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Author Topic: A Christmas Wish....  (Read 2872 times)

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Offline zephyr

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A Christmas Wish....
« on: December 14, 2006, 10:18:32 PM »
To My Dearest AM Family....

I began a journey one short year ago whose final destination is yet to be known.

I found myself sought out to perhaps provide (evolutionary?) the cure, or at least a link to it, for AIDS.

Starting news, to say the least.

There are those among you who are non-believers, who chastised and withdrew support, claiming how "affected" I'd become with this state of affairs. But, I am here to tell you that it is the TRUTH, and that I seek your ear (or, in cyberland, your eyes) tonight.

I cannot tell you that I am not changed by what is happening, or that I have not spent hours contemplating exactly what this means.



What I can say is that my heart remains on those of you who are suffering illness from this virus, its ravages upon your bodies and your minds. There is not a day that passes without thoughts of you running across the backroads of my mind.

My silence of these many moons was not intended to injure or cause conjecture: Mainly, it was due to reverie, and the presence of a very low internal battery that needed re-charging.

Adjustments had to be made:  both in my lifestyle and my psyche.  Connections on many different planes converged all at the same time, and I, a lone woman, took refuge in hearth and home, took a respite from that onslaught of attention and grief.

Stories from far-away places (Kenya, Spain, Mexico, London and India) seeped into my forested environs via email--stories of courage and endeavour against this scourge---appeals, really, for caring, and for information.

Hands were reaching through the screen to be held, squeezed, and comforted.

So many, many hands. And fewer hours with which to respond:  tears of frustration flowed from the anquish after absorbing other's absorbing painful testimonies and truths.

And then, Love.

I have fallen in Love.

I am a woman unleashed.

The extension of love I have made toward we, the 45 million in the world today, after a very long year, all of you have brought me to something in return--something that I did not in the least expect--and now, I need to share the news of this happy gift to my AM Family, by way of a
Christmas Greeting:

I'll be true to you. I'LL BE GOOD TO YOU. (Cross my fingers.....)  John Hiatt

For, after all, isn't this what we are all about? LOVE?

Is it not how we all got here, and why we are where we are today?

The human touch, and all of it's ensuing wonders?

YOU BET YOUR LIFE IT IS.

That deep wish, that deepest of longings, that fabulous life-force and surge.

The recognition by another, that desire, that pulsing need?

The curtain drawn back, finally, the view clear?

Worlds falling away, and becoming whole, once and for all.

This, then, is my good wish for each and everyone of you, my dear Family, my wandering vagabonds, my siblings, my center.


With shining Love,

Zephyr
"It is character that communicates most eloquently."

Offline Oceanbeach

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #1 on: December 14, 2006, 10:24:15 PM »
Hey Zephie!

I was wondering where you were.  She didn't write, no phone calls and now you are back,... welcome home.  Have the best day
Michael

Offline aztecan

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #2 on: December 14, 2006, 11:05:23 PM »
Hey Zeph honey,

Missed you! By the way, I am hoping your namesake will bloom this year. If what I'm told is correct, they will be crimson!  ;D

Thank you for the wonderful Christmas wish.

Here's wishing you light and love.

HUGS,

Mark
"May your life preach more loudly than your lips."
~ William Ellery Channing (Unitarian Minister)

Offline ndrew

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #3 on: December 14, 2006, 11:14:55 PM »
I am very moved... thank you...

"And then, Love.

I have fallen in Love.

I am a woman unleashed."

May we all be unleashed in our own ways, from our own suffering... continually and as often as necessary...

Drew

Offline zephyr

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #4 on: December 14, 2006, 11:27:21 PM »
ndrew:

You have moved me.

Our quest of normacly is a tough one at best.

The sooner we understand that we have a family out here, the better.

I wish you health, good will, and peace, with the night patrol.

Love,


Zeph
"It is character that communicates most eloquently."

Offline zephyr

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #5 on: December 14, 2006, 11:30:10 PM »
And, my lovely boys,

Thank yiou for reading me.

A thousand thanks.

Warmest regards,

Zephyr
"It is character that communicates most eloquently."

Offline Eldon

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #6 on: December 14, 2006, 11:40:35 PM »
Hello Zephie!!!

It is a shining light that is among us tonight! It is GOOD to hear from you! There is only one way to spell GOOD and that is GOOD!

Your post is a confirmation of a revelation that I had the other evening the second I laid my head on my pillow. In fact, it was one of the three that came to me back to back in waves.

We are a group and a family. With this realization, there are so many possibilities that exists right here in our world on AM.

It is GOOD to hear from you and I send my BEST wishes and more positive energies your way.

"Don't Give Up, Don't Give In... Cause it is ALL within you to WIN!"

Offline zephyr

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #7 on: December 15, 2006, 12:08:55 AM »
Keep your hand the wheel,

This is for real.

It's up to us to make the difference.


We can no longer live in SILENCE.

THIS IS FOR REAL.

LISTEN TO ME.

Conjur your own spirit, speak out. forget about the places you got hurt. Forget it.

Speak it out: from there, we will survive.

Love,

Zephyr
"It is character that communicates most eloquently."

Offline Longislander

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #8 on: December 15, 2006, 12:12:53 AM »
Welcome back! Happy Holidays!
infected 10/05 diagnosed 12-05
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Offline Eldon

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #9 on: December 15, 2006, 12:15:44 AM »
Hey Zephie!

Indeed it is REAL as there are many possibilities that exist in order to fulfill our needs.


"Don't Give Up, Don't Give In... Cause it is ALL within you to WIN!"

Offline zephyr

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #10 on: December 15, 2006, 12:34:10 AM »
I can;t, not tonight, how I feel.

I love you all too much.

Tomorrow,

Your Zephyre



"It is character that communicates most eloquently."

Offline heartforyou

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #11 on: December 15, 2006, 04:46:31 AM »
Sweet Zeph,

You did the right thing :if the battery light is on red , you need to recharge.
You know the connection to the higher energy is the only way to do so.

Know that others are connected, we all are, conscious or not, connected to the higher power.
Clear, bright, full, vibrant.

Reach out and touch....did you feel it????


Love

Hermie
Diagnosed in 1987 and still kicking
Viread, Kivexa (Epzicom),Viramune once daily

Happiness is the freedom of breathing fresh air every day.

Offline water duck

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #12 on: December 15, 2006, 05:37:29 AM »
Dear Zephyr,

Thank you for the Christmas wishes;
BUT MOST OF ALL THANK YOU FOR GIVING NEWS OF YOU !!

Merry Christmas to you.

Siang

Offline ACinKC

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #13 on: December 15, 2006, 10:35:02 AM »
Glad youre back Zepherino! 

But was all that some sort of coded thing cause I am totally lost!!!! 

I dont know whether to say Have the Best day or Hallehluja or AMEN or SPEAK TO ME SISTER!!!!!!
LIFE is not a race to the grave with the intention of arriving safely
in a pretty and well-preserved body, but, rather to skid in broadside,
thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming--WOW! WHAT A
RIDE!!!

Offline Christine

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #14 on: December 15, 2006, 06:24:48 PM »
Merry Christmas Zephyr! Thank you for sharing those beautiful words!
Christine
Poz since '93. Currently on Procrit, Azithromax, Pentamidine, Valcyte, Levothyroxine, Zoloft, Epzicom, Prezista, Viread, Norvir, and GS-9137 study drug. As needed: Trazodone, Atavan, Diflucan, Zofran, Hydrocodone, Octreotide

5/30/07 t-cells 9; vl 275,000

Offline Eldon

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #15 on: December 15, 2006, 08:58:23 PM »
Hey ACinKC...

You can have the BEST day and do the other things as well! The BEST of both Worlds!


"Don't Give Up, Don't Give In... Cause it is ALL within you to WIN!"

Offline Robert

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #16 on: December 16, 2006, 09:18:18 PM »
It is so good to hear from you dear Zephyr.  What a wonderful way to celebrate the winter solstice.  The winter frost covers the surrounding oaks but my red poinsetta is just breaths in the cold air and whispers your name. 

I've missed you.

robert
..........

Offline Eldon

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Re: A Christmas Wish....
« Reply #17 on: December 16, 2006, 09:25:24 PM »
Hey Robert...

Make sure you give it a little water too, it also needs a little nourishment too.


Happy Holidays!

 


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