Hey Oh501sguy…
I do agree with you when it comes to the fact of having the option to log on to the forums and read the wide variety of posts here on the board. It is quite comforting. Yes, you are indeed not alone. We are all in this together.
In this life, we all do tend to get caught up in a routine. When this realization comes to us, when then seek something that is different from the normal routine. In fact, in this life, it is all about experiences which equates to something that differs from our normal routine. At the office seeing the same people and hearing similar stories does tend to also become routine. A suggestion for you during your lunch hour would be to take a brisk walk in the near vicinity of your office to just spend time outside with nature and yourself.
Another good suggestion would be to set aside some time for yourself other than watching TV and look within you and ponder on what you find for a bit. As you look within you, you will want to TAP into your creative energies and see what has been lying dormant for all of this time. You may want to grab a pad and pen or open up MS Word and just start typing. As you are doing this, think on the things that you would like to do.
Let your imagination run wild on this. In fact, that is what it is there for.
After your session you will have gathered a list of things that you would like to do. One of the things that you have mentioned is that you like to go to the Bathhouse for human interaction. That is one of your reasons for going there. You may want to consider joining a social club of some sort in order to mingle with other people. In fact, just a weekend getaway to a different city would do you good. Seek these things and you will find them. They are there; it is just waiting for your discovery of them!
One point you did make was traveling around the world. That is a valid suggestion and perhaps you will be in the position to do so in the future.
There are many different ways in which you can reach out and touch someone. The internet is an option to do so and there are also other options that may be available to you in your city. When you get the chance pick up an events calendar and see what is happening in your town. There may be something of interest for you. In other words, just put yourself in the position to meet others to chat an socialize.
In closing, there is something that will initiate that SPARK in your life that you are seeking. As you have mentioned, you are looking for something, you can’t quite put your finger on it. I encourage you to not fret yourself and continue to look. Eventually, you will find it.
ASK and it shall be given, SEEK and you will find, KNOCK and the door will be opened to you…then it is up to you to walk through that door. So ask yourself, what is it that you really want to do?
Don’t Give Up, Don’t Give In…Cause it is ALL within you to WIN!!!
Hey Chuck,
I was never good at bowling but I did become the Cheerleader of a gay team in L.A. Yes., I did live in the burbs but a guy just gotta have fun. Maybe I should share my cheer...
I Sizzle, I Roar, Because... I am a whore. I sparkle, I preen... Because I am a Queen... RAH, RAH, EAT ME RAW... YEA TEAM!
I ran for Homecoming Queen for a Superbowl bar party. There were 5 contestants and I finished last. The Queen got a sash and a paper crown... Bar Manager said if I hadn't run for Queen, I would have won the Bitch category hands down. The Bitch got condoms and lube.
In my free time, I volunteer (a lot). My phone probably rings twice each week. It is always my friend Don (he is a straight guy). My email is usually from the San Francisco AIDS Foundation, the CAEAR Coalition or any number of advocacy groups and that is my real life, trying to make a difference. Have the best day
Michael