Author Topic: My Story (Read 30480 times)

Andy Velez · « **Reply #50 on:** December 15, 2007, 01:07:11 pm »

It's good to know that those other test results were negative. As I am certain your Rapid test will be as well.

Get on with your life and remember to use a condom everytime when having intercourse. They do they job very effectively.

Good luck to you.

Kotzen · « **Reply #51 on:** February 02, 2008, 09:16:08 am »

Hi guys.

Just did the rapid test couple days ago. And just like you guys told me in your first reply couple months ago it was negative. Can´t believe i couldn´t trust you guys immediately=) Well, anyways i feel great again.

Just couple of words to other ppl in this forum. Trust these guys no matter what your head is saying to you. Life´s too short for worrying and losing 3months of your life like i did when being complete mess past few months.

Seeking info from net.. hmm.. one shouldn´t do that! If you need someone to talk to.. call hiv-centers! Not to local doctor because they sometimes really don´t know what they´re saying or their info is seriously outdated. That´s my experience.. And i´m from country where the public healthcare system is each year rated top 3 in the world. Still the "average-joe" doctor with fancy p.hd might no know what they´re saying!!=) sad but true.

Thanks and good health to everyone!

Kotzen · « **Reply #52 on:** December 07, 2010, 01:03:52 pm »

Not sure if supposed to start new thread or keep it in same postings i posted few years ago so i continued this one.

About 3 weeks ago i got again floolishly drunk and somewhere along the line hook up with CSW (bit blacked out where i met her..since last postings i have been trying to be carefull not to put myself into these situations but again did it!). We went to her place and started sitting down and smoking cigarettes. I was quite drunk so i just wanted to get sleep (dont ask me why I went there then!!). She went to kitchen and after a while brought me opened can beer. Stupidly i started drinking it and next thing i know i started feeling really tired and stumbled my way to bedroom where i passed out with all my clothes on (this is 100% sure). Next morning i woke up in the same spot naked.

CSW came into room and i asked her why am i naked and she said we had sex. I said no because couldn´t remember anything and then she said to me that there´s condom on the floor. I looked at the condom and there was no sperm and it looked like it has been put there to convince me about us having had sex (it was so neatly opened and placed next to the condom paper). She started telling me how eager i was for sex etc. At this moment i got into shock/panic because couldn´t remember anything about sex. All i remembered is i went to bed and passed out! After that i put my clothes on and realised all my money was taken from my wallet. She claimed me giving it to her although i couldnt remember. Went home and later realised that all my money was taken from my account. I have contacted police about this..

Anyways what terrifies me now that later that day i started having these flashback/false memory/dream that someone took off my clothes. I also had this flashback of me being naked and thinking what am i doing?/ Does she have disease/am i having condom? and started to have sex but it felt quite unreal (that´s where the "memory" ends of .. Can´t say it happened but can´t say it didn´t). This came later into my mind when i went home and started going this thing through my mind over and over again. I know you can´t give answers based on this story and i know this is not webpage for anxiety issues. Thought telling this thing so i could ask my question.

Is there any point at all testing before 6weeks (according to this forum 6week test gives good signs but has the info changed during past 3 years)? I´m trying to survive next 3weeks and test at 6weeks + in 12weeks mark.

Tried not to bother you guys over this matter but here I am. Waiting game again and feeling completely lost and sure i can´t be lucky if my flashbacks are true.

Cheers

Andy Velez · « **Reply #53 on:** December 07, 2010, 05:43:12 pm »

Yes Kotzen, you are supposed to use the same thread for all entries, so you did the right thing by putting your latest entry in here.

As you are aware you can't be certain what happened and what didn't happen during this latest incident. So although I do expect you to come out of this ok. the prudent thing to do is to get tested. Assuming you test negative at 6 weeks then the likelihood is you will continue to test negative.

This mixing casual sex and excessive drinking that includes blacking out is dangerous stuff. If this kind of behavior is a recurring problem for you maybe it's time to get some professional help. We can't help you with that in this setting.

Kotzen · « **Reply #54 on:** December 08, 2010, 03:27:38 am »

Thanks Andy.

I have cut my drinking after this incident. Hopefully not too late now. Can´t believe i put myself into this situation.

I believe it was con-job because all my money has been taken from my account (believe she saw my PIN while taking some money from ATM). I rely on your previous postings and try to ignore symptoms which seems to be coming all the time while worrying like hell and getting depressed. But will get tested in 6weeks and then 12weeks.

I guess I´ll to concentrate my energy on other things and let time pass... Well, thats the only thing I can do. Happy upcoming holidays.

Andy Velez · « **Reply #55 on:** December 08, 2010, 08:44:29 am »

Yes, it does sound as if were "had" in this incident, and I don't mean sexually.

I do expect you to come out of this ok. Get busy with other things during the waiting period. It will help the time to pass more easily than you may imagine is possible.

Cheers.

Kotzen · « **Reply #56 on:** December 14, 2010, 01:45:35 am »

Managed to stay calm for some days but now these symptom are making me afraid.

1 week plus after possible incident i started having off and on diarrheas. Been having some rash in my body but its so cold and dry weather here.
2 week plus after incident started having stuffed nose here and there and occasional night sweats
3week plus after incident all of the above continues, but last night i had this strange sensation. When i was sleeping in sofa i felt my legs are all going numb and tingling . First was thinking bad position. Then i always started to wake up and feel my legs "numbish". I freaked out and couldn´t sleep at all. Then suddenly i started feeling tingling feeling all over my body and it lasted for a while. I have been reading that this kind of symptoms are due to Hiv. What else could it be? I have this burning skin sensation.. I have been very depressed and scared for past couple weeks so not sure whether it is "psychological".

Does this sound like ARS? How does the ARS rash looks like? Is the tingling/burning skin typical ARS symptom?

I´m now very sure i have hiv. There´s no other explanation.=(

Ann · « **Reply #57 on:** December 14, 2010, 04:05:57 am »

Kot,

We discussed the rash that sometimes accompanies hiv seroconversion with you in detail three years ago. Re-read your thread. And NO, your rash sounds nothing like ARS rash. NOTHING.

The tingling you feel is attributed to hiv is nothing to do with hiv. When a positive person has this problem, it is caused by some of the older meds used to treat hiv, not hiv itself.

Just like three years ago, every single one of your symptoms can be attributed to stress.

It sounds to me like you were robbed, but not taken advantage of sexually. It's extremely difficult for a man to become erect enough when as drunk and/or drugged as you were. So I very much doubt any risky sexual activities took place.

Please be warned that you will not be permitted to use this website in the same manner as you did three years ago. You will quickly be given another time out (this one will last for 56 days) if you become obsessive once again.

Ann

Kotzen · « **Reply #58 on:** December 14, 2010, 04:49:51 am »

Thanks Ann.

I really tried not to write here but i went into total panic and I trust your info concerning symptoms (although they should not be discussed). I do understand your frustration towards my writings.

I´m seeking professional help for my issues if they continue. Managed to cock up loads of stuff this time. Thanks and have good holidays.

Kotzen · « **Reply #59 on:** December 14, 2010, 01:27:50 pm »

Before you guys pan me. Is the freezing feeling in body/legs same case as in tingling/burning what Ann answered?
Not to be associated with ARS? Sorry i´m wreck..

Kotzen · « **Reply #60 on:** December 20, 2010, 11:52:24 am »

Any answers on my previous post? Last thursday went to doctor to show my glands. She said they´re fine. After that i have been "feeling" them (4 weeks after possible risky business). Just a moment ago i noticed couple red dots in my tongue (feeling like bit burned). As in there is no "hair" on those parts. Is that common in primary hiv infection. Please answer.

Andy Velez · « **Reply #61 on:** December 20, 2010, 12:31:55 pm »

Nothing you are reporting symptomatically is suggestive of HIV.

I am going to give you a last warning. If you come back with more of this stuff you will get a 56 day Time Out. We can't help you with your non-HIV problem. Get the professional help you need. We just can't address your issues in this setting.

Kotzen · « **Reply #62 on:** December 21, 2010, 10:11:11 am »

Thanks Andy for your quick response and sorry for driving you guys crazy.

I have seeked professional help that i need. Its just that this issue is too big to handle. All these new symptoms that keep popping (muscle stiffness/aches and general malaise). Finding your thoughts very helpful (symptoms comes all same time and majority get them between 2-4weeks) Haven´t slept properly for long time so I guess it makes all these symptoms happening as well (stress)

Anyways, I wish you guys good Xmas. Will try to take rapid HIV test end of next week (6weeks mark) and hopefully can come back with good news.. Thanks and so sorry for my behaviour!

Kotzen · « **Reply #63 on:** December 24, 2010, 02:14:48 am »

Promised not to write anymore but couldn´t.. =( Week ago doctor said my glands are normal under my jaw, but Tuesday noticed one is bigger (its quite big) than last week. And still is.. Its soft and doesnt hurt. No other noticeable symptom at the moment. Could this be ARS? Pls answer and you can give me timeout.. Im really worried now. So sad Xmas this year=). Hope other ppls have better.

Ann · « **Reply #64 on:** December 24, 2010, 02:44:41 am »

Kotzen,

No, one swollen gland isn't a sign of ARS. What it IS a sign of is a person who can't keep their hands off their glands and causes them to swell.

I'm giving you that time out you asked for. Do not attempt to create a new account to get around your time out because if you do, you will be permanently banned.

Ann

Kotzen · « **Reply #65 on:** February 24, 2011, 07:40:47 am »

Hi,

All tests negative on proper time frame (Hiv, Chlamydia, Gonorrhea, Syfilis).

Thanks for helping me out and sorry for being irritating once again. Promised myself for not to put myself anymore into this kind of situation. Mentioned about this webpage to our local Hiv - center worker. They knew this webpage (up here in Scandinavia) and said this is reliable webpage. Just to let you guys know=)

Managed to calm down very well and the time out really did good for me. Hopefully i wont be repeat customer here anymore. Got unprotected blowjob from one woman, but your answers on previous postings made me calm (no worries on HIV and that what i was being told by our health officials as well).

Take good care.

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