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Author Topic: I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(  (Read 2793 times)

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Offline stevevaboy

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I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(
« on: January 24, 2007, 01:37:03 AM »
I'm just feeling down this evening and trying to pick myself up.  I just found out a good friend of mine of many years died last night.  He was diagnosed several months ago with brain cancer - he was just a bit older than me, about 44.  He was in Virginia and I had moved from there to California back in 2005, but we were still staying in touch - mostly e-mail and chatting.  I didn't think it was as serious as he had led me to believe, but then I started noticing that I wasn't getting the "who's online knock" for a couple of weeks from him. 

Coincidentally, and eerily, I made a strong effort just last night by e-mailing a friend's mother who I thought just might know someone who knows his family - it's a small, rural area and I'm not from there specifically.  Sure enough, she did and called today to tell me the weird, sinking feeling I'd been experiencing for days was justified.

I guess, in some ways, I feel lucky.  At least there's something that can be done for me, but every effort possible was made for him and he lost.  If it ain't HIV; something's going to get you. 

Just another reason to try to live life to the fullest I suppose... but for tonight I'm just damn sad.


Offline Regretsafew

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Re: I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(
« Reply #1 on: January 24, 2007, 01:41:05 AM »
Hey there,

I'm sorry for the loss of your friend.  My prayers are with you.



Offline stevevaboy

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Re: I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(
« Reply #2 on: January 24, 2007, 01:45:44 AM »
Thanks man... to top it off I have a bad cold too!

I'm going the hell to bed and ending this one.... geeez!!

Offline siongi

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Re: I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(
« Reply #3 on: January 24, 2007, 01:48:07 AM »
Am sorry for the demise of your good friend.True, we, the HIV + people must live life to the fullest. I work in an organization of about 1500 employees and for the last 4 months we have lost four people and  not to HIV but to cancer, diabetes, cardiac arrest and an accident. Thanks for reminding us this very important aspect of our  life.

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Re: I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(
« Reply #4 on: January 24, 2007, 06:28:55 AM »
Sorry about your loss.  You will probably remind all of us about someone we knew well at one point who sort of drifted from us and then we got 'the news' of his or her death which leaped over the distance.  Win
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Offline aztecan

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Re: I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(
« Reply #5 on: January 24, 2007, 07:45:06 AM »

I am sorry for the loss of your long-time friend. My thoughts will be with you.

I think you hit it on the head. Truly, each of us must live each day to its fullest.


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Offline marco23

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Re: I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(
« Reply #6 on: January 24, 2007, 07:53:10 AM »
Hi Steve,
I'm so sorry about the loss of your friend...<<BIG HUG>> Hope you get over your cold soon! Take care of yourself.
Don't hide your hurt, pain and feelings inside..for they will harden your heart.

Offline koi1

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Re: I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(
« Reply #7 on: January 24, 2007, 08:12:41 AM »
Hi steve,

I am sorry about your loss. Yes we are all going to die. So many of us should stop complainging and live ourl lives to the fullest. Easier said than done. But we should all try.


diagnosed on 11/20/06 viral load 23,000  cd4 97    8%
01/04/07 six weeks after diagnosis vl 53,000 cd4 cd4 70    6%
Began sustiva truvada 01/04/07
newest labs  drawn on 01/15/07  vl 1,100    cd4 119    7%
Drawn 02/10/07
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Offline Longislander

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Re: I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(
« Reply #8 on: January 24, 2007, 09:15:58 AM »
Sorry about the loss of your friend Steve.
infected 10/05 diagnosed 12-05
2/06   379/57000                    6/07 372/30500 25%   4/09 640/U/32% 
5/06   ?? /37000                     8/07 491/55000/24%    9/09 913/U/39%
8/06   349/9500 25%              11/07 515/68000/24     2/10 845/U/38%
9/06   507/16,000 30% !          2/08  516/116k/22%    7/10 906/80/39%
12/06 398/29000 26%             Start Atripla 3/08
3/07   402/80,000 29%            4/08  485/undet!/27
4/07   507/35,000 25%            7/08 625/UD/34%
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Offline bear60

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Re: I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(
« Reply #9 on: January 24, 2007, 09:21:15 AM »
My condolences Steve. 
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Offline DanielMark

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Re: I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(
« Reply #10 on: January 24, 2007, 10:11:03 AM »
My condolences as well to you, Steve.



Offline stevevaboy

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Re: I guess it's not all about HIV ;>(
« Reply #11 on: January 24, 2007, 01:33:01 PM »
THE MORNING AFTER:  Thanks for the condolences all!  I'm so glad to be up in the light of day now, since last night sucked.  I came down with a bad cold, probably sinus infection, on Monday and last night it was in full force.  I awoke in the wee hours just soaked in sweat and running a high fever.  Of course, then I had plenty of time to just lay there and think about things...damnit.

Today's a new day and time to move forward.  I'm taking a day off to recoup.  I'm sure I'll feel better soon and be laughing again as time moves on.

Thanks again for the kind words!



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