I am so fucking pissed!!!

[Lis]

Christine has passed and it SUCKS!!!!!!!!!~!!!

for all the newbees that think that HIV is a walk in the park,,,,   NOT SO MUCH!!!!

My thoughts and prayers to her family... I know she is ok now... but we mere mortals aren't

[Queen Tokelove]

I never considered it a walk in the park but when things start to fall apart, and I use that for lack of a better word, I can only hope I can muster the courage and class that Christine did.

[komnaes]

As a newbie I can assure you that many of us don't think that what we have is a "walk in the park". I know I am in trouble, BIG trouble. "If, If only steps were taken" is a line that keeps repeating in my brain, taken from a line of a recent BBC documentary on HIV.

I have yet to deal first hand with any physical manifestations of my infection, no IO and side effects of meds, but I have read enough to know what to expect, and it helps me in a big way to get psychologically prepared. I am also trying to "enjoy" what remains of my health I have at this stage.

I have come to realize that we "mortals" mostly only function in two states of mind - either we're invincible and death have nothing to do us, or death is such an imminent threat that we surrender ourselves to it. For us Hivers and patients of other terminal but manageable diseases, it seems we're in a limbo. We're definitely not "ok", but the best that we can do is to accept the inevitable and deal with the unpredictable aspects of our virus, and try to pack in as much as we can for the remains of our lives.

And when the time comes, like Queen said, we can only hope to have the courage and class to depart with dignity...

Shaun

[Miss Philicia]

I don't think it's appropriate to use a board member's death to attack other board members, and I'm far from newly diagnosed.  I find this thread rather distressing.

I understand you're upset, Lis, but there are other ways to express this.

[thunter34]

I don't think it's appropriate to use a board member's death to attack other board members, and I'm far from newly diagnosed.  I find this thread rather distressing.

I understand you're upset, Lis, but there are other ways to express this.

i have to agree. 

[milker]

I hope this thread vanishes soon.

Milker.

[Matty the Damned]

Guys,

Matty the Damned has known Lisbeth for a long time now and he kinda digs her groove here.

I don't think taking a swipe at the n00bs was a cool thing to do, but I also know that Lis is feeling Christine's passing bitterly.

As we all do.

But if you want this thread to vanish, don't post in it. I'm sure it's been reported eleventy-squillion times by now and one of our Old Testament Goderators will be along to lock it in good time.

MtD

[LACboi]

Sorry Lis for your loss, hope you feel better.

Take care

[Dragonette]

Chrstine's posts were the only thing that prepared me for the possibility of becoming resistant after less than 2 years. The doctors never did. I'm sorry for your loss and pain Lis, I feel pain and shock at the news of her death too. I'm really sorry 

[egello]

omgosh, omgosh, omgosh,,,,,   

i am scared shitless

why is that some people just don't do well on the meds? is it all has to do with resistance issue?

[jack]

How very sad.
whats really pisses you off is when Drs and experts say the reason you are resistant is because of improper adherence to drug regimen. Prezista is a miracle.

[mjmel]

I view this post as an emotional need of lashing out at a time in pain and mourning; not of any other intent. It is indeed tough dealing with mortality especially of one so sweet a human as Christine. I keep in mind the picture of Christine with Mickey and Minny. She was smiling and much enjoyed the love that surrounded her.

We do odd things in grief stricken minds. In 1984, I recieved a phone call to inform me that a close friend/love interest of mine, Richard, had died of an AZT induced fever. (mega dosed) Richard was expected to visit me in Denver, Colorado soon. It was 2 am and I had been sleeping heavily when awaken by the phone call. My reaction to the news was to start laughing hysterically. I really lost it. Later, I tried to apologize to the caller -- but he knew already the laughing was crying.

Mike

[Dachshund]

Out of respect we should leave this this thread for another day.

[Ann]

I'm sure Liz posted out of grief and I don't believe she meant for it to be anything other than an expression of such.

I'm going to lock this thread out of respect to Christine and her family.

Ann