of us can with anyone else. But that doesn't mean we're not interested or concerned.

Give us some room to be imperfect and we'll do the best we can to keep you company and hear what you have to say.

 If we were actually together in person I might just sit and keep you company or ask you if you'd like to take a walk.

I hope there's something good in your day today.


Sincerely, 
« Last Edit: January 11, 2007, 10:12:59 am by Andy Velez »
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Offline ACinKC

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #69 on: January 11, 2007, 09:50:58 am »
Two, sorry about the llama's.  You were in off topic so I posted some humor as that is what that forum is about.  I had to log off last night because it was starting to get unhealthy for me.  My wife was sitting with me and she was worried I was getting too wrapped up in this, and I have to consider her first.

I am not out to insult you but if you want to talk about a knife in the back......  re-read my posts, I ASKED NUMEROUS TIMES to help you, and all you did was attack.

I am not capable of helping you but I wish you the best of luck getting what you need.
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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #70 on: January 11, 2007, 09:55:04 am »
just get the damn fucking llamas out of here

fucking like to insult me some more?? step up to my face and do so

UI already spent 5 god damn years in a federal prison, I would enjoy another bit for manslauhter

and DO NOT take that lightly; manslaughter gets you far less time than a few hits of LSD (3 years versus 5 years)

STEP UP!!!

I removed the llama.... please dont ever threaten ANYONE with killing them again, I am a patient man and I believe I have shown you this but I do NOT take lightly the thought of someone ending my time on this earth early.  (Being that someone already did that to me which is why I am here)
LIFE is not a race to the grave with the intention of arriving safely
in a pretty and well-preserved body, but, rather to skid in broadside,
thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming--WOW! WHAT A
RIDE!!!

Offline Queen Tokelove

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Re: I can't stand it anymore
« Reply #71 on: January 11, 2007, 11:21:54 pm »
firstly, I do NOT start hurling insults until I feel I am getting backed into a corner

secondly, kilfoile's remark out to get him banned forever

third, why do i feel like there is a knife plunged into my back???

offhand cracks that I appear to be off my meds? that I do not even kknow what kind of services are in my area? do you take me for a simpleton???

I'm sorry if you took my mentioning being off of meds a crack, it was not meant to be that way. I know some who are on meds and when they stop taking them they get very agitated. I have heard that you went to get help, I sincerely hope that helps you.
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