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ParanoidGuy:
Hello, I’m Martin… and I’m going nuts.

I've always been extremely careful about STD's, so I always use a condom.

Last night, I was at a sex-worker's place, and had intercourse with her. First I put on the condomn, and after 1 minute of vaginal intercourse I decided I wanted a second condom on top of it, just in case.

Now this is the reason I’m feeling paranoid. After the intercourse, I started thinking… what if the first condomn (the one below) broke and I didn’t notice?

And if so, what if the vaginal fluids (that would have come in contact with the first condom during that first minute of vaginal intercourse) came in contact with my penis, in case it actualy broke? This is all paranoia based on the hypotesis the first condom, the one below, broke (which im not sure and cannot prove, or deny). Alter that, while showering my penis, I noticed a strange little tiny black rock on it (on my penis)… then I remembered that women’s vagina are kind of sandy, so I started thinking… what if that tiny little black rock was inside the woman’s vagina (in case women actually have that kind of little tiny black rocks inside of them), and what if the presence of that tiny little black rock on my penis could be a prove of it (my penis) being in direct contact with her vaginal fluid, in case the condom (the one below) broke?
 
Please help me! Im feeling paranod, thinking that tiny little black rock would have come from the woman’s vagina, being that some kind of prove the first condom (the one below) broke and that my penis could have come in contact with her vaginal fluid. (the vaginal fluid on the first condomn, the one below, that have may gotten there during that first minute of vaginal intercourse, before I decided to put on the second one)

Alter reading my story, which I know is kinda stupid and all, I got two main questions. Please answer them, so I can stop worrying this much.

1.   DOES ANYONE KNOW IF THERE’S ACTUALLY LITTLE TINY BLACK ROCKS ON THE INSIDE OF A WOMEN’S VAGINA? DOES THE PRESENCE OF ONE OF THOSE LITTLE TINY BLACK ROCKS IN MY PENIS MEAN I COULD HAVE COME IN CONTACT WITH VAGINAL FLUID?

2. DO YOU THINK I SHOULD KEEP WORRYING? I CANNOT PROVE (NEITHER DENY) THE FIRST CONDOM ACTUALY BROKE, BUT THE ONLY REASON I HAVE TO THINK IT COULD IS THE PRESENCE OF THAT TINY LITTLE BLACK ROCK I FOUND ON MY PENIS WHILE SHOWERING. PLEASE TELL ME, ARE THERE LITTLE TINY BLACK ROCKS IN A WOMAN’S VAGINA???


ARE THERE LITTLE TINY BLACK ROCKS IN A WOMAN’S VAGINA???

I’M GOING NUTS WITH THIS!!!!

Strayboy74:
I respectfully submit:

The tiny black rock is really a pearl.

You see, when vaginas are loose in the wild, slithering along the beach, they often get sand inside of their pink bits, and this is an irritant to them, so to protect themselves, they create a black shell around the sand, and it makes a pearl!   I hope you kept your "little black rock" because it's worth a lot of money!  You should take it and get it appraised by the jeweler!

Sometimes, if the vagina is exceptionally mean, it may have some pent up anger, and instead of creating a pearl, it will alternatively, through it's heat and incredible pressure, create a diamond... but this is very rare and usually only happens in countries closer to the equator.

Okay, I'm lying about all of this.

WHAT KIND OF ASSHOLE QUESTION IS THAT?

There are no black rocks in vaginas. 

Know the monster.

-joseph

*modified to include respect*

Andy Velez:
Martin, you need to take a good deep breath and slow down right now. I mean it. Nice deep breath in and then out slowly.

Now that I have your attention let's proceed. I have no idea what the little black rock is that you discovered on your penis. Nor how it got there. Whatever it is it has nothing to do with HIV. And no, little black rocks are not one of the elements ordinarily found in a vagina.

In your zeal to protect yourself you actually made an important mistake. Never use two condoms. The effect of doing that can actually cause breakage in the condoms. And if there had been breakage during this incident you would have known it because it's not a subtle event when one of them falls apart.

One latex condom properly worn for intercourse will do the job very effectively as far as protecting you against HIV.

I don't see any cause for further concern about HIV in relation to this incident.

Now, keep breathing and work on taking down that anxiety level.

Cheers,

Andy Velez:
Joseph, however ridiculous the question may have seemed to you, the guy is clearly in an agitated stated and is asking for help and not mockery. 

Please don't respond to questions if you can't do it respectfully.

ParanoidGuy:
Thank you Andy, and thank you Joseph (or Strayboy74)

Even if Joseph's answer was ever kind of harsh, I really apreciate it, it did get to calm me down a little bit, as well as Andy's answer to my "paranoia issue".

The thing is, this is the second time I get involved in all this HIV thing. Almost a year and a half ago, during intercourse with a woman I barely knew, the condom broke and neither of us realised until it was already too late; the intercourse was over, I eyeculated, and was just after that we realised the condom was broken.

The HIV paranoia then took over me. I went running to the hospital looking for some drugs, and I folowed the procedure. But the paranoia continued not only for the 6 months it took me to get HIV tested, but for a whole year instead, dying in the inside, always fearful of getting HIV from everything I thouched, or anyone.

Finally, about 3 months ago, I got a 1 year HIV test, which came out negative thank god. Ever since, I've been working hard to re-make my life, trying hard to overcome my fears of HIV. And now, when I finally though the fear was gonne, I have sex with this prostitute and all of the sudden I begin fearing all over again: "what if the inside condom broke? what if it broke and then the vaginal fluids on it came in contact with my penis? what if the tiny little black rock (which, by the way, is very very small... that's why I though the worst, that it could be an element of a woman vaginal secretion... because being a woman vagina sandy as it is, I thought: "if it is so sandy, why wouldn't these little tiny things be the reason of it being sandy?") on my penis would mean contact, direct or indirec, of the woman vaginal secretions with my it (my penis)?"

So, that's why I'm so agraviated right now. The thing is, that even if I know that most probably the inside condom didn't broke, or the tinny little black rock is just something else and not the reason a woman's vagina is so sandy, the paranoia just took over me once again. And I just can't get a hold on that. Even now, while I write this and being a lot less anxious than before, I still have a little tiny fear of "what if the inside condom indeed broke" or "what if the tinny very very small black thing that looks like a tiny rock indeed is something that came out from the sex-worker's vagina or her vaginal fluids... would that prove the inside condom broke? would that endanger me?"... I know that's just a stupid fear, but even that way I can't control myself every time I think: "and what if it is no a stupid fear. what if it is true? what if, I'm in danger all over again..."

This is my situation. And I hope you realise how much I apreciate your help, and how much did I take out of me by finally writing this to someone... because is the first time I do.

Thank you,
Martin.

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