Leon82:
Thank you all for your answers. It is weird but i feel a connection with all of you even if i do not know you personally. This is a really warm feeling. So, i took my first Biktarvy yesterday, i didn't notice anything weird. I read here in forum people's experience with this med, i just hope i do not gain weight.... generally, i ve always been in a healthy lifestyle. I am going on with my life like nothing bad happened, i keep going to the gym, i meet friends etc because i feel that if i let myself be depressed right now, it is going to last forever... and then it wont be easy for me to find the strenght to go back to my usual lifestyle. I am not into alcohol, cigarettes, weed etc but if i do these things right now, i think it wont help me at all... i just vape nicotine, my doc said i should quit vaping too but i do not feel ready to quit vaping right now. Generally, i try to be compassionate with myself these days.
PS. Sorry for my english ;D ;D
Tonny2:
ojo. Hi Leon!, I think your English is better than mine so no worries. I’m glad you feel connected to us and if you need someone to talk to privately, you can do it. I read somewhere that the medication you’re taking mostly women were they won who gained weight. I know some people, men, they having gained any weight at all. Just try to keep yourself busy doing what you used to do and just take your medication as prescribed. I like your attitude, no blame in anyone, and taking responsibility of your diagnosis… Please keep us posted , and again we are here for you… abrazos
Tonny2:
ojo. @Leon, one more thing, do not start disclosing to anyone your hiv status until you are sure if you want to do it, in my case just my family knows.about my status even after almost 30 years since my dx I haven’t told any of my friends, although I imagine that my closest friends knows but he has never said anything to me. It’s just a little advice… Hugs.
Leon82:
Thank you for your advice, @Tonny2 . I disclosed to my best friend and my partner, they are both very supportive. I haven't disclosed to my family and i do not intend to. I just hope they do not find out by accident in the future... I am on day 5 with Biktarvy, a little bit of diarrheia but ok. Everything is fine but there are some times i feel really stressed with what has happened. I did not take any pills in my life, not even simple painkillers for headache, so now it is difficult for me to compromise with the idea that i will have to take one pill every day for the rest of my life. Like i can not accept it. The idea of their toxicity makes me really stressed and sad.
Jim Allen:
The odds are you will be taking more daily pills as you age. This is just the first managble health condition and treatment. Thankfully though, you have access to this modern once a day treatment that's not toxic and you also will be monitored.
You are newly diagnosed and it's a lot to digest, give yourself and your body time to adjust, and in a few months chances are you will not think about it anymore. Peer support helps and talking to a therapist can also do good.