Viral Blip. Mental spiral.

[Allthefeelings]

I've experienced a viral blip for the second time in four months; it was 32 in April, and now it's 104. I've been extremely diligent with my medication, but I can't help obsessing over my lab results. I'm aiming to switch from Biktarvy to either Dovato or Cabenuva, but it feels like a distant goal. When I was diagnosed in April 2022, my initial viral load was 80,000 and my CD4 count was just 22. Since then, my CD4 count has only slowly climbed above 200, and now with two consecutive blips, I'm feeling hopeless. I regret that I only reach out here when things are tough, but I don't really have anyone else to talk to about this.

[Tonny2]

           ojo.             Hello there!… no need to feel bad for not being here that often, as a matter fact, I tell everybody as soon as they know that they’re treatment is working to go back to their normal lives… well, two blips, they don’t look too bad to me, but, what did your doctor say about it?. Do you know your CD4%?… try to relax because if indeed you treatment is not working, you will have more options of treatment.… Good luck, and please keep us posted and try to relax, fortunately, now a days it’s not the end of the world… Hugs

[harleymc]

It took over 6 years to get over 200 t4 cells.


Try and book in to see a counsellor recommended by your HIV health care service and or start booking longer dr's appointments do you can talk these issues through.

Good luck

[daveR]

I can relate to how you feel. After years of being undetectable I had three six monthly checks all with increasing numbers. Ranged from 22 to just over 200. Then two months ago back to undetectable. The Dr at the time showed no concern what so ever. She initially blamed the laboratory on the first one and just shrugged at the next two results.

Try to relax and stop thinking about the numbers, you are on good medication, I am sure yours will do the same as mine did and drop back down. Occupy your mind some how, when not working I read. Meditate daily. Possibly find a hobby that helps you relax.

Dave