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Author Topic: 2months or more before i was able to accept it  (Read 689 times)

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Offline Nursepositibo

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2months or more before i was able to accept it
« on: March 03, 2014, 07:41:01 AM »
Hi, good day everyone....

I was diagnosed hiv (+) just few days ago. To be exact, i heard d blow last feb 28 from d doctor. But i have it coming for d past 2 months i guess. It started when i volunteered for a massive blood donation. That would be last december 2013. Days prior christmas, one of d medtech then approched me that i nid to rechck coz der was a problem with the blood collection. Knowing this line, being a nurse, only means theres a problem with my blood.

Ideally, in a blood donation, a possitive blood would just be disposed and d donor will have no knowledge of his condition. But in my case, because the medtech was a family friend, she made the effort to go beyond the bounderies and inform me asap. The next day i went to the lab for a recheck and hopes that its all fine.

It turned to january then february. I intetionally did not go to the lab to ff up because i fear wat would be the results. Then just as not expected, i bumped into her one day and she recommends me to talk to the doctor. Then from then on, i know i have it.

On feb 28, i mastered all my courage and went to the office of the doctor. Then there, the bomb was dropped. I felt chills rush in my neck.

I had frozen. No reactions. Just blank stares. Too many questions to ask but nothing came out. Until finally, i asked him, whats the next step. Still in shock, he advices me to seek treatment. Do i have i choice, yes i do, deny d fact and just walk out. But i've wasted already 2months for nothing.

Didnt slept the whole night. Then i realized, i could have had this results 2 months ago but i denied something is wrong. Whats next for me, but to accept. There's no one to blame but myself. Just had my pre test counselling this afternoon. I did cry but there's no turning back. Got to be strong now. After 2 weeks from now, i'll be getting the confirmatory results and i already set into my mind that i'm possitive. I have wasted time already, now its time to look forward to the next step. I want to know my cd4 and vl if i have it my way. Nid to start the medications.

I did this to myself, no one is to be blamed. So many questions that needs answering. But the best for now is to wait.

I hope somebody could share so light for me. I want to fight, i took the 1st step. Guide me to the next step.

A nurse positibi (",)

Offline Jeff G

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Re: 2months or more before i was able to accept it
« Reply #1 on: March 03, 2014, 08:14:03 AM »
Hi, good day everyone....

I was diagnosed hiv (+) just few days ago. To be exact, i heard d blow last feb 28 from d doctor. But i have it coming for d past 2 months i guess. It started when i volunteered for a massive blood donation. That would be last december 2013. Days prior christmas, one of d medtech then approched me that i nid to rechck coz der was a problem with the blood collection. Knowing this line, being a nurse, only means theres a problem with my blood.

Ideally, in a blood donation, a possitive blood would just be disposed and d donor will have no knowledge of his condition. But in my case, because the medtech was a family friend, she made the effort to go beyond the bounderies and inform me asap. The next day i went to the lab for a recheck and hopes that its all fine.

It turned to january then february. I intetionally did not go to the lab to ff up because i fear wat would be the results. Then just as not expected, i bumped into her one day and she recommends me to talk to the doctor. Then from then on, i know i have it.

On feb 28, i mastered all my courage and went to the office of the doctor. Then there, the bomb was dropped. I felt chills rush in my neck.

I had frozen. No reactions. Just blank stares. Too many questions to ask but nothing came out. Until finally, i asked him, whats the next step. Still in shock, he advices me to seek treatment. Do i have i choice, yes i do, deny d fact and just walk out. But i've wasted already 2months for nothing.

Didnt slept the whole night. Then i realized, i could have had this results 2 months ago but i denied something is wrong. Whats next for me, but to accept. There's no one to blame but myself. Just had my pre test counselling this afternoon. I did cry but there's no turning back. Got to be strong now. After 2 weeks from now, i'll be getting the confirmatory results and i already set into my mind that i'm possitive. I have wasted time already, now its time to look forward to the next step. I want to know my cd4 and vl if i have it my way. Nid to start the medications.

I did this to myself, no one is to be blamed. So many questions that needs answering. But the best for now is to wait.

I hope somebody could share so light for me. I want to fight, i took the 1st step. Guide me to the next step.

A nurse positibi (",)

Welcome to the forums . I removed your duplicate thread because its only necessary to post the same thing in one thread . Please only post in this one thread until you have your conformation western blot done .

It will help us help you if all of your thoughts and concerns are in one place for the time being and I'm sure people will be by to welcome you and answer all your questions . 

 


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