Madd,
As Goderator Ann has pointed out:
YOU NEED TO TEST AND TEST NOW.
This is serious stuff. You won't lose your home or your job, but if you are HIV positive and you continue to fanny about you'll lose your life. I remember your armpit thread from the Old Forums. I'm sure that Bucko (Brent) would give you the same advice that Ann and I are giving you now.
Test today. You owe it to yourself.
MtD