Short Update

[Biggums]

Hi,

I thought I best give you a short update.  I am sorry I have been so sick the past few days with some kind of sinus thing and haven't been on here much.

The emotions of all that have happened run the gamut each door, sometimes hourly.  I find myself glad it is over and mourning within minutes of each other.  I am just kinda numb most of the time.  I love him and miss him so much but god what a nightmare it was and is. 

I have that mtg with my job tomorrow.   I don't have alot of hope.  Right now I know I cant stay here.  I need to find me a safe place to live and start over where he cant find me.  I may end up at Boo's in NO still too.  Hes a kind man.

Money is horrible right now although my two benefactors did help me with that 120 which was a miracle.  I asked the salvation army for some assistance but they said i made too much money this year and didn't qualify.  Oh well.

My main goal is to dodge the landlord for awhile longer and find enough money to get my things into storage and hit the road somewhere. 

Please keep me in your thoughts.  I need them.

Love Ya'll,
Jim

[Queen Tokelove]

Jim,

Hi sweetie, sorry to hear you are not feeling well, I hope you get better soon. I know you are still feeling the pain but it will be less with time, trust me, I just got out of a 4 yr relationship last year. Sometimes I still find myself thinking about him but I realize it reached it's boiling point and could not go any further. Well this isn't about me but just giving you some love. Take it easy.

[Eldon]

Hey Jim!

It is GOOD to hear back from you. A lot of the members have been asking about you. It is GOOD that you are giving us an update so that we can keep up with what is going on. We are here to HELP you through this situation in your life. As this has an emotional effect on you, there are bound to be some physical changes going on as well. You may want to check with your Doctor to check in see if you have a Sinus infection.

In the midst of all of this, there will be a lot of different phases in your life that will occur so be prepared for this. Love is the greatest emotion of them all and it does hurt when you loose someone who was close to your heart. There are pros and cons that go along with your prior relationship as you have described. Letting go and readjusting to these changes is the best thing that you can do.

With your meeting tomorrow with your employer, try not to go in with expectations. However, go in with the outlook that it may be possible for you to have a good outcome from this meeting. Remember that you are your safe place and your safe person. True enough you may want to change your environment due to the other influences that exist.

As for Boo, his heart is in the right place as he has prepared an avenue for you to pursue in order to HELP you with your readjustment to this experience in your life. My hat goes off to Boo and his heart, mind and soul for reaching out to help you. It is a prime example of what we all should do for each other. If we do not help ourselves, then who else will?

From the financial aspect of it, this does cause an inner anxiety as you have been placed in an awkward situation which creates unknowns for you. With this setback in your life, it has presented a set of limitations for you. With these added influences, you may want to consider a solid plan of action in order to overcome these limitations that have been placed in your path.

Exercise all of your options that you have available to you. One of these options will be that crane to pull you out of the quicksand. Try not to make irrational moves but solid ones. Weigh all of your choices. Once doing so, the one in which outweighs the others may be you better choice.

It is unfortunate that there are guidelines that have been put in place with certain organizations in order to assist you. Don’t stop there. Continue to look for more avenues to pursue. You have established your main goal right now. With this goal being clear in mind, the possibilities exist on a higher level of frutition.

Make contact with Boo if you have not done so already. Make your plans for the transition. I am sending you my continued positive energies and thoughts as well as prayers for you during this transitional phase of your life. Please do keep us posted.

"Don't Give Up, Don't Give In... Cause it is ALL within you to WIN!"