I'm tired of people getting angry at me for this.

[Mouse]

I'm sorry but I really have to rant because I'm so frustrated and hurt right now.

Recently I've been kind of sad because it seems all of my friends have a boyfriend or girlfriend but me. I know it's silly because I'm only 17 and I have plenty of time, blah blah blah. But it still bothers me and it makes me feel left out and shitty. Especially when I go to a party or something and everyone is like making out around or something and I'm just like, "... lol hay guys.".

It's awkward. And it sucks.

I've only really had... one actual relationship... relationship in which the actual purpose was to actually... date. Pretty much all of the other ones just called me their boyfriend so they had an excuse to pressure me into sex all the time. Well, Logan wasn't like that so much, either. BUT EVERYONE ELSE. That's two guys out of... a billion.

So, I was talking about it with a friend of mine and how much it hurt me that whenever it does seem that someone is interested in me, they wind up not actually being interested in ME but rather the fact that I don't really mind having sex early on/before an actual relationship. I suppose it's my fault because of the morals (lack of? lol) I have regarding that, but still, people just don't even usually pretend to have any respect for me with it and so I've kind of been trying to get away from that for a while now.

Well, my friend got all pissed off at me and was like, "WELL, AT LEAST GUYS ARE INTERESTED IN YOU AT ALL." And he got all annoyed and shit. And I was like. What? What kind of logic is that? I honestly would rather guys just stay away from me if they're going to use me. Seriously. I mean I understand the point that he's getting at that I don't seem to have trouble attracting guys USUALLY but I can't seem to actually get a real *~boyfriend~*. And it hurt me that he seems to think it's okay that none of those guys actually... you know... respect me... it's still preferrable because OMG THEY'RE INTERESTED.

I'm just annoyed right now. And pissed at him. I just think it's rude.


That and I'm super lonely right now. Lol. All of my ex boyfriends that I still talk to are in a relationship right now and it makes me feel like the loser out of all of them. Like I was the idiot or something because obviously they can get boyfriends and I cannot.

[marc11864]

 Just remember Jaser that getting a boyfriend is vastly different than keeping one. There are plenty who've gone for the quick and easy and wound up with zero, zip, zilch, nada.

 Take your time to work on issues about yourself that you want to improve while waiting for someone you find more appealing than what is coming down the line at you right now. Quality is WAAAAAaaay better than quantity. You'll find out that the ones who are gobbling up bfs as fast as they come aren't doing themselves any favors in the long run 

Marc (Who's learned his lesson the hard way.)

[puertorico2006]

boys are over-rated

but im sure you'll find someone soon enough....but honestly i find that friends fill the void of not having a bf for me....

-josh
(who is over men "for today")