I feel bored, depressed, unimpressed, horny, and scared at times…
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delilah07:
Could it be that I am almost 45. Realizing how much I have to work to earn enough to just live. Yet I’m looking forward to saving enough for guitar lessons. I used to be excited about just getting up in the day. Now I struggle to find a good reason. I guess homelessness does scare me. Then again I dislike my job most days. I work as a cashier. I’m also a more serious person. Like let me just do my job, get paid, and go home. I’m polite. For example I don’t correct people, although I hear things. I ignore and don’t mention anything to anyone. A reason I like to be alone. I just want to be middle class. At least. It’s tough because I’m not sure how to get along with people. I like to be alone at times. I eat lunch in my car at work. I need the calm and quiet. When I was hired I had no idea I’d be working with people on parole. I learned what PO means. Again, a reason to be alone. I wish I could find a good job that fits my personality and need for calm.