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Meds, Mind, Body & Benefits => Mental Health & HIV => Topic started by: SANJUANDUDE on January 08, 2012, 07:22:01 pm
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:) Sometimes I may use too many words to describe something, and this is simply because I don't know how to describe it. :o Well yesterday, I was "let go" from my job as a waiter. Yeah, what a loser, right. He said to me, after only one month, "it's just not working out." Oh' well, I'll survive. But sometimes I feel that it may be me because I would go into this place and no click with the co-workers; however, they were about 20+ years younger than me. I am 45. This past year when I go out to work, the grocery store, or anywhere which is going to take a lengthy period of time, I just can't wait to get back home. I hate being out now in public, and it seems to get worse as time goes on. For a while, I thought it was just a little phase that I was going through, but no. I don't know how else to say it, but if I am just going to the post office, and I know that will take just a few minutes, well then I am fine. Well, as fine as it gets these days, but if I have to go to the grocery store or work as a server the anxiety just gets to me, and I'm not myself anymore. Not at all!!!! My employer said to me, and quite pleasantly yesterday just a little after noon, "this just isn't working, your a good guy, and it just seems that sometimes your not here and very unhappy. I don't think it is this place as much but something outside." I was thinking to myself, if only you knew. It was a bit surprising to me because most places that I have ever bartended or been a waiter, even the truck stop (Petro) in Alabama, I was considered one of the best servers on the floor, and they hated to see me go when I relocated. It's my head these days, not that I can't do the job. I could go on all night about this. My partner doesn't work any longer due to being advanced. Thankfully, we are not broke, and there have been a few kind persons to help us out either by family or through the webpage via paypal. It was the same way at another job. Sometimes I would just have this anxiety with issues that is unlikely, HIGHLY UNLIKELY, to ever occur. I don't get it. Have any of you in here ever dealt with similar issues. Does the virus eventually affect the brain chemistry...?? I have a physician appointment tomorrow and may or may not bring it up with her.
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:) Sometimes I may use too many words to describe something, and this is simply because I don't know how to describe it. :o Well yesterday, I was "let go" from my job as a waiter. Yeah, what a loser, right. He said to me, after only one month, "it's just not working out." Oh' well, I'll survive. But sometimes I feel that it may be me because I would go into this place and no click with the co-workers; however, they were about 20+ years younger than me. I am 45. This past year when I go out to work, the grocery store, or anywhere which is going to take a lengthy period of time, I just can't wait to get back home. I hate being out now in public, and it seems to get worse as time goes on. For a while, I thought it was just a little phase that I was going through, but no. I don't know how else to say it, but if I am just going to the post office, and I know that will take just a few minutes, well then I am fine. Well, as fine as it gets these days, but if I have to go to the grocery store or work as a server the anxiety just gets to me, and I'm not myself anymore. Not at all!!!! My employer said to me, and quite pleasantly yesterday just a little after noon, "this just isn't working, your a good guy, and it just seems that sometimes your not here and very unhappy. I don't think it is this place as much but something outside." I was thinking to myself, if only you knew. It was a bit surprising to me because most places that I have ever bartended or been a waiter, even the truck stop (Petro) in Alabama, I was considered one of the best servers on the floor, and they hated to see me go when I relocated. It's my head these days, not that I can't do the job. I could go on all night about this. My partner doesn't work any longer due to being advanced. Thankfully, we are not broke, and there have been a few kind persons to help us out either by family or through the webpage via paypal. It was the same way at another job. Sometimes I would just have this anxiety with issues that is unlikely, HIGHLY UNLIKELY, to ever occur. I don't get it. Have any of you in here ever dealt with similar issues. Does the virus eventually affect the brain chemistry...?? I have a physician appointment tomorrow and may or may not bring it up with her.
http://timehasshownme.com
Well, we all get slower with age:) I'm 49 and don't know were my day went,LOL!
Talking to a doctor sure will relieve your mind. That's probably all you need:)
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You should definitely mention this to your doctor. There's no point in suffering in silence.
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You have got a lot on your plate. Your other post informed about the health challenges of your partner.
Please clarify the title of this thread for me, or others? Are you bi-polar, diagnosed as such? Or is this something you are wondering you might be? I read back through some of your posts but didn't see that mentioned.
Losing a job due to distance, being in a bubble, and also reporting that you want to be more and more reclusive. This is not about aging, in my opinion. I think you need more than just "a good talk" with someone, even the doctor.
Seems to me you could be screened for depression and/or other mental health challenges, and/or cognitive problems. Maybe you need treatment for depression? Maybe you need some treatment to engage more with people and the world around you? Post-traumatic stress, anxiety run amok? Depression? Something.
Or, are you already identified as bi-polar and being treated??
You shouldn't put up the feeling if you think its reducing the quality of your life. AT least get some counseling.
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I don't get it. Have any of you in here ever dealt with similar issues. Does the virus eventually affect the brain chemistry...?? I have a physician appointment tomorrow and may or may not bring it up with her.
http://timehasshownme.com
YES, it sure couldn't hurt bringing that up @ your doctors appointment, it's a very good place to start :)