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Offline bear60

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On Turning 67
« on: April 07, 2011, 12:24:23 AM »
Well. So much for anniversaries.
I left out that I was turning 67 today.  Not a great birthday.  Its not what you would call a milestone, nor is it very sexy...lol.
It was a sad day because I didnt get as card from my Mom.  She died a few years ago.  I was sad because I cant celebrate with Jim or Fred, or Bill, since they died recently.
But really, I'm OK.
Kurt and I went out for an early dinner...u know...4PM. I think its called the "blue plate special".  That way we didnt have to cook.  When we came home we played dominoes and I lost to Kurt big time.....as usual.
Oh and Paul, my former partner was cremeated today in 1995.
I remember turning 21 because I went to every bar and ordered a mixed drink.  Sadly I didnt have any idea what I was ordering,  Anything that sounded good.  I think this is why they say "Youth is wasted on the young".
When I turned 30...... I remember thinking that I had just joined the over 30 crowd..... which we used to refer to as "Anyone over 30 you cant trust" .  That had to do with the politics of 1974.
When I turned 40, I was happy because we all had jobs and houses and lovers. It was a great year...1984.  My partner was building his own business, and I was building my business. We took vacations to San Francisco. Life was a blur of men...so many men so little time. In San Francisco we were given Crisco and finger nail files as complimentary gifts.
Then 50....1994....everything was falling apart.  Paul was very ill, several friends had died.  I remember thinking " Maybe Philadelphia will be spared"....but no....our friends died quickly and in quick succession.
I joined a support group after nearly cutting off a finger while chopping onions. I was so undone by all that was happening that I couldnt chop onions. Had it not been for that support group I dont think I'd be here today.  
At 60......in 2004... I had regained my equilibrium and was involved with the new man of my life...Kurt.  I remember thinking...I am really really old now.  Yea, well, that only lasted a few weeks until I compared myself to those really really old.  I guess its true when they say 60 is the new 50. Still. 60 was a turning point.
65...in 2009...meant I could enroll in Medicare and reduce the amount each month I was paying for health insurance. I was paying as much as $850.00 per month.  Lots and lots of stress fell from my shoulders. But I also was dealing with the deaths of my Mom and Dad and of a few MORE good friends from HIV.
It was not a good year.  I started taking Celexa and stopped smoking with the help of Wellbutrin. ( What a mess)  
Its all there in the threads I wrote.
I retired at 66.
So, here we are 2011, and 67.  A nothing year. But I do feel that I need to make some decisions about the rest of my life...such as that is...maybe another 10 years?  What to do.  Write the book I never wrote?  Burn a few more bridges?
We'll see, cause the "fat lady ain't sung yet."  Which is why Kurt and I exchanged Tattoos.  We dont like jewelry.
« Last Edit: April 07, 2011, 11:57:48 AM by bear60 »
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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #1 on: April 07, 2011, 12:26:49 AM »
Happy Birthday, Joel :)
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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #2 on: April 07, 2011, 12:32:45 AM »
WooHoo!  ;D Happy Birthday!

Even though 67 may not be some magical/milestone/sexy number, it's still a good number when it means your still kicking. ;)
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That I live and you are gone.
There's a grief that can't be spoken.
There's a pain goes on and on.
Empty chairs at empty tables
Where my friends will meet no more.

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Offline bear60

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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #3 on: April 07, 2011, 12:59:08 AM »
Aint it the truth Mikie.  I can still give a 25 year old a run for his life...so to speak.  Being a dirty old man is fun. 
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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #4 on: April 07, 2011, 12:59:48 AM »
Thanks David.  We need to get together for one of our cocktail hours.
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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #5 on: April 07, 2011, 04:14:34 AM »
Happy birthday, Joel. :-*
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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #6 on: April 07, 2011, 09:09:43 AM »
Happy Birthday, kid. Many happy and healthy returns of the day.
Andy Velez

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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #7 on: April 07, 2011, 10:08:03 AM »
Happy birthday Joel  :-* now if i can live 12 more yrs. I'll make it to 67, I hope  ;D but I'll take full retirement @ 66 and 4 months  ;)
« Last Edit: April 07, 2011, 10:14:14 AM by denb45 »
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Offline bear60

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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #8 on: April 07, 2011, 12:01:01 PM »
Dennis...after you retire...what do you want to do?
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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #9 on: April 07, 2011, 12:14:21 PM »
Dennis...after you retire...what do you want to do?

 Well Bob & I are semi- retired, and were the same age, so like me he'll get his full retirement @ 66 and 4 month since were were both 54, not sure, but hopefully we'll still be in some what good health to @ least enjoy it, and live out the rest of our lives  ;) who knows maybe we'll both buy 2 motorcycles, and go on a nation-wide-sexual
rampage that will go down in history, might as well go out with BANG  :D

Edited to add: on Sunday afternoon, bob & I took a ride up to meet Carl & Norm, (screen name Capt. Carl on here) shared a few laughs, and told a few tails, those guys are the nicest men you would ever want to meet, had a lotta fun ... it was nice to get out for a spell, we really enjoyed their good company GREAT GUYS ;)
« Last Edit: April 07, 2011, 12:52:11 PM by denb45 »
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Offline AlanBama

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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #10 on: April 07, 2011, 03:33:06 PM »
Happy Birthday Joel !   I am so glad you are still around to celebrate!

I can't give you advice on planning for the rest of your life....I cannot picture myself making it to 65....but anything's possible.....

Something fun (I think) would be to take up something new that you've always wanted to do, but never did....for me, that would be learning to play a violin (or any string instrument)....or taking a class in water color.....

MANY BIRTHDAY HUGS, and may you have many many more birthdays!

Alan   :-*
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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #11 on: April 07, 2011, 06:21:28 PM »
Happy Birthday Joel!!! :)

Hope that there are many more for you to celebrate with Kurt...

CaptCarl
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Offline pozniceguy

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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #12 on: April 07, 2011, 06:29:23 PM »
Happy Birthday Joel   just hang in there  I am several years ahead of you and never a dull day,  lots of stuff keeps happening most of it good..   I dont count B.days anymore  just another day.... take pleasure in whatever the day brings...make a few open ended plans    ... spend time with friends , make new friends , volunteer for some local agency,  join  a club...... buy a NETFLIX subscription and watch old movies whenever you want...

I seldom have a dull or boring day.....expect to keep doing this for many more years...  if you are really adventurous  make a Bucket list  with a schedule and a budget   DO IT

Nick
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Offline OneTampa

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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #13 on: April 07, 2011, 10:06:02 PM »
Happy You Being Born As A Truly Special Day Joel  !!!!

 :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #14 on: April 08, 2011, 07:38:44 AM »
Happy Happies, hope the pair off you had a great day.
t
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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #15 on: April 08, 2011, 08:04:53 AM »


Happy belated birthday Joel!!  Ed and I will be having our 60th birthday's later in the year.  Ed is 8 weeks older, and says he's wiser, I just tell him I'm younger and cuter  ;D

Hope you had a good day---Ray  8)
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Offline denb45

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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #16 on: April 08, 2011, 09:28:05 AM »

Happy belated birthday Joel!!  Ed and I will be having our 60th birthday's later in the year.  Ed is 8 weeks older, and says he's wiser, I just tell him I'm younger and cuter  ;D

Hope you had a good day---Ray  8)

 :D Ray Bob is 2 weeks younger than me, and I'm 2 weeks older, he's the wise and logical soul, and I'm more of the free spirited one, I keep telling him, don't worry after 17 yrs. this fall, I'm not going anywhere  :D
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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #17 on: April 08, 2011, 04:23:16 PM »
:D Ray Bob is 2 weeks younger than me, and I'm 2 weeks older, he's the wise and logical soul, and I'm more of the free spirited one, I keep telling him, don't worry after 17 yrs. this fall, I'm not going anywhere  :D

 :) It's still kind of hard to believe we're both going to be "60" .  That number  just sounds so old. Both of us don't act our age.  :P   In the complex we live in, we're known as "The kids"   :D

As of this July, Ed and I we be together 31 years. We've known each other over half of our lives. ( no wonder why I know what he's thinking before he says it! ) It's like this constant telepathic communication between us !  :D

I also tell Ed that I am not going anywhere! 

Ray
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 In October of 2003, My t-cell count was 16, Viral load was over 500,000, Percentage at that time was 5%. I started my first  HAART regimen  on October 24th,03.

 As of DEC 9th, 2013,  t-cells are at 437 Viral load  <40 .

 Current % is at 16% (L)

  
 62 years young.

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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #18 on: April 08, 2011, 04:33:25 PM »
Hey Joel,
Happy Birthday!
How about a few Birthday Swats™?  :o :o :o :o :o

It's been a while since we had any of those! ;)

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We took vacations to San Francisco. Life was a blur of men...so many men so little time. In San Francisco we were given Crisco and finger nail files as complimentary gifts.

I think I had a nail file from the SF Eagle, or maybe it was The Brig. Memory fades, but flashes linger.

Hope you had a great day.

HUGS,

Mark
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~ William Ellery Channing (Unitarian Minister)

Offline bear60

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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #19 on: April 08, 2011, 04:33:51 PM »
Ray and Ed....I hope 60 is as good for you both as it was for me. You guys are all inspirations for the newbies.
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Offline AndyArrow

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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #20 on: April 10, 2011, 03:30:42 AM »
Happy Birthday Joel!
It is not the arrival that matters.  It is the journey along the way. -- Michel Montaigne

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Re: On Turning 67
« Reply #21 on: April 11, 2011, 11:47:36 AM »
"I may not be exactly where I want to be, but I sure as Hell am not where I was"
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