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Author Topic: "What are you doing New Year's / New Year's Eve?" -- yeah, that song  (Read 6402 times)

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Offline CalvinC

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Of course they're playing that song on the jazz station; why wouldn't they?

Never liked the holidays much; and though I'm feeling blue right now, it's not because of the holidays. Rather, I'm coming to believe that I'm seeing the guy I'm seeing (see history: https://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=78082.0) in part because I really like him and in part because I'm terrified of being by myself.

He's away for a few days, and that's fine. But I'm free, then, to entertain the worst of thoughts, namely that I've put so much stock in him -- it's as though he's become my "project" -- that when he's not around I get the deep feels about my place in the world, and it's not the best feeling.

So I'm trying to just sit with the feeling, and it's hard. Of course, it's not fair that I should ever expect him to fill whatever void is in me, and I don't think I've been getting him to do that, at least not consciously. There is much else I can keep busy with, and I don't want to do half of it. Lethargy and entropy . . . . these things are dangerous.

I'm rambling. But I'm hoping that y'all are looking forward to a new, better year, as I am (despite my misgivings). On to 2025.

cal

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Re: "What are you doing New Year's / New Year's Eve?" -- yeah, that song
« Reply #1 on: January 01, 2025, 11:36:47 am »
so, NYE wasn't too much here in our house. Larry and I are both over 55, and work habits make staying up until midnight a lot tougher. I mean, we "could" stay up that late but there's gotta be a party or something to make it worth the effort. LOL And this year, none of our friends (who keep getting older too. LOL) had a party. Since Larry had work this morning, us and the dogs just went to bed at our regular time. Yea! 2025!!

I sent you a pm about other parts of your post. :)
leatherman (aka Michael)

We were standing all alone
You were leaning in to speak to me
Acting like a mover shaker
Dancing to Madonna then you kissed me
And I think about it all the time
- Darren Hayes, "Chained to You"

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Re: "What are you doing New Year's / New Year's Eve?" -- yeah, that song
« Reply #2 on: January 01, 2025, 06:38:40 pm »



                   ojo.                 @CalvinC, may I ask you a question?. Is your “partner the same age you are?…I feel bad about your situation (romantic)…hugs

Offline CalvinC

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Re: "What are you doing New Year's / New Year's Eve?" -- yeah, that song
« Reply #3 on: January 01, 2025, 09:22:43 pm »
Tonny2, he is 35. I am 66. I wasn't looking for a younger guy.... I wasn't looking for anybody in particular, it just happened. That he is much younger isn't the draw (and has never been). I like who I like. On the other hand, he had very much an idea of who he wanted, he told me after: over 50 to 65, in shape, attractive (according to what he likes), educated. Tick tick tick tick. But it was difficult (for me) at first, especially considering that he's barely out of the closet. So I give him space and when we're together it's great. He's met my family, twice. Slowly things move along.

All that aisde, if he wasn't there I'd be doing -- what? I don't know. I'm not into bar hopping or baths etc, and I play lots of sports, I like my job, have friends. . . . but I'd rather be lonely that be with someone for the sake of having a warm body at night. But that doesn't stop what else might be going on: I'm procrasting somewhat and that's never a good sign.

One New Year's resolution (and I never make big ones) and that's to stop playing Solitaire online. hahaha! So far so good!

cal

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Re: "What are you doing New Year's / New Year's Eve?" -- yeah, that song
« Reply #4 on: January 02, 2025, 12:16:54 am »



           ojo.               Hello Calvin…humm!, The point isn’t if he has met your family I guess, the point is if you have met his family. Do you know what I mean?. I’m sorry to say this to you but this kind of relationships don’t work.sorry to be so blunt but he’s playing you. I think that you should look for someone around your age if you  really want a relationship.… Just a thought…hugs

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Re: "What are you doing New Year's / New Year's Eve?" -- yeah, that song
« Reply #5 on: January 03, 2025, 08:52:18 pm »
The point isn’t if he has met your family I guess, the point is if you have met his family. Do you know what I mean?. I’m sorry to say this to you but this kind of relationships don’t work.
I think you misread into that post, Tonny. Calvin never mentioned the situation with his family. Just that the boyfriend was still closeted somewhat. Maybe the boyfriend is closeted at work and Calvin has already met the boyfriend's family. We just don't know enough.

I read Calvin's first post and thought it's not so much the boyfriend is a "project" as much as their feelings are growing and maybe there's some love brewing in there. Feeling "lonely" when your partner isn't there isn't so much a mental health issue as much as what you can feel when you're in love.
leatherman (aka Michael)

We were standing all alone
You were leaning in to speak to me
Acting like a mover shaker
Dancing to Madonna then you kissed me
And I think about it all the time
- Darren Hayes, "Chained to You"

 


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