Feeling a bit blue...

[PeteNYNJ]

Hello everyone

Just feeling a bit blue.  This weekend I had a bit of a breakdown...lots of crying but was with two friends and they listened.  I feel that they really listened, to my fears, my grief, my loss, etc.  I have been positive for about a year and I think I finally let it hit me this weekend.   I feel like anytime I mention the fact that this might kill me, I am told "stop, you will be fine".  No one has really let me really say what I feel.  Finally, I told my friends "If you are going to be a true support, you need to let me get out what I am feeling".  They said it was hard from them to hear, but it is also hard to feel this way. 

Anyhow - just wanted to share. 

Hope you are having a nice day

Pete

[Longislander]

Hi Pete, glad you had some true friends around this weekend, and were able to get this stuff out!

[Eldon]

Hey Pete...

What you are experiencing is the trio. You are coping with acceptance, self-realization, self-expression. With these emotions, they all interact with each other in order to gain a positive result or outcome with your life. Your friends are in the phase of trying to understand your situation. Once they do and this realization takes place, they will be there to suppot you unconditionally.

By ALL means you DO want to express your feelings as there is a need to do so in order to adjust with these experiences in your life. You may want to consider getting a journal or even starting a personal log in MS Word of your daily events. By doing so, this is quite therapeutic for you.

I wish you the best as you travel on your journey in this life.

"Don't Give Up, Don't Give In... Cause it is ALL within you to WIN!"

[red_Dragon888]

Things will get better.  Just don't give in to the blues.

[marco23]

Hi Pete!
It's always good to let out your feelings, if your friends don't want to hear it then post it here....that's what we're here for and trust me, venting can feel as if a weight was taken off your chest....or it could be gas and you just need a big burp! 

[pozguy75]

Hey Pete, congrats...you are taking control of this monster...its tough, and you survived it! Way to go man...if you feel like chatting send me an email or a PM...always here to listen bro!

I can totally relate to what you feel...been there, and I will tell you that sometimes it comes over me in waves....I will be fine, then the next second, I am crying my eyes out...you just have to let it happen, and don't be afraid to feel. These feelings are yours, this virus is yours...own them!

Pete, we're here for you buddy!