Author Topic: HIV and the City!! (Read 11669 times)

pozguy75 · « **on:** August 25, 2006, 10:31:41 am »

Well, here I am...In Charlotte, NC: single, pretty (enough), and HIV +ve!

I have met a lot of new people here in Charlotte, and I have noticed something that I haven't noticed before...guys want to have sex with me! I mean a lot of sex...I am not shy about telling people my status, as a matter of fact, I am fairly open about it...especially when engaging in the nasty!!

I think my full disclosure, has actually helped me...meaning, it seems to weed out the people that don't matter...As Dr. Seuss said: "Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." And in my recent experiences, this has proven to be absolutely true!

I have taken an extended absence from the forums recently, because I needed to wrap my head around my being single after 9 years...I find myself getting to like the single life...no one to answer to but me. And yet in this city that hustle and bustles I seem to feel alone...every now and again. But please no one feel sorry for me, for feeling this way...it is actually welcomed. I am enjoying my alone time...I have made some fast friends and we hang out a few times a week and that makes all the better.

Any way back to the sex part...I feel liberated in a way...because, the feelings of shame I had before, seem to be dissipating to the nether reaches of my mind and soul, allowing me to move forward and feeling whole again. And yes, it includes sex...a sexual freedom so to speak. And part of the freedom is allowed me by my disclosure...which people find both refreshing and honest which they seem to appreciate. So, when a guy comes up to me in a bar...we chat, we feel each other up, I mean out...and if I feel like doing the deed...it comes out. Loud, clear and coherently. It makes me a better person, I think...but also it contributes to containing this beast that rages through my veins from getting out...because I am in control of it. No one, can take that away from me, my being in control. It really in empowering...

I have been meaning to post out here for the past few weeks, but I wasn't ready just yet...now, I am.

I have missed you all terribly, and I am sorry to have missed the gathering in Montreal...but work couldn't afford my absence, so, I made the decision to stay. So, I thought I would post a short little message of how things are, and you will be happy to note, that things are really good right now! And I am for the first time, in a very long time...happy with me...I am proud of me.

I love you all,
Jeromy

allopathicholistic · « **Reply #1 on:** August 25, 2006, 10:37:20 am »

Quote from: pozguy75 on August 25, 2006, 10:31:41 am

...and if I feel like doing the deed...it comes out. Loud, clear and coherently. It makes me a better person, I think...but also it contributes to containing this beast that rages through my veins from getting out...because I am in control of it. No one, can take that away from me, my being in control. It really in empowering...

Uplifting and wonderful. Thank you. My crystal ball says you will meet another pozzie and he will be your Mister Right!

Matty the Damned · « **Reply #2 on:** August 25, 2006, 10:47:59 am »

What about Paul?

MtD

Alain · « **Reply #3 on:** August 25, 2006, 10:49:25 am »

AlanBama · « **Reply #4 on:** August 25, 2006, 10:49:38 am »

I'm proud of you too! And I've missed you honey. Glad you came back and checked in with us, and made this post. I thought about you in Montreal ; I knew that you had planned to go but your job had a different idea in mind!

I'd say those guys in Charlotte are lucky to have you there.

Hugs,

Alan

pozguy75 · « **Reply #5 on:** August 25, 2006, 10:52:52 am »

Quote from: matty.the.damned on August 25, 2006, 10:47:59 am

What about Paul?

MtD

Umm...didn't quite work out...let's just put it that way...

wellington · « **Reply #6 on:** August 25, 2006, 10:53:03 am »

Ain't nothing wrong with being poz, and your post just proved it quite succinctly. You go!

chemistry001 · « **Reply #7 on:** August 25, 2006, 10:59:23 am »

Jeromy

What a wonderful post to read, you've put a smile on my face on a day when its needed

Much Love

Paul

Matty the Damned · « **Reply #8 on:** August 25, 2006, 11:00:07 am »

Umm...didn't quite work out...let's just put it that way...

Yeah he looked the uptight me. Not able to cope with the Jeromy Philosophy. I've met a boy too. His name is Michael. We've agreed to "go about" which means date for Americans. I have pictures.

MtD

pozguy75 · « **Reply #9 on:** August 25, 2006, 11:44:44 am »

Quote from: matty.the.damned on August 25, 2006, 11:00:07 am

Umm...didn't quite work out...let's just put it that way...

Yeah he looked the uptight me. Not able to cope with the Jeromy Philosophy. I've met a boy too. His name is Michael. We've agreed to "go about" which means date for Americans. I have pictures.

MtD

Yea!! I want pictures...and they need to be dirty!!

LatinAlexander · « **Reply #10 on:** August 25, 2006, 12:08:29 pm »

Congrats Jeromy!!!!!

Alex

Emilio · « **Reply #11 on:** August 25, 2006, 03:39:08 pm »

Hey Jeromy,

Drop me a line if you visit London. I ve got pictures too, lol!

Emilio

RapidRod · « **Reply #12 on:** August 25, 2006, 03:55:22 pm »

Jeromy, just pass me your castaways. The ones that are tired of the city and want to be a redneck.

Florida69 · « **Reply #13 on:** August 25, 2006, 04:00:59 pm »

You know, I am seeing the same type of thing. However, I am being a little more selective. Glad to see someone else is seeing what I see. D

bear60 · « **Reply #14 on:** August 25, 2006, 05:02:15 pm »

Your post made me feel good. Its great that the move was successful.

ndrew · « **Reply #15 on:** August 25, 2006, 06:33:14 pm »

Thanks for sharing this Jeremy. I can see this place to get to. I think I am grieving and letting go of the person who thought he would be alone and unwanted.

I have nothing to be ashamed of... guys do seem to appreciate the honesty and even have esteem for it.

Thank you for your good energy!

Kindest,
Andrew

Life · « **Reply #16 on:** August 25, 2006, 07:22:56 pm »

Jeromy, I have missed you.... I am glad and hopeful that your journey will be a vantastic one.... Ps... The leaves are starting to fall in Colorado...

Love

Eldon · « **Reply #17 on:** August 26, 2006, 12:09:24 am »

Hello Jeromy, it is Eldon. It is good to have you back on the forums. It is also a good thing to hear that all is going well with you! There is only one way to spell "good" and that is good.

RobT · « **Reply #18 on:** August 26, 2006, 03:20:51 am »

Jeromy-
Glad to see u back in the forums again. I've missed u. I am happy that everything seems to b working out for u.

RobT

9/27/2005-1st test results
Viral Load >1,000,000
CD4 204
CD4%age 18
CD4/CD8 ratio .23
11/24/2005- Sustiva/Truvada
04/18/2006
Viral Load 140
CD4 402
CD4%age .21
CD4/CD8 ratio .39
06/27/2006
Viral Load 42
CD4 409
CD4%age .21
08/01/2006
Viral load- undetectable
CD4 493
CD4%age .33

Next lab: 09/01/2006

bobik · « **Reply #19 on:** August 26, 2006, 07:00:42 am »

Dear Jeromy,

damn I missed you!
Welcome back, sweetie and I am glad you enjoy the big city

Coen

pozguy75 · « **Reply #20 on:** August 27, 2006, 07:45:03 pm »

Hi everyone...thanks for the warm welcome back!! I have missed you all dearly!! I just needed to sort somethings out..

Things are going really well, and I am very happy these days...I didn't think that I could be...but I am. I am getting ready to run out and hang with some friends at the local watering hole for us leather babies!!

I love you all and I will be back to post soon!!

Ciao for now!
J

aphaun · « **Reply #21 on:** August 27, 2006, 09:47:38 pm »

Very cool.

Teresa · « **Reply #22 on:** August 27, 2006, 11:19:25 pm »

Nice to see your smiling face back!

Hugs
Teresa

manchesteruk · « **Reply #23 on:** August 28, 2006, 06:29:12 am »

Good to see you back Jeromy I was wondering what you were up to. I'm glad the move has turned out well for you!

Nadine · « **Reply #24 on:** August 28, 2006, 08:13:55 am »

Jeromy,

It is wonderful to see you back here and you sound so happy! I'm glad everything has worked out for you with the move, seems like you just picked yourself right up and took off!

Take care Mr. Smiley

bobik · « **Reply #25 on:** August 28, 2006, 10:11:14 am »

{{{{{{{{{{leatherbaby Jeromy}}}}}}}}}}

cmhjeff · « **Reply #26 on:** August 28, 2006, 10:48:32 am »

Quote from: pozguy75 on August 25, 2006, 10:31:41 am

I think my full disclosure, has actually helped me...

Jer, I'm so happy for you! I've experienced the same reactions many times making the sex just that much better.

cmhjeff · « **Reply #27 on:** August 28, 2006, 10:52:50 am »

Quote from: pozguy75 on August 25, 2006, 10:31:41 am

guys want to have sex with me! I mean a lot of sex...

DUH!!! Don't we all?

<oink>

cmhjeff · « **Reply #28 on:** August 28, 2006, 11:08:02 am »

Quote from: pozguy75 on August 25, 2006, 10:31:41 am

I feel liberated in a way...because, the feelings of shame I had before, seem to be dissipating to the nether reaches of my mind and soul, allowing me to move forward and feeling whole again. And yes, it includes sex...a sexual freedom so to speak. And part of the freedom is allowed me by my disclosure...which people find both refreshing and honest which they seem to appreciate. So, when a guy comes up to me in a bar...we chat, we feel each other up, I mean out...and if I feel like doing the deed...it comes out. Loud, clear and coherently. It makes me a better person, I think...but also it contributes to containing this beast that rages through my veins from getting out...because I am in control of it. No one, can take that away from me, my being in control. It really in empowering...

Exactly where those feelings need to be and how you should be feeling!

cmhjeff · « **Reply #29 on:** August 28, 2006, 11:12:18 am »

Quote from: pozguy75 on August 25, 2006, 10:31:41 am

..happy with me...I am proud of me.

I'm HAPPY for you and PROUD of you!

I've missed you!

david25luvit · « **Reply #30 on:** August 29, 2006, 09:46:18 am »

Jeromy...

Nice to have you back...and NO. It doesn't surprise me that guys wanna have sex with you.
You're hot sweetie! As for your disclosing...and your attitude toward those who can't handle
it.......YOU GO BOY!

I'm going on a ROAD TRIP at the end of Sept coming up that way after
stopping in South Carolina to see a friend..... headed toward Vermont and beyond...
You may find me knocking on your door

...with a shit-eating grin on my face

MoltenStorm · « **Reply #31 on:** August 29, 2006, 12:19:17 pm »

Viva la Liberacion!

pozguy75 · « **Reply #32 on:** August 29, 2006, 01:39:10 pm »

Quote from: david25luvit on August 29, 2006, 09:46:18 am

Jeromy...

Nice to have you back...and NO. It doesn't surprise me that guys wanna have sex with you.
You're hot sweetie! As for your disclosing...and your attitude toward those who can't handle
it.......YOU GO BOY!

I'm going on a ROAD TRIP at the end of Sept coming up that way after
stopping in South Carolina to see a friend..... headed toward Vermont and beyond...
You may find me knocking on your door ...with a shit-eating grin on my face

Well PM me, and I can set you up...

Eldon · « **Reply #33 on:** August 29, 2006, 11:37:15 pm »

Hey Jeromy, that is wonderful hospitality! Can you cook? LOL!

Sky · « **Reply #34 on:** August 30, 2006, 02:55:49 am »

Great to hear you're doing so well boi! Of course people wanna have sex with you, are you crazy! You're hawt my dear!!!

pozguy75 · « **Reply #35 on:** August 30, 2006, 02:33:09 pm »

You are all so sweet...yes I do cook Eldon...how do you like your Big Macs??

And Sky...

I am blushing!!

Moffie65 · « **Reply #36 on:** August 30, 2006, 03:30:12 pm »

Hi Jeromy,

Well, I cannot tell you how happy I am reading this thread. I have yelled for years that folks should nail the HIV closet shut for life, as the "empowerment" that comes over you, when you take that step is incredible. People cannot mess with your brain or your life when you "OWN" this damn viral protein.

So glad you are having a good time, and yes, those times alone can be golden if we only are imaginative enough to enjoy them.

In Love and Support.

Eldon · « **Reply #37 on:** August 30, 2006, 09:52:54 pm »

Jeromy, Big Macs?...please make them cook to order.

Have the BEST Day.

Sky · « **Reply #38 on:** August 30, 2006, 10:57:34 pm »

I only speak the truth boi

aztecan · « **Reply #39 on:** August 30, 2006, 11:15:01 pm »

Jeromy,

My dear young man! I am so glad to see you back!

Now, regarding your "discovery" that men want to have sex with you - PUHLEEZE!

Remember, I have seen you in your half-nakedness (with leather accoutrements). Honey, you could rock the socks off of any man - or men if your tastes lean toward group activities.

I'm so happy for you! Sounds like the South shall rise again - pun intended.

HUGS,

Mark

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