I'm still hoping this is just a nightmare.

[solace]

I don't know where to start so I'll just say it like it happened.

on 29 February 2016 there was a health and wellness program at work so I thought "why not?". little did I know that my life was about to take a huge turn. so this lovely lady  asks me again that when was the last time I tested for HIV  and I calmly tell her it was last year October 2015, without telling me my results she asks if she could confirm something by taking another test. I immediately  felt like the world was crashing down on me. long story short I am HIV positive.

I told my fiance the same day and he also got tested turns out he is negative. He is very supportive  but I'm sooo broken I'm trying to be positive and not stress too much but sometimes  I'm weak. so my lab results  came back i dont really understand  most of the stuff there but my Cd4  count is 725 and in South Africa you don't get meds unless it's much lower. I've been lurking on this forum and today I finally  decided  to be a part of it. looking for support and really to be at my best and live a happy life

[Jim Allen]

Welcome to the forum.

Sorry to hear about your diagnosis. It can take time to digest the news but really glad to hear you have a supportive partner to help you.

Jim

[Wade]

Hi
I'm also sorry to hear about your diagnosis, but glad you found us.
This forum is like a small community full of many caring and knowledgeable people
who are always around to lend support. 
Getting over the initial bumps can be tough, but you're going to be fine.

Best, Wade

[Tonny2]

           ojo          Hello solace...welcome...I know that you feel like a nightmare, but, getting tested was the best thing you could have done, now you know you have it, sadly, you won'y be able to treat it yet, according to what you said about your country's policies, but your numbers are great, obviously it would have been nicer to test negative, but, it is what it is, now, with a good attitude, having hiv is just a virus in your body, that, when you start treatment, will feel and  will keep doing what you were doing before your dx, you can still keep dreaming about the future, I never thought, a bunch of nieces and nephews would made me a grand uncle, OMG!, I've become an old fart, lol...so, you will be fine, you have your fiance by your side and again, a good attitude, they will help you to feel accompany, ah!, and we are here for you too, so, you are not alone, cheer up, that your nightmare, it might be a life saving nightmare, now you are aware of the virus and as soon as you can start treatment, you will, other wise, without knowing it, you might have gotten a worse nightmare by being in the hospital, possibly, dying of an OI, so, cheer up, we are all here for you, you can vent, rant, we will here you...hugs for you and your nice fiance           
                                                                                                                 ojo