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Offline Ann

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Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« on: August 10, 2010, 10:42:35 PM »
Ok, so I'll take a turn in starting a new thread. Things have been going on in my life where all I can say is "shit happens". I know you all can relate. I know I don't share much here, but for the most part, my life is extremely boring. Then once in a while, well, shit happens. All I'll say here is men are twats who don't know what's good for them. Enough said, eh?
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #1 on: August 11, 2010, 02:11:30 AM »
Ann, you couldn't have given it a better title. Things have been shitty lately with me. The break up with my ex, well he broke up with me via third party. Over something real stupid at that. That in itself has caused me to have an emotional rollercoaster going on. The hard part is trying to get over him when I still love him and I truly believe has lost him for good. In an effort of not trying to dwell on him, I put a few feelers out on some dating sites. Be distracted and try to have fun, right? WRONG!!!! I met a few guys...Bachelor#1--Great date, had fun but something seems a lil off with him. I can't quite put my finger on it. But my spidey senses( ;D) was going off....Bachelor #2---Not my type in any type of way, he actually caught me on an off day. Younger than me by 10 yrs and all he wants to do is get in my pants....Bachelor #3--- Actually a nice guy but he would make a better friend to me than a lover. I just don't see him in that light. Then there are a few that I text maybe one time and that's it. How can I get to know someone within say 3 texts? I guess my hearing impairment must've gotten to them. So in a nutshell, I have come to the conclusion that.....1...Dating Sucks......2...I still love my ex and prolly always will. In his defense, he wasn't all bad......3..I need to be independent like I was before...Honestly, I don't think I even want to be bothered with trying to have a friend with benefits...Not when my heart feels the way it does, wouldn't be fair to that person. Whew, that was a helluva rant.

On top of that, I am going to see my caseworker. I get on the bus to go there and this lady while talking on her cell phone, spills her hot coffee on me. Then had the nerve to laugh to whoever she was talking on the phone to about it. I wanted to punch her in her face so bad. I couldn't go home and change or I would've been late. So, instead I had to go to the appointment looking like I pissed on myself. So, Yep, shit definitely does happen!!!!
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #2 on: August 11, 2010, 05:33:59 PM »
It's not real good today for me either.  I just don't feel like posting about it.
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #3 on: August 12, 2010, 02:17:50 PM »
Betty-- Whatever it is, I hope you feel better. Maybe it's a trend...you, me and prolly a few others we don't know about. You know if you need to talk about it you always PM me here or send me an email. Sometimes it's good to just talk about it to someone and not keep it in. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers... :-*

Now to add more shit....I have found out from my sister that my son has gone back to selling drugs. And also that he was trying to get over by asking me for more money than he needed for some work pants. Yes, he did get a job and he is out of the halfway house, those are good things. I am just disappointed that he went back to selling. I feel like he didn't listen to a word I said in all those letters or the talk I had with him when I went back home. *SMH*...He's grown and he made his choice. But if he goes back to jail, he is on his own. I just have too much on my own plate to be worried or stressed out about him.

And I think someone hacked into my Facebook account. My password has been changed. So, I reset it for a new one. Then I try to log on today and the same thing happens again. I don't know how this is possible. I had my security settings done on there. And I always turn my computer off at night. I don't know what to do about now. SO, you ladies who go on Facebook be careful. Gonna go run a scan or something.

Have a good day ladies..
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #4 on: August 13, 2010, 04:14:24 AM »
Hey Queen, thanks for the offer to listen.  It sure is appreciated.  It's a bit better today.   
  I'm so, so sorry about your son.  That's got to be frustrating, and at the same time, what can you do.  I am sorry, though.  And someone's hacking into Facebook?  Wasn't that like a news story not too long ago?  Or was that Myspace?  I can't remember.  That's terrible.  I hope whoever is doing that stops it.  You know girl, the invite to listen goes both ways.  I'll listen to you as well.  I think you have my e-mail address? 
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #5 on: August 13, 2010, 09:05:27 AM »
Hi Ladies,

I thought it would be a good time to join the ladies thread.  I started typing a few times but then I always delete it. It's always hard being the new kid on the block.   ;)

Yesterday was a not-so-good day for me.  I've just been feeling so lonely lately, not alone because I have my husband and children but things have definitely changed.  I miss the closeness and intimacy that we had before my diagnosis.  I try to keep things into perspective and I realize that that is not the most important thing.  But it is hard....I miss the way he used to touch me.  I hope that aspect gets better.

I've always had low self esteem and I think HIV is the biggest blow to my self esteem.  Most days are good though, I haven't spent too much time dwelling and feeling sorry for myself.  I have two daughters that I homeschool and I keep my focus on them.  It does seem weird at times that life just keeps moving on.  I expect life to move on but it seems surreal.  I just keep plugging away, teaching and doing what we do.

Now that I got that out of the way....now I want to brag about my kiddos a bit.  My 2nd grader had a reading fluency test the other day and she rocked it.  She can read an average of 60 words per min.  That makes me feel super!  At least I am doing something right.  My youngest just started Kindergarten and she is having a blast, excited to learn how to read so she doesn't have to ask sister.  They are awesome girls and I just want to do right by them.

There....I did it!  Finished a whole post and didn't delete it.  ;D 

Katie
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #6 on: August 13, 2010, 05:55:04 PM »
HippieLady, welcome to the thread. I am glad you finally did a post. This is a great place for support as I am sure you have seen since lurking for a few. Great bunch of ladies and I use them for support as much as I can. Like I told Betty, feel free to bend my ear anytime. And Betty, I think I still do have your email address so I am going to have to take you up on that. So be looking for one from me, you still have my email right? I believe it is listed on here if you don't. I think I will clean up and make a salad then prolly hit you up then.
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11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
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3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #7 on: August 15, 2010, 05:25:46 AM »
Hippie Lady, welcome to our women's family.  Glad you joined us. Just keep posting, and we'll try to support as best we can.

I wonder if you and your husband would be open to going to therapy?  That may help with the intimacy.

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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #8 on: August 15, 2010, 01:25:11 PM »
Thanks for the warm welcome Betty and Queen!  I was a little overwhelmed by the length of the last thread that it kept me from jumping right in.  :)

Hubs and I are not against therapy, we just think it's not our thing.  We have good communication skills and talk about anything that it bothering us.  It wasn't always this way but he has gotten better.  ;D  Right now I just think it's getting over fears...my fears of infecting him mainly.  We are still very close; we cuddle, hold hands and snuggle in bed.  But the actual act of love is something that happens infrequently.  Again this is something that has plagued us for a few years even before finding out my status.  I guess I'm just hornier than he is.  ;D

I had a bad day a few days ago....I call it the Snow White apple syndrome.  I feel all fresh, shiny and perfect on the outside but inside I feel tainted and rotten.  It's a silly analogy but it fits how I feel sometimes.  Hubs is really good about it and I can talk to him about how I feel without him trying to "fix" it.  He's a good listener.

Overall, I feel super most of the time.  I wish I could gain some weight just so I can have a little cushion in case I catch a cold or something.  I am at my lowest weight since I was in my late teens.  My appetite is good if I have Aunt Mary to fuel it but if we're out then I struggle to eat.  We were thinking about quitting for good for a variety of reasons but it doesn't look like I will be able to keep weight on without it....not that I'm complaining cause I love smoking.

I need to get into our classroom and do my teacher planning for the week...fun times!  I also need to make my lab appt for tomorrow or Tuesday.  I hate getting labs done and have really procrastinated this time around.  I really wish they didn't have to take blood so often because it really skeevs me out to have needles stuck into me. <shudders>  Just thinking about it freaks me out!

I hope you ladies are having a good weekend, trying to stay cool and all that jazz.

Hugs,
Katie
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #9 on: August 15, 2010, 06:18:05 PM »
Since HippieLady so bravely paved the way for newbies, I'll join in to!

Yesterday a chance and completely innocent comment from my mother set off an emotional shit storm in me. Couldn't sleep last night, and have been moody and teary all day. This. Sucks. I'm used to getting emotional, but this is a different beast, I literally cannot shift it, even for a minute. I think I'm hormonal, but my cycle isn't all that regular so who knows? Hopefully it will have lifted by tomorrow.

Also, and this is very hard for me to admit; couple friends of my husband and I just announced their pregnant. They've been trying for two months. We've been trying a year. The emotions this brings up are sorta complex, but generally unenjoyable. Jealously is only a small part, mostly it brings up feelings of "I'm not good enough," etc. You know, all that great stuff. Of course part of me is thrilled for her. But it feels like a punch in the gut. There, I said it. Phew. Kinda nice to get that off my chest.

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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #10 on: August 16, 2010, 03:58:55 PM »
WELCOME Hippie Lady, Ballerina, ! I have been MIA, due to a family crisis. My god sister's 16 year old daughter got hit by a car and truck while crossing the street. Her car is not running and I have been running her back and forth to the hospital, a few times we spent the night. Our families are very close. I call her daughter Kiera my neice. Kiera was in ICU and unconsious for over a week, she just recently woke up and is doing better. She broke both legs and had to have surgery, a fractured skull, preferated  liver, very bad damage to her lungs,. and phenmonia! It was touch and go for a while. Lots of prayer and a miricle braought her through, she still has a feeding tube and can't swallow but is up and talking, no permanant brain damage. She fell face down after being thrown in the air, she has bruises and cuts all over. It was devastating, but thank god today she moves to Scotchish Rites childrens hospital in Atlanta for her recovery.
I have also been taking care of Lucy who has been spaded, but acts like nothing ever happen, no sickness or anything, running around after a day or so! Then I got sick last week with a cold so I am resting now and feeling better!
hopefully I will be divorced before the end of the month!! Talk to my lawyer and she said we most likely don't have to go to court! Judge will sign papers and return!
Queen, I am always praying for you, glad things are looking up, Mu mom says to go to social security about you getting a phone for the hearing impaired. You can also look in the front pages of any phonebook and get the info.
BeTTy hope things are well with you!
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #11 on: August 16, 2010, 05:08:25 PM »
Kate, do you have a vibrator? Just askin'.    Good luck with the labs.  I've been getting them so long (diagnosed 21 years), I guess I'm used to it.

Ballerina, welcome!  I hope you're feeling better.

Netta, congrats on the divorce.  I know that's a load off your mind.    I hope your niece will get better and better.  Sounds like a horrible thing she went through.  She and her mom are lucky they have you.

Nothing much going on right now.  Just doing a drive-by.
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #12 on: August 16, 2010, 06:51:36 PM »
Kate, do you have a vibrator? Just askin'.    Good luck with the labs.  I've been getting them so long (diagnosed 21 years), I guess I'm used to it.



Omg...I'm so glad I wasn't drinking anything or I would have shot it all over my computer.  Yes, I do have a vibrator but as you know it's nothing compared to the real thing.  I don't like most dildo type vibes because they just feel weird inside. I like my silver bullet but if it takes me a while to get the job done I feel like my girlie bits are still vibrating long after I'm done.  Maybe I just need a better tool.  ;D
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #13 on: August 16, 2010, 09:35:19 PM »
Omg...I'm so glad I wasn't drinking anything or I would have shot it all over my computer.  Yes, I do have a vibrator but as you know it's nothing compared to the real thing.  I don't like most dildo type vibes because they just feel weird inside. I like my silver bullet but if it takes me a while to get the job done I feel like my girlie bits are still vibrating long after I'm done.  Maybe I just need a better tool.  ;D

LOL....I have a silver bullet too that my bff gave me for my bday a few years back. I swear by it especially since I am single again. And bought a 16pk of Duracell, ok!!! Sometimes I have to put in some overtime.....

I would've commented the other day but for some reason the site kept kicking me off even though I was using the correct password. I don't know what that is about. So Welcome Ballerina, hope to hear more from you. And this freaking bouncing around is getting on my nerves. And yes I did click on the compatibility view. So this will be a drive by post cause I can't deal with the bouncing
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #14 on: August 17, 2010, 11:17:48 AM »
Netta...So sorry to hear about your niece.  Is she doing better?  I hear of so many car accidents in my area, it's so sad.  Please keep us updated.

Ballerina...Are you using anything to pin point fertility.  Right before I found out I was poz, my husband and I were trying for a baby.  I bought the ClearBlue Easy fertility monitor and it worked like a charm for us.  We got pregnant the 1st month of using it.  Sadly I lost the baby due to all the stress I was under at the time.  I still have the monitor and two months worth of test strips leftover if you are interested.  I could ship it to you....pm me and let me know if you are interested.

I went and did my labs this morning after putting it off for a week.  I have such a mental aversion to needles and now my arm feels super weird.  I wish they'd invent some cool Star Trek device to test our blood without having to stick us. 

I have to take my husband to the airport tomorrow, he has a business trip and then he's going to go visit some family.  The girls and I are going to miss him.  I'm not looking forward to watching tv alone after the girls go to bed....I'm kinda afraid of the dark still.  It sounds silly, I know, but I think it goes back to my childhood and that fact that an intruder came into my house about 7 years ago.  Good thing I have my big scary doggies to keep us safe.

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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #15 on: August 17, 2010, 03:04:04 PM »
Thank you, everyone, for the welcomes! It's nice to feel included!

Netta, so glad to hear Kiera is going to be ok. HippieLady, thanks, and I sent you a pm.

I, too, have a silver bullet, and wouldn't use anything else (well, accept for the real thing, of course!).   

I don't feel up to talking about emotional stuff at the moment, so instead I will mention something totally random that's been bothering me all week. For awhile now I've noticed I seem to have less thong underwear. It's been a gradual thing, that came to a head six days ago, when I couldn't find even one pair after my morning shower. I looked in my drawers; nothing. I looked in my closet (which I never keep underwear in); nothing. I looked in the clean clothes basket, and my husbands drawers just in case; nothing. Finally I unearthed 2 pairs in the dirty clothes hamper, which I washed and have been alternating with since.

What the heck happened to the rest of my thong panties?! To clarify, I still have plenty of standard undies, it's just the thongs that have gone MIA. If I didn't have a severe fear of panty lines, this wouldn't be such a problem.

I talked it over with my hubby (yes, we actually had a conversation about missing underwear), and he thinks all my thongs are in the clean clothes basket and I just didn't see them. Considering missing what's right in front of my face is a talent of mine, he has a point. But I looked twice and they aren't there!! ...I don't think....

My theory is somewhat more convoluted, involving intruders who leave behind no trace, their only objective being to steal my undies. Well, that or the wash machine ate them. I'd say those theories are about as equally likely as each other....but whatever the cause, I want my underwear back!

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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #16 on: August 17, 2010, 03:32:28 PM »
When I can't find an article of clothing I automatically think someone came in and stole it.  Then a few days later I'll find it.  I swore to my husband that someone came in and stole one of my t-shirts.  I had looked high and low for the shirt, but apparently not in the spot it was in. I'm sure they are around somewhere...just eluding you.

I can't wear thongs, they are a pain in my ass.  Whenever I'm concerned about panty lines I just go commando and problem solved.  I know it's not for everyone but I find it liberating.  I didn't wear panties for about two years a while back.   ;D
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #17 on: August 17, 2010, 06:26:02 PM »
Ballerina and Hippielady---- Funny you guys should mention missing thongs. I seem to only be able to find 2 pair of mine. I think there is a thong fairy out there who steals them. Sort of like washing your socks but then when you put the clothes away you notice that some are missing. I never do worry about panty lines but I remember my mother always saying that it doesn't hurt going "commando" sometimes because your vajayjay needs to breath too.

Just wondering, do you ladies give your vibrators names? I know my sister does, she has 2 a big one and a small one. She calls them DAMN and DAMN JR. I just call mine BOB short for battery operated boyfriend. I need to find another BOB, not that I don't like my silver BOB but I just want to have a variety.
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #18 on: August 18, 2010, 11:27:22 AM »
HippieLady, it's funny we both have similar streaks of paranoia when it comes to missing things. I think I get mine from my Mom, she's hilarious about it. I remember one time my Dad was in the woods by our house, sawing up some tree stumps. We went out to bring him lemonade, and couldn't see him. Mom's face gets all withdrawn, like she's battling some internal impulse. Then she whispers, 'Maybe someone came and absconded with him...." She knew it wasn't true, but it was her default thinking pattern.

Queen, what is it with missing underwear right now? We are both operating with two pairs of thongs, which works but isn't what I would call fun times. Apparently the Thong Fairy covers a lot of territory! Btw, I love Battery Operated Boyfriend!! What a clever name!


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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #19 on: August 18, 2010, 01:41:20 PM »
Queen...I just call mine BOB too.  My sister and I used to name all our pipes and bongs back in the day, we were clever little stoners too.  We had a wooder peace pipe that we named Ol Chief WoodenHead.  We were silly!

I'm down right now, just dropped my husband off at the airport.  He'll be gone until next Thursday.  :(  It sucks so bad because we are rarely apart from each other.  The girls are a mess right now, crying and missing daddy.  I hope I can get though it without my "backup".  I'm so used to him coming home from work and being able to tag out for a bit.  It's gonna be lonely around here.

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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #20 on: August 18, 2010, 04:10:07 PM »
Well, I have a vibrator, but haven't actually named it.  Being that I'm not in a relationship, the vibrator is better for me right now than a man or woman (bisexual), because if it were a "new" person, I'd have to teach him/her what it is I like, and sometimes I feel like I'm getting too old for it.  I don't just go for the wham-bam; I need to have an O also.

Kate, sorry about your husband being gone.  I hope things go well for you and your daughters.  When I smoked pot back in the day, I had a collection of pipes.  I had some pretty ones; glass, with paintings on the stems, and even a stash pipe.  My parents found my collection, though, and got rid of them.

Not a whole lot going on.  Sometimes I feel like my life is spinning in circles, and that it's going to crash and burn soon.  Not sure if it's just one reason.  Oh well, have a good one.
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #21 on: August 18, 2010, 08:30:08 PM »
Hippie Lady, A few years back I was constantly missing underwear. I thought they were lost in the laundry like the one-sock thing. Turns out a guy I knew was sneaking into my apartment and taking them. It was really creepy cuz I was really good friends with his wife. She ended up leaving him, she found out about all his escapades (I wasn't the only girl missing underwear) and dumped his ass. And Im with you on the commando thing, I gave them up altogether.
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #22 on: August 18, 2010, 11:50:25 PM »
I had a bong back in the day but now I just smoke joints or blunts. Being here where I am, it's a journey just trying to find some green. I know there has to be some close by where I live but since no one knows me I end up going all the way to Harlem. Which is a journey from where I am in Jamaica.

I hear you Betty but sometimes I just want something I can feel, ya know.
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #23 on: August 19, 2010, 07:01:51 PM »
Very Interesting ............ ::) I don' have a Bullet, never have but I'll have to put that on my shopping list!!!
Hope all you ladies are doing well.!
Kiera is doing well no feeding tube! her mom tells me.
Hippie lady just want to know if your husband has been tested for hiv ? i think conseling and education would be good. My ex of 8 years was negetive and stayed that way providing we never used condoms. It was his personal choice. My doctor told him the risk was lower with women infecting men. I believe that to be true, because when i got diagnosed back then none of my paartners were positive. There are so many types of condoms out that i'm sure you both would enjoy.
Betty- how r u and ur daughter! have u went back to school yet??
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« Reply #24 on: August 19, 2010, 09:52:25 PM »
Hey gf's
I have been MIA for a while too. I have been so busy with work and my boyfriend, Once in a while I  drop by and catch up but just don't have time to post.  Welcome to the new ladies, this is a great group of friends and you can say what you think here.

Miss you all, have a great night. :D

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« Reply #25 on: August 20, 2010, 04:31:22 AM »
Netta, I go back to school in like 10 days, during the week of the 30th.  I'm pretty nervous about it.  I hope I can make it through.

Mary, good to hear from you. 
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #26 on: August 20, 2010, 05:40:14 PM »
Betty--- I have no doubt you will do just fine at school!!!!
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« Reply #27 on: August 21, 2010, 08:11:17 AM »
Betty--- I have no doubt you will do just fine at school!!!!

Aw, thanks Queen.  I have my doubts most days.  It's going to be harder, I just know it, and I'm hoping I still have brains enough to make it.  Thanks for the vote of confidence. :-*
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« Reply #28 on: August 21, 2010, 06:23:19 PM »
You know, I will always have ur back. Just consider me ur personal cheerleader!!!!
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« Reply #29 on: August 22, 2010, 05:03:44 AM »
Thanks, Queen.  And right back at ya. 

A couple days ago, I was in a very dark place, emotion wise.   It almost seemed like a manic episode or something.  I went from being a bit down to almost suicidal in a couple minutes.  I kept thinking that if I got drunk, it would take away the pain I was feeling.  But, luckily, my logical mind took over, and I reminded myself that even if I could drink, it wouldn't be any good for the diabetes.  Then I remembered one of my next door neighbors smokes pot.  I thought about going over and seeing if she would smoke one with me.  Then I remembered how paranoid I was the last time I smoked, and forgot about that.  So I started wishing I was dead.  I've tried suicide in the past.  My arms have scars on them between the wrists and elbow bend, when I opened them up.  That time, if someone wouldn't have found me, I probably would have been a goner.  Anyway, I'm not going to go into my stories of trying to off myself.  But, I was in a horrible, horrible space.  I'm glad I don't own a gun. 

I slept a lot of the day, and even went to bed extra early.  I slept for about 13 hours that night, and when I got up yesterday, and for most of the day yesterday, I felt exhausted, like I hadn't slept in years.  I haven't had an episode like that in a long time.  I don't know if that was mania or not.  I was thinking about making an appointment to see my doctor, but I don't want to be put on more meds.  I just want his opinion.  And I know if he hears the story, he's going to want to try something.  And I don't want to be on anything else.

Also, I almost went and got some cigarettes.  I kept thinking how nice it would be to have a long drag off a cigarette.  Then I thought about the long-term, that when the depression passed, I would be hooked on smoking again, and it would be harder to quit.  Not that it made it easier.  And even if I would have started again, I probably wouldn't down myself too much.

Anyway, that's my rant for this morning.  Sorry for the downer, but that's how it goes sometimes.  I hope you all are having a good weekend.
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« Reply #30 on: August 22, 2010, 05:38:15 PM »
I defintely feel you Betty. I wasn't feeling suicidal but I was in tears a lot last night and lately I have been sleeping until around 4ish. I just don't want to get out the bed. I know it is depression. There are a lot of things on my mind that I am trying to deal with. I keep telling myself that it will get better but it never does. I just keep going through highs and lows. I am just tired of feeling this way. I am to the point now that talking about it doesn't seem to do any good.
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« Reply #31 on: August 23, 2010, 04:12:46 AM »
Queen, a friend of mine, when I told her about what happened with me and depression, said I may want to mention it to my doctor, because of the severity of the depression.  Do you have a doctor's appointment coming up?  Do you think being on an antidepressant would help?  Sometimes I hesitate to tell my doctor this stuff, because I think I don't want to keep adding pills, or go through any more side effects.  I do take Welbutrin, but it may be that the dose needs to be up'd, or something.  I hope you feel better soon, girl.  I'm thinking about you and I will be saying a prayer for you.

Yesterday evening, I watched this special on VH1 about Soul Train.  It was really a blast from the past.  I used to watch it like in the late 70's, early 80's.  Seeing some of the old artists again, like Shalimar, was really pretty cool.  Anyway, I hope you all have a good day (especially you Queen :-*).
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« Reply #32 on: August 23, 2010, 08:23:59 AM »
Hey Ladies,

Just dropping in to say I am here. I haven't posted in a while but everything thing is fine. I am 21 weeks and 1 day pregnant. We are having a little boy. He looks great. Heart kidneys and all. I was on Atripla when I first got pregnant. I was 2 months pregnant when I found out. So I was kinda nervouse about that. My children are fine. Husband is fine. We all just taking one day at a time. Sometimes I get depressed when I think about my status. BUt with prayer it blows over after a while. In Dec. I will be 3 years positive so i guess its still kind of new.

Well I was just stopping by to see how you ladies are doing.

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« Reply #33 on: August 23, 2010, 12:08:19 PM »
BT65, congrats on going back to school! That's something I should have done years ago, but didn't. Which means I should be doing it now, but so far I'm not. It's so intimidating to me. How did you push through that enough to actually register?

So about my baby issues...still here. But I'm being proactive now, which is a good thing. I'm reading a book about fertility awareness, given to me by a female friend of my husbands.  I already new that temperature was important somehow as an ovulation marker, but I always assumed by "temperature" it meant temperature "down there." As in, sticking a thermometer in your coochie. My husband said no, stick it in your mouth. So, I consulted the book to settle the matter. The book, perhaps thinking that no one in their right mind would presume to stick a thermometer in their girly bits, never specifically said to stick it in your mouth. I wanted to believe my husband, but a little voice in my head kept repeating, "what does HE know," so I told him to call his friend and ask. My husband flatly refused to ask his friend if I needed to stick a thermometer in my vag, so we settled it another way; we googled it.

Needless to say, I'm sticking it in my mouth. And don't ask me why I thought what I thought, because I don't know.

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« Reply #34 on: August 23, 2010, 02:52:52 PM »
Welcome to all the new ladies!!

BT- Sorry you were feeling so down, I hope that you are feeling better.  You can call me whenever you want, my phone is shut-off now cuz my SO didn't pay the bill but it should be back on soon.  Is pot legal where you live?  I wish it was here.

Ballerina- That is a funny story, you never know, it could have been your who-ha, good thing you checked.

Queen- Did you get everything worked out with your case manager making appts and stuff?  Maybe something is in the air, I have been feeling crappy lately too.  I hope you are feeling better!

Keeping- I'm excited for you, show us some prego pics on FB :)

My doc took me off Atripla this past week because I wasn't undetectable anymore. He checked me 2x and then decided I should just switch.  I am now on Prezista, Truvada and Norvir.  It's only been about 5 days now and I got my period the same night I started the meds and that usually makes me feel like complete and total shit anyways, so I think this regiman might be good for me. 
  I think I am finally feeling better about this whole disease, it only took 17 yrs(in Jan for meds anyway)...the first night I opened the Prezista which is orange and the Truvada which is blue, I thought to myself "What pretty colors!" Ha, ha, stupid I know!!
Then before when I was on Norvir which needs to be refrigerated, I would make sure I took my meds out of the fridge before anyone came over.  My friend stopped by the other day and I didn't think about till after she left. :) YAAAHHHHH me  ::)

When my doc was telling me what he was changing me to, I asked about the Norvir being in the fridge which I have been on before and he said that is the "old" pill.  When I got the bottle , it still says "must be refrigerated"  ??? I am not sure what is up with that but I just keep it in the fridge.  Anybody else on this combo?

Hope everyone has a great week!
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« Reply #35 on: August 23, 2010, 04:55:13 PM »
Keeping, congrats!

Ballerina, I actually got my undergrad degree last year, so I had been in school for a couple years.  What I'm going into is a master's certificate in alcohol & drug counseling.  Now that was intimidating, even if it isn't a full master's degree per se.  I just hated the whole application process, and am clueless as to what I wrote for a personal statement about why I wanted into the program.  But, if you want to go back to school, I strongly encourage you to do so.    Funny story about the fertility temperature.  That had me laughing, and I needed a laugh.  Hey, I probably would have thought the same thing.

Snow, thanks.  And no, pot isn't legal here in Hoosierville, even in medical cases.  Of course, about 20 minutes, is the Michigan border, and pot is medicinally legal in Michigan.  Last time I smoked a hooter was like 6 years ago.  I got very, very paranoid.  I was sitting on the couch, and had to go to the bathroom, and kept thinking "if I get up to go to the bathroom, I'll fall over trying to walk there."  I think I finally went about an hour later. :P
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« Reply #36 on: August 30, 2010, 07:16:47 AM »
OK, it's been 7 days since anyone posted.  What's everybody up to?
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« Reply #37 on: August 30, 2010, 08:00:46 AM »
 I've be getting ready for the kids to go back to school today....finally  ;D
I got one on the bus this morning and 3 more to go in 20 minutes!!
I'll post more when things get back to normal, hopefully. ;)
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #38 on: August 30, 2010, 03:06:15 PM »
Not much going on with me. My internet was down, just got it back on today. I do have a date planned on Friday. I'll keep ya posted on how that goes.
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« Reply #39 on: August 30, 2010, 11:00:22 PM »
Been fighting a uti here...finally broke down and went to the er to get the good meds.  The cranberry stuff wasn't cutting it.  I'm on the mend now.
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« Reply #40 on: August 31, 2010, 03:58:25 AM »
Snow, I know you're happy about the kids being back in school.  We'll have to hook up some time this week.  Like I pm'd you about, I've been having a lot of trouble with insomnia lately.  My doctor switched me, about 3 weeks ago, to Lyrica, and I don't know if that would have anything to do with it.

Queen, good luck on the date!  You'll have to keep us in the loop about it.

Hippielady, I used to get UTI's all the time.  Now, when I get one, I go straight to the doctor's.  I was in a coma before because of a UTI.  The antibiotic I was on wasn't cutting it, and the poison from the infection got into my bloodstream.  Please be careful with that.

Like I was telling Snow above, I'm having tons of problems with insomnia.  But I feel exhausted.  My doctor switched me from Neurontin to Lyrica.  Reason being, I told him I was having a lot of trouble with dizziness/nausea, and he seemed to think the Neurontin could be contributing to that, and that the Lyrica was a better med to go with.  I had heard some bad things about Lyrica from a friend of mine, who supposedly have fibromyalgia.  I have to say, though, I haven't really had any bad side effects from it (unless it's causing the insomnia).  I'm going to have to look it up to see if it could be causing the sleeping problems.                                           I think that's it for now.  Everyone take care.
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« Reply #41 on: September 01, 2010, 12:04:44 AM »
BT65, I can't tell you how impressed I am with what you're doing. That kind of work is so necessary, and important. And insomnia...what a bitch, right? There is nothing quite so tizzy inducing as laying wide awake and anxious for hours. Some mornings I wonder if I'd feel fresher staying up all night. I don't have trouble every night, I go through good and bad patches. I hope your bad patch resolves itself soon!

Snowangel, the kids around here went back to school this week too. For me that means timing my morning coffee run carefully, to avoid getting stuck behind the school bus!

Queen, good luck on the date!

HippieLady, sorry about the UTI. I've had my fair share, luckily antibiotics usually knock them out quick. I'll send your bladder warm fuzzies. That sounded weirder than I intended.

In my news, the hubby and I had a really good talk about babies, etc. We finally spoke very honestly and directly about the possibility that it may not be in the cards for us. It was good to get it all out, especially considering when we get stressed, we both clam up.  Funny thing is (cause with me there's always something), our talk happened at the local Mexican restaurant. We didn't plan on having an emotional break through served up with our tacos, it just happened. The wait staff and fellow diners could hardly miss that something was going down, because tears were coursing down my cheeks. Falling apart in public doesn't bother me, in a way it's oddly freeing. So was the emotional release that came with stepping up and making my relationship to myself and my husband more on track with what I want it to be.

Ok, gotta go to bed. I'm sitting here playing (but not watching) The Peacmaker on youtube, just to listen to George Clooney's voice. Definitely time to get off the computer.

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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #42 on: September 01, 2010, 06:51:22 AM »
Well don't feel bad but I have been quite nocturnal too. I am usually up now til 6. I haven't gone to sleep yet. I'll prolly stay up cuz I am waiting on something to come in the mail. The mail lady runs around 1 so if I go to sleep I'll catch a nap then.

Ballerina--Glad you and ur hubby had that talk, now u both feel better. And you never know, you may still get pregnant when you least expect it. The stress of planning it would drive me crazy.

Well, I can actually say that I have been looking forward to this date. We have been talking for a few and we have a lot in common. Even bi-polar exes. He works second shift so the date is going to be a late on but it's not like I have anything to do. Next weekend we have already made plans to go see Resident Evil: Afterlife 3D. I am a sucker for a zombie movies and I have the other 3 Resident Evil movies.

I am going to keep it short. I need to make a store run. I'll chat later if I am not in a sleeping coma.
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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« Reply #43 on: September 02, 2010, 03:56:13 AM »
Ballerina, that's great that you and your hubby have been able to talk and reconnect.  And who cares if it happened in a restaurant?  It happened, and that's what's important.

Queen, I'm sending really good vibes for your date.  I'll be very anxious to hear how it went!

I started school last night.  The students aren't very friendly, but the professor is very intereseting.  Most of the students have their master's degrees, and most already work in the counseling field.  So, they really think they're "all that."  I just want to make it through.  Tonight is my other class; we'll see how it goes.  When I got home from work, I wanted to go to sleep so bad.  And today, I woke up at 3:00, then laid back down until 3:45. 

Today at work, my boss is supposed to take me out to lunch for my b.d.  I really don't like going out to lunch with her, because I feel like we don't have much to talk about.  Hopefully other people will be going, so it won't be just her and I.                               I believe that's it for now.  I hope everyone's alright!
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« Reply #44 on: September 02, 2010, 02:38:37 PM »
BT65, too bad about the unfriendly, snooty students, but at least the Prof is good. And you are so right, who cares where the Big Martial Talk happened, point is it HAPPENED! It helped me recalibrate my role in our relationship, reminding me that I'm the one that directs the flow of emotional communication. Not to say the health of our marriage is all on me,  just that I'm the one that steps up and speaks up if something needs attention, if that makes sense. I'm the emotional touchstone in the marriage, and I forgot for awhile that I'm up to the challenge, and actually kick serious ass with it.

Queen, I too am sending you good thoughts for your date tomorrow!

This weekend we are painting the exterior of our house. I've done interior painting before, but never a job of this magnitude. I'm a little nervous, but I think we'll blast right through it. My sis in law and nephew are helping, and we have a paint sprayer which should save time. For the moment my biggest conundrum is what to wear for the dirty work. In a fit of organizational insanity, I threw away my old and battered work jeans. Big mistake. Considering I can't even eat without collateral damage, I'd say whatever I wear needs to be amenable to getting covered in staining substances. My hubby has a white Tyvex (I think it's called that) full body suit, including a little hood. If I wear that I figure I'll look like I'm tromping around a crime scene, but at least I'll be clean.  It's gonna be way too big, though, so...yeah. Maybe I'll just have to "retire" a pair of my other jeans. Wish us luck in our big adventure!


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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #45 on: September 02, 2010, 08:44:11 PM »
Snow, They just changed the Norvir to a pill instead of that big fat capsule. It doesnt need to be refigerated. I love it because I get most of my meds thru the mail and they couldn't mail the old Norvir.

 BT65,  I know what you all mean about the depression that comes and goes. Sometimes I feel like Im fine with everything and then sometimes I feel like I can't keep doing this. I have had post shingles pain for 2  1/2 years now. I never would have believed Id still have this pain all this time later. I dont want to take pain pills but I take 2 nerve blockers (BT65, one of them is Lyrica) that help some but wreck my short term memory, and I wear lidocain pain patches. The pain just really wears on you, day after day. I know if I tell the doc Im feeling this way he'll want to add more meds....dont want that!

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« Reply #46 on: September 03, 2010, 06:47:03 AM »
Ballerina, good luck with the painting.  A girl I work with and I were just talking about that, and I have to admit, I've never painted, outside of paint-by-numbers. 

Deb, ug, post-shingles pain.  That's got to be horrible.  I have neuropathy pretty severely in my feet.  Started years ago, with the earlier HIV meds, then got worse when I had uncontrolled diabetes.  I was taking Neurontin, but my doctor thinks Lyrica is a better medication.  The only thing that's changed for me really since starting Lyrica has been the insomnia.  But, I'm going to get some Benadryl today to help with the sleep.  I'm a former using drug addict, and doctors recommend Benadryl to addicts for sleep.  Hope you feel better.

The class last night, student wise, was better.  I actually talked to some people, and they seemed pretty nice.  There are some people in there who are still a bit snobby, or I could be reading them wrong.  The professor last night, though, had everyone's nerves on edge.  She has no experience in addictions (the major is addiction counseling), and I don't know if she even knows what addiction means.  She's been a therapist for years, but mostly in elementary school.  So, she didn't know a lot about what she was doing last night, and that wasn't good. 

Well, yay, it's a long weekend with Labor Day coming up.  I hope you all have a good one, and Queen, I'll be waiting to hear about your date.  Have a good one.
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« Reply #47 on: September 04, 2010, 11:44:21 AM »
BT, I totally have insomnia. Im wondering if I should take my lyrica earlier in the day. Anythings worth a try!
April 08 3 month bout w/ shingles, ongoing nerve pain
Dec 08 pos  cd4 200 %8  VL 18,000
Feb 09 started sustiva, truvada -allergic to sustiva, hospital 4 days.
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April 09 cd4 327  %12  VL 300
Aug 09 cd4 392  %16  Vl undetectable
Dec 09 hospital pneumonia 6 days
Dec 09 cd4 462  %20  VL undetectable
Mar 10 cd4 629 27% VL undetectable
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« Reply #48 on: September 04, 2010, 01:22:52 PM »
Happy 3 day weekend Ladies!!

Ugh...so I traded my uti for a yeast infection. Yippie!  I should have asked them for a prescription for the pill stuff but I forgot.  So now I gotta use the monistat stuff.  It doesn't burn for my but it sure is messy and doesn't work super fast.

Today is my daughter's 8th birthday.  We have such a busy weekend planned. Today we are taking her to toys r us to spend her birthday loot, then a surprise trip to chuck e cheese.  Tonight we'll have cake and ice cream and all that jazz.  Then tomorrow we are going to a Diamondbacks game.  It'll be the girls' first non pre-season game and they are very excited.  To be honest, I'm pretty excited too.  I think we are going to take the light rail into the city, that should make it more relaxing if I don't have to drive.  I'm sure Monday will be a rest and recoup day, we might throw some food on the grill.

I hope y'all have a super holiday weekend!

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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #49 on: September 04, 2010, 01:28:39 PM »
Hi Katie. Every time I have to take antibiotics, I always make sure they give me a script for fluconazole at the same time because I am absolutely guaranteed to get the yeasty beasties from the antibiotic. I've always been that way, but since I've been poz I get oral thrush as well. Not fun at all. Hope your daughter has a great day. I can hardly remember when mine was only eight! She's 23 now and back at university training to be a teacher.

Betty, I've been having insomnia a lot lately too, but I'm not taking any new meds or anything. I keep thinking of you when I'm lying there awake. I think it's just stress in my case.

Queen, dear, I'm waiting to hear about your date! Hope it went well.
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« Reply #50 on: September 04, 2010, 08:45:59 PM »
Hey Ladies---

I hope everyone is enjoying their weekend. At the moment, I am babysitting. My date last night went very well, great even. Drank some Coronas, smoked, and played darts. I haven't played darts in years. But it was fun. I was smiling so much I realized me face hurt..lol..He's just a sweet, funny guy, and after talking we have a lot in common. Date number 2 is either tomorrow or Monday.

A little drama with my landlord...My check came on Friday, I had gotten 2 notices for disconnection of services. Not really sweating it because I have some money that is suppose to be coming to me. It was suppose to have come last week but I know for sure it will be here next week. Anyways, I text my landlord, telling him I would pay the rent next week. He asked why and I told him about the bills and the money. Now he talking like he wants to evict me which is utter bullshit because rent is just now due. Plus he had told me in the past that I had until the 15th of the month before I would be charged a late fee. Now he's acting like he doesn't remember saying that. And telling me since I am having a hard time paying him rent that he will do what he has to do...wtf? Another thing is that I don't owe him any back rent, so I don't understand why he is tripping. Other than acting money hungry. And anytime I try to contact him for anything, he ignores my texts. I don't know the landlord/tenant laws here in NY but I don't see how he could do anything considering I am suppose to have until the 15th of the month.

That's what has me concerned. I wouldn't put it past him to pull an illegal lock out just to be an ass. I could use some opinions, Thanks.
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« Reply #51 on: September 04, 2010, 09:43:26 PM »
" Plus he had told me in the past that I had until the 15th of the month before I would be charged a late fee."

Michelle:

What does your rental contract or apartment lease state in writing?

When it comes to landlords and tenants it's not what's said that you can count on, it's what in writing that each of you signed.

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« Reply #52 on: September 05, 2010, 06:58:35 AM »
OK, let's try this again.  I had a reply I tried to post at around 4:45 this morning, but something with the server screwed up, and I lost the whole thing. 

Deb, if you find out if Lyrica causes insomnia, let me know. 

Hippie, ug, yeast.  I used to get that quite often, and also used to get thrush (oral) about twice a month.  That hasn't happened in awhile.  I used to take Diflucan preventatlivey.  Also, when I got thrush, I used to take an oral swish & swallow.  I believe it was Nystatin.  There also used to be prescribed Mycelex Troches, that were like huge discs I used to let melt in my mouth, but I haven't seen any info about these in quite awhile.  Now, of course this has nothing to do with your yeast, and I apologize.  I hope it clears up for you fast; if it doesn't, call your doc and ask them for phone in some Diflucan.      Have fun with your kid on her birthday.  My oldest granddaughter is 10, and my daughter is 26.  Chuck E Cheese, aye?  Wow, you must have a good nervous system.

Ann, now that I know you're thinking about me when you're up late, I'll think about you when I wake up at 3:00.  You all don't know this, but I have a secret crush on Ann. :-*  Actually, I was telling my sister and another friend about the insomnia, and they said they believe it's an age issue.  They both said after they got over 40, they started having sleep issues.

Queen, glad your date went so well!  I hope it continues.  About your landlord, I have to agree with Em.  If you have in writing that you have until the 15th to pay your rent, your landlord is SOL if he tries anything.  When it comes to written contracts, whatever is said doesn't mean squat.  Where the signatures are is what counts.

Yesterday, I got some clothes for my youngest granddaughter, then came home.  I laid down around 3:30 in the afternoon to take a quick snooze, and woke up at 10:00 at night.  I went back to sleep around 10:30, and woke up at 3:45 this morning, and got up.  I must have been more exhausted than I thought.  When I was walking around the store, I felt like I was walking on air I was so tired. 

Not much else going on.  I may go to Michigan City, IN today.  A friend of mine also wants to go to a casino later.  I've only been once, and play the dime games.  I'm not really into gambling like my friend, but it is kinda fun.  I hope you all have a good weekend!
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« Reply #53 on: September 06, 2010, 01:29:03 PM »
Queen, glad to hear the date went well! Sorry to hear about the landlord crap. I had a certifiably nuts landlord awhile ago, it was the pits. I'm sure everything will work out with your situation, it sounds like he's just being an ass for the sake of being an ass, and as soon as he's paid it will blow over.

HippieLady, so sorry about the yeast! I, too, used to get those. Mostly in my early twenties, I think it was a body chemistry issue that must have corrected itself at some point. But, when I take antibiotics all bets are off. I have to pop the acidopholus like crazy as preventative. Happy bday to your daughter!

BT, glad to hear your class is getting friendlier!

Painting went well, and fast. Had family crawling all over on Saturday, which made everything go quicker.  My father in law is a hoot! I already knew he was weird, but he got positively giddy. Maybe it was a combination of take out pizza and paint fumes. Whatever it was, I like him better for it. Yesterday my hubby and I second coated the trim, and cleaned up many areas. For never having painted like that before, I do good work. The back door is a work of art! We still need to pick our front door color, we want it to be brighter and warmer than the house, but not oh-wow-look-at-that-door territory. When we were picking out main and trim colors, one of my criteria was that the house didn't become a neighborhood landmark, as in "turn left right after the house on the corner, you'll know which one I mean...."  It feels nice to have a better looking house, and makes me a bit impatient to get the inside up to the outside standards!

Hope everyone has a great labor day!


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« Reply #54 on: September 07, 2010, 04:03:54 AM »
Ballerina, good luck with the rest of the work on your home.

Went to the casino a couple days ago.   The Pokagon band of Potowatomi native americans own it.  I played a penny machine.  It was only my 2nd time there.  My friend, who I went with, has been more frequently.  She played the penny machine right next to mine.  I put $20 in, and played for two hours, off the same $20.  In the end, I only lost $5, so I don't feel so bad.  My friend lost $40.  It was fun.  My friend's son works in one of the restaurants there, the high-scale one, where the appetizers cost $50.  It was a good time, and after sitting at the machine, I can see where people would spend all their money at a casino.  It's exciting to win, and kind of causes an adrenaline rush. 

I guess that's it for now.  You all have a good one. 
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« Reply #55 on: September 07, 2010, 03:56:09 PM »
Just chiming in, not much to really talk about. Before I forget, today is Snowangel's birthday....Happy Birthday Snow, I hope ur enjoying ur day. Things are going good for me. I am still trying not to stress about the landlord situation even though you guys say I have nothing to worry about. I spoke to the lawyer today and she still keeps telling me that I should get the mail this week. I text the landlord again today, telling him what the lawyer said and asking him to be patient. I wanted to say something other than that to his ass but I figured I'd just be the bigger person. Of course, I got no reply back from him.

My son text me today but I swear he is starting to irritate me. It seems like I never hear from him unless he wants something. This time, he wants me to send him some money for a car. He doe not seem to grasp the idea that I am struggling with bills. He swears he will pay me back but I find that kinda hard to believe. Just because my sister had to wait just to get back 18.50 for some work pants. I am glad he still has his job. He is definitely going to need it since he may have twins on the way. The one girl he thought was pregnant by him is not and now he may have someone else pregnant. SMH but that is on him.

Well, I didn't get to see my Boo on Sunday or Monday. I was suppose to see him tonight but that may not happen either because the person I babysit for gets off work late. By the time I catch the train and the ferry, it will be mad late. Maybe we may still get together or maybe wait til tomorrow night. Things are going good so far. We have so much in common that it just blows my mind at times when I think about him. At the same time, I am almost afraid of getting too happy about it for the fear of something going wrong. I know I shouldn't feel that way but I just can't help it with the track record I have had with men and relationships. I just keep kicking myself and hoping this one will be better.

Betty, Man I wish I could go to a casino. I am not much of a gambler but I do like the slot machines too. I didn't know they have ones you can play for a penny. So if you hit off of it do you still get decent money like the quarter ones?

That's about it for me...Have a good day.
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« Reply #56 on: September 07, 2010, 05:59:14 PM »
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SNOW![/color]

Queen, I'm not sure about winning a lot on the penny machines.  When I was playing, the most I won was like $3.  But, that's pretty good I guess.  It's 300 pennies. ;D
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« Reply #57 on: September 09, 2010, 12:53:01 PM »
Snowangel, I hope you had a good birthday!

You know those people that can put on a band-aid perfectly? No pad cross-contamination, no positional insecurity, just smooth, mess-less application? Yeah, well, thatís not me.

I was washing a knife today, the big no-nonsense kind built for chopping vegetables, but that could probably chop a tree in half if necessary. Somehow, I sliced my thumb.  I didnít have much of a reaction other than to curse the fact that I, an avowed germaphobe, would for the next few days have an impediment when washing my hands. I muttered a few obscenities, more for forms sake than anything else, and trotted into the bathroom to begin tending the wound.

My mom is a nurse, so all my childhood afflictions were lovingly, thoroughly, and professionally dealt with. Some of that rubbed off on me; I am meticulous about keeping owwies sanitized and dry, and Iím not too tough to seek professional help if anything is in danger of falling off. But then, there is the band-aid. That skill skipped a generation.

Most boo-boos requiring patching are on my hands, with an inordinate number landing on my thumbs. Trying to stick on a patch while operating minus one opposable thumb is a tricky proposition. Don't even get me stared on what happens when the owwie is on my right hand and I'm forced to use my left. Then, there is the matter of the band-aid wrapper that never seems to want to open. Some brands respond immediately, but others (and I can never remember which is which when Iím at the store) hold their own tenaciously. Today I had one of the over-achievers, and I finally had to rip it down the middle, mangling the band-aid in the process. I smoothed it out, decided it looked usable, pulled off the tabs, and stuck it on. Thatís when the positional insecurity kicked in. I wonder if my not being able to tell where North, South, East or West are at any given moment ties into my issue with always getting the sticky part halfway into the cut.  Itís all spacial, right?

Then, by the time I get it positioned correctly, the stickiness has faded and I have to start the entire process over again. I should probably give up on band-aids all together and use that liquid skin stuff.

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« Reply #58 on: September 10, 2010, 12:19:41 AM »
Just a question ballerina...Are you accident prone? How you talk, it seems like you have a lot of accidents and boo boos. We're gonna have to think of a way to safety proof you..lol...

Had another date last night with my Boo. It was good as always. We seem to have good communication and he likes to cuddle. Can't remember the last time I was cuddled. Ended up staying the night, we get ready to leave for the ferry and his car is GONE!!!! Unpaid parking tickets caught up to him, done by his ex who he seem to have thought paid the tickets. He is going to get it out tomorrow though.

I am still waiting on the mail....*grumbles*
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« Reply #59 on: September 11, 2010, 05:16:32 AM »
Ballerina, that was a funny story.  I hope you meant it to be that way.  I hate nasty cuts.

Queen, glad things are working out with this guy.  I hope he treats you right, and gives you the good things you deserve.

Alright ladies, I have an "ouchy" story of my own, that happened yesterday.  I was curling my hair, got to the left side, and, yep you guessed it.  I burned my neck.  I didn't notice it as first, but when I was getting dressed, I was thinking "damn, my neck is burning!"  So, I looked in the mirror, and yep, there it is.  Now, think back to high school days and hickeys.  I remember telling my mom I burned my neck on the curling iron when I had hickeys.  So, it looks pretty tacky.  And when I went grocery shopping yesterday, some people gave me a really nasty look, like "look at that slut with the hickey on her neck!"  I mean, it looks like a burn more than a hickey.  The first layer of the skin is raised, and it's more purple.  Anyway, there's my story.  I hope it fades fast, but I know sometimes burns are slow to heal.     Everyone have a good, safe weekend.
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« Reply #60 on: September 11, 2010, 11:37:45 AM »
Hi Ladies-
Thank you for the birthday wishes ! ;D  I can't believe I am going to be the big 4-0 next year, that is so depressing, but I suppose I should be grateful I have been living with this dreadful disease for 16 years so far and don't have too many complaints.

Ballerina- You are hysterical, I like the Curad flex fabric myself, they seem to stay on better.

BT- How did you burn yourself and not know till later, LOL!  That is totally something I would do, if I had the patience to curl my hair.  One thing I don't like about winter, I have to take the time to blow dry my hair in the morning.
I'm glad you had fun at the casino.  I like the penny machines although sometimes it is hard to figure out why or why not you won or didn't.  The old machines with the 3 bars where so much easier to figure out.

Queen- Hey girl! I don't think I would send him any money if I was you.  He is fully capable of making his own money.  You need and deserve the money you are getting and you should do something for you, that makes you happy.

Deb- I must of got gipped, my Norvir is still the fat capsule,  :-[, LOL.

HippieLady- Did you have fun at Chucky Cheese?  I have avoided that place for awhile, my threesome just turned 7 and they love it, I was thinking of checking tomorrows papers for a coupon.

Everything and nothing is going on here.  The kids are all back in school, my son is playing football, I am trying to get my house organized, I'm working part-time at school,my med change is going well, (I think, I should know definately at the end of the month), shitbag is still fucking with me, lol, as usual.  He called my mothers house and left a message for me that he was going to send me $950 bucks cuz he knew I needed money for school clothes and could I have my son call him.  He has all my info from the court docs, he could of just as easily called me, but he knows that he can manipulate my mother in to doing what he wants so he calls her.  I knew some more shit was gonna happen a few months ago when he sent a whole 25 bucks 3 months in a row.  What am I supposed to get with that, one sneaker a month? LOL, I really need to get my asshole magnet removed.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend!!
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« Reply #61 on: September 11, 2010, 11:40:35 AM »
Forgot.

Any of the ladies who are on Facebook and want to hook up, PM me, I seem to be on there more than I am on here.
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« Reply #62 on: September 13, 2010, 04:14:03 AM »
Snow, sorry the SB is causing you problems (again).  I wish he would leave you all alone, including your mom. 

People are giving me dirty looks when I go out, because of that burn on my neck.  Like yesterday, I went to do laundry.  I go to the same laundermat every time, and see the same girl who works there.  She noticed it, but at least she asked.  Most people just glare.  If one gets close enough, one can tell it's a burn and not a hickey.  It's raised, and it doesn't have that "bruised" look.  But, no one wants to take an upclose look.  Oh well.

This is my last week where I work.  I got another job at the local ASO.  I start there on 10/4.  So, I'll have a couple weeks off.  Which is fine with me, because I need to catch up on homework.  I'm happy to have the experience I had at the place I'm currently working, but glad to be out of there also.  The boss, who's a pastor, is horrible to work for.  I won't get into it all now, but trust me, she's horrible.  Selfish, controlling, and the worst case of ADD (that doesn't make her horrible) I've seen in an adult.  She hangs around the people in the church that have money, and talks really bad to the people who don't.  Which I hate.  I like people for who they are, not what they can do for me.  Anyway, I said I'm not getting into it, then on I go.                                  Alright ladies, have a good one today.
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« Reply #63 on: September 13, 2010, 08:14:26 AM »
"Betty's got a hickey, Betty's got a hickey!" LOL woman, you remind me of my daughter. We've lost count of the times she's burned herself with her straighteners.

I'm happy to hear you've got some time off before you start your new job. Nothing like having time to put your feet up. I'm glad you don't have to put up with that bitch pastor anymore. I don't know how you managed to not read her the riot act. I would have struggled with that big time. Maybe you could tell her what you think of her on your last day. (please!)

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« Reply #64 on: September 13, 2010, 12:26:04 PM »
Hello Everyone ! Been trying to keep up with the post since I haven't been here much. I just didn't feel like posting, plus I've been tired and sleeping a lot lately. I don't feel depressed, and I am taking zoloff so I guess its just the virus. It reall has me concerned. I get up about 8;30 am and after breakfast and meds I go back to sleep till noon then i eat lunch, computer till I get sleepy again so another nap till 3 and then cook dinner and try to stay awake. AT night I am awake till 12 or 1am ! then I don't sleep good. I think its because I stopped my premarin, hormone pills, but since 'm still going  to the oncologist I get scared to take it. He said its ok, but I don't know since I had the surgery to remove the cancerous spot in my private area.
Well besides that I got my divorce last Thursday !!!!! yeah for me ! I still have bad dreams about him. But I am happy to get my name back. !I am mon Facebook alot encouranging people with scripture and prayer and just networking. Its also a way to keep up with family. I am still going to church and have started a mime ministry ! with the  teens. I am very excited about it, we have not met yet but we did sign up last Sunday. Just waiting on the youth pastor . A lot of death happened last 2 weeks, also. involving friends of people i know. I lost a friend to cancer, but she is in a better place. I had not seen her in years and her sis just passed in June who was also a friend. But let me tell you, There have been 2 suicides last week. There is a suicide spirit around, I rebuke it in the name of Jesus !!!!! so ladies stop taliking and thinking about it when you get depressed.!!! My youth pastor lost his good friend to suicide so i was told and he's very upset about it. Another young man in his 30's whowent to school with my daughter, commited suicide last Monday, labor day and had a wife and kids . they say he left a note. He was a coach and had a great job. You never know.3 people drowned. two brothers drowned while fishing Labor Day, they were friends of some one I know and 1 was the grandfather of a young lady  I know, she is having a very hard time. and woman died in car accident from drunk driver all in my area. I tell you all, tell someone you love them, cause tomorrows not promised. Take care.
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« Reply #65 on: September 13, 2010, 12:34:55 PM »
I forgot to report Kiki is doing well ! at  the Scotchish Rites Hospital in Atlanta. and staying at the Ronald McDonald house with her mom. i saw her 2 weeks ago when they come home for the weekend. she stiill cannot walk yet because of the broken legs, she is getting therapy and has some brain damage that afects her memory.She has good and bad days, when she is in pain and gets frustrated. but overall she is doing well. When we went to see her she didn't remember us, but at the hospital a month ago she did. She is talking and eating normal. It going to be a long road but she is alive and we are thankful for that.!
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« Reply #66 on: September 13, 2010, 06:37:15 PM »
Hey Ladies---

I know I haven't posted in a few. Like Snow and Netta, I am mainly on Facebook now too. It's also easier to keep up with my family that way too. I have also been busy babysitting my ex's grand daughter so she is quite a handful and has been keeping me busy. The ex text the baby's father today asking him to tell me that he would like his rings back that is the pawn shop under my name. If he gives me half the money on the pawn ticket and the stuff he has of mine at his house he can have the rings back. It's not like I want them but he won't get them back if he has thrown away my stuff which he had a habit of doing in the past. I'm just trying to figure out how he knew I was babysitting his grand daughter? Supposedly his brother told him but I don't talk to his brother. Then he wants to say he misses his grand daughter and loves her. What a crock of shit, if he loved her he wouldn't have thrown the baby and her father out into the streets with no where to go.

I have decided not to send my son any money. Like I told him, the only times I hear from him is when he wants something from me. So, he can fend for himself. I deposited the money into my bank account today but has to wait a few days for the check to clear. I let the asshole landlord know so he can get off my back now. I plan on paying him this months and next months rent so I will have my check next month to myself. I have one bill I want to pay off, do a lil clothes shopping, get livingroom furniture then the rest I am going to sit on.

I was thinking about Cindy last night while watching the football game, her Redskins beat my Cowboys. I know she prolly watched it. I hope she is doing well. I miss her. And damn Netta, sorry to hear about all those people who have passed especially the ones who committed suicide. I hate to hear about people doing that. I have thought about it at times when I feel really low just never had the stomach to follow it through. I suppose that is a good thing. And if I did, I really doubt anyone would miss me. I know it sounds morbid but true. I am glad you finally got your divorce. I know you must really be happy about that.

I am laughing at you Betty about the burn looking like a hickey. You should get some AD ointment to put on that to help it heal. That preacher of yours is a trip. Also one of the reasons I turned away from Christianity to become Pagan. It seems like the biggest whores are in the church or are the preachers themselves.

Things are going ok with me and Boo. We have still been seeing each other as in dating but I don't think I want to go further than that right now. I like him a lot but I have been kinda on a man hating thing as of late. It seems like things in the beginning was all clovers but then after awhile things kinda change. Why does it have to change? Why can't men be the same instead of being so damn changeable? It seems like when they know that you are digging them that's when they want to freaking change.... ::)
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« Reply #67 on: September 14, 2010, 04:04:21 AM »
Ann, I was thinking about telling the pastor how I felt about her, or rather, how difficult she made it to work there.  Some of the members know how I feel.  The only thing is, the pastor is well-known, and well-liked, in the community (they don't really know her, only see her public face).  So, if I were to tell her some things, she may talk to other people.  One of my good friends, who's a therapist, told me that years ago, she quit at a treatment center, and went out in a blaze of glory.  She learned from that not to burn her bridges, because, well, people talk.  Believe me, I'd love to tell her how I can't stand the way she only treats people with money decent, and others like they're dirt under her feet.  Like I said, some of the members know how I feel, and that people keep leaving because of her, so hopefully something will be done.  I'm rambling.  But truly, there are few people I've been around in my life that make my skin crawl, but she does.  And that's saying something.

Netta, sorry about the people you know who have passed on.  Especially the ones who have taken their own lives.  I've attempted suicide a couple times, and would have succeeded had no one found me.  I can't stand it when religious people say that people who have committed suiciide are going to hell.  No one knows how desperate people feel who do that.  Anyway, glad to hear Kiki is doing better.  I'm not on facebook, so I can't keep up with you and the others.  Great to hear about the mime ministry you've started.  Good for you!  Good news on the divorce also.

Queen, Glad your money came through.  That's a great idea to pay a month ahead in your rent.  Be careful, though, about how much you leave in the bank.  I mean, I don't know what it's like there, but here, Medicaid only allows someone to have $1500 in their savings.  Crazy, I think.  People should be able to save as  much as they want.  But, you know how that goes.    I hear you about men changing.  I believe they want to get us in their spell, then decide to act however they want.   And trust me, this pastor that is my boss, is like no pastor I've known before.  I mean, I've never worked for a pastor before, and I don't think I want to again.  The one I work for is pretty evil, and I don't say that lightly.  I mean, I've seen her do a couple nice things, but mostly she's pretty hateful, but behind people's backs most of the time. 

Yesterday, I went to JC Penny's to get some hairspray, because they're having a sale.  I was talking to the lady who works there about my burn, and she said "let me show you something."  She pulled down her shirt, just a bit, and there was a burn on her chest.  She said she dropped the curling iron and it landed on her chest.  So, I don't feel so bad.  Of course, hers can be covered up with a shirt.  But, if you look at my burn kinda close, you can tell it's a burn and not a hickey.  It's raised up, like a blister, and a bit reddish-yellow.  I've been putting antibiotic ointment on it twice a day.  Good idea about the A&D Queen.  We used to use that all the time when I was a kid.

Yesterday, when I was at work, one of the volunteers there went with me to do something (work related).  He's the best volunteer the church has.  He used to work there, but went to prison a couple years ago, on an alcohol related charge.  He is an alcoholic (he goes through withdrawals when he hasn't had a drink in a couple days), but a functional one (I'm not saying that makes everything alright).  He's there at the church every day, does more than his share of work, and makes things a lot better for the church.  Because of his criminal history, no one will officially hire him.  And because of his alcoholism, he's a street person.  So anyway, yesterday, when we got back to the church, the pastor was talking to a couple cops.  When we got out of the car, she called the guy (volunteer) over to them.  I went inside the church, and was watching from one of the windows.  I saw the cops cuff the guy, and put him in the back of the car.  I guess he missed a court date.  But, the cops have been harrassing him for awhile now.  That's one thing about these damn cops, they harrass street people, because they know the people can't do anything.  That so pisses me off.  Hopefully this guy won't be gone too long, but he is on probation, so I don't know what that will do.              Alright ladies, I'm rambling.  You all have a good one.
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« Reply #68 on: September 15, 2010, 11:09:27 AM »
Hi ladies!

Queen, yeah, I'm fairly accident prone. My sister is the same way, and when we were teenagers I remember us comparing notes about various calamities,  concluding it was our "zest for life" that made us that way. We were just so enthusiastic in everything we did, we didn't stop to take care. I teach ballet, and perform in shows once or twice a year. Last year my hubby saw me dance for the first time, and he confessed after that he was really nervous about it. I think he envisioned me thunking around stage like I do in real life. Luckily, my clumsy doesn't follow me into the classroom or onto the stage.  I'm glad the rent issue is worked out. What a relief!

BT65, no worries, I rarely take myself too seriously. Life is too boring when I do that. It sounds like you gave yourself the mac daddy of all hickies, I mean, burns. The mental image that accompanied your tale of woe was hilarious! Good luck with the new job!

Snow, good to hear everything's good with the kids, and that the med change is working out.

Netta, glad to hear you're still kicking, despite some heavy emotional stuff.

As for me, I've been in and out of what I call non-specific, emotional malaise. Just this low grade rain cloud following me around, which jacks my sympathetic nervous system up to high gear. I can guess what's causing it, namely new situations at work plus the whole pregnancy issue. I'm reading Taking Charge of Your Fertility and holy smokes, that's a ton of information. I'm in overwhelm mode with it, thinking it would be a good idea to find a doc to guide me through. But my area isn't known for stellar medical care, and if it's something I can do myself, why pay for it? Argh.


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« Reply #69 on: September 15, 2010, 08:12:13 PM »
Evening Ladies---

Well, now I can breathe again. I got all bills to a zero balance. The landlord hounded me to the point that he took me to the bank. A free ride on one of them yellow school buses...Yay, I bet I was a site with baby in tow getting off the bus in front of the bank..lol..I already picked out my furniture so I just have to go pay for it. I am going to do that in the morning and stop by the social security office.

The drama goes on with the ex. He seems to be calling the house phone everyday at least 3 times a day. I guess he is hoping that I pick it up but I never hear it. I just happen to see it when I check my missed calls. But I also know it is him because no one else has my house number. And texting the baby's daddy, now saying that he still loves me and that he's miserable..Yeah whatever. I am like what about when I was miserable and told he no longer wanted anything to do with me? I won't deny that I still have feelings for him but I don't need the headaches or the stress. I have moved on...

LOL@Ballerina..I use to take ballet back in the day. I use to love it. I bet you're still quite graceful...
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« Reply #70 on: September 16, 2010, 03:54:12 AM »
Well ladies, today's my last day at the church!  Yipee!  I'm going to miss some of the people that work there, some of the street people (well, a lot of the street people), but it's time to move on.  My boss, the cooky pastor, is supposed to make bbq chicken.  She wanted to make pork loin, but I'm not a fan of that.  And I figure, it's hard to screw up bbq chicken. 

School is hard.  There's lots of papers, and writing, and tests.  My best frined told me graduate school is a test of endurance, and I think she's right.  I'm still a bit nervous about doing well.  But, we'll see.

Ballerina, good luck with the fertility thing.  I'm sorry, I can't remember, you're trying to get pregnant?

Queen, that's great you're going to get new furniture. 

I usually answer people first, then post something else afterward, but today I'm backward.  Oh well, you all have a good one.

Oh, my burn on my neck really does look like a burn, now, so I haven't gotten any dirty looks in the last couple days.
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« Reply #71 on: September 16, 2010, 10:06:28 AM »
BT65, yup, I am trying to get knocked up. How was the bbq chicken?

Queen, sorry about the dumb-dumb ex. Hope he fades away soon.

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« Reply #72 on: September 17, 2010, 03:52:20 PM »
Yeah that makes 2 of us, Ballerina. For the past week he has been calling the house, 2or 3 times a day. I never hear the phone anyway. I only notice it if it pops on my caller id. Well, I got my furniture today, it feels good to be able to sit in the livingroom for a change.

Not much else really going on. Getting things ready for dinner. I had a taste for meatloaf and potato salad for some reason. Just gonna spend my evening watching tv and playing a lil Warcraft...TGIF!!
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« Reply #73 on: September 18, 2010, 06:37:52 AM »
Queen, I also hope that your ex quits calling you.  He didn't treat you very nice at all, and he doesn't deserve you.  I'm glad you're able to sit in your living room.

Ballerina, good luck with the trying to get pregnant. 

School is so stressful.  I'm the only one of two people in my classes who only has a bachelor's.  All the others already have their master's, in either social work or counseling, and are taking this program for licensure.  So, it's very intimidating.  And I just hope I can do well.  It makes me very nervous.  So nervous, in fact, and stressed out, that Thursday after class, I stopped and got a pack of cigarettes.  It had been about 4 months since I quit, but oh well.  I already bought some more nicotine patches, so I don't plan on smoking for very long.  That makes me very disappointed in myself.

At this new job at the ASO, the boss said there's going to be two manuals that I have to memorize, and she tests me on them.  She told me I have to get an 80% or higher to continue employment there.  That makes me nervous also, because my short term memory isn't what it used to be.  Just keep your fingers crossed for me. 
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« Reply #74 on: September 23, 2010, 07:48:49 AM »
Good Morning Everyone!!

Netta- Glad to hear that Kiki is doing better, that is such a blessing.

BT- So how did the last day of work go? Did you start the new job yet.  I am sure you will do well with your classes and getting certified or whatever you call it a the new place.  I AM going to call you one of these days, lol.  I smashed my iphone on a rock so I put my chip in an old phone I had and then promptly dropped that in a glass of water.  Talk about being shit out of luck, lol.

Queen- What did you get for furniture?  Did you decide if you are going to get a cat or not.  I wonder if Andy's son still has any kittens?  What's up with the dude being complete idiots? Remember my last post about shitbag sending me $950?  As we all know that didn't happen,BUT he called again and left a message asking if I got the $950 and he was sending another $900, WTF? Like my friend told me, he is probably trying to get me to call him asking where the money is, which will never happen, EVER.  They are all idiots, I swear!

Oops, gotta get ready for school. Hi to everyone, hope everyone has a great day!!

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« Reply #75 on: October 03, 2010, 03:56:53 PM »
Afternoon Ladies---

I hope everyone is doing well. Sorry, I have not posted in a bit. I have had my hands full babysitting and trying to get errands done on the one day a week that I have off. Usually things start to wind down once I get the Lil One to sleep for the night. But like I said before, I have been spending a lot of time on Facebook...

What's going on with me? Well, the storm last week had blown out my livingroom window. Landlord came over and put it back in. I also sicked my caseworker on him too. Now he wants to try to claim that I never told him about any problems before. Yeah Yeah, so now I am on that take pics of everything wrong kick. Not that there is a lot wrong because there isn't. He just acts lazy when it comes to the few things that need fixed. He says he will send someone else out here to fix the window, it was installed wrong or so he says....

Wow, I just lost a whole paragraph. It was about the ex so since it seemed to just delete itself, I guess that's Fate's way of saying there ain't nothing worth mentioning..lol...As for the guy I am dating, he is starting to frustrate me a little. Usually when we meet up, it is me who travels to meet him. I really don't mind much because I like the ferry ride. Lately he has been having a streak of bad luck. Twice his car got impounded, I was there each time it happened. Once he got it back, the muffler decides to come off. This happened on a night he was suppose to come and see me. Another time he claims he got lost trying to find my house so he went back home. I know a lot of this stuff that happened was out of his control. But then he says the last time we spoke he would catch the train if he had to....Uh, well that never happened either.

Or there are random times when I will text him and not get any kind of response or if I get one, it's a pic of some roses or something like that. I have finally gotten a response from him which was he has some family issues going on. He doesn't mean to push me away but sometimes he just shuts down. He says things will get better. I am beginning to wonder if they will. Or am I wrong for feeling like I am being neglected? Or for thinking that he may be trying to play me? Or am I just being jaded due to the BS I went through with my ex. At this point, I don't know what to think and I feel confused.

Thanks for letting me vent, can't do that on Facebook...lol
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« Reply #76 on: October 03, 2010, 06:36:53 PM »
Queen, so good to see you back!  As I e-mailed you, I was kinda worried.  About the guy, well, men are strange creatures.  I would just give it more time to see how things hash out.  But I wouldn't go way out of my way to please him either.  But, that's me. Sorry about e-mailing you that I didn't think I posted about the new job here.  Like I said, sometimes my short-term memory is crap, and I need to check what I post.

Snow, my last day of work at the church went alright.  They had a dinner, where everyone made/baked something.  And two church members who I like very well came in.  So, it was alright. 

Tomorrow is the first day on the new job.  The boss e-mailed me, and asked if I could be there from noon to 5.  Which isn't bad.  So, we'll see what tomorrow brings.  Please send good vibes my way, that I do alright.  Other than that, just doing homework, and checking in here from time to time.  You all have a good one.
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« Reply #77 on: October 03, 2010, 06:50:08 PM »
Good luck tomorrow Betty, I hope you really, really enjoy it! Those are some cushy hours, woman. You don't have to be up at the crack of dawn. :)
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #78 on: October 04, 2010, 06:26:30 PM »
Good Luck with the new job, Betty!!! And I didn't mind getting the email at all. I just kinda got caught up with things around here. But it is slowing down a little bit. Well, you know me, I can't keep my mouth shut so I had to let Boo know how I was feeling. He understood how I was feeling and promises things will get better. So we shall see. In the meantime I will put my focus elsewherem there's still some things I need to take care of around here.

In between shopping and paying bills, I managed to get another tatto and my eyebrow repierced. The tatt is a heart with wings with the colors of the Puerto Rican flag. Representing the Boricua in me. Everything is caught up so now I can breathe a sigh of relief. The doctors appointments are coming up and I am ready.
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #79 on: October 05, 2010, 05:54:11 AM »
Thanks for the well wishes Ann and Queen.  It went alright yesterday.  I hung with the head of case management, and went to a couple clients' houses with her to do their reviews.  Another guy came in for a review, and I knew him from awhile back.  He recognized me, even though it's been a few years since I've seen him.  We chatted for awhile.  The boss gave me these two manuals I have to memorize.  I'm going to have tests at the end of each week for either 3 or 4 weeks, and that's the thing that has me a bit flustered.  I have exam anxiety pretty bad.  I also am going to have to make up a test in one of my classes, so I'll be doing a lot of studying.

Next week, I have to go to Indianapolis for training for the whole week.  And I don't have a laptop, so I'll miss the computer for a week.  I can just imagine the e-mails I'll have when I get back.  Ugh.

Queen, well, I hope things get better for you and your dude.  I used to have my eyebrow pierced.  That's one of the places it hurts the least I think.                        I guess that's it for now.  Have a good one.
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« Reply #80 on: October 09, 2010, 12:02:29 PM »
BT- Geez, sounds like you have a lot of studying to do, I  have faith that you will do fine!  Hope you have a nice week away, it might be nice to have a change of scenery.

Queen- Your window actually flew out the wall?  Thank goodness, you weren't hurt, that is crazy!!  How are things going with the new dude?  I finally saw your tattoo, it came out nice.  Where did you say it was again?  I want to get another one but don't know where to put it?

Ballerina- Hope this isn't T.M.I. but try doggy style, LOL.  Worked for me, that is how I got pregnant with the 3some.

Ann- I miss your blog  :'( ( I didn't check it today...yet)    ;D

I am still running around with my head cut off, I will be glad when football is over, I wish he would switch to baseball seems a lot less dangerous.  I did end up getting money from shtbag.  Turns out he has money to spend on scratch tickets but can't pay the measly amount he was supposed to for child support BUT Karma can be a bitch.  I think eh won $1000 , 2 different times and they took it from him both times, he didn't send shit, LOL, would of loved to see the look on his face when he found out. Just a matter of time, I guess, that I get the notice to go back to court.
My new meds are working out good, my latest labs are undetectable again, YEAH.  My screen is jumping and driving me nuts, I am on my SO's computer and can't find the compatibility view button? Later, chicas!!
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #81 on: October 12, 2010, 02:23:32 PM »
Ballerina- Are you using the tester yet?  I just wanted to let you know that you can get more test strips on Ebay for very good prices.  Good luck sweetie....I know your pain and frustration.

BT- Good luck on the training! 

I had my appt this morning and my CD4 is 301 and my VL is 61.  These are from labs taken back in August right after I got back from Vegas.  I'm hoping that I am UD as we speak.  I also got a script for Chantix from her.  I'm kinda nervous about it but I really want to kick the ciggys.

We've been very busy here lately with homeschool.  We took the kids to a farm last weekend with some friends of ours.  It was fun but still too hot to be getting in the Fall mood.  This weekend we are taking them to the zoo, we have a membership there.  Our zoo just got their Koala exhibit opened and we are excited to see them.

I've been trying to get into the Fall spirit by baking....a batch of cookies here, some pumpkin bread there.  I really just wish it would cool down some more.  That is the only thing I miss about living back east, the Fall season.  Not really a whole lot going on here I guess.

I hope you all have a great week.

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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #82 on: October 12, 2010, 02:44:13 PM »
Hey Ladies-

It's been a while.  I've been reading the posts just not posting.  I sometimes feel like I don't have a lot to say.  Not much is really going on except everything is going really well.    I think the last time I posted I had gotten married.  I was busy with that, of course, and taking care of Grammy. 

Work's been busy, which is really nice. My case worker really helped me with my adap situation, so making money isn't a discouragement  ;)

Betty, you've started a new job?  Congrats, things sounded bad in the end at the church? I think the job training should be good to get away and get some new skills for your background (you're probably there right now).

Queen-  you're dating a new guy now?  Is he still making you do all the traveling?  What's your next step with this guy? Thank God you're ok after the storm.  The damage was extensive.

Hello to you other girls...Ann, Snow, Ballerina, HippieL, and Netta.  Where is Netta?   Hope you all have a good day.

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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #83 on: October 16, 2010, 05:57:03 AM »
Morning all,

Snow, I think it's great that SB's money he won from the lottery was taken from him.  I'm sure you need the help financially.  And you know, people always have money for lottery, no matter what else they owe.  Yesterday, I was riding back from Indianapolis, with a girl I work with, plus we were giving her aunt a ride.  Her aunt is on disability, and can't afford hardly anything, but when we stopped at a gas station, she bought a bunch of scratch-offs.  And she won $15!  I never win when I buy those things, and certainly don't stand in judgment of people who do buy them.  My oldest sister won $2000 once.

Hippie, at least you're baking, even if it doesn't quite feel like fall to you.  It has been unseasonably warm here as well, with temps in the high 70's.  It's supposed to drop this coming week, though, and at night it's been getting into the low 40's. The leaves are changing, though, which is cool.  I'm not much of a baker, though, so you've got me beat there.  Around Christmas time, I'll make a couple different kinds of fudge, and if I'm lucky, cookies. 

Camms, I knew you were going to get married, but didn't realize the wedding happened already.  Congrats!  I like your avvy also.  Did you color your hair dark?  For some reason, I thought you had kind of blonde/light brown hair.  The bad thing about being at the church I was working at was, of course, working around the pastor.  No one's bitter over it, though, so it's cool.

I'm finally back from Indianapolis. I'm now certified in pre- and post-test counseling, and doing the actual HIV tests that our agency runs, which is the OraQuick, and OraSure.  Things actually went smoother than I thought they were going to.  The instructor was very nice, and the presentors were interesting.  There were 8 of us doing it, and I really like it when there's a smaller number of people.  I feel more free to talk.  When we were going down there, I thought it was going to be big, like an auditorium type thing.  I have to go to another training at the beginning of November, but this upcoming one is so I can be certified to bill to Medicaid.  So, I know that's going to be extremely dull. 

I have an exam I have to do for school, that the professor e-mailed to us right before I went to Indy.  And the questions are soooo long.  It's about different counseling theories, and how we would use them in certain situations, and also explaining the biology of addiction.  I've done four questions, and have written 5 pages for the answers.  The professor assured us that each question would be a page or page 1/2 long answer.  So, I have 3 more questions.  The next one I'm going to have to look on the internet for, because it's using a theory I'm not familiar with, and it's not in our text (expectancy theory).  Hopefully I can finish it by tomorrow afternoon, so I can e-mail it back to the professor.  I still feel intimidated in my classes, because of everyone else already having their master's, and already doing counseling.  Oh well, 2 1/2 more months, and this semester will be done.  But then, next semester, the classes are supposed to get more intense.  I can't imagine that.                               Ok ladies, have a great weekend!
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #84 on: October 16, 2010, 06:46:03 PM »
Hey Ladies--

Just checking in....Good to hear from you, Camms. I didn't know you had gotten married either. I thought you were planning it but Congrats. I got the PM you sent me about the horror movie thread but I could not find it in Off Topic. I have been disappointed with what has been called horror lately. I usually cherish October because you find all the classic stuff playing. I don't think I can tolerate another remake unless it is by Rob Zombie.

Betty you sound like you're getting to know your way around a computer better. I can't do all that stuff you're talking about. Maybe once I get the hearing issue resolved I will look into it.

Snow---It's about time that sorry mofo is paying you something. But he wants to take credit for it when it was taken from him. Isn't that some nerve! The tattoo is a heart with wings but when you look at the heart you can see it is the Puerto Rican flag. Its hard to explain..lol...

As far as dating the new guy, well that is now over. I ended it with him, he was just having too many personal things going on and no time really to pursue a relationship. Have tried to date another guy but he seems scared to show face or has a woman which is what I think it is. But I have been so busy babysitting that I really haven't had much time to do anything else. And the day I do get off, I am so tired that I just usually stay home and relax. So I guess you can say I have been text dating...lol

Once again the landlord is being a bit shady. After he put the window back in,he said he was going to have someone come fix it and the leaky roof. When I text him about this, of course I got no reply. I text him today because he needs to turn the heat on. I am starting to get sick already. His brother is suppose to handle it tomorrow. We shall see......

I have a gyn appointment on Monday but wondering if I should go since my period just started back up today. After years of being on the depo shot. Someone here said it would take a year for it to kick back in and they were right. So I am wondering if I should reschedule, they can't look down there so what is the point of going? Hearing appointment with ENT next month. But there is still an appointment I think I am missing....Snow?

That is about it for me, have a good evening everyone...
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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« Reply #85 on: October 17, 2010, 06:34:20 AM »
Queen, don't think I'm getting around a computer better, I just google things when I don't know what they are.  :P   I'm sorry things didn't work out with you and the guy you were seeing.  It's so hard to find someone who really wants a relationship, who's worthy of one (if that makes sense), and knows how to really treat a lady.    I can't say about the appointment with the gyn.  Maybe you should reschedule.  Are you going to try to get on Depo again?  I take that, but not for birth control.  I had my tubes tied years ago.  I take it so I won't have periods.  Have you seen a doctor for the HIV/diabetes?  I just wondered if that was the doctor appointment you're missing.  Please take care of yourself, we don't want anything to happen to you. :-*
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« Reply #86 on: October 17, 2010, 07:19:36 PM »
Queen I would make another appointment.  That happened to me also. I went to the office and they had me reschedule.  The link was under off topic "A Cavalcade of Horror Films".  Some really good suggestions.  Rob Zombie House of 1000 Corpses was scarey.  I had a problem with the  Devil's Rejects. 
Sorry things didn't work out but it seemed if you were constantly traveling to him then screw it.
Thanks of the Congrats. :)

Betty, thank you also on the congratulations.  I was busy before and after the wedding.  I was posting mainly on Facebook, since pics are issues  lately on the forums.  I am naturally, eh hem, a light brunette, so I went dark for awhile. 

As for school, you're not alone with feeling intimidated.  I hear it from every single person that is back in school.  Good luck on your exam regarding the biology of addiction!

I typically am not a football fan, but my father in law got us tickets for the Giants game today.  I swear I felt like I was at the Parthenon with the sheer excessive testosterone and cave man like mentality of the guys sitting behind me.  I was thinking that the Lions would come out any moment amongst the mongers and jeers.  Funny thing is that the Giants played against the Detroit Lions.  But I had a really good time over all.  The game was really cool and it was interesting trying to learn about the plays.  I will definitely go back, surprisingly.

Has anyone heard from mum.  I got an email from her about 2 months ago.  Anything since?

Hope you all have a nice evening.

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« Reply #87 on: October 18, 2010, 08:59:08 PM »
Queen B- You should have the info now, I can send you a pm on here if you want?  Hope your gyn appt. went well, I have to go back soon to mine.  I will see if she recognizes me, she was my friends midwife when she had her baby in Sept and I was the labor coach.

BT- I will take street smarts over book smarts anyday. They might have read a lot of books and taken more classes but you have lived more life and know exactly where people are coming from.  I think you will do fine.

Camms- I like your hair too, I just got mine darkened last week, scared the crap out of myself the next morning, LOL.

I don't understand why it is so hard for meet other positive women?  I have been putting out feelers for years now and have yet to meet anyone I have the slightest bit in common with? Not that I have even met that many women recently at all, 7 at the most, and that was awhile ago? It is getting kind of depressing, I would love to be able to find another poz women with young kids.
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« Reply #88 on: October 19, 2010, 05:37:03 AM »
Camms, I'm sure seeing a football game in person is a lot more exciting than watching it on t.v.   I had to chuckle when you were talking about the "caveman like mentality."  I can just imagine.  I've never been much of a football fan, but being that I live in the town that Notre Dame is in, I follow them sometimes.  I was raised with the Chicago Cubs, so I really like watching them.  Except for the fact that they can't seem to make it to the world series, which is always disappointing.  And that exam I had to take?  Ugh. I got a couple questions done when I was at the training I had to go to last week.  When I got home, I had 3 questions left to do, and it took me 5 hours to do those, and get it e-mailed to the professor. 

Snow, thanks for the vote of confidence.  I actually like the combination of street smarts/book smarts.  Unfortunately, if someone's going to do therapy, and diagnosis, the person has to have schooling.  Here in Indiana, to be called a therapist, a person has to have a master's.  I can tell you, I won't be doing that.  Getting a master's certificate is killing me, I can't imagine going back for an actual degree.   And about meeting women?  I'm sorry you can't find any.  I don't really have any positive female friends in this area either.  There's one lady who's been living with the virus about as long as I have, or maybe even a little longer, that I was in touch with about a year ago.  But, she's a client of the place I work at now, so I'm not sure how it would be for me to get in touch with her outside of the work setting.  It seems, though, that women aren't as vocal or present as men are.  I know, in the town I live in, stigma is still very much an issue, and a lot of women have kids they don't want anything to happen to.  I believe in being out about being positive, but I also understand women's fears about it.

So yeah, I told a friend, and one of my sisters, if I ever talk about going back to school again after I'm done with the program I'm in now, to hit me in the head.  It's just so stressful to go to school and work.  I don't know how people who work full-time and go to school do it. 

In a couple weeks, I have another training I have to go to in Indianapolis.  This one won't be as fun as the last one, which was on testing and prevention.  This one is so we can get certified to bill Medicaid, so I imagine it's going to be sucky boring.  On an interesting note, the instructor I just had for the last training, told us that an oral swab test is better than a blood drawn western blot at detecting early infection.  I don't have any links to back that up, as it was told to us by a person, not something I found online.  Perhaps when I have a lot of extra time, I'll try to find a link about it somewhere.             Ok ladies, I hope you all have a good day, and Queen, I hope you're doing alright.
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #89 on: October 19, 2010, 06:38:25 PM »
Hey Hey Hey--

I did make it to my gyn appointment yesterday after all. I guess all I did was spot for that one day, nothing else so I went. As always it has become aggravating to say the least when I go to appointments. When I checked in, registration asked me to write on the waiting list that I am hearing impaired. Ok, not a problem but why did they not share this info with the gyn nurses? My name had been called 3 times while I was sitting there. I got to wait on the results to the PAP but I did get my depo shot and flu shot. Betty, I take the depo for the same reason you do. I had long periods too that sometimes would last over a week.

Now today I woke up with a fever and arm aching. I am glad I listened to the nurse and bought some Tylenol. I have a slight cough and sniffles. I am tired and just feel blah. I guess it could've been worse. The shot covered 3 types of Flu including swine but I guess doesn't really kick in for a few weeks. So by the beginning of next month I should be covered. Also next month is the ENT so I can get hearing tests done so hopefully I can get another pair of hearing aids. I just hope my hearing hasn't gotten worse. I also have my PCP appointment. So, I am getting the medical thing back in order.

Camms, I have Rob Zombie's House of a 1000 Corpses, not really scary to me. I liked The Devil's Rejects more to be honest. The dvd I have came with both of those movies. I also liked his remakes of Halloween 1 & 2. I also have them too. I try to get my hands on anything Rob Zombie makes movie wise except for his x-rated cartoons. I did watch one though and it was funny as hell. I can't think of the name of it tho. But I love him especially cuz we share the same bday.

I have been watching AMC fear fest since it is the 30th anniversary of Friday the 13th. They're showing parts 1-9 then next week it is Halloween parts 1-5. I often wonder why they don't show the other ones, I guess it would be 6-9, I think that's about how many they made. Or why they don't show any of the Nightmare on Elm Sts? I do want to see that Walking Dead movie that is suppose to come on Halloween night. SyFy has been sucking as far as what they are showing except for yesterday when they happened to have showed one or two Leprechaun movies. The only horror I am getting now is how almost every movie that is coming out is in 3D!!!! I don't need to be made to feel like stuff is coming at my head. I also think Saw 3D is going to suck majorly too. It started for me once they killed Jigsaw(tobin Bell) off, so now it seems like he has disciples who are doing his work now. That made it overkill for me, excuse the pun tho it fits.... ;)

I have not heard anything from Mum either. I hope she is well  and the fam.
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5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #90 on: October 20, 2010, 06:49:20 AM »
Hey Ladies-

Queen, what's this depo shot?  I have periods that last for almost 9 days...it's awful. Sorry your not feeling well. Is this all because of your flu shot?

I do like  the remakes of Halloween a lot, as far as Rob Zombie. I liked the house film because he took it to another level.  The underground freak show of the living dead.  But yeah, looking forward to Amc's Walking Dead, of course. Tis the season of  ghouls and such.  As far as the 3d, gosh, I hate it.  I think they compromise shots on angles for the sake of the 3d sensation.  I don't get why everything is going 3d.  It's annoying and a waste of time.  I saw Friday the 13th (3d) in 8th grade with my dad.  That's where it ended for me.

Betty-

I was thinking that you had in wrapped up and finished when I originally read your post.  Five hours to finish your questions sounds painful.

I feel old today.  I'm on day 2 of my period and have a horrible pain in my right lower back that just aches.   I can't deal with today or any day.  I'm going to sign off prematurely and run a hot bath.... :-\

Have a good one girls

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« Reply #91 on: October 20, 2010, 08:25:48 PM »
Queen, I think I like Nightmare on Elm St. better than Friday the 13th.  Of the originals anyway.  I watched the 2nd parts of each one, and that made me lose interest in sequels.  I hope you're feeling better.

Camms, I get the Depo shot as well.  It's a hormone shot, but it stops your periods.  You should talk to your doctor about it.  Oh, and when I got done with the exam, the answers were 7 type-written, single-spaced pages.  But, some other people in the class tonight were saying the same thing.  It dealt with different theories in counseling, and situations, and how would we use the theories and counsel the people.

I don't really have any news.  Friday I take another test at the ASO I'm working at.  I passed the first one, but anyone could have passed it.  I guess the 3rd one took the other two newest care coordinators 3 hours to do.  And you have to get an 80% or better, or you're no longer employed there.  Crazy.         ok ladies, have a good one.
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« Reply #92 on: October 21, 2010, 09:03:37 AM »
Hey ladies-

Snow-  thanks, funny about scarring yourself.   I love changing hair color.  But it can be a mirror moment of "oh wow my hair looks great"....or "oh crap, wtf was I thinking"  :)

Betty-  I am going for a consultation because it's bad, my menstruation.  It's always been bad.  I'm on the pill for ovarian cysts.  Now that I have only one ovary I would love to keep it.  However, the pill doesn't curb my cramps or period of period.

I wonder how Netta's doing.  I hope she's ok.

I ran into a bit of a problem a few weeks back.  As you  know, I work from home as a graphic designer.  I do various work, including websites etc.  Anyway, a very close friend is having her children's books self published.  She needed a website.  I told her I would charge her 300 which is a 1/4 of what I charge.  In fact, I would make this a very interactive site and try to help her promote her books.  I was working on her site for 21 days straight.  There were a lot of pictures taken and rendered.  She constantly emailed me with a multitude of questions.

On Thursday she has changes etc.  I said I would have them done by Monday.  And she replied " Why so LONG?!"

Let me back up and say I changed the entire color scheme, logos, and pictures several times which sent me back a few days because she kept changing her mind.

So I sent her a light hearted email explaining all the work I've done and that I was taking off this weekend.  She replied with a one page email, seething with crazy accusations and inaccurate time lines.  I'm anal when it comes to saving all my emails etc so I know that she was way, WAY off.  I couldn't believe it.  I couldn't believe that my close friend would challenge me to this point. 

One of the accusations was this:  I went with her to the dog park ( took a gazillion pictures of her mastiff therapy dog) and was to follow her to the hospital for a therapy session.  On my way over to the hospital I took a wrong turn and didn't know where I should meet up with her (there's 8 different buildings) so I turned around and went home after about a half hour.  When I got home I worked on all the photographs from the park and sent her all pics.  She LOVED them and said she was wowed.

But in the email she said on the first day "to the hospital" I conveniently  got lost and wasted a whole day.  ???
WTF, I couldn't believe it. She turned around the reality of it and skewed it.   My husband said he saw this coming.

Any way, I was extending a courtesy and got burned. I told her that I chose to go my separate way.  People still surprise me, and not in a good way.  It's sad how thankless and ungrateful some folks can be. 

Oh well.  I'm done ranting.

Have a good one.



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« Reply #93 on: October 23, 2010, 06:04:23 AM »
Camms, I hope things get worked out with your periods.  I hated having them.  About your friend going off the deep end, that's really too bad that happened.  I've heard a person shouldn't work with friends.  At the ASO I'm at now, the director of client services got a friend a job there, as a case manager.  Now, she regrets getting the person the job, and told me she'd never hire another friend.  And my best friend...she got one of her friends a job.  They just had lay-offs there, and her friend expected her to be able to save her job for her.  And now is very upset with my best friend, because she couldn't.  So, it's probably not a good idea.  I totally understand why you did, though, trying to help someone out.  Hopefully your friend will see the error of her ways, and get in touch with you and apologize. 

I'm up waaaay tooo early.  My brain isn't awake.  I have lots to do today.  There's a test in my other class I need to work on, and I'll be having my last test at the ASO next week, and I need to try to study for that.  I have to get an 80% or better, or I don't have a job.  That makes me very nervous.  And i have to clean and shop.                                Sorry for the boring post, it's just too early.  Have a good one.
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« Reply #94 on: October 23, 2010, 08:12:39 AM »
Camms, there is another alternative to the Depo shots and it's something I have - the Mirena Coil. For most women, it stops the periods completely and for others like me, it makes it very light and brief.

I got the coil because of heavy, long-lasting periods. When I mentioned to my doctor how my periods didn't completely stop, he said it was proof as to how bad my periods were. (!!! As if I needed proof! That's men for you!)

For me there were a couple advantages to the coil over the shot. For one, the coil lasts for a few years and I don't have to remember to get the shots. For another, the hormones in the coil stay localised to the uterine/ovary area and do not circulate throughout your system. This was a plus for me because I've had mood-swing problems in the past with systemic hormone treatments.

I just thought I'd throw that alternative out there for you. For me, it was either that or a hysterectomy and I'm happy with the results. I don't want a hysterectomy if I can avoid it.

Sorry to hear about your friend being a bitch not very nice. With friends like that, who needs enemies, eh? ::)

Betty, hang in there, I'm sure you'll get through these tests and whatnot with flying colours.

You know, I'm happy to hear that the place you're working for wants you to pass with 80%. Why? Because there are too many places out there who allow people who don't really know what they're talking about to do testing stuff. At least the place you're working for is being responsible in this regard. If there's anything I can do to help you pass this test, let me know. Maybe we can go over some of it on Skype. I'll be around for most of the day. Hmm... I am right in thinking this is a test to do with testing and prevention, yes? Let me know.

Queen, I'm glad to hear you're getting your medical stuff sorted out. :)

Snow, I know a few women locally who are poz, but I'm only somewhat close to one of them. The others I just don't have anything in common with other than hiv and it just isn't enough. The other woman I'm only in sporadic contact with and that's partly my fault. I really should ring her soon and arrange to go for a coffee with her. 

Oh, and about my blog.... When I ended up having to get a new laptop last spring, I forgot how to get into my blog account. I finally got it sorted lately and I plan on starting to write more, so watch that space! :)
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« Reply #95 on: October 23, 2010, 07:29:18 PM »
Ann, I already passed the exam stuff for pre-certified testing and prevention.  That was the training in Indy I went to.  The testing is about agency stuff.  Filling out forms, HIV stuff, agency policies, grants etc.  There are two huge manuals, and one other manual I have to know, which is packed-full of information.  My boss wants everyone to know a lot, and not be ignorant about the important stuff I guess.  Anyway, about the testing and prevention....we had to pass an instructor-observed test where we were the testor/counselor, and another person was playing a certain role.  And we had to demonstrate we knew how to go through all the pre-test stuff (getting info, finding out risk factors, etc.), doing the test, doing risk reduction counseling, and giving a reactive result, for the OraQuick.  We were also trained on doing the OraSure, which I found out the agency I work for does not do.  They do the OraQuick, and then if that's reactive, they do a blood test follow-up. We haven't been trained yet in how to draw blood and package it, but that's coming.  So, anyway, this last test took the other two three hours to do, and it makes me very nervous.  I get exam anxiety pretty bad.  Thanks for the offer of help, though.  It seems like it's been ages since we've skyped.  Hopefully we'll do that again very soon.  I have stuff I'd love to chat about, the HIV stuff that is that I'm learning about (not just the basics, of course, but other stuff).  And what policies this agency has etc.    And I'd love to hear what's going on with you.  Miss you, gf. :-*
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« Reply #96 on: October 24, 2010, 01:46:37 AM »
Camm-
 I feel like I have been hit by bus the first couple of days of mine.  If only guys felt an hours worth of what we feel every month for days straight, there would never be anymore man drama.  I hope they figure out the best treament for you.  It's funny you were talking about them, we were listening to Mary J tonight and she had a song about PMS and we were laughing, hers must of been a hot mess to write a song about it.

Ann-  YEAH!!:::''''>>>>Ann's Blog is coming back<<<<""":::
LOL, that's one more than I have.

BT- Can you break that stuff down so it doesn't seem so overwhelming?  I would use flash cards especially if you are trying to remember steps. Writing it down a couple times too.

Not much going on with me.  Did I tell you guys I had another baby?
LOL, not me but I'm a baby daddy and I a good one, dammit. Shoot I have done more for this kid than my sons father has done fo him and she is only 4 weeks.
So obviously, I have been spending more time with her, which has been hectic since I started working at my kids school PT and I have 4 kids of m own. Anyway, she has brought up aids a couple of times.  Which is wierd for me since no one I know ever mentions it, EVER, close friends anyway.  Not that I think she thinks anything about me but it makes me wonder about her openness to me being poz especially since she just had a baby and she was butt-ass naked around me when she had her. She is a very educated women but the mind can do some crazy shit when your kids are involved.

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« Reply #97 on: October 24, 2010, 05:03:05 PM »
Hey Ladies-

Hope everyone is having a restful weekend. 

Ann-  Can't wait for the rebirth of the blog.  I remember reading about the days of fox trot charlie and life on the isle. Glad that you've recovered from your cold and are in full form back on the forums.

Betty-I understand that pre-exam jitters.   I still have the dream that I go into a  nondescript  class and don't know any answers to the questions on the test.  You're working so hard Betty, kudos to you :)

Snow- Darn, you must have your hands full.  So do you  feel like your friend is nervous with her kid?
 
Well, I've got a heck of a cold and need to mindlessly wander on the tube.  AMC preferably.

Hope you have a wonderful sunday evening.

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« Reply #98 on: October 25, 2010, 11:57:16 AM »
HI Ladies !!! Camms congrats on your wedding! please send me your facebook name so I can see pics. I am still alive, doing well. I have  been busy with a new play and church  and I have been getting ready for my art show next month, I am a procrastinator, doing everything last minute. I am on facebook a s Vannetta ferguson, so check me out and check out my art. I hope all is well. Betty congrats on new job! Queen- glad ur doing ok ! everyone else ,nice  to meet you! Be blessed!
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« Reply #99 on: October 25, 2010, 12:47:13 PM »
Hello Ladies,
 Just doing a drive by to let you all know that I am still lurking around here. I am now into week 30 of this pregnacy thing. I am so ready to be done but yet I am scared at the same time. Im still in school working on my Masters which is really starting to get on my nerves. Besides that everything is good. Just stopping in to check on everyone.

Did anyone ever find out what happened to VIV. from this forum. She was just on my mind.

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« Reply #100 on: October 25, 2010, 11:19:11 PM »
Camms-
LOL, funny you say that, I hear it all the time. I'm not quite sure yet if she is nervous, she is kind of moody sometimes so it is hard to gauge where she is coming from. Moody might not be the right word, she is not used to be able to depend on someone or asking anyone for anything so guarded might be a better way to describe her.
 I was in the shower (where I do my best thinking) and I thought OH SHIT, I meant to say something about your friend. You had me at 21 days. For $300. That women must have some balls to even say anything to you, hell I don't think I would make a change or I would wait till I had some money so I could pay to make a change. You are so right about how thankless people can be. I'm sorry you had to go through that.
Keeping- How are you feeling? I finally got a new phone so I can text again, yeah!!!  It's got that swipe texting and that is kinda hard to get used to, I will send you the number.  I haven't heard anything about Viv at all.
Queen B- Send me that info. Please and Thank you!
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« Reply #101 on: October 26, 2010, 05:12:48 AM »
Camms, I hope you're feeling better.  I know quite a few people who have bad colds right now.  I suppose it's that time of year, weather changes and all. 

Netta, so glad to hear from you!  That's great about your art.  I don't do facebook, though, so unfortunately, I won't be able to see the drawings. 

Keeping, good to hear from you.  I hear you about the master's classes being frustrating.  I didn't know there would be so much work.  I told a friend of mine that if I ever express interest in going back to school again after this year is over, to hit me in the head.

Snow, it's nice you're there for your friend. 

We're under a high wind warning here, and we're supposed to get severe storms.  I don't like that, and would rather have the weather cool with a little rain.  But this shit is crazy.  We're also under a tornado watch.  Another county close to me, last night, had a tornado warning, with one being spotted there. 

There are a couple things I just heard on the news that got me thinking this morning.  One is, here in South Bend, they tried to pass, with the city common council, a bill that would protect LGBT persons from being fired or discriminated against based on their sexual orientation.  Well, of course, true to its jack-ass conservative roots, the council voted it down.  That pisses me off.  When they tried to pass it last time, I went.  Some of the citizens who were there to oppose it were just so radical, it was crazy.  They keep saying gay people want "special" rights.  They don't realize what they're trying to pass ensures people of "equal" rights. 

Also, there's a teenager who killed his grandfather earlier this year.  Yesterday he was sentenced to life without parole.  He's only 15.  I just keep thinking there was something seriously wrong going on in the kid's head, and now he won't ever be getting out of prison.  It just seems so damaging.  Of course, I don't know everything about the kid, but to me is just seemed a bit harsh.

Other than that, yesterday I took the big test at the ASO.  It wasn't graded yesterday, as the boss had some appointments to go to.  I'm very nervous about it, because it had information on it I'm not familiar with.  And I have to get an 80% or better to pass.  I just don't have a good feeling about it.  It took me 3 hours to do, and when I was done, I kept thinking that if I didn't pass it, I was quitting.  We get two chances to pass it, but I just don't know if I could sit through it again.  So, everyone send good vibes that it comes out alright.  I'm not feeling good about it.                                 I guess that's it.  I hope you all have a good one, and take care of those colds!

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« Reply #102 on: October 26, 2010, 08:09:50 AM »
BT-  First , for your test, I don't want to give you some bs and say believe in yourself blah blah blah and then you fail.  But I have confidence in you and whatever happens, I know you'll make the right decision.  Darn, you've been through some major life alterations.  And you 've triumphed.  Don't let this little test worry you sick.  

I was real hesitant to do "facebook" myself but I find it strangely addictive.  It's nice to see some of the people of the forums, interacting, and post parts of their life that's difficult here....Lke Netta's art.  However, people with busy schedules should stay away.

Snow-  You know what's so crazy about it is the women lives on a  mansion in a prestigious town.   She has more than most people I know.  I extended a courtesy and she became selfish, greedy, and off center.  I didn't give a crap about how much she could pay me. She was a friend, gave her the deal of the century, and I screwed.

KTF-  keep pressing on with the masters, you can do it.

Heading off now,

hope you all have a good dayl

BTW- Betty, I just checked the weather forecast and your storm warning will be here tonight, but mainly tomorrow. Yikes.
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« Reply #103 on: October 26, 2010, 07:15:03 PM »
Well, I didn't pass the fucking test.  I should have waited until I got back from training next week, like my boss wanted me to.  It was stupid shit I missed, and stuff I really didn't know, I guessed on it.  But, we have to pass it with an 80% or better, and I only got a 72%.  I have one more shot, then it's no job.  And that would be a disaster, because I have so many damn bills, and commitments.  I just can't tell you all how disappointed I am.  I almost walked out when my boss gave me the news. :(

Oh, and Camms, actually we had rain earlier, and it's damn windy.  Another town in the county to the west had a tornado.  Our storms, or incidence of storms, is over.  It was over around noon today.
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« Reply #104 on: October 26, 2010, 09:23:46 PM »
BT- Don't quit now, you are almost there. The way you were talking I thought you were going to do way worse than a 72.  Keep your head up, you will get through it.

Camms- It's funny you say that, I sometimes wonder if that is how they get rich, screwing other people.  I have run into a few things like that around here, lately.  You definately need to un-friend her :)

Strange day here, very warm but windy.  Glad it is over, people have been acting like it's a full moon all month.

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« Reply #105 on: October 27, 2010, 09:30:45 AM »
BT, I 'm sorry, but don't beat yourself up.  No flagellation allowed.  At least you have a second chance, so can you take the 2nd test after training next week?

Thankfully, you didn't get the tornado.  I read on cnn that one had surfaced.  I woke up with the storm having passed.  Gray and rainy.

Snow-  I unfriended her so quickly.  I introduced her to facebook and set up her page for childrens books.  That was free.  I shutter now,  but it's fading.  I'm not one to hold grudges. 

So, grammy is very bad.  She's 94 and had a fall in the spring.  Now she's been declining.  Believe it or not, it wasn't her hip.  She hit her head and now she is failing, mentally, and physically. I have a feeling it will be a long road.

I will be away for some time.  I have a droid phone and can pick up the internet in the land of silver heads and no technology.   I'll continue to read the threads, but posting is another thing. I wish they had an app for the forums.

Hope you all have a great day...Betty, Ann, Michelle and anyone else.  Netta and Snow I'll see you on FB (droid has an app) ;)

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« Reply #106 on: October 27, 2010, 01:34:53 PM »
Yeah, I'll be taking the 2nd test after training, but I have to admit, I really don't have much self confidence.  I thought I would pass the last one.  So, we'll see.  Camms, I hope you're going to enjoy the time away.  Sorry about your grams.  That's a tough situation.  Snow, 72 is bad enough. 

In all actuality, I should have waited.  But, I wanted to get it over with.  Now, unfortunately, there's only one chance left to take it.  Had I waited until after the training, I still would have had a couple shots at it.  Oh well, nothing much I can do now. 
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« Reply #107 on: October 27, 2010, 06:21:19 PM »
Camms- I have a droid too, I think, do you like yours? It is taking me awhile to get used to it. I don't like how I can see who called or texted in me one screen and when

BT- Silly rabbit, you are supposed to do the training BEFORE you take the test.  At least you will have idea of what questions they will ask and you can focus on that info.

Never in my life have I  seen so much craziness in the school system. I have been around the school system 12 years now and went thru high school back in the late 80's.  All that time, I never saw a child taken out of the school by an ambulance because they have behavior issues. In the past 2 weeks I have seen kids go fucking( sorry but there is no other word to describe it) nuts and get carted away in the oh-shit bus, 8 times, 3 different children. The whole thing is sad ESPECIALLY when the parents deny there is even an issue. "Ma,am, your lovely darling second grader, threatened to kill someone yesterday, how much more of a sign to you need?"  Sorry had to vent :)
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« Reply #108 on: October 28, 2010, 09:23:34 AM »
Sorry to hear about your test result, Betty. Please keep in mind that if they routinely offer a second chance, then a lot of people probably don't pass the first time. Like Snow said, at least now you have a better idea of what to expect and what you need to study up on the most. Good luck with your second try! I got my fingers, arms, legs and eyes all crossed for you - I hope it helps!

Sorry to hear about your Gran, Camms. I know how difficult that sort of thing can be to deal with and it isn't pretty/nice. Sending you calm, peaceful thoughts to help you get through.

Snow, a second grader was threatening to kill someone and the parents don't think there's a problem? Egads, that's nuts. The parents themselves must be pretty messed up if they can't see there is something wrong with that picture. I hope the whole family gets the help they need before someone gets hurt.
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« Reply #109 on: October 28, 2010, 04:03:16 PM »
Snow, that's crazy about the 2nd grader threatening to kill someone.  I wonder what kind of shows he watches on the t.v.?  I mean, sometimes kids could watch stuff like CSI, and want toplay maybe.  Dunno.  Hopefully things will calm down.  I mean, I wasn't there, so he could have been totally serious.

Ann, they never even used to have this test, because people normally learn by doing.  It's mostly over agency policies, and forms to be filled out (all the forms-intake, review, direct service app, medical services, which is the mother of all the forms).  I guess a couple of the other care coordinators weren't entering stuff right, and almost cost the agency money, so the head of client services want to make sure people do it right.  I think it's a bit eccentric of the boss, but whatever.  The other employees in different departments don't even agree with having one. 

Yeah, next week, starting Tuesday, I'll be in Indianapolis for the rest of the week for training.  This is to enable us to get "Medicaid certified," so we can bill Medicaid (that is, if I still have a job).  The agency already bills Medicaid, so I'm not sure exactly why we're going, but whatever.  It's required.

I worked today, and observed two different tests.  One was for employment.  The other one was a guy who was worried he was exposed to HIV.  He told the testor and I he has been "around people with HIV."  I asked the guy how he thinks he may have been exposed, and he said "on the toilet seat?"  I told him HIV has to have a direct entrance into the body, it's not passed through casual contact etc. etc.  He then asked me if syphilis could be picked up off a toilet seat.  WTF? (no, that's not what I said to him).  Crazy.  But, that's how it is.                                    Ok ladies, I'm not going to go on and on, so you all have a good one.

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« Reply #110 on: November 01, 2010, 07:19:39 PM »
Hey Ladies---

Just checking in because I know I haven't been on in awhile. I've been busy and tired with babysitting 6 days a week but it is now starting to slow down. I am grateful for that. I am still coughing and sniffling. When I had this problem last year they gave me and inhaler so I have been using that off and on.

Sorry to hear about you not passing the test, Betty. I also agree with what everyone is saying. You'll be prepared next time. And is it the same exact test? That would make it easier too. Ann, I been seeing commercials with the Mirenda thingy. I didn't like the idea that it may come loose. I have gotten use to getting the Depo every 3 months. And I even gave myself the shot last year since I didn't have a gyn then. I was amazed I could do it but then I was giving myself insulin shots, not much diff I wouldn't think. As far as your blog, I will be on it. I have kinda stalled with mine a little. I am lucky if I get one entry out a month. But I did just think of something, maybe I will work on it later.

I hope everyone is doing good. I wish some of you would come over to Facebook. It is a bit addicting and distracting. But it's good to see what other people are thinking about. I also use it to keep up with my family.

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« Reply #111 on: November 01, 2010, 07:56:02 PM »
Snow-
That's nothing, there is another mother that is getting her ass beat everyday and then can't understand why her son acts up all the time.  The counselor asked her about abuse and she totally denied it.  It's just so sad that she rather stay in that situation instead of working or finding away to get herself and her children out of it. 

How things, Queen B?  Anything new in su casa?

BT- Have a safe trip, you will do fine in your class.  I am going to PM you my new number in case you want to chat.

Ann- I was reading one of your old blogs and I would love to be a fly on the wall at one of your doc appts., especially when you first meet them. LMAO!!

Camms- I finally figured out how to see who called me, texted me and whatever at the same time yesterday, LOL, better late than never.

I feel bad because I have been avoiding that lady I help out.  I am pissed and scared at the same time.  Pissed because she does nothing to take care of herself, except by herself new clothes.  She doesn't eat (if she does it a quarter of a sandwich, if that, all day, if she's lucky she weighs 90 lbs, she doesn't sleep, she smokes non-stop, she drinks vodka by the gallon and is poppin oxys like they are aspirin.  I understand she is going through a lot, physically and emtionally, she has cancer, congestive heart failure and a list of other ailments, and her  husband of 48 years is waiting for her to die cheating on her.  He calls her dozens of times a day to make himself feel better but does nothing to help her.....nothing and she still treats him like he is God.
Scared because I feel like one of these days she is going to be dead when I go over her house.  She would of died one of the last times but I called the ambulance for her, her husband had happen to stop by but couldn't see or didn't acknowlege that she could hardly breathe or move for that matter  and left.  It is the wierdest thing to be around, I don't know what she could of done in her life to make her family act like she doesn't exsist.  Shoot my grandparents were never a quarter sick as she is and I would stop by and check on them everyday.  I know that she amazes me with how long she has been able to survive in the condition she is in. I hope and pray things get better for her but if she doesn't do anything to change I don't see things ending well.

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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #112 on: November 01, 2010, 09:02:37 PM »
Queen, unfortunately, it's not the same test.  But I believe it will be basically the same ideas.  If I don't do something right the first time, I don't have a lot of confidence in doing it right the 2nd time.  That's a character flaw of mine.  How are you doing, other than babysitting a lot?  Have you seen all your docs, and do you like them?

Snow, that's a shame about that person you help out.  With her illnesses, I wouldn't worry about her smoking or drinking.  It sounds like she's on the way down, and if that's true, she might as well do what she wants.  I know it isn't easy to deal with when you're around her, though.  Too bad about her husband.  He should be shot.

Tomorrow afternoon is when I leave for Indy.  So, after that I won't be on until later Friday, or Saturday.  All you ladies behave!
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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #113 on: November 02, 2010, 04:31:27 PM »
Snow--The landlord did finally fix the heat, its on a timed thermostat but it has been on. Today he sent the exterminator over, who sprayed once again and set down stuff for the mice. A cat would do a better job. I asked him about getting one and he said he had to think about it. Then went on to list the reasons for not having one.

Betty-- I am getting the doctors back together slowly. I have seen the gyn. On Friday, I have to go to the ENT for the hearing tests so I can have Medicaid pay for them. The nurse at the shelter pretty much guaranteed me that Mt. Sinai should be able to give me the reason for my hearing loss. I truly hope so after 4 years of not knowing.

Back to babysitting but until then, am watching ROME. Have a good one ladies....


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Re: Lady's thread #72 Shit Happens
« Reply #114 on: November 04, 2010, 04:15:42 PM »
Just thought I would mention that someone needs to start a new thread....If no one has by the time I check back in then I will...Gotta try to think of something good. It's almost the weekend baby!!!
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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