Intro innuendo26 & Questions about dating

[innuendo26]

I wanted to post in here because maybe I could get some feedback/guidance. I was involved with someone for 6+ months that did not know my status. I know that it was wrong to conceal for that long and I’d planned on telling them sooner, I just kept waiting for the right time and I felt like I dug myself so deep I didn’t know what to do. An early conversation of our about them not liking that someone they had a negative experience with that was Undetectable was my main reasoning for not saying anything.

When I finally shared 2 1/2 weeks ago they took it hard but told me that we could work through it together and that we would be okay. Last night they randomly broke up with me and told me they couldn’t shake the fact that I waited so long. A part of me understands and knows that I did in fact break trust by waiting so long but I just thought with all the work that we put in and love for each other would help us see things through. I’m a complete wreck right now and feeling resentful because there are so many things early on that I shouldn’t have tolerated but I worked through with them only for this to be the end result. I’m not trying to establish blame or point the finger because I know that it was wrong of me to conceal it for so long. I just feel super crappy that a person I thought loved me & told me that we could work through anything... looked me in my eyes and made it so causal in letting me go.

I should’ve listened to my gut and ran when all the red flags started pouring in at the beginning. Dating while living with HIV has been so hard and exhausting. Has anyone found lasting romance? Besides the fact of telling them head on which I know I didn’t do... are there any tips someone could give me?