"HOPE DIES LAST"

[leatherman]

So while we're waiting to board our first plane today heading home, I'm checking up on the forums and was wondering how your recovery is going. I hope you're doing well!

[Tonny2]

                 ojo.             @ Leatherman, hello my friend, I am doing better, although my eye is still swollen no more pain tho. The inside of my eye still looks red, it  suppose to be white after everything heals inside. I will see the surgeon until May 28, then he will send me to the clinic where my prosthesis will be made…I will keep you posted and thanks for asking… Hugs

[leatherman]

I am doing better, although my eye is still swollen no more pain tho.

I know this isn't how you would have really wanted things to go; but I am glad for you to hear that you're not in pain. Healing is always a slow process, and you're getting there little by little! 

[Tonny2]

                Ojo.         @ Leatherman, yes my friend but, it is what it is, since I got diagnosis of AIDS, I’m still fighting. For some reason, I had treatment failure since the beginning of treatment. That’s why I am in the situation that I am in, in addition to some medical errors but I’m still fighting and trying to not be bitter  about it. If I knew then what I kniw now, I wouldn’t allowed the retinal specialist
Some treatments that I didn’t need back then, but like I said, it is what it is and all of us we were learning how to treat CMB retinitis. But I can’t complain, I have had a good life, sometimes a little difficult but still life itself. Because even though what I’m going through, living with HIV, legally blind, osteoporosis, injecting myself every night, neuropathy pain 7/24 Life is still good. Well now I have to wait for my eye to heal completely and get my bionic. Hi, I would be the $6 million man. I will get you posted, so far so good, and then they prosthesis… Thanks for keeping an eye on me I really appreciate it and I will keep you posted… Hugs

[leatherman]

But I can’t complain, I have had a good life, sometimes a little difficult but still life itself

life itself! amen to that.

if anything good comes from long term survivor guilt, it's that I appreciate, even through the tough times, that just being alive is the absolute best fking thing and if I waste it or don't appreciate it, it's my own damn stupid fault. RIP Randy and Jim for showing me that life at it's hardest is still better than being dead.

Bionics? Oh hell yeah! For as good as I'm feeling at 62, I'm still 62 after a lot of AIDS, with a screwed up shoulder that really is going to be a terrible problem some day. I could use some bionics to spruce up a few joints, also some extra memory (since that's always been a problem) would be nice. 

[Tonny2]

             ojo.        @ Leatherman, Yes, my friend, is better being a life than dead. I would be 62 in August, like I said your story is more or less like mine. I also going to need surgery for my shoulders because I have a vascular necrosis and I will need both shoulders replacement but so far not that much pain. This problem with their avascular necrosis is 22 they use of prednisolone so watch out whenever some doctor prescribe prednisone and ask if it is necessary because there are some doctors that even for an infection they keep prednisone in addition with the antibiotic, that happens to me once and obviously I didn’t take The prednisolone.


I don’t know if you guys remember that I mentioned that my cousin had colon cancer and it metastasize to her liver and pancreas, today early morning, she died,R.I.P. she was as strong lady , fought cancer for five years, thankfully, we just got a virus that it is manageable as long as we take our medication as prescribed… my sisters cancer so far so good. She is done with her treatment and now just waiting for her reconstruction of her breast..… Hugs

[Jim Allen]

I am doing better, although my eye is still swollen no more pain tho.

Sorry that you had to go through this but glad to hear that the pain is gone and you are doing better.

Hugs and keep us posted.

[Tonny2]

             ojo.           @JimAllen, thank you, my friend for Reading sometimes even long timers need to hear from others because sometimes I feel like throwing the towel. But it is what it is we had to do what we had to do if we want to keep having a good quality of life. I really appreciate you lines, and of course I will keep you guys posted… Ha