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Offline minismom

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LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« on: May 31, 2009, 06:40:03 AM »
The title came to me in the middle of the night.  It's a tribute to all of us who, despite our ups and downs, our trials and tribulations, have journied on and come out the other side.

Betty, we leave for the beach a week from today - June 7th - our middle daughter's 7th birthday.  We'll be back on Saturday, June 13th.  I'm trying to find things to do everyday so I don't actually have to spend time on the beach.  So far, I've managed to fill 2 of the 5 days.  Not sure what else we can do, but I'm going to figure it out.

As expected, my inlaws haven't shown up yet.  I'm a bit nervous because they are in Tampa with my sister-in-law and she and her husband are the ones who drive them up here.  We haven't heard from them, though, and they haven't returned Hubby's phone calls.  I'll breathe easier when they are back on their side of the ocean. 

Queen, are you still moving to NY?  Have you been able to get everything switched over?  You must be so excited.

I'm up early and really don't want to be.  Our youngest son had a nightmare and crawled into bed with us last night.  He likes to snuggle but it kills my back and makes me way too hot.  I may just curl up on the couch for a while before getting everyone up.  Happy Sunday everyone!

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #1 on: May 31, 2009, 09:35:21 AM »
Hey all,

Mum, thanks for starting the new thread!  Great title.  I often feel like I'm wandering around in a circle, with no progress being made.  Anyway, I remember you saying something awhile back about your in-laws, and not really looking forward to seeing them.  Wasn't it because they don't remember your kids' special occasions, like birthdays?  I hope the visit goes by quickly. 

Queen, congrats on the news numbers, they look great.  That's funny, Queen's in Queens. :)  Anyway, when you get everything taken care of, would you please let me know how you switch section 8 to a new area? 

Andrea, I hope you feel better soon.  I'm glad the open house went well.  Hang in there, only a couple weeks to go.  You guys go for a long time there; most of the schools here were out a week ago, and my granddaughter's school (which is Montesorri) is out at the end of this week.

Well, I'm happy to report I got the blind cleaned.  It was awful.  It had crud on it from when I used to smoke in here (another thing I'm happy to report is that it's been a little over 4 months since I quit), and dust.  It took me over an hour to clean.  I used Windex and paper towels, and it turned the white paper towels a yellowish-brown color.  Yuck.  Anyway, it's done.

I did go to the NA speaker thing last night.  The girl who spoke was terrific and inspiring.  When she was 13, she lived with her aunt and uncle.  Her uncle raped her repeatedly, and so bad it tore her insides up to the point where she had to have surgery.  She's been HIV+ for 10 years.  I'm glad I went.          Today I may cook a steak on the grill.  I've been marinating one since yesterday evening, and it's one I got at one of the local butcher shops, so I think it should be good.  I have to clean the grill out, though.  It sat out all winter.       Anyway, I hope you all have a good Sunday.
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #2 on: May 31, 2009, 10:13:32 AM »
Hi GFs~

Enjoying  a nice, quiet Sunday while Ice works and before I start the weekly commute again.  I"m on summer hours now, so we work long days M - Th, and then Friday we get out at 2:30pm.  The last day of school around here is 6/16, so after that the traffic will lighten up.  Last Tues and Weds mornings it took me 90 minutes to drive 25 miles to work.  One afternoon a cement truck came off of a trailer and it took me an hour to go 2 miles on the highway to the next exit and then another hour to go 20 miles further home!  Yes, people down here drive with their heads up their asses.  I put hexes on all of 'em, lol!

I don't feel like I'm wandering now, but I do feel like I'm holding my breath, waiting for this TH to be ready to rent.  I called the carpetman today for our estimate from last week and no one answered.  Sigh.  I guess I'll get a few more prices elsewhere, too.

My brother is getting remarried in 2 weeks and I'm not going to the wedding.  Its out of state and he just met the girl.  You only need a 30-day separation before divorcing where he lives, so he had a rather quick divorce last Fall.  Now he's getting married again!  Gheez!  He gets deployed again at the end of June, for the umpteenth time.  I always fear for his safety.   :(

Mum, sorry that you're not looking forward to the beach, but if its because of the in-laws, I can understand that.  Nothing is worse than family making you miserable when everyone is together and supposed to be having a good time.  I get that way with my mother sometimes, I cringe at how her mood will be when I'm supposed to go see her.  Mother's Day went well, thank goodness.

Betty you got the blinds cleaned, in ONLY an hour?  I hate doing that stufff cause I am so OCD that I would take all day to do it, lol.

Nice to see you, Andrea.  Sorry about the bug you've got.  Drink plenty of water and chicken soup.  It really  IS magical!   :D  I hope you feel better.  There's nothing worse than sick kids cause it just keeps going around, but I don't have to tell you that.

That is cute, Queen's in Queens.  Hee hee!  I hope this is a good move for her.  No more lake-effect snow right outside her door this winter, she'll have a day to prepare for it now. :D   :P

Going to febreze the mattress and wash sheets.  Just me and Cheech for a bit today.  I'll probably go over what my copays will be now for my meds since I don't have MADAP anymore after June.  I think its going to be about $60 x 4 prescriptions now, per month.  You KNOW we don't get any 90-day discount on HIV meds cause they are way too expensive.  Crap.  Lord, find me a renter for that house!  LOL

~ Cindy  (Cheech says HI)
« Last Edit: May 31, 2009, 10:17:59 AM by MOONLIGHT1114 »
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #3 on: May 31, 2009, 02:30:20 PM »
Betty and Cindy, my in-laws aren't coming to the beach with us, my mom, dad, and brother are.  My in-laws were "threatening" to come for a visit in early May, but never showed up.  This is just what they do - we don't hear from them for a couple of years, then they threaten to show up for a couple of years, then they eventually show up and wonder why no one is doing back flips and rolling out the red carpet.  Betty, my inlaws don't even remember my kids' names let alone their birthdays.  I don't need the stress.  It drives Hubby nuts, too, but he doesn't feel like he can say anything because they are his parents.  Oh, well.

Anyway, sorry for the confusion. 

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #4 on: May 31, 2009, 09:30:08 PM »
I had a different day.
Billy and I went to Oklahoma with my dad and step mom to a casino. I gambled half of my birthday money that my dad gave to me. I only lost half the money and I was there for at least 5 hours so I did pretty good. LOL
Would have been better to have won a ton of money but I didn't expect to so I had fun. Billy and my dad left with a little more than they came with so that was good.

The last time I went to a casino was in 2003 maybe. I lost that time too. The only other time I went was in the mid 90's and I won 400 bucks after spending near 100. So technically I am still ahead by maybe 140 bucks.

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #5 on: May 31, 2009, 09:54:01 PM »
Mum-  I think there has never been a title that was so appropriate.  
I feel so lost today and wandering.  It's really a life suspension for me.  I am so sad once again.  I swear I try to have a good or great attitude and I just feel that things suck!!!!!
I went to a party yesterday, had one beer and brought a good friend (since I was 13) with me into Brooklyn.  Or I should say he brought me.  

Anyway, late last night he said he was always in love with me. He told me this before.  But I just kept pushing him away which was fine until this moment....  he said "I love you and wish that you were never with ____....otherwise I would definitely want to spend the rest of my life with you.  OMG, I don't need to hear this...I was laying in my bed and he came up and said this.  How awkward for one thing....and second I have gotten rejection a lot lately but I didn't say anything to bring it on.  I was just about to fall asleep.  

What the heck?

I swear, I am ready to jet....literally jet.  After my surgery and birthday I'm gonna land in London...i'm sooo freakin down with everything.  And yes, and am  I running from my issues, no!  I need a change of scenery.  All my life plans are getting squashed.  Trust me this is only the half of it!

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #6 on: June 01, 2009, 07:14:00 AM »
Cam, hun, I don't know what to say.  Sometimes life sucks and sometimes it blows.  Maybe the change of scenery will do you some good.  Give you some time away to think outside of the familiar.  I tell Hubby often that "Swiss Family Robinson" - being on an island with no other people, but us, around - sounds perfect to me.  Hang in there, sweetie, you'll get your answers.  I'll be praying for you.

Wendy, that sounds like fun.  I've never been to a casino - don't even play the lottery.  I'm way too cheap.

Today, we are supposed to have SUN and NO RAIN!!  I can't believe it - the sun does exist and it's coming here.  Of course, starting tomorrow, it's getting colder with chances of rain everyday, but at least we have today.

Yesterday Hubby asked me if I knew what Friday was.  I told him it's the 5th, the day my brother is flying in.  He raised his eyebrows at me "and......"  I was stumped, I had no idea.  He put his hand over his heart and asked if I was serious, which I was - I had no idea.  IT'S OUR ANNIVERSARY! and I completely forgot :o  I never forget.  I apologized over and over and he just laughed at me - told me now I know how he feels.  So now on top of ball games, pizza parties, 3 appointments on Thursday and our daughter's birthday party Saturday before leaving for the beach on Sunday, I need to find time to go get Hubby an anniversary present.

Happy Monday!  Only 4 more days till the weekend.

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #7 on: June 01, 2009, 09:44:25 AM »
Hello Ladies. Long time, no see.   Things are good here,everything has settled down with my disability. I have repaid everybody that I owed, had a lot of work done to my car, bought Robert and  myself new clothes and still have a little put back. I feel much more secure. I have finally gotten over being sick, I feel like I was sick for a month. I do have another appointment with MY doctor on July 1 st. I had to see another Doctor in the practice and believe me I told everyone there that I was not happy with that.                                                               Moonlight, so happy to see you again, give Cheech a hug for me. Good luck finding a renter, I will be hoping you get a good one.                  Queen, a new man and a new town. I am so happy for you. I hope things go great and you really enjoy yourself, you deserve it.                    Betty,glad you got the blind cleaned. How is the new job going? The Na speaker sounds like a really good one. I am glad you got to go.   You have a new grandbaby coming? Congratulations.                Minismum. how do you do it all. I get tired just reading your posts, you are truly a wonderful woman.                                                            Wendy, glad you had fun at the casino and I'm sorry Haley moved so far away                                                                                                Camms, hope things work out well for you and I hope you enjoy London. Best of luck with your surgery                                                                                     Andrea, 1 week and 1 and a half days left in school here.    Are you are looking forward to a break. We sure are.                                         Robert has a concert at the civic center in town tonight. I will take some pictures and post a couple tomorrow. I have to dress him in 50's style, glad they sent a picture. Something about Dinosaur Rock, it should be fun. I will check in again soon.   Anybody I missed, Netta, any other ladies, hope things are good, talk to you soon.    Cristy

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #8 on: June 01, 2009, 09:50:45 AM »
Morning all,

Cin, I only had one blind to clean.  And it took me a little over an hour.  Trust me, I know about OCD.  Sometimes I'll be watching t.v., and it looks like one little thing is out of place, and I'll get up and straighten it out.   I remember you telling us about your mom and how frustrating she can be.  I'm glad mother's day went alright.  I can't believe your brother's going to be deployed again.  This is one big reason why so many vets have trouble mentally, is multiple times being deployed.  It's awful and I wish our government would do something about it.

Mum, your anniversary, aye?  Wow!  Are your parents going to watch the kids so you two can have a nice dinner out or something?  I hope you get to spend some time by yourselves.  I know you could use it.  

Wendy, I've only been to one casino ever, and I walked out with, I believe, $3.00.  It was fun, though, and I didn't plan on winning, so it was no big deal.  Lots of stimulation for the mind, that's for sure.  

Camms, I'm so sorry you're going through a bad time.  I don't expect you to spill everything on here, so if you ever want to chat, drop me a pm.  I didn't know things were this desperate for you.  Please hang in there.

It's very grey and stormy outside.  I was going to do laundry today, but I really don't feel like dodging raindrops to do it.  Tomorrow I have an appointment with the doctor early, so I'll probably do it then.  I have nothing exciting to report, just wanted to check in.  You all have a good one.

Cristy, you posted at the same time I tried to; good to hear from you and I'm glad you're feeling better!
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #9 on: June 01, 2009, 10:26:38 AM »
Happy Birthday! Wendy!
Cj- so glad to herar from you and glad things are working out!
Moon- good luck with the th.
Queen- you are in Queens,NY??? good my Mom lives there, Springfield Gardens.
Whenv I come to visit I will look you up!
Camms- cheer up, a vacation for you would be great, remember things could be worse!
Viv- know you can't wait to start your summer vacation, Our kids got out in May.
Betty- I also did some spring cleaning this weekend, I hate dust and it affects my alergies. Such a touching story about your na speaker, I feel for her, I was raped at age 5 by my foster father and caught V.D.!!!
Mums you are sure a busy woman, I get tired also just reading your post. Happy Aniversary to you and hubby, hope you have some time alone planned.
I am excited to be moving again, this time I am breaking my lease, we are leasing a house with my DD and her 2 girls,  in her same subdivison, Lake Wildwood.This is an a gated comunnity with older homes, in the best side of town. It is a racially mixed community which is great, my grandkids have best friends who are another race and they all get along fine and have sleepovers, kids are so inocent, and colorblind when it comes to love, What a  wonderful world it would be if we all  were.!!! We will have access to the lake and pool and the girls will be able to stay in their schools, which are the best. I wiill have a yard! and mu dh wills have a garden .MY dd is planning on staying with us a year  and buying her own house in the same area. I am so proud of her, she has come a long way, and going through a divorce, working hard and going  back to school for her masters degree! she is only 29.
all this from a girl that got pregnant at 18 and , no one knew till she went into labor!! Thats another story!!! Hey, have any of you ladies been watching the knew show on tv "I didn't know I was pregnant" it is funny to me, and what about John and Kate plus 8?? All there business is in the street, so to speak.
Well love to all.
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #10 on: June 01, 2009, 11:38:58 AM »
Hey Ladies---

I have some time to myself, everybody had to run out and do errands. So, I am getting a breather and figured I would chime in. As for NY, well I love the place but people are always in a rush and rude as hell. I got caught in rush hour on the subway... :o  >:( I mean there was no room on the damn thing. And I have a bit of a phobia about being in crowded places so it was not a pretty picture. And I told my man if we get caught in rush hour again, I will kill him.. :o

Betty---All I did so far is went to the section 8 office here and got their mailing info, fax number, and the person to put in attention to. That's what my section 8 office told me I needed. The section 8 office here ( in NY) said I should be getting some type of transfer package from home. I have my appointment on the 8th and am leaving this Thursday. When I come back in a few weeks, I will start looking around for apartments.

Netta- Well, I hope I am settled by the time you come. I like here a lot, though am not crazy about the attitude of the people but I guess I will get use to that. It's funny to me how everyone seems to be in a hurry around here. Even when they are not on the subway!!!! :D


Wini-- The casino sounds fun. One opened up back home but I have never gone. I like the slot machines. And I know I would leave broke that's why I stopped going to Bingo. Damn people would hit 2 or 3 times and I would be broke as hell... :D Glad you had a good birthday.


And yep Queen is in Queens. Hey Eddie Murphy found his Queen in Queens in "Coming to America" ;) iif I missed anyone, iI apologize. Ugh, I am dreading this 9 hour train ride.
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #11 on: June 01, 2009, 09:39:21 PM »
Good to see you, Cristy, Queen and Netta....Just a quick post before I go to bed.  

Camms so sorry you are feeling down.  There have been times for me like that which seemed to be the lowest of the low, and in the middle of it all I'd just giggle and think to myself, "This is life, this is what's real...." and I would somehow try to look forward to whatever "excitement" was ahead.  Sure, its wasn't always good stuff that was 'exciting', but I'd find a way to put a crazy spin on it and think of it as God's way of keeping me on my toes.  Might sound weird, but during my lowest points I would always tell myself out loud, "This is happening for a reason, this is happening for a reason, and I'm right where I'm supposed to be."  I guess it was just my way of simplifying the situation and trying to justify it.  Hang in there, GF, we're here for you.

Going to the eye doc on Weds to have my lower tear ducts UNplugged. Yes, unplugged.  I had tiny silicone plugs put in them about 12 years ago due to having very dry eyes.  Turns out it was the protease inhibitors I was on that were drying out my eyes back in '97.

Well, now my right eye doesn't drain correctly and its always "weeping" up into the crease of my eyelid, ruining my make-up and irritating my skin.  My new eye doc said that an UNplugged duct could help the eye to drain correctly, so I am gonna try it.  I can't stand my eyelid being red and peeling all of the time.  Wish me luck.

Cheech is snoring, so time to get up to bed, lol!

Sleep tight GFs.  Love you all.  :)

~Cindy
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #12 on: June 02, 2009, 06:09:21 AM »
Morning all,

Netta, congrats on the upcoming move.  One of my sister's foster kids lives in a gated community out in Phoenix, and it's really a very lovely place.  I hope everything works out the way you want it to.

Queen, thanks for the info.  I used to love that movie "Coming to America."  I thought it was hilarious. 

Cin, "I'm right where I'm supposed to be" is a saying we use quite often in the 12-step programs.  Thanks for reminding me also of that fact.  It helps.  Luv you too, by the way.

Yeah, I'm up early.  I have a doctor's appointment in a couple hours.  Just typical stuff.  And I really need to do laundry.  I don't have anything exciting planned, nothing worth reporting right now.  Oh...

I have a friend, whose been my friend for years, from NA (Narcotics Anonymous).  I knew her when I was off drugs before, then she moved away to another city.  Well, she maintained her clean time, while I got strung out on prescription medication.  She moved back here last fall, and everything was alright at first.  For some reason (a friend of mine says it's because she's jealous that I finished a bachelor's, while she's never even finished an associate's), she constantly reminds me she's got "20 years clean."  It's like she lords it over my head.  Every time we talk, she always finds a way to fit it into the conversation.  And she also likes to remind me about her having these two jobs before she went on disability: one was a case manager, the other was the head of a treatment center.  She was telling me about the treatment center one yesterday, and I was getting really sick of listening to her.  What she forgets is, that she told me awhile ago that she got fired from the treatment center job for embezzelment.  I wish I would have remembered that when she was going on yesterday, I would have reminded her.  I guess I'm just going to have to keep distance from her for awhile.  Maybe she'll get the hint.

OK, that's it for now.  You all have a good one.
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #13 on: June 02, 2009, 08:36:07 AM »
UGG, Betty, I can't stand people like that.  They always try to put others down by making themselves look good.  But, like your friend, they tend to leave out that one minor detail.  Hubby has a friend like that.  He calls and brags about his house, his job, his income, his cars, his kids, his wife...Hubby doesn't even answer the phone anymore.  What he tends to leave out is the fact that he is so in debt that he had to have a co-signer for his house and his cars, creditors are taking him to court, he's left his wife and kids for other women so many times that his kids can't stand him and he's still having affairs.  Wow, that's the life I'd want to have ::)

Christy, good to hear from you.  50's style for boys = white t-shirt and blue jeans and greased up hair ;)  I'm glad things are going well for you.  Last day of school here is Wed. for kids who haven't missed more than 10 days of school and have a C average - they don't have to take finals.  For the other kids, finals are Thurs and Fri.  Teachers go through next Tuesday.  I have until June 30th to get my stuff turned in to the school board for my kids.

Queen, safe travels Thursday!

Hubby and I won't be doing anything on Friday for our anniversary.  My parents are driving to Pittsburg (3hrs one way) to pick up my brother from the airport, so they can't keep the kids.  Plus, on Sunday we're leaving on vacation and money is really tight.  We found out last night that our oldest son has a baseball game on Saturday at 1pm.  Where they are playing is an hour from here.  We had our daughter's birthday party scheduled for 2 that day.  Now, I need to figure out when to do it.  We may just celebrate at the beach on Sunday.

Tonight is our t-baller's pizza party.  We're all going.  The coach is giving out medals to all the players.  It should be fun.  Thursday we're off for our 6hr round trip trekk to the occupational opthamologist with Mim, our middle son, and youngest daughter.  I hope he can figure out a way to help Mim with her eyesight and double vision.

Yesterday we got the garage cleaned out.  Today we have to haul some stuff to the dump, clean the back deck, dust, and get more laundry done.  The adventure never ends.  Have a good one!

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« Reply #14 on: June 02, 2009, 08:45:28 AM »
Hey ladies! Just a quick stop by...I have my last report cards for the year due on Thursday so I am crazy busy. I will definitely post after..... ;D


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« Reply #15 on: June 02, 2009, 07:11:11 PM »
Hi everyone!
I survived court today!  When I first got there and my lawyer was in line, he came over and tried to ask me questions and made some dumb ass comments but I just ignored him.  I have nothing to say to him, if anyone lives up to- actions speak louder than words -it is him, except his actions always seem to be negative.    It made me feel like someone was finally listening to me.  After the judge did her thing and it was time to leave, the baliffs walked him out and my lawyer made me sit back down until the coast was clear.  They didn't even do that for a girl who was trying for a restraining order.
I was telling my father what happened and that the judge had told him to get a lawyer and I was saying he would have to find one to do it pro-bono or find some girl to pay for it for him.  My fathers says"  Yeah, he should tell them you give me the money and I will give you HIV."  or you could add " give me the money and I will beat your ass and give you HIV"  It would be funny, if it wasn't true.

I have been trying to keep up with everyones posts but didn't retain much worrying about court and my grandmothers memorial service.  It seems like everything always happens at once.  Money has been tight.  I had to ask my mother for money for gas to go back and forth for court and the service, dress clothes for the kids to wear.  I got a shut off notice on the electric, my washing machine died, the car insurance is due. The list goes on. CALGON take me away  :o   It will be a miracle if my counts aren't fubared when I go at the end of the month.  So anyHOO.....I hope everyone is doing well.



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« Reply #16 on: June 02, 2009, 08:53:32 PM »
Hello ladies. Hope everyone is having a good night.                          Snowangel, that sounds like a very bad situation.  I am sorry that you are still being dragged to court by your ex and being put through shit. I am sending you good Calgon vibes and hoping things get better for you.                                                                                                    Minismum, wow you do have a busy schedule. Are you looking forward to your vacation?I hope you and your family relax and enjoy yourselves.                                                                                           Betty, I hate when people try to act all holier than thou. I hope you ended up having a great day.                                                              Moonlight, best of luck to you at the doctor's wed.                                       Queen in Queens.  I like that. I hope things go smoothly and you are very happy.                                                                                       Netta, glad you are happy to be moving. Yeah, I have been seeing  all that shit about Jon and Kate plus 8. What I've seen hasn't  been pretty. I have gotten into watching reality shows and  Hollywood gossip shows. I like it.                                                                     Anyway, last night I went to Robert's concert. I really enjoyed it and there were so many people there. I got a picture of him preshow but I was seated too far back to get any good ones of him singing and dancing. I enjoyed the whole show but ,of course, his was the best part. I am tired but in a really good mood.  We went to McDonald after and I got him a happy meal.   No pictures of me but I'll get pone soon.       Have a great night.    Cristy

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« Reply #17 on: June 03, 2009, 06:47:01 AM »
Morning all,

Mum, boy, you sure are doing a lot of cleaning.  I wish I were as motivated as you are.  Good luck with the ophthalmologist.  I'll be looking forward to hearing what he has to say.  I hope he can get something figured out for poor Mim. 

Andrea, wow, it's almost over!

Snow, I'm sorry about the whole court thing, but glad it seems like they're finally listening to what you're saying.  And I'm glad they told him he has to have a lawyer.  I hope this will all be ending soon.  I'm sorry about all your financial trouble; boy, do I know how that feels.  But, today's payday, and I hope that will help some.  It sucks, I know, to have to pay out everything we get.  I'll be thinking about you.

Cristy, I really love that pic of Robert!  He is so cute!  I would loved to have seen that show, I bet it was very special.

Well, my friend who reminds me about her clean time, sent out an e-mail yesterday about things she's doing this summer.  The stuff she told me she's going to be doing, she already told me about.  It's just one more way to say "look at me!"  So, I've decided to cut her out of my life for awhile.  It makes me very upset when someone has an inflated ego.  It gets me to the point where I wonder if I'm good enough or not, and I hate feeling like that.  And it gets me to feeling ill about the person, and I don't like feeling like that either.

Today, other than paying bills, and maybe going to the store, I don't have any big plans.  I'm reading a couple books, and I started journaling a few days ago.  It was talked about a lot at the NA convention I just went to by quite a few women.  So, I thought maybe that would help.  Alright, you all have a good day.
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« Reply #18 on: June 03, 2009, 10:56:17 AM »
hie everyone
just a drive by to say hie. i think my computer hates me. when i do a post it decides to freee up or the power goes or i get distracted or something. i havnt caught up with everyone yet...
netta - congrats on the move,  i hope u like it there
cindy - good luck with the eyes. im thrilled u and Ice r still 2gether. thats just fantastic
betty - i also dislike people like that, i prefer to avoid them..
cristy - that picture of robert is soooo cute
snow - hang in there sweetheart
Queen - enjoy the big apple
camms - i hope the change of scenery wil go you good
mum - happy anniversary

im ok, just bummed out about a rejection i got from this guy i almost dated in college. claims to be crazy about me but when i disclosed to him he was like 'ok see u around'. u know. so theres these other guys from work who're on my case wanting to go out with me and i cant go down that road again with the disclosure stuff. i dont really want to go out with them but i was thinking that suppose i DO want to go out with one of them theres always this damn virus in the way. its always going to be there and i hate it. it felt like i told him i have the plague or leprosy or something. and all that stuff about zimbabwe having a high incidence of HIV must be bull cos i sure cant find ny men with it...
work's ok. Dr Vader docked our pay cos we werent signing in this book of his for what time we get in the office.  Punishment doesnt fit the crime. $10 can go a  long way these days. thats all for me , i'll see u guys later. oh and our  new government is full of shit, those MDC guys have sold out
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« Reply #19 on: June 03, 2009, 04:00:14 PM »
Hi Ladies,

Just dropping in to say hello. I have been lurking not posting much. I was in a kinda funk this last month. Me and DH want to have another baby right. I talk to my social worker and she made me sorta feel like I shouldn't She went on and on about the what if's and how i may fall in the 1% of women giving it to their child. That like totally discouraged me. We really want another one though. I talked to my dr. and she said she didn't see any reason why I shouldn't have kids. I am at a total lost right now.  ??? ??? ??? :-[ :-\. I dont know what to do.

Snow- How's it going babe... LOL... I hope everything works out in your favor.
BT- I dislike when people have the big head also. Wow!! you could have thrown in her face what you have accomplished, like being clean, graduating with honors. So THERE TO HER! lol

Cristy- Robert is so handsome

Netta- congrad's on the move. I like those shows also. I use to wonder how could a woman be pregnant and not know.
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« Reply #20 on: June 03, 2009, 08:13:13 PM »
Love the picture of Robert.

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« Reply #21 on: June 04, 2009, 09:19:09 AM »
Morning all,

Tendai, it's so good to hear from you.  I am so, so sorry and disappointed that the new government isn't working.  That really sucks.  I don't know what to say about having to tell guys about the HIV.  I guess if there's one who has an open enough mind to think beyond just sex and the HIV, then there you go.  These other guys, obviously are very selfish and are only worried about the sex, not getting to know you as a person.  Just hang in there.

Latrice, I wouldn't listen to that social worker.  Your doctor knows more about the baby situation than any social worker.  If she says it's alright, then hey, go for it.  You're young and healthy; you should have your children now.          How's school?  Over yet?

Today my therapist is coming over I believe.  There was a story on the news today that another plant in Elkhart (IN), is closing down and over 250 people are going to lose their jobs.  Add that to the already over 1,000 that have lost them due to the RV business taking a shitter, and that's a lot of people.  It's no wonder it's so hard to find a job; there are so many people looking.  Anyway, I hope you ladies all have a good day.
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« Reply #22 on: June 05, 2009, 03:58:38 AM »
Morning Ladies--

I finally made it back home. The train didn't get in til after 2am. I'm tired but not sleepy since I napped so much on the train. But I am sure it will hit me momentarily. I came home to my apt looking like a pig sty. I won't be doing any favors like that again. Just too long a story to get into. Then come into my bedroom thinking I am going to watch cable, wrong. They only connected it in the livingroom....wtf? >:( Now I am going to have to wait 5 days for them to show up. I hope tomorrow is a nice day. I need to air my house out, it smells like stale cigarettes...*wrinkles nose*

Just a short post this time because I am going to force myself to sleep. I still have bills to pay tomorow. Just wanted you all to know that I made it back safely.....
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« Reply #23 on: June 05, 2009, 05:32:56 AM »
Welcome home, Queen.  When are you going back?

Everytime I start to write about yesterday's appointment, I end up deleting it, trying again, deleting again.  I can't find the words to accurately describe how disappointed (angry? frustrated? saddened?) I am by the experience. I couldn't sleep last night - been tossing and turning trying to figure out what to do next.  At one point I'd decided not to even post about it.  To try and just "let it go" until after our vacation, but it won't stop nagging me. 

First, I must give credit where credit is due.  Our son went first and the doctor was wonderful with him.  He took his time, asked him questions, did a very comprehensive exam, spoke kindly, listened to everything my son and I were saying and took tons of notes.  He changed his prescription, doubled it actually, and gave me some strategies to help him.

Our youngest daughter went last.  Again, very kind and gentle with her.  She has no periphreal vision in either one of her eyes.  We thought it was only in her right eye.  Her field of vision is different in both of her eyes - it's hard to explain.  Anyway, he put these special crazy shaped lenses in a "frame", put them on her, and WHAM! she had periphreal vision.  She was seeing things she'd never seen before.  For that, I am very greatful.

In between the 2 was Mim.  With her, he blew it.  He was impatient and spoke to her very unkindly.  I was trying to explain to him that while she can read, there are limitations and certain "criteria" for lack of a better word, that must be met.  There can't be a lot of print on the page, it must be large, lots of space between the lines, ect.  I tried to tell him about the "one ball becoming 4 balls" and the "dancing shadowy words", that she loses her place easily and her eyes become fatigued, she gets headaches, the whole shabang.  He took no notes.  His back was to me - he wouldn't even look at me or make an attempt to acknowledge I was speaking to him.

During the exam, which was short and uncomprehensive, he grew more and more frustrated with her.  She was having trouble understanding what he wanted her to do.  She was trying her best.  At one point he looked at me, finally, and said that Mim was acting this way for the DRAMA of it!  He all but accused her of faking it saying that Mim is going to do what she wants to do.  I was shocked and incredibly hurt.  He said that there's no physiological reason for her double vision and he doesn't see any evidence of it.  How could he??  If it's neurological, you won't see a physiological reason.  That's why we went to see him for crying out loud.  He's a world reknown NEURO-occular specialist. 

He has CDs that can be used on the computer at home for vision therapy.  They aren't cheap and insurance doesn't pay for them.  We had the money ready to get for Mim.  He never even offered them.  When I asked about her having vision therapy, he ignored me.  I told him that her glasses were a year old and we'd like to get a new pair, even if he wasn't going to change the prescription.  He didn't write us one.

I signed consents yesterday for him to get the kids' records from the previous eye doctors.  I'm faxing him today to revoke my consent.  No reason for him to have their records when they will not be his patients.  Where do we go from here?  I'm not sure.  I will email Dr. F and ask him to write a prescription for vision therapy.  I'm at a loss, but all is not lost.

Have a good weekend.

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« Reply #24 on: June 05, 2009, 05:46:56 PM »
Welcome Back, Queen.

Mum- I don't get it?  Why would he be nice to your daughter and your son, but not Mim.  I think that would make me nuts wondering why? You would be suprised (or maybe not, unfortunately) how many looks I get when I am out with my gang.  One time, we all went to the ER when my oldest son cut his foot. The nurses did everything they could to ignore us when we finally got out of the waiting area and into the treatment section.  This one lady was giving me the nastiest looks and making comments under her breath, to her co-workers.  The 3some was 3 or 4 at the time and well behaved for sitting around for 4 hours.  As soon as she found out they were all the same age, she was as nice as pie and made sure someone was over to help us.  It was sickening. I don't blame you for re-negging on the consent form , the guy sounds like an prejudiced ignorant ass.  You and Mim deserve so much better. 

Wen- I like your new pic. Your hair got so long.

cjc- Robert is so adorable.

Hi Ten- Nice to see you. Sorry to hear about the rejection. Your right the punishment doesn't fit the crime.  Is that a book the patients have to sign too, if not ,I would pre-sign my name ahead of time :)

Keeping-You know how I feel about your social worker  :-\

BT-LOL. I have no tolerance for people like that anymore, nothing like patting herself on the back.

I somehow lost some of my post.  When I was leaving the school yesterday with all the kids, my oldest noticed a 5th grader was smoking a joint. Nice, huh?

Hope you have a good night!
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« Reply #25 on: June 05, 2009, 06:58:35 PM »
Hey ladies,

Queen, I'm glad you made it home safe.  I take it you let someone stay at your apartment while you were gone.  That's always a tricky situation.  I hope everything gets worked out.

Mum, that's totally and irrevocably ridiculous!!!  I would tell him exactly what I thought about how he handled poor Mim's appointment.  I hope she's doing alright and doesn't take what this jerk thinks to heart.  And I hope your Dr. F can help her.  I'm so , so sorry.  What a jackass.

Snow, kids are using drugs younger and younger.  For years, a lot of kids in elementary school who were on Ritalin would take it to school and sell it.  I don't know if they still do; this was like 18 years ago.  It's really sad. 

I went to a women's HIV support group.  There were two others there besides myself and the coordinator.  One of them I've known for years.  Her husband, who died years ago, and my 2nd ex, used to run together when they were using (heroin).  She's blind from an Aids related illness (CMV), but very independent.  It was nice to be there and talk to other women.  I need to force myself to get out of this apartment once in awhile.  I've decided that next week, until the next temporary job starts (which is a couple weeks), I'm going to volunteer at the last place I did the temporary stint at.  It'll get me out of the house and out of myself, so I can't sit around and feel sorry.  That's a dangerous place for me.       I did get the whole apartment cleaned, and my cat just used the litter box and kicked litter on the floor. :-\      Oh well, that can always be swept up.  I hope you all have a good evening.
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« Reply #26 on: June 05, 2009, 08:58:16 PM »
BT- I guess I knew that, i was just shocked to see it in person.  I am glad you have been able to find some women to talk too and that will be nice to get out of the house especially when the weather starts to get better.

Can someone tell me how to make a pic small enough to post on the forums?  It keeps telling me the file is too large.
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« Reply #27 on: June 05, 2009, 09:45:07 PM »
Well, I got up at 9 am and started paying my bills. I think I am going to try to go to sleep after posting this. I know I won't end up sleeping all night. I cleaned up the house today and did some laundry. Tomorrow I will run the sweeper. I just don't have the energy right now. I did get the cable situation worked out. I just screwed in the cable wire, for some reason the guy couldn't do it in my room. But now I have a remote he can program... ;D

Mum- I plan on going back to NY in July and stay another month. Come back in August and finish things up here. Also when I go back I will start looking for apartments so I don't have to stay with the bf long. Just kidding on that, we get along well enough to co-exist in the same space. We both have government housing so you know how that goes.

Snow-- There was a kid here, 8 who went to school high and when the police went to the kid's house. I guess you know they found weed. And in another case a toddler accidently found her parents crack and ate it. Not sure how much but the kid got shipped off to Pittsburgh's Children's hospital. As for resizing pics, I know but not sure how to explain it. Wini may chime in when she sees your post.

I'm beat, I need some sleep...zzzzzzzzzzz
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
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11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
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« Reply #28 on: June 06, 2009, 06:53:09 AM »
Good morning, ladies!  Another sleepless night and a million things to get done today.  I got all the clothes packed up last night. I got all 8 of us into 2 carry-on sized suitcases.  I'll finish getting the toiletries together tonight.  We don't bring our everyday toothbrushes / toothpaste with us on trips, I have a set we bring on vacations so that we can pack everything up the night before and don't have to worry about last minute things the morning we leave. 

Queen, I'm glad you found a place that makes you happy.  Can you continue your radio job in NY, or will you have to give it up?  I"m not sure how things like that work.

Snow, you would die if you heard some of the crap people say to us.  It's not necessarily about the skin, but how close in age they are and how many we have.  I'm writing a book titled "Stupid Things People Say When They Think Your Life is Their Business"  We've also gotten free meals from places when the wait-staff gets nosey and mouthy.  Did I ever tell you about the waitress who followed me into the bathroom?  I'm peeing and she's standing outside the stall door telling me how WONDERFUL it is that we brought our DAY CARE kids out to eat.

Betty, I'm glad you have people you can talk to.  There's nothing like that here.  I wish there was.  What kind of temp work will you be doing in a couple of weeks?  I think it's great that you volunteer.  I hear you about needing to get out of yourself.  I've gotten myself into a really bad place with depression and feeling hopeless / useless.
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« Reply #29 on: June 06, 2009, 07:01:40 AM »
This is a continuation of my last post.  After I've typed a certain amount, which varies, my posting field starts jumping around.  Not only can I not see what I'm typing, but the motion of the post makes me motion sick.  It's been doing this for about a month.  Must be someone's way of telling me to be less winded.  Now, where was I....

Christy, Robert is such a sweetie.  I can't believe how much he's grown.

I almost forgot, Snow, congrats on the avatar picture.  You're very pretty.  I haven't post a picture of myself because i can't find one i like.  And, no, I'm not posting one of me on the beach, either.

As for the eye specialist.  I'm not sure what his issue was / is.  It bothers me more that he was so wonderful with my other 2 kids and not Mim.  So far, the only thing she's said is that it's not fair that I and S get to have the glasses they picked out, but she doesn't and she picked out a really nice pair.  We told her not to worry because we found a better doctor who will listen and help her AND let her pick out a nice pair of glasses.  I'm emailing him a letter today.  I've been working on it and almost have it nailed down.  I should be pissed, but I'm more sad than anything.

Have a nice weekend.  I'll catch up with you when we get back.

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« Reply #30 on: June 06, 2009, 11:20:47 AM »
I definitely feel much better after a good 8 hours sleep. I finished cleaning and now am finishing up the laundry. I finally got that stale smell out the house. And now I am just waiting on the cable guy to show up. Other than that I have nothing else planned.

I am wondering what happened to my stimulus check. I thought my student loans got it because they said something about a letter coming in the mail. But I never got any letter so I am wondering if they did take it or not. But I did find out that I got my 650 rent rebate, it'll come on the 1st of July. I'll pay my bills and the next day heading back to New York. I can't wait and Dennis will be in his new place. Good things are happening for both of us. He says I bring him good luck.. ;D

Mum- Have a safe trip. And I have given up the DJing because of the things that have to be done for my move to NY. It would be too much.

I'll check in later ladies. Hope everyone is having a good weekend.
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #31 on: June 06, 2009, 02:13:02 PM »
Hey all,

Snow, that's a really good picture of you in your avvy! 

Queen, I'm jealous. ;)  No, I'm really happy for you.  You do deserve some happiness, and I'm glad it's finally coming your way.   You go girl!

Mum, I hope you have a tolerable trip, since you said you don't like the beach.  As far as people to talk to, well, I have a couple close friends that I talk to.  When I go to the support group or NA meetings, I don't bare my soul or anything.  But yeah, it is nice to have other people to chat with.

Today is warm and muggy.  But, at least it's warm.  I went to an NA meeting this morning and to the store.  I'm going to do some reading, and probably writing.  You all have a good one.

Edited to add:  I just found out that a friend of mine from NA got killed at around 5:30 this morning.  He was riding back from another city on his Harley, and hit a deer (he wasn't wearing a helmet).  He was thrown from his motorcycle when it hit the guardrail and died from massive head trauma.  I just took a picture of him at the convention I went to a couple weekends ago.  This is totally unbelievable.  This makes my 5th friend in 4 years.  Just, wow.  He had been clean 15 years.  R.I.P. Paul.
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« Reply #32 on: June 07, 2009, 02:43:28 PM »
BT- Sorry to hear about your friend, that is very sad.

Thanks Mum and BT- I don't really like that pic but I am trying to get myself out of my shell :)

Mum- I can but I can't believe she followed you in the bathroom and said that, people are nuts!

Queen- That is very sad about the baby and the 8 yr old. Some people just shouldn't have kids.

I went to photobucket and figured out how to resize the pics. I posted a pic of a flower in another thread. YEAH!
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« Reply #33 on: June 08, 2009, 09:48:45 AM »
Good Morning Ladies---

I hope you all are having a good day doing whatever it is that you do. Some work and those of us who don't have some type of daily routine/ritual. I have my Section 8 appointment later this afternoon. I expect it to go well. Then they have to schedule an appointment to inspect my apartment.

Been missing my man like crazy though we talk everyday on the phone. He just finished packing because he is moving into a new apartment building. It took him eight years to get the place. I did take some pics of us together but I don't think he would want me to post them, sorry.

I am still feeling tired, not sure if I am still recovering from the train ride or what?Well, I hope you ladies chime in today. Looks like it has been slow in here lately... :D
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
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11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
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« Reply #34 on: June 08, 2009, 12:47:25 PM »
Hey all,

My friend's funeral is Thursday.  He had it specified in his will for memorial contributions to go to N.A.  How cool is that.  Anyway, it still doesn't seem real.

I'm supposed to be meeting a friend for coffee at 2:00.  We'll see if it happens.  She usually has to cancel at the last minute because of her kids.  I don't really have anything planned other than that.  You all have a good one.
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« Reply #35 on: June 09, 2009, 11:17:55 AM »
Hi GFs~

Betty, I am so sorry about your friend.  Things must seem surreal right now, esp since you just saw him.  I feel so bad for what you must be going through.  I'm sending prayers your way.

Queen, good to see you here, and I'm glad to hear you'll be returning to NY soon.  It was funny reading how you thought everyone was rude there.  Get ready, sister, its a fast town city with fast people!

Mum and Min, I can't believe the eye doctor's attitude!  If he had flat-out ignored me I would've kept on questioning him until he turned around or something.  I would at least report him, I've had to do that before with a dumbass or two.

Cristy, so good to see you, and Robert!  Hee hee!  What a cute lil "Greaser" he is in that pic!  I'm glad to hear that you're getting things squared away with disability and things are falling into place for you.

Tendai, when I read your post I flashed back to 2002-2003, when I did a lot of dating, or at least tried to.  I was so worried about the rejection, and then there came a time when I thought, "I don't have to tell this guy anything about my status until I'M sure that "I" like HIM."  So, I kept quiet and figured, hey, I can date a guy a few times and not disclose.  Some turned out to not be my type, so my status never became any of their business.  As far as dating someone at work......GF are you crazy?  LOL  Be careful with that and keep telling yourself, there are always more guys out there.  Hang in there.

Snow, its so nice to see your pic and your pretty face!  It just made me smile to finally SEE you.  I'm so sorry about the court crap you've been going through, and I'm still trying to get the complete story.  I haven't caught up on old posts yet.

Well, I went to the eye doc last Weds and had my tear ducts unplugged.  It was simple, just a pair of tweezers to pull out these teeny, tiny silicone plugs that were put in years ago.  I have noticed that my eyes are dryer, but there is no weeping up into the crease of my eyelids like before.  It still feels and looks like a tiny peeling sunburn in the inner corner of my right eye, and I just keep putting cream on all day long.  As white as I am, a few ladies at work have noticed and have made suggestions, but oh well.  I think the pollen around here is contributing to the problem as well with the dryness.

I am soooooooooo excited about my ID doc.  I have been seeing him for about a year now, and last time I went in March, my labs weren't complete.  He suggested that I get my labs drawn by his office, but I didn't think insurance would cover it.  I called insurance last week, changed my ID doc to my primary doc and asked if they could draw my labs.  Insurance said yes!  So now I will go get labs drawn during the office visit and get results afterwards.  At least I can kick their butts directly if they screw something up, but I don't think it will come to that.

Going to all of the clinics around here for labs was just awful, its been that way for years.  You go in and every senior citizen in the county is in there and you're fasting, ready to eat your own hand, lol.  Now there won't be all of these people waiting for labs, and I'll actually have an appt for JUST ME.  I am psyched.

I just chose a new OBGYN today since my other one left the practice.  Since I moved in with Ice, the secondary office for my OBGYN is walking distance from home!!!  They set me up with a new doc who is an MD and not a CRNP, so that makes me feel better, with the HIV and all.

Cheech is set for a very short haircut early next month.  Getting him to the groomer's and leaving him there all day will prob be more difficult than seeing my docs, lol.  I have to take a day off of work for Cheech.   Maybe I'll just try to shave him on my own next week when Ice is outta town.  Ice won't know I used the trimmers, lmao.   :D   :o

I was too tired to go to work today, kinda got zapped from the heat at a graduation party on Sunday, sitting in a stuffy house that wasn't cool enough.  I almost threw up and fainted and caught myself, running off to the bathroom.  I stood over the air vent in there and seemed to do OK.  I ended up in the cooler basement shooting pool with Iceman.  I felt the exhaustion yest at work, but I am ahead with all of my tasks, so today, I said screw it, gotta look out for me and get rested.

Now I am craving McDs and I am leery of afternoon storms coming.  They are supposed to be severe.  Cheech and I will hide in the basement, lol!  Maybe I'll take Cheech for a ride through the drive-thru, he'd like that, lol.

Anyone hear from Camms, Netta or my long lost Drag?  I might still have her email somewhere.  I might try to reach her.

Love to All~

Cindy
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« Reply #36 on: June 09, 2009, 11:25:23 AM »
Hey Cin,

Thanks for the prayers.  I'm glad you have your ID doc as your primary one, and that you can have labs drawn by appointment.  I went to have labs done yesterday, and was there for an hour and a 1/2. 

I'm glad you're taking care of yourself.  It's funny you mention craving McD's, because I always seem to do that at night, when I'm watching Jeopardy.  Anyway, I hope you have a good one and stay safe from the storms.
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #37 on: June 09, 2009, 12:28:04 PM »
Betty, Sorry about your friend. I seemed to have missed that somehow. Cindy, always good to hear from you. Ooooh, you gonna shave Cheech with Ice's clippers....Hope Ice don't see any dog hair the next time he uses them or someone is going to be in trouble... ;D We had a storm last night but since I had my hearing aids out, I didn't hear anything. It was more like a light show...lol

I am almost out of Insulin and since I have yet to see my new PCP, he can't prescribe me any. My appointment isn't til the end of the month. And no, I can't reschedule, they are booked. They suggested I talk to my old PCP but I already know that they won't do anything. I tried back in January to get something refilled through him and he wouldn't do it. And that's when I didn't even have a new PCP yet. I called my clinic nurse but she is in some type of training today for something.

Not much going on here. Gonna cook a pork roast today. And start going through closets throwing out things I don't need since tomorrow is garbage day. I am counting the days til I am back in New York with my Papi. *sighs* ;)
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6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #38 on: June 09, 2009, 01:14:58 PM »
HEY GIRLS,  been a little busy and stressed out. my grandbaby ,six has been sick andwe have been running back and forth to the doctor. She has been having stomach problems and crying fits,.She was in the hospital for test, but everything is ok.some type of  acid reflex or gastritis. I have been babysitting for a couple days last week. the doc gave her a 2nd med which we hope works.
Other than that , just getting ready to pack forthe move.

Queen- so happy for you!!!
Betty- sorry about your friend.
Moon- is there something in the oven?????lol
Tendai- so glad to here from you,stay encouraged there is someone for everyone.
MInMom- I hope things get better with mins doctors, write that book in a hurry!!! get paid girl!!!!!
Snow love that picture, do you have any of the kids??
ps- watched Slumdog Millionaire, this weekend on video, it was great!
hope everyone is well, love netta
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #39 on: June 09, 2009, 05:33:56 PM »
I made it through the storms.  Cheech and I hid in the bathroom for an hour   :o  lol
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #40 on: June 09, 2009, 09:23:12 PM »
Betty-  I'm so sorry to read about your loss.  That's horribly shocking.  No matter how you look at it, it sucks and it's not fair.  The timing of you getting out and being more socialable sounds like a move in the right direction.

Queen-  Happy that you arrived safe and sound back home.  It's really wonderful to read your posts of love and new adventures.

Snow-  What a nice photo of you....very pretty :)

Cin-  Are you in the tub for Cheech or he in there for you....or is it a mutual pact of thunder fears?

Hugs to you all

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #41 on: June 09, 2009, 09:40:14 PM »
Definitely a mutual pact, Camms.  If Mommie is scared, then Chi Chi is, too, lol!

Good to see you, GF!   :-*
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« Reply #42 on: June 10, 2009, 09:05:45 AM »
Morning all,

Queen, I wonder if you went to a clinic and took your Insulin vial in, if the doctor there would write you a script?    I know you're anxious to get back to NY.  When do you think the final move will be?

Netta, I hope your granddaughter feels better and that acid reflux is all it is.  Then all she'll have to do is take a med for it.  In other words, I hope it's not more serious.  How are you doing with your new meds?

Cin, when I was a kid and there was a bad storm, my mom would have everyone go down the basement.  I don't get too worried now. If things get bad, I watch the local station and see what they have to say.  I figure if it gets that bad, I'll know.  I was in a tornado when I lived in Alabama, and that was pretty scarey. 

Camms, it's good to see you.  How are you doing and what's going on?

Today I have to see the lady who's helping me find a job.  I think I wrote earlier about how I live next to Elkhart, where the RV industry just took a dump.  Well, there's another factory there that's going to close, putting 250+ people out of work.  So, the job market is not good around here, at all.

Other than seeing that lady, my friend's viewing is tonight.  I'll probably go to that, and maybe not to the funeral.  It's going to be packed.  There are going to be tons of people from other areas of Narcotics Anonymous who are going to be there, plus mostly everyone from this area.  He meant a lot to NA, did a lot of service work, sponsored a lot of people.  He was just a good guy all the way around and he's going to be missed, seriously.         Nothing other than that.  You all have a good one.
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #43 on: June 11, 2009, 11:57:04 AM »
Well, yesterday was crazy for sure. Long story short, I had to go to the emergency room to get a script for my insulin which should last me til I see my new PCP on July 1st. Yes, I am very anxious about going back to New York. I am leaving again for NY on July 2nd though I may not stay the full month this time. And my man is suppose to be coming back with me to help me pack.I think the final move will be the end of August, that is when my lease is up. Right now the section 8 inspector has to come out and reinspect the place again. That is on the 23rd of this month. I don't see a problem there because the house is in the same condition as when I moved in.

 I don't know whether to say I am in love cause I have never been before. But if this is what love is, it's freaking great. He is the sweetest man, I swear. Someone from my blogs wanted me to blog about my man but I don't know if people can stomach such an entry. I have rarely been blogging. I mean each blogger seems to always blog about hiv. I know it is a poz blog but I just think sometimes people get tired of reading about hiv this and hiv that. But then maybe folks get tired of reading my blog, I dunno. I am considering giving up blogging but I am not sure yet.

Phone keeps ringing, so that is my queue to go....
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5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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« Reply #44 on: June 11, 2009, 05:46:48 PM »
Queen-  I think you should share about your new guy if you continue to blog.  I think it's really inspiring and gives other people, who are lonely, hope to know that sometimes we just have to be patient.

Well I've been really busy being prodded and poked, filling out medical forms and talking to medical personnel regarding my surgery.  I've been feeling back to myself these days which is really a nice feeling.  It gets so tiresome getting bad news one after another.  It's like "enough already".  I started to distant myself from people and the forum because I just felt that I was "debbie downer".   

Tomorrow is my 40th birthday.  If one more person tells me that 40 is the new twenty I will have to smother them in wrinkle cream.  Most of the people who told me that was around 20....figures. 

Betty-  Thinking of you.   :)

Hope everyone has a really nice evening.

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« Reply #45 on: June 11, 2009, 06:51:09 PM »
Camms, 50 is the new 30, so we just have to be patient, lol!

Have a Happy Birthday and best of luck with the procedure.  :)

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« Reply #46 on: June 11, 2009, 08:29:09 PM »
Queen, I know you're anxious to get back to your man.  I'm glad things are working out for you.  Are you excited about the move?

Camms, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!  I hope you have a really nice day and do something nice for yourself.  I hear you about the wrinkle cream; used twice a day here. :)

I didn't go to the cookout because it was raining.  I guess it still happened though.  That's alright.  The visitation yesterday was enough I think.  I had to go to the local ASO here for a potluck today for the people they have to let go because of lack of funding.  I e-mailed Indiana's governor about it, and got an e-mail response back from his staff saying that was a federal matter, and the governor doesn't deal with that.  It's because he's Mitch the Bitch Daniels, who's fucking everything up here with privitization.  But, oh well.  It's rainy and cool, so that will make for good sleeping weather.  Night all.
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« Reply #47 on: June 11, 2009, 08:42:38 PM »
Yes!!!! I am definitely excited about the move, seems like things are moving slow about now, that's how bad I want to be back in NY. Camms, I may break down and do a blog about my man. I don't know how inspiring it may be to others though. I thought 40 was the new 30? Wrinkle cream, yuck, I don't use that stuff. Reminds me of the movie Catwoman with Halle Berry and Sharon Stone. When women was using cream and getting sick. But Sharon Stone's face was actually hard like a stone... :D Happy Birthday Camms. Hey, we both look good at 40. Hell, we all look good for our ages.Yeah, we're some sexy bitches!!!! Glad you are feeling better too. Believe me I know all about everything being something bad, that was me about last year this time. What a difference a year makes, I guess.

Well, I am going to finish watching wrestling then take a nice hot bath. Wonder where my wrestling buddy, Tendai is doing? Has anyone caught up with Drag or Wishful?
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5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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« Reply #48 on: June 12, 2009, 06:50:26 AM »
Good Morning Ladies.        Things are good here.                            Betty, I am sorry to read about your friend. That is cool that he wanted all contributions to go to NA.          Good luck with the job search, I hope the economy picks up and you find something soon.              Camms, Happy Birthday to you. I hope you have a great one                        Queen, I bet you are really excited about moving to New York with your honey.     That is  fucked that you had to go to the emergency room to get your insulin.                                                                      Moonlight , glad you and Cheech made it through the storms.                      Netta, I hope the medicine works for your grandbaby. I hate it when Robert is sick and  nothing seems to help.                                                Tendai, sorry about the disclosure thing.                                                 Not much going on, Tuesday was the last day of school for Robert and I got his report card. He will be going to the first grade next year. I am very happy about that. Going to Virginia today with Robert and my mom. She needs to get some new frames for her beehives. We stay far away from the beehives but they are in the field so it's easy to avoid them.                                                        I am so ready to move down to the trailer. I need to clean out the buildind and see what I need to buy as far as dishes and stuff.   I long for my own bathroom, we only have 1 here at the house.      Hope everyone has a good day.    Cristy

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« Reply #49 on: June 12, 2009, 08:26:34 AM »
betty, my condolences about your friend...
cindy - u know what, girl, u are so right! why should i go hanging myself out to dry for a guy that i might not even like that much in the end. never has any guy said to me ' hey i'd like to go out with you but  i have hiv'. im so definitely taking your advice. 
netta - i hope your granddaghter's better now. i'm hanging in there, some day someone will come..
queen - i'm with the others who say u should blog about your man. it will give others who're giving up hope that they too will find someone right for them.  we're waiting for extreme rules soon. CM Punk is so going to get killed by Umaga. Umaga speaks! i was shocked when he was taunting CM punk after dangling him upside down in the corner and beating the crap out of him.
camms - HAPPY BIRTHDAY. How about if i say 'life begins at 40' :-)
mum - i think your book would be a best seller for sure. that doctors really an ass, i hope u gave him a piece of your mind.

nothing much going on for me.  the guy from work who wanted to ask me out was just here installing broadband in our building. yesterday he comes around my desk and says ' im coming to your house, cook for 2' and i laughed him off. so today he sends me a message saying 'i came to your house your gate was locked'. he's so lucky it was a message on the computer. i mean WTF is he doing coming to my house uninvited? i never said i was interested in him coming to see me. i dont even  want to go out with him in the first place. my place is my sanctuary and after mr-out-of-town im not letting just anyone come there. i think im going in a totally different direction now. anyone who has the least similarities to him is a big no-no.

so the weekend's here THANK GOD! i might go to my aunt's place. theres this guy i met coming back from her place couple weeks ago and i gave him my number like a fool. so now he's calling me calling me, insisting that we spend the weekend together. i dont think so.  i know im not in a position to be choosy but i know it wont work. no way no how. now how to tell him without sounding like a nasty bitch. he seems nice and all but i'm not feeling nada. i dont see him breaking thru the walls i've put up.
so ladies, i will catch up with you all next week. have a great weekend and take care :-*

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #50 on: June 12, 2009, 04:38:41 PM »
Hi GFs~

I will post more later, but wanted to let you know that I gave some dating advice to Triyn' in another thread here  (in Positive Women).  Betty suggested I go tell what I had been through, so I did.  I haven't seen Tryin' sign back in, for a few days now, but Tendai, I thought the advice might be helpful to you as well.  

Girl, you owe it to yourself to be CHOOSY.   There will always be more men.  I don't know if that's a good thing or not.  LOL  We don't have one and it drives us nuts.  We have one and HE drives us nuts, lol!   :D

Happy Friday with no ankle-biters tonight!  Oh the JOY of a quiet home.  Ahhhhhhhhhhh!

Edited to add:  Tendai, I see you already read the other thread and posted.  Ribbit.   ;D

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« Reply #51 on: June 12, 2009, 09:11:58 PM »
Queen, honey, I have to have the wrinkle cream.  I really don't know that it's going to slow down the aging process, but otherwise my face would be very dry.  So, hopefully it works for something.

Cristy, when will you be moving?  I'm happy for you. 

Tendai, you go girl!  You just set your own standards and keep 'em high.  That's the way to be.

Cin, I hope you have a good Friday evening.

Not much with me today.  I went to the Farmer's Market this morning, because strawberries are in season and I had to get some.  Then I went to see my grandkids' swimming lessons.  My granddaughter does pretty good using different strokes to go back and forth across 1/2 the pool.  My grandson, who's five (and tiny), jumped off the board in the deep end, using an empty jug for floating help.  He said next week he's going to jump off without the jug.  Then the "mom" took us all out to I-Hop (which is a place I love).   Tomorrow I'm supposed to be going to Ft. Wayne for an NA convention.  We're only going for one day, because of the expense. It's held at a hotel, and who on disability can afford a hotel for the weekend, plus the cost of the convention?  Anyway, I'm looking forward to it.  You all have a good night.
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #52 on: June 12, 2009, 10:20:50 PM »
I been meaning to peep at that thread. But you are a dating success story, Cindy. So, are all the ladies who have men. Especially if you got some time invested. Better to be with the devil you know than the one you don't. Plus dating these days is hard even if you aren't infected. It took me 40 years to find a good man.... ;D

Tendai--I keep forgetting you are behind in wrestling. I won't say anything other than be prepared for a few surprises. Yeah, I was surprised when Umaga starting talking. Remember when he had that Alonzo dude or whatever his name was as his manager. But then I remember Umaga when he first started in wresting as Rosie with Rikishi and then with the Hurricane. Remember that?

Betty--Have you tried things such an oatmeal mask or cucumbers on the eyes? I always wondered if that stuff really works. I bought some strawberries, cherries,plums, and avacados this month at the market. I am trying to be better about what I eat. Though I don't think I eat bad now. And I don't know how to count calories or the carb thing. I didn't buy an Pepsi but instead got ruby red grapefruit juice. Since the bf says it burns body fat. I guess he should know being the gym rat he is. I also go Diet Dr. Pepper, and diet green tea.

That's about it for me, just counting the days. Hope everyone has a good weekend.
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« Reply #53 on: June 13, 2009, 08:43:20 AM »
Queen, years ago, I used to mix oatmeal with something like, honey I believe it was, and something else, like maybe witch hazel, (wish I could remember exactly what that was) and used that as a mask.  And it worked pretty good.  Of course, that was years ago, and now is different.  I have used cucumbers (ice cold ones) on my eyes before, and they do take down puffiness.       I like diet Dr. Pepper also.  I only drink diet stuff, unless my blood sugar crashes really bad, then I drink a regular soda to get my sugar back up.  I try to be good about what I eat also, but sometimes it's really hard.  Like yesterday, I bought a bag of spice drops at K-Mart, even though I know they're just like sugar bombs.  I ate a bunch of them yesterday, then of course got pissed off at myself, 'cause I don't like how I feel when I have high blood sugar.       

I'm going to get ready to go to Ft. Wayne.  You all have a good day.
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« Reply #54 on: June 13, 2009, 11:19:13 AM »
Hello everyone! I have been gone for what seems like forever. I was just way TOO busy with the last week of school stuff. I caught up with everyone's posts  :). There just is no way I could comment on it all...hope no one is offended.

Thursday was the last day with the kids. Since our school ends at 5th grade we have a "promotion" and a play day. Friday the staff meets for breakfast and then we have to pack up our rooms and get checked out by the principal. You would not believe the amount of paperwork there is. When did teaching become about being a secretary? Anyways...everything is done and my summer vacation has officially begun. I am a little worried though about money. There is no summer school due to budget cuts and now I need a job.  :)

That's about all that's going on. Talk to you all later!

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« Reply #55 on: June 13, 2009, 05:26:06 PM »
Viv-  I would think just the opposite...less paper these days. For one thing report cards.  My friends and I think its so funny when they send out their kid's report cards via email.  Back in the day, we would wait for the mail man and intercept the report cards before our folks got to them.  Good times.  Gave us a buffer especially if they were sent out right before the weekend we could hold onto them until after the weekend if there was a possibility of being grounded.

Tend-  I like the quote "Life begins at 40"! I'm sticking with it :)

Christy- Does your mom sell the honey and combs?  How many bee hives does she have?  Bees really  are fascinating.

I 'm posting a shot from the beach yesterday.  Colors were really vibrant.



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« Reply #56 on: June 14, 2009, 07:32:34 AM »
Good morning!  We finally made it home last night around 6pm.  By 7:30, we'd had supper and everything was unpacked and put away.  Where we stay there are washers / dryers in the room, so the only dirty clothes we brought home were the ones we were wearing.  I got those into the washer last night after everyone had a bath.  It's good to be home, but a bit overwhelming being faced with everything that needs to be done - and already the middle of June!

I came home last night to a message from Health Access "reminding" me that I have an appointment on Monday (as in tomorrow) at 1:30p.  It's a good thing they called since I had no idea about the appointment.  I'm sure they sent out a card, but we had our mail held and won't pick it up until tomorrow.  Hopefully the doctor can get to the bottom of my lung issues.  They are better, but far from resolved.

Andrea, I hear you about the paperwork.  Here we have until June 30 to get everything in to the school board.  I usually have it done by now, but I've not even started.  It is definately on the top of my priority list.

Queen, I'm glad things are working out for you, albeit slow.  Seems that's always the way it works: hurry up and wait.

Betty, how's your daughter doing?  Do you have a baby yet?  She's due any day now, right?

My oldest is turning 12 on Thursday and I'm not quite ready to have a 12 yr old.  Seems like yesterday I was crying as he turned 5, then again when he hit double digits.  In a blink of an eye, I'll have a teenager.  I'm REALLY not ready for that.

That's all for today.  Hope everyone is having a good one.

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« Reply #57 on: June 14, 2009, 09:19:26 AM »
OK, first of all, my daughter had the baby yesterday.  A girl, weighing 7 lbs, 1/2 oz and 19 inches long.  I was in Ft. Wayne for an NA thing, and when I got home, I had like 5 messages from my daughter.  So, I called.  She went into labor yesterday morning at 9:00, and had the baby around 2:00 in the afternoon.  She didn't require stitches with this one.  She's very happy, and she said the father's in love with the baby, so that makes me happy.  so YIPPEE!  I so wish I was there.  I already sent a box of stuff, but now, of course, I'm going to have to buy more.  My daughter said they need baby toys, so baby toy shopping I shall go.  :)

Andrea, good luck finding a summer job.  Are you glad school's over for another summer?

Camms, really nice pic of the beach.

Mum, good luck with the Health Access appointment.  This is for your medical coverage, correct?  And you didn't really say how things went at the beach.  Everything come out alright?

So yeah, yesterday I went to Ft. Wayne, which is about an hour and 1/2 away from where I live.  NA had a convention.  One of the workshops I was in was entitled "women's rap." One of the speakers was from Detroit and was inspiring.  She said when she came in the program, she only had a 6th grade education.  Now she's working on her master's to become a probation officer.  I heard a few good speakers yesterday.  I didn't get home until after midnight, and of course, came home to exciting news.  I need to take a shower and head over to my church.  I called the pastor and let her know I wouldn't be there for services, because of getting home so late.  They're having a potluck, though, and the pastor said they wanted all the recent graduates there, probably for a cake or something.  So, I'm going to take a shower and head over.  I hope you all have a good Sunday.
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« Reply #58 on: June 14, 2009, 01:13:18 PM »
Not much going on with me. A little worried about my man because of drama going on with the daughter which is stressing him out. It's not stressing me but I am trying to be the voice of reason. With so many emotions running rampant over there, no one is thinking logically. Especially the daughter but she is 18 so what do you expect. *shrugs* I just don't want the stress to get my man sick. He knows what stress does to us.

Betty- Congrats on another grandchild.
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #59 on: June 14, 2009, 06:44:46 PM »
Hi GFs~

Betty, congrats on the little one!

Queen, I would stay back from the drama, hopefully things will cool down before you get back to NY.

I am bummed cause Ice left for a business trip today, so its me and Cheech for a week.  I get to watch Ice's youngest Friday night and I'm hoping she won't misbehave.  She's a pretty good kid, buts she's gone outside before without asking, and she's just too young to do that.  A lot of people speed up the street and its mostly ankle-biters around here, age 5 and under.

Ice will return on Saturday night but I am so bored without him.  He's on a plane right now.  I have been watching TV all day and enjoying the place all to myself, but I miss my man.

Time to get ready for the work week.  Oh, Camms, did you have your procedure done on Friday?  How are you feeling?  Where has Wendy been?

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« Reply #60 on: June 14, 2009, 09:08:46 PM »
Hey everyone!  :)

Betty- Congratulations!

Queen- I hope the drama dies down.

Well, I went to a birthday party for a little girl I am supposed to start babysitting. It was nice. That is about all that I did. It feels so nice to not have to worry about going to work tomorrow.

Talk to you later!
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« Reply #61 on: June 14, 2009, 11:55:01 PM »
Betty, congrats on the new grandbaby!  PM me her name, if you don't mind.  BTW, I fixed the web addy in my sig line, if you want to try again.  Thanks for letting me know. 

The beach was the beach: way too hot, way too sandy. I did wade ankle-deep into the water to rinse off the toys. We spent Wednesday at Busch Gardens and that was a lot of fun.  There was an accident in the tunnel so we were stuck in stand-still traffic for an hour until crews were able to clear it out.  It was funny to watch everyone go from standing / walking around talking to their "neighbors" one second, then making a mad dash back to their cars when things started moving again. 

Next year we're planning on only staying at the beach for 3 days, then driving over to DC and staying there for 3 days.  The kids will be old enough to enjoy and appreciate all of the museums and history.  We hope to book a tour of the White House.  But, that's next year.

Betty, yes, Health Access is my new medical coverage.  I have an appointment tomorrow to see a doctor who'll then decide where to send me for my lungs.  I just want to breathe normally again.  Hopefully I can come on with some good news for once.

Here's to a wonderful Monday!

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« Reply #62 on: June 15, 2009, 05:30:56 AM »
Good morning ladies. Not much going on here. Getting ready to go to Greensboro and get some stuff done.                                                       Betty, Congratulations on the birth of your new Granddaughter. I am happy things went well.                                                                       Minismum, Welcome home.                                                                                   Hope everyone has a good day.   Cristy

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« Reply #63 on: June 15, 2009, 06:01:21 AM »
Morning all,

Queen, well, you know how teen-agers are, especially girls.  Like others have said, I hope the drama's over before you go back.

Cin, I know you'll do fine watching the youngster.  Do you have anything planned?

Andrea, when do you start the babysitting?

Mum, going to DC sounds fun, and interesting.  I've never been.  I hope your appointment goes well today at the doctor's. Please let us know what he says.

Cristy, good to hear from you.

Well, today I start the temporary job.  I hope I do well and don't screw anything up.  I talked to my daughter yesterday evening.  They were discharging her and the baby.  I don't know that I like the fact that they discharge women who just have babies so soon these days.  I liked it better like when I had my daughter, when they kept women and babies in for a few days (and gave women the chance to rest up a bit).  But, my daughter seemed alright with everything.  I did hear the baby fussing for a minute.  I so wish I was there.  Hopefully my daughter will send a picture soon.        Nothing else going on.  I hope you all have a good day.
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« Reply #64 on: June 15, 2009, 06:24:56 AM »
Betty, when our youngest son was born, I was released 24hrs later but they wouldn't release the him because it was snowing.  So, we went home the next day.  I THOUGHT I wanted to be home until I got there.  Then, all I kept thinking was how much I really wished I was still in the hospital. 

I didn't sleep good last night - coughed nearly all of it.  I'm back to having to use my rescue inhaler, do breathing treatments, pop Zertec-D twice a day, and down Robitussin CF every 4 hours.  Even with all that I'm still doubling over or grabbing something to steady myself while trying to take in a deep breath.  This so totally sucks.  I wish my appointment was earlier.

Last night I brought food to a friend who had emergency surgery last Thursday.  I brought my girls and planned on only staying for a few minutes. When we got there, I asked her if there was anything I could do.  She said, just sit and talk to her, which I gladly did.  Before I knew it, it was 9:30 and we'd been there over 3 hours!  Greatfully, Hubby didn't mind.  He'd taken the boys to the Rail-Trails and picked up trash, brought them home, got them bathed, and into bed.  He was glad we had a good time.

I'll pop on later and let you know what the doctor found out today and what my next step is.  Make it good one.

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« Reply #65 on: June 15, 2009, 11:27:12 AM »
Hey Girls,
CAMMS-  Happy belated bday! dont worry about 40, I am 51 and my dh is only 47! age is just a number!
BETTY congrats on the new grandbaby!!!!
QUEEN- I am so happy for you, hey I waited till age 51 to find a good man!! loll
I know how you feel, the wait is miserable, I remember talking to my dh on the phone hours every day and nite! till he got here.
CJ hope your move goes smoothly, nothing like having your own. does your mum sell honey? must be interesting, did you see the movie" secret life of bees" its on dvd now.
VIVT- hope you enjoy your vacation , try and have some fun!
MUM- hope your doc appt goes well and you feel better soon

Well I am glad my dgd is better, just has to watch what she eats.
I have been busy going in circles, trying to pack and rest at the same time, it is in the 90s here!
yesterday I cooked eggplant parmagian and it was great! everyone loved it!

well  I am feeling better, not taking any stomach meds except my nexium and watching my diet, I am also trying to eat healthy, bought a juicer and its great!
hope all is well, luv netta
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« Reply #66 on: June 15, 2009, 03:12:13 PM »
Hey ladies-

Cin-  I'm having my procedure done this Thursday.  I'm done with all the pre testing.  Can't wait to have this done with and in my past.

Betty-  Congratulation on the your grand child!

Mum-  That was nice of you to see you friend last minute especially during your busy schedule.  Wishing your friend a speedy recovery.  sounds like you had a very rich trip with lots to do with the family.  I love DC.  One of my favorite things was a "living" butterfly installation in the museum of natural history.

Thank you for the birthday wishes everyone.

Have a wonderful Monday.

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« Reply #67 on: June 15, 2009, 05:29:01 PM »
Back from the doctor and finally some good news.  First, I'm scheduled to have a pulminary function test on Monday at 3:00.  That will check for asthma and give a better picture of how my lungs function with and without meds. 

I was sent home with 6 days of Prednisone (1 pill / 1x day), Advair (twice / day), Singulair (1x/day), and another inhaler.  Our goal is to get me to need my rescue inhaler no more than twice a week.  Right now I'm needing it 3 or 4 times / day.  The doctor said that I'd probably always have to take the Advair and Singulair.  Small price to pay for breathing if you ask me.

I'm going to my Yoga class tonight.  I haven't been so far this summer because of our vacations and the kids' baseball games.  I'm looking forward to it.  I've taken my Prednisone, 1 dose of Advair, and 1 dose of the inhaler - I'm feeling REALLY good right now  8).

Tomorrow I'm hoping to get our rock garden finished, my flowers planted, and veggies in the ground.  It's supposed to rain on Wed. and things always grow better with rain water.  Other than that and the laundry, nothing exciting going on here.

Have a great afternoon!

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« Reply #68 on: June 15, 2009, 06:54:45 PM »
Well, I am a bit bitchy today. Just a few little things that irritated me. First off, I got an application for an apartment on Saturday. In it it said that the envelope had to be post dated the 14th which was Sunday. I'm wondering how that is possible when the Post Office is closed. So, my plan was to rush to get a stamp this morning so the postman could pick it up this afternoon. The damn man left my sister her mail but didn't take the envelope....grrrrrr. And I had already miss the pic up for the closest mailbox to me.

Then on top of that, I get a call from my clinic nurse saying that the lab didn't draw enough blood for a cbc, whatever that is. Lately the damn lab is always forgetting something when I go there. The bright side, I could get my envelope dropped at the Post Office since it is on the way to the lab. Get to the lab and they have to draw 2 more vials of my blood for some extra tests. What extra tests? I sure as hell am going to find out at my appointment on Wednesday.

The drama with my man's daughter has died out. But she really trips me out cause her father has her best interest at heart but she prefers to listen to everyone but him. And he has found out that she has been keeping things from him. I keep my distance from it all but I hate to see him upset. And every time he decides to just step back from it all. That's when she draws him in with her and her bf's bullshit. But for the moment things are calm again. He's bored out his mind because he doesn't have cable or the internet yet. I think he will by Wednesday. So, all he is doing is unpacking and sleeping. I miss him like crazy, it's about 16 days and counting.

Mum--Glad you are finally taking something that is helping you. I couldn't imagine going through that. I just developed allergies a few years ago and that drives me nuts.

Netta- I love eggplant but don't know how to cook it. Glad the baby is feeling better.

It seems like 3 of us are moving. I haven't started packing yet but will when I get back. Does anyone know anything about moving companies? I really don't want to leave anything behind and would rather put it in storage in NY.
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« Reply #69 on: June 15, 2009, 07:03:45 PM »
Netta, I absolutely love eggplant parm.  It sounds so good.

Camms, I'll sure be thinking about you Thursday.

Mum, I'm so glad you have a regimen that seems to be working. 

Queen, I'm glad the drama's over with your bf's daughter.  I don't blame you for wanting to know what the extra tests are.  I sure would find out also.

I just wanted to come and chat for a minute.  My first day went well.  There was this lady who came in, needed help with her gas.  She has 6 or 7 kids and gets $1,100 (yes, eleven-hundred) a month in food stamps.  I've never heard of that amount.  I mean, I'm sure she needs it with all those kids, but wow.  Anyway, you all have a good one.
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« Reply #70 on: June 15, 2009, 07:52:06 PM »
CBC stands for complete blood count. Being positive, we've all had them and good docs want to monitor you periodically this way. I looked at several full-length explanations and copied the following portion. While it's a pain the neck to go back for another draw, it's worth it to get your cbc done if you've not had one done in a while. I just had one last week. Ask for a printout and it will contain where you fall in the range of acceptable (or not).You may want to call the office and find out if you could fast starting at midnight so they can add a lipids profile while they're at it. It's worth it to get all of this done at the same time. Your doc might have to add that to your labs scrip.

Formal name: Complete Blood Count
Related tests: Blood smear, Hemoglobin, Hematocrit, Red blood cell (RBC) count, White blood cell (WBC) count, White blood cell differential count, Platelet count 

How is it used?
The CBC is used as a broad screening test to check for such disorders as anemia, infection, and many other diseases. It is actually a panel of tests that examines different parts of the blood and includes the following:
 
White blood cell (WBC) count is a count of the actual number of white blood cells per volume of blood. Both increases and decreases can be significant.
White blood cell differential looks at the types of white blood cells present. There are five different types of white blood cells, each with its own function in protecting us from infection. The differential classifies a person's white blood cells into each type: neutrophils (also known as segs, PMNs, granulocytes, grans), lymphocytes, monocytes, eosinophils, and basophils.
Red blood cell (RBC) count is a count of the actual number of red blood cells per volume of blood. Both increases and decreases can point to abnormal conditions.
Hemoglobin measures the amount of oxygen-carrying protein in the blood.
Hematocrit measures the percentage of red blood cells in a given volume of whole blood.
The platelet count is the number of platelets in a given volume of blood. Both increases and decreases can point to abnormal conditions of excess bleeding or clotting. Mean platelet volume (MPV) is a machine-calculated measurement of the average size of your platelets. New platelets are larger, and an increased MPV occurs when increased numbers of platelets are being produced. MPV gives your doctor information about platelet production in your bone marrow.
Mean corpuscular volume (MCV) is a measurement of the average size of your RBCs. The MCV is elevated when your RBCs are larger than normal (macrocytic), for example in anemia caused by vitamin B12 deficiency. When the MCV is decreased, your RBCs are smaller than normal (microcytic) as is seen in iron deficiency anemia or thalassemias.
Mean corpuscular hemoglobin (MCH) is a calculation of the average amount of oxygen-carrying hemoglobin inside a red blood cell. Macrocytic RBCs are large so tend to have a higher MCH, while microcytic red cells would have a lower value.
Mean corpuscular hemoglobin concentration (MCHC) is a calculation of the average concentration of hemoglobin inside a red cell. Decreased MCHC values (hypochromia) are seen in conditions where the hemoglobin is abnormally diluted inside the red cells, such as in iron deficiency anemia and in thalassemia. Increased MCHC values (hyperchromia) are seen in conditions where the hemoglobin is abnormally concentrated inside the red cells, such as in burn patients and hereditary spherocytosis, a relatively rare congenital disorder.
Red cell distribution width (RDW) is a calculation of the variation in the size of your RBCs. In some anemias, such as pernicious anemia, the amount of variation (anisocytosis) in RBC size (along with variation in shape poikilocytosis) causes an increase in the RDW.

When is it ordered?
The CBC is a very common test. Many patients will have baseline CBC tests to help determine their general health status. If they are healthy and they have cell populations that are within normal limits, then they may not require another CBC until their health status changes or until their doctor feels that it is necessary.
If a patient is having symptoms such as fatigue or weakness or has an infection, inflammation, bruising, or bleeding, then the doctor may order a CBC to help diagnose the cause. Significant increases in WBCs may help confirm that an infection is present and suggest the need for further testing to identify its cause. Decreases in the number of RBCs (anemia) can be further evaluated by changes in size or shape of the RBCs to help determine if the cause might be decreased production, increased loss, or increased destruction of RBCs. A platelet count that is low or extremely high may confirm the cause of excessive bleeding or clotting and can also be associated with diseases of the bone marrow such as leukemia.

Many conditions will result in increases or decreases in the cell populations. Some of these conditions may require treatment, while others will resolve on their own. Some diseases, such as cancer (and chemotherapy treatment), can affect bone marrow production of cells, increasing the production of one cell at the expense of others or decreasing overall cell production. Some medications can decrease WBC counts while some vitamin and mineral deficiencies can cause anemia. The CBC test may be ordered by the doctor on a regular basis to monitor these conditions and drug treatments.

What does the test result mean?
NOTE: This test has no single number that identifies an abnormal result. Your lab report (see a sample report) should include a range of numbers (reference range) that identifies what is expected for you based on your age, sex, and the method used in that laboratory. You can find more information about expected results at Reference Ranges and What They Mean. Lab Tests Online strongly recommends that you discuss the meaning of your test results with your doctor.


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« Reply #71 on: June 15, 2009, 09:06:25 PM »
Hello!

Netta- I made eggplant Parmesan once and I really liked it. The only bad thing is that it takes a few steps.

Betty- I'm glad you had a good first day.  :)

Mum- It doesn't sound like your trip was that bad. Is it that you don't like the beach? I think that kids would enjoy D.C. I have only been once and really enjoyed myself.

Queen- I'm glad that drama is over. You know how us women can be...LOL! Especially at 18.

Camms- Somehow I missed your birthday....sorry....Happy Birthday!

Well today I started "summer cleaning". I am going to start with one room at a time. I cleaned out my closet and took 3 bags of clothes, shoes, purses, and hats to the Goodwill. I rearranged my shoes and all the other stuff. Tomorrow I have to go to a training for a writing program at school. Unfortunately we are not getting paid due to all the budget cuts and financial problems here in California. I should be starting my babysitting sometime this week which will give me something to do.

That's all for me. Have a good night!
Andrea

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« Reply #72 on: June 15, 2009, 09:33:23 PM »
Hey Gfs
I fell kind of lost since I am new here.  Thanks for welcoming me. Just working and trying to get my life back in order.  I lost my husband last year and things have been turned upside down. Just reading the threads and listening to all of you have made me realize there is life  and hope out there.  I have been poz for 6 years but being married to a poz man (the love of my life) I didn't think outside my world.  What an eye opener.

Be happy, Mary

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« Reply #73 on: June 15, 2009, 10:35:12 PM »
Welcome to the threads, Mary!  I lost my husband to the virus as well, 13 years ago this summer.  I just feel like I am starting my life again.  I wish I had had more courage to push myself sooner, to get back into life, you know?  Now that I've met Ice, I feel like I want so much more time with him, its a precious thing.

My meds are kicking so this will be short, but Queen I used to work for Allied Van Lines.   ;D  To save money, pack everything yourself if you can, or maybe go 50/50 if you're worried about really fragile items.  Best thing to do is to get 3-4 estimates, shop around!  Shop fast, too, cause summer is when everyone is moving.  You may find a great company and get a good deal only to find they are booked until later than your move date.

Its tough with moving companies, you'll get what you pay for, but its very expensive.  You might want to try a middle of the road mover to save money, who is still able to move the long distance that you're going.  Its not like you just need the "Ma and Pa" movers to get you to the other side of the county, you know?

I did the international moving for DC at Allied, had to see how much people could cram into a 20' or 40' sea container, and if they wanted their car to go in it or not.  Good luck, GF, but start getting estimates, with and without packing included, NOW.

Oh and start throwing out all of that stuff in the back of your closet, it'll save you hundreds!   :D

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« Reply #74 on: June 16, 2009, 06:01:30 AM »
Mary, welcome to our women's familiy!  We're pretty tight here, and I just know you'll fit right in.  Just talk about whatever you like, ask questions, make comments, etc.  I'm glad you found us.

Andrea, mum and family didn't go to DC this year.  They went to some beach.  She was talking about going to DC next year.  Anyway, good luck with the baby-sitting. 

Cin, I hope you got a good night's sleep.

That's all I really wanted to say.  Everyone have a good day.
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« Reply #75 on: June 16, 2009, 07:00:28 AM »
Good morning and welcome Mary!  Just jump on in with whatever is on your mind.  It took me some getting used to, but it's not that hard. 

Andrea, yep, I don't like the beach.  In reality, I quite loathe it.  I'm not one who enjoys sitting in the hot sun with my feet stuck in the sand (hate sand) and just watching the waves makes me seasick.  I love going in the pools, though.  But, my mom's grandparents took my mom's family to the beach when she was growing up and she loved it.  This is a summer tradition she and my dad wanted to do, so I keep my mouth shut and we go. Next year we'll break it up going to the beach for 3 days and DC for 3 days.  I'm hoping we go out of season, again.  We usually go in September after Labor Day when things are cheaper and no one else is around.  Plus, it's not as hot.

Queen, could you rent a U-Haul and move everything yourself?  I've never paid a mover, but I bet it won't be cheap.  When my grandparents moved up here, they paid movers who promisd to have there stuff at their apartment by a certain date, were nearly a week late, and had dropped off some of their boxes at someone else's house they were moving at the same time.  Took forever to get those back.

Our youngest has her hearing appointment at 8:30 this morning.  I'll have to wake her up in about 5 minutes so she can eat and get bathed.  My class last night was nice - lots of stretching and balancing, real low-impact.

Make it a good Tuesday, ladies.

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« Reply #76 on: June 16, 2009, 08:38:07 AM »
Good Morning everyone,

Just dropped in to tell Mary welcome. 


Nothing exciting going on with me. Just been lurking in the forums. I have to go to the dr tomrrow for my labs.  Nothing else besides that but work and more work.


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« Reply #77 on: June 16, 2009, 09:19:57 AM »
woo, this guy came to my office today. he was asking me out a few months ago and i wasnt interested then. so he shows up today ' oh i just wanted to see how u're doing'.  im going to call him.  i dont have the 'run-away screaming ' reaction i was having recently towards guys.

mary - hie and welcome! :-*

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« Reply #78 on: June 16, 2009, 12:49:23 PM »
Cindy--Thanks for the information. I plan on going through the house today and getting rid of stuff. Garbage day is tomorrow. Yeah, I figured I needed to get started now with getting info from moving companies. Thanks for the info.

Mum-- I thought about U-Haul and driving but I think they charge you for mileage and gas. It's also an 11 hour drive. I have never driven that long. Most likely I would end up getting lost even with Mapquest directions.. :D Plus New Yorkers drive like maniacs. And I have never driven a truck before. I know what you mean about beaches. I don't like them either and you never know what kind of crap is in the water.

Tendai---I am confused on the guys, lady. Didn't you just reject someone last week? Girl, you got a real shocker in wrestling next week. I think you are a week behind, there's a 3-hour show coming up. It was on last night here. But I am not going to give anything away.

I am a bit bummed. My cd4 dropped and I have a viral load of 439 but my percentage went up from 23 to 24 percent. I'm taking my meds. The nurse says it's the precentage that the doctor worries about. I haven't been sick or anything but my sugar has been wild lately. And I have given up drinking Pepsi. And other things are getting to me around here also. I am trying to keep it all in perspective But honestly, I didn't even want to get out the bed today.

Welcome Mary and Welcome back Missy..

Keeping--Good to hear from you. How is things? You have been quiet.
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« Reply #79 on: June 16, 2009, 05:47:08 PM »
Look what I did today!

He IS the BEST!!!!

http://www.theanimalrescuesite.com/clickToGive/photostory.faces?siteId=3&storyTag=fw0ka6hp1ry4u1kbu1kh2

If they only knew I was dealing with a lot more than just being widowed.

I have come a long way, and my dog is an angel!   ;D
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #80 on: June 16, 2009, 07:59:43 PM »
Hey GFs thanks for the big welcome!! It makes me fell good to know I can just talk and don't have to hide being poz.

Cindy, the dog is adorable. I have two little ones a shitzu and a poodle I got them both from the SPCA. They gave me love when I was all alone and make me smile every day.

I am taking vacation next week and unlike some I love to go to the beach, I guess it steams from being born and raised in CA. It will be so good to be away from work for a week.

Gotta run talk to all later.   Mary


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« Reply #81 on: June 16, 2009, 08:33:18 PM »
Look what I did today!

He IS the BEST!!!!

http://www.theanimalrescuesite.com/clickToGive/photostory.faces?siteId=3&storyTag=fw0ka6hp1ry4u1kbu1kh2

If they only knew I was dealing with a lot more than just being widowed.

I have come a long way, and my dog is an angel!   ;D

Cin, I do the click thing on this site every day.  I'm also voting for a local animal shelter (where I got my kitty) to get the weekly prize.  What a nice story about Cheech. :)
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« Reply #82 on: June 17, 2009, 07:26:37 AM »
queen - i did say no to a guy who was asking me out. believe me it was a disaster waiting to happen. apart from the age difference (11 years) we are like from totally different worlds.  this new guy (mike) asked me out when i still with mr-out-of-town so i didnt even consider going out with him then. he's about my age but im not getting my hopes up too much though.
i'm thinking the wrestlings going to be this weekend. i'l be going to my aunt's so we can all scream and yell together with the others. u should see my mom watching wrestling, she'd jump up and down if she could. i cant wait! i wish Vicky would get into the ring and get her ass whooped in a match.
i hope you're feeling better. maybe its just a blip in your CD4

cindy - i read your article. they dont call dogs '(wo)man's best friend' for nothing, hey. how old is cheech in dog years?

betty - u've started the temporary job, right? hows it going so far? liking it?

mary - u lucky thing you, what i'd give for a week's vacation right now...

i saw mike yesterday. we hung out at his place with a friend of his so we didnt get to talk much. dont know if i'l see him today.maybe he'll call, maybe i'll call. he sent me a weird message apologising for what he said last night and how he hadnt warned me. im not sure what he means exactly, maybe its that he introduced me as his girlfriend already (which i hate so early in the day we're not there yet..) Guys around here think that if you smile them or are polite to them then u're an item already. what happened to getting to know someone first?

keeping - good luck with the labwork!


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« Reply #83 on: June 17, 2009, 05:43:04 PM »
Tendai, I do like the job.  There are so many people right now in need of help, in danger of being evicted, having their lights turned off, or heat etc.   But, I like helping people. 
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« Reply #84 on: June 17, 2009, 06:04:24 PM »
OK, so Cheech is about 108 in dog years.  I just got home to let him out.  He has to stay in for about 11 hours a day, and he never messes.  Good doggie!

It is 60 degrees and spritzing here, and I like it.  I'm not looking forward to a 90-degree weekend, lol.

I'm kicking butt at work still and got to see some of the properties we manage today.  It was nice to get out of the office.  

Not much else going on, I think I'll call my insurance and ask about my labwork again.  I keep thinking there will be some uncovered charge if I get it drawn at the doc's office.

Ice is still out of town, sending the hot air this way.  Its 91 degrees where he is now and its supposed to get up to 97 tomorrow, with a heat index of 102.  I might need to invest in a slip'n'slide or inflatible pool here for the summer.  That might be fun, lol.   8)

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« Reply #85 on: June 17, 2009, 08:13:31 PM »
Hey Ladies!

Missy- Hello and Welcome! :) I've said it before and I'll say it again, these ladies here are wonerful. I don't know what I would do without them. Where in California are you from? I live in Orange County.

Tendai- I would love for some man trouble to come my way

Cindy- I click on the pet food thing all the time. How did you get Cheech on the website?

Betty- So the job is going ok?

Queen- Moving is such a pain! Have you found a place yet? So exciting!

Well, this is only my 2nd official day of nothing and I am bored. I have been to the library twice and I will probably be spending a lot of time there. It's nice to have the time to read. Maybe I'll even get to read some adult books...LOL! The sun finally decided to come out and we are getting some summer weather.  ;D I just love it!

That's all today!
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« Reply #86 on: June 17, 2009, 08:52:32 PM »
Hi Andrea~

I was reading the pet spotlight on the home page and in the top of the box it said "Read more stories!"

The next page says "Share Your Story" in big letters.  You have to shrink a pic down to a very small size, but they put your story up immediately.  Its pretty cool!

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« Reply #87 on: June 18, 2009, 05:52:47 AM »
andrea -  you live in the OC! is it like on the show The OC all the rich folks and stuff? i got the DVDs but i havent finished watching them, i'm finding myself hating Marissa so much i wish i could shake her.  I was complaining to a male friend of mine about men and how difficult it was to get a good one. he proceeded to tell me that i should get a make-over. 'guys like hot-looking babes, u're hot but u dont dress like it etc etc"  ::) Ugh. i havent taken his advice to dress like a ho though. what i did listen to was to go out more, he said ' they're not going to come knocking on your door, go out and find them" Sounded like a lot of effort and fuss though.

cindy - whoa, cheech is a wise old dog! we're in the middle of winter , the sun's shining but theres this chilly wind blowing so i dont even know what to do. when i switch on the heater it gets too hot, when i switch it off the cold wind gets me thru the window.. wish i was in bed smothered in blankets

betty - im glad u're enjoying your job, must be fulfilling huh..

mike and i went for a movie last night. he brought a friend :P. but he didnt sit with us though.

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« Reply #88 on: June 18, 2009, 06:03:00 AM »
Cin, I can picture you and Cheech on the slip-n-slide.  I bet you all would have fun (Ice included, of course).

Andrea, when do you start your baby-sitting job?  I bet you'll go through a lot of books this summer. 

Tendai, Mike isn't mr. out of town, right?  He's the one who came back in the office?  I think that's great.  That guy who told you you don't dress right or whatever, is just projecting what he thinks women ought to look like to please him.  Screw that.  I'm glad you're you.

I do like the job I'm doing.  It's helping people, listening to them about what's going on and why they're in trouble, and trying to find a solution.  And not every time can the place I'm working for help the person.  People come in for like, a shut-off notice with electricity, gas or water, or an eviction notice, or they need bus passes.  There's regulations, of course, that have to be followed.  But, helping people is what I like to do, and I'm hoping that someday I can find regular work doing that. 

My therapist is supposed to be over this afternoon, and I'm finishing step work (the 12 steps concept of recovery).  I'm on step 10.  Step 11 is going to be a hard one for me.  It's "sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out."  I'm not very good when it comes to meditation and quiet time.  My mind usually starts going.  It's a new adventure I guess.            Anyway, I hope you all have a good day.
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« Reply #89 on: June 18, 2009, 12:05:07 PM »
Hi Everyone,

I'm new to this so I'm kind of lost. Moonlight1114 told me about LT where everyone post different things about whats going on in their life on a day to day basis. Thanks for inviting me moonlight1114, because of you, your giving inspiration, just had to let you know again, YOUR THE BEST. .. I've been poz for 6 yrs and trying to get back and live life, stop being the house mouse that I became... So I'll be here reading the different threads to see what's going on with all the GF's that I'll have...Sooner or later...


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« Reply #90 on: June 18, 2009, 01:18:15 PM »
Hey Dee,

I just wanted to welcome you to our women's family.  The ladies here are the best in the world.  We talk about anything we feel like..... troubles, problems, good things etc., and we support each other.

Just share whatever and whenever.  I look forward to getting to know you!
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« Reply #91 on: June 18, 2009, 06:31:31 PM »
Hi Dee!  A BIG welcome to you!  This is like the local hangout, just all of us girls sitting around talking our girl talk.  Guys aren't allowed to post here, but they can read the thread. 

BT~  You know I would kick ass on a slip'n' slide with my budda belly, lol.

Tendai~  Cheech isn't just wise, he has a bladder much bigger than mine.  Poor dog was inside for over 11 hours today and held it.  I am diabetic and have to pee all of the time.

Or maybe its the pressure of my budda belly on my bladder.  LOL

Ice comes home Saturday night, but before then, I get the kids.  OMG  OMG WHY did he do this to me?  LOL  I just want my quiet Friday night.  I can't even keep Cheech around the little one cause she's scared of him and he thinks she's an appetizer!  LOL

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« Reply #92 on: June 19, 2009, 06:57:45 AM »
Cin, I have one of those bellies also.  I would just be afraid of the slip n slide 'cause of my knees.  But, I'm sure that would be fun.

Today is the last day of work for this week. I really like it, other than when we have to tell people we can't help them because of one thing or another.  Some of the stories really are heartbreaking.  Of course, I know there's scammers.  But, they usually tell on themselves.  I didn't realize how many people there are that are really, really hurting.  And it's not their fault.  It makes me extremely grateful.  You all have a good day.
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« Reply #93 on: June 19, 2009, 10:19:36 PM »
Good evening everyone!

Dee- Hi! Welcome! I look forward to getting to know you.

Cindy- Does Cheech have his legs crossed when you get home? LOL! Slip and slides are fun... ;D I remember those days!

Betty- You must hear so much. What's unfortunate is that there are people out there who really just need some help and the ones that take advantage or scam ruin it for those who really need it. Do you start another job or is that it?

Today I babysat and it was fine. She was a little fussy at first but got over it. It was kind of weird talking about money with my friend but I need to have some cash. I mean, I'm not a 12 year old. Anyways...I don't have a set schedule. She is going to call me when she needs me. That's about all here. Talk to you all later.

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #94 on: June 19, 2009, 11:13:03 PM »
I am following but am not feeling too good so I am going to try to keep it short. The doc visit wasn't bad, he doesn't seemed too concerned about the drop in my cd4 or slight rise in viral load. Something about an absolute and that my percentage went up. I really don't understand half of what he is saying. I did lose eight pounds but I am dehydrated. I didn't understand that because all I am drinking is juice or crystal light. But he said something to the effect of I am peeing it out as quick as I am taking it in. That I may have to go on another type of insulin for the day time since I take mine at night. I don't mind as long as I can take the shots with a pen and not a syringe. But til I see my new pcp, he told me to start taking 56 units instead of 50. I also had a fever. Then the next day I was in bed with severe stomach cramps, I don't know what that was about. But I could barely get out of bed.

I won't need a moving company after all, just a storage place because my friend bought a little S-10 a few weeks ago. And he is willing to move my stuff to storage. I am counting the days til I go back to NY. I won't stay a month because I have to be back here to get my transfer papers from Section 8. I will start packing when I come back for that. Getting rid of some furniture ahead of time. And going to make an attempt to sell my dryer.

My rent rebate should be in on the 1st so I will be busy paying bills and getting ready to go back to NY. The 11 hour train ride is murder for me, sitting so long but I'll be able to see my Papi....

Trying--Welcome to the Hen House. Chime in when you are ready. A great group of ladies here.

Viv--Glad you like the babysitting gig.

Betty---Glad you like your job. It must suck to not be able to help sometimes. And I bet you can spot the scammers a mile off.

Cindy--Wow, Cheech is a 108, he's an O.G for sure in the dog world.

I'm going to go, this was suppose to be short and now I have a headache. Have a good weekend everyone.
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #95 on: June 20, 2009, 07:12:47 AM »
Good morning ladies! 

First, welcome Trying!  Glad you could join us.  Chime in whenever you want about whatever you want.  Nothing is off limits here.

Queen, good news about the move.  Having your friend help will certainly save you a bundle, not to mention that you're sure to get your stuff there in one piece with no worries.  I hear you about the train ride.  I have a padded behind and I still can't sit for very long without it going numb and needing to stretch my legs.

Betty, I'm glad you're enjoying your job.  I know it can be hard - wanna save the world, knowing it's impossible.  You have a wonderful heart and a caring spirit.

Andrea, I love summer time reading.  I've just finished my 6th novel - "Sail" by James Patterson.  Now I'm reading "Lincoln Lawyer" by Michael Connely.  In the evenings, it's cooler outside than it is inside, so I retire to my glider rocker on the back deck and read until I can't see anymore. 

I have to say that my meds are working beautifully.  I haven't needed my rescue inhaler since Monday morning.  Before that, I was using it up to 4 times / day.  I did cut down on my Advair to once a day, in the morning.  Taking it at night with the Singulair made me jittery and my heart rate went way up.  So far, though, so good.  I have my PFT on Monday and hopefully won't have to wait till I see the doctor in 3wks to get the results. 

Our oldest son's birthday dinner went well.  He's now officially 12, acts like he's 5, and wants to be treated like he's 20. :-\  Weather here has been hot and muggy.  Rained most of the day yesterday with more forecasted for today.  Last night we had one humdinger of a thunderstorm.  I LOVE sleeping in the rain.  Unfortunatley, our girls don't.  They camped out on our bedroom floor last night.  I just about tripped over them this morning.

No big plans today.  I need to pick up a  few things from the grocery store and rent the last disc for "24", season 1.  Watched "Taken" last night and it wasn't bad.  Tonight we'll watch "Grand Torino".  I heard it was a good movie and I LOVE Clint Eastwood.

Make it a good Saturday, everyone!

Much love,
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #96 on: June 20, 2009, 07:48:07 AM »
Morning all,

Andrea, do you like the babysitting?  And I agree, you should get paid more than a 12-year old.  About the scammers, well, the people who are working/volunteering there have done it for awhile, so they can spot scammers also.  I know some get by our radar, but not many, trust me.

Queen, I sure hope you start feeling better.  This may be overstepping my boundaries, but when I turned diabetic, my brother lectured me about my drinking of juice.  And I noticed that juice has a lot of sugar in it (more than sugar-free or "lite" drinks).  I had to cut it out.  I drink lite juices, but only a little bit in the morning.  And when my sugar gets high, I pee all the time, constantly.  I don't know if that's one of the problems with your sugar, but I know it was with mine.  Anyway, I hope the fever and cramps stop.  You sure don't need that when you're going to be going to New York soon.

Mum, I absolutely loved Gran Torino.  It's an excellent movie.  It's been raining nonstop here as well.  I've been watching the national weather, and all over the U.S., there's been tons of rain.  My sister told me her boss says it's been raining "40 days, and 40  nights."  I said in that case, we should be seeing dry land soon.

Anyway, I'm going to try to make it to the NA meeting this morning.  I have nothing going on this weekend.  I have a couple buffalo burgers (yes, real bison meat) thawing out in the frig I may cook out.  You all have a good one.
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #97 on: June 20, 2009, 11:36:35 AM »

Queen, I sure hope you start feeling better.  This may be overstepping my boundaries, but when I turned diabetic, my brother lectured me about my drinking of juice.  And I noticed that juice has a lot of sugar in it (more than sugar-free or "lite" drinks).  I had to cut it out.  I drink lite juices, but only a little bit in the morning.  And when my sugar gets high, I pee all the time, constantly.  I don't know if that's one of the problems with your sugar, but I know it was with mine.  Anyway, I hope the fever and cramps stop.  You sure don't need that when you're going to be going to New York soon.

Well, I thought the juice would be better than the Pepsi. I guess the lesser of 2 evils so to speak. I was mainly drinking Ruby Red grapefruit juice because it is said to burn fat.My sugars have been in the 200's for awhile lately. And I have been pissing like a race horse but mainly at night. I would look at the clock every time I got up. It was about every 2 hours I was running to the bathroom.Now I am just drinking Crystal Lite. I am amazed that I have been sticking with it and not buying any Pepsi. I am also wondering if the stomach cramps may have been from not drinking the Pepsi anymore.

It was storming here early this morning too. I like the rain but it makes me sleep a lot. A lot of folks here is complaining about the rain and wondering when it is going to get hot. I like it the way it is. Mum, I am fully grown and still does not like thunder. But I love lightening, it's like a light show to me. I am glad that you are feeling better.

Since it is raining, I am going to be lazy today plus I did laundry yesterday so there really isn't much to do. I will get to the dishes later. I will just play my Diner Dash and watch some movies.
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #98 on: June 20, 2009, 04:56:30 PM »
Queen, yeah, I can't drink any kind of regular juice.  I drink Crystal Lite as well.  And when my sugar's high, getting up about every 2 hours at night to pee sounds right.  I drink diet soda also.  I try not to drink too much after 5:00, because that'll make me pee more during the night also. 
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #99 on: June 21, 2009, 06:59:51 AM »
Queen, what is Crystal Lite sweetened with?  If I'm not mistaken, it's Aspertame which could be causing your cramps.  Aspertame is hard on the liver - Mim's docs have warned against her ingesting it at all.  There are drinks out there that are sweetened with Splenda and we stick with those. Our Wal-mart carries juices made with Splenda, too. At home, I make stuff with Stevia.  It's a natural sweetener derived from the Stevia plant - no chemicals.  If you get it, make sure it's the kind with no "fillers" in it. 

Betty, we watched "Grand Torino" last night and I LOVED it!  Not the high-flying Eastwood action I was expecting, but what a beautiful story.  His charactor (and his grandma neighbor) cracked me up.  Unexpected ending, too.

Yesterday was rough on the lungs.  I ended up needing my inhaler twice and I had 2 breathing treatments.  I wound up taking my night dose of Advair and Singulair last night before bed.  I slept a lot better and I can breathe this morning.  My test is tomorrow.  I just hope being on meds doesn't mess it up - I need to know what's up.

This morning our church is having a breakfast in honor of all the fathers.  Everyone is invited.  Makes it nice because I can let the kids sleep in since I don't have to worry about feeding them before we leave.Hope everyone is having a great weekend.  Tomorrow, it's all over.

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #100 on: June 21, 2009, 09:36:19 AM »
Hello Ladies-

Welcome Mary and Dee to the forums.  This is a special place, with special women who have had their own stories of trials and triumphs.  I am very grateful for this forum.

Mum-  Glad that the inhalers are working despite the bad day yesterday.  In my early 30s I  was on everything. I never had a problem with my breathing or lungs before that.   Advair and albuterol were my best buddies.  I'm glad to report that since I moved out of my house I haven't used the advair once and albuterol maybe twice.  I had mold in the the house and I'm guessing it was worse than I thought.  Regarding sweetners,  I've read a lot about sweetners over the last 20 years, seriously.  Stevia seems to be the safest unless you use standard sugar in small quantities.  Aspartame / nutrasweet causes a lot of issues in the body. http://www.holisticmed.com/aspartame/

Queen-  hope you are feeling better today.  I'm happy that you have a place to store your items. That must take a lot of stress from you mind.   Before you know it you'll be getting big NY hugs and kisses from your man.

Andrea-  Babysitting is good if you need a couple of bucks  but it's hard when if they want to pay you at the same scale of a 12 year old.  Overall, she sounds like a good kid, besides her fussiness.  Any plans now that summer vacation is starting?


Cin-  There is a commercial on tv with a group of young adults with a make shift slip and slide.  It looks like a load of fun.  Of course they don't show the part where they get arrested for underage drinking and trespassing.....lol just kidding.    That's so awesome the pages with Cheech. Jada, my dane, is about to turn 35 so we're close in age but I think she's not as mature ;)

Betty-   The temp job sounded like it was very fulfilling.  It's amazing when you hear other people's stories how blessed you feel.   When does step 11 officially begin.  It is difficult if you're not used to quieting your mind.

Surgery was early on Thursday at 7 am.  I had the very best team from the nurses to doctors and post care nurses.   I was told by him that there was the possibility of having morl removed depending on what he found.  I mentioned that there were some items in the ultrasound that weren't on the other tests so we didn't know what he would find. The doctor removed only one ovary and tube which made me really happy.  He said  the cysts within the cysts were complicated but he said it didn't look malignant. I get the official results on Tuesday.  The doctor told me that he would tell me over the phone good or bad because he thinks its absurd to charge for the visit and have that horrible feeling of "I need you to come into the office".  I love this doctor.  But he really believes it's all fine from what he saw.  Also I had endometreosis which no one knew about.  He cleaned it out and cortorized the site(Sorry spelling is terrible today)  I am in pain and on the couch hardly moving but it's all for the good.  I'm so happy to have this past me.  A funny note...I had a tough as nails nurse who was just wonderful and funny.  She was reading my chart and said "oh boy looks like you had a birthday".  I said "yeah the big one".  She laughs and shakes her head and said, "geeze, my daughter's about to turn 30 and said the same thing.  You girls don't get it."  I replied, "Oh 30 was nothing and truthfully, 40's not that big either."  And she said,  "good Lord, I thought you just turned 30".  Nice to hear before being rolled off into the OR.

Have a really wonderful Sunday rain or shine.

Camms

 

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #101 on: June 21, 2009, 10:45:44 AM »
Camms, I'm so glad your surgery's over and that it went well.  I hope you heal fast and are back in the saddle, so to speak, in no time.  Please let us know as soon as the doctor tells you about the cysts. 

Regarding aspartame, in my biology class we talked about that. The professor said that someone who has a bad reaction to artificial sweeteners usually has something in their body that reacts to them, which isn't common among all persons.  Now, before anyone's dander gets up, I'm not saying large amounts of aspartame is good.  But, I used crystal lite all the time, have for a long time.  I also drink diet soda, and have for a long time.  There is a diet Coke that's made with Splenda, but I don't always get that.  And I've never had a bad reaction.  I'm not saying, Queen, that that's not what's causing your problem.  If you think it may be, you should probably talk with your doctor about it.  And to be honest, Stevia is no better than Splenda.  It's just newer, so not everything is known about it yet.  I got some a few weeks ago, and didn't like it any better than Splenda.  I'm not saying that what mum and Camms said about aspartame isn't true.  Just sayin' sometimes aspartame gets a worse rep than what's due. 

It's sticky and humid out.  Queen, I'm with you about it being cooler.  Anyway, I've got to clean.  I hope everyone has a good Sunday.
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #102 on: June 21, 2009, 01:10:43 PM »
Good Morning Everyone!

Camms- I'm glad the surgery went well.  :) Make sure you rest and take it easy.

Mum- I want to see that movie. Of course there are quite a few movies I would like to see.

Tendai- I never answered your question about the OC. I have seen the entire series and of course it is exagerated.  ;D

Well today I am going to my grandparent's house for lunch with my sister. I am all about a free meal LOL!

Have a good day!

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #103 on: June 21, 2009, 01:25:03 PM »
Camms, glad your surgery went well and you had comic relief on the way to the OR.Now it is all behind you I know when I had my c-sections it helped to hold a pillow on your stomach. How long will you be down healing?

Wow, well maybe it is that stuff. I am drinking the strawberry flavor. I have noticed when I go to the bathroom it is coming out the other end. If you know what I mean. I bought a lot of it too. I have been diluting it a bit more which seems to help. I swear being diabetic can be so frustrating. It seems like everything I drink is not good for me one way or another. And I hate drinking plain water whether it's bottled or not. I guess I will try Vitamin Water by Glauceau next. I feel like I am running out of options. As for diet pop, I like diet Dr. Pepper. I haven't tried anything else.

I need to get around to washing these dishes. I'll check back later.
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #104 on: June 21, 2009, 01:32:17 PM »
I hate being diabetic also, Queen.  When my sugar's high, I get the runs.  I don't know that I'd necessarily start blaming the Crystal Lite.  But, everybody's different, and maybe you can't tolerate aspartame.  But, if you drink Diet Dr. Pepper with no problem, than I doubt it's the Crystal Lite.  Anyway, I'm with you about hating diabetes.  I love chocolate, and the sugar-free doesn't cut it.  I like a lot of stuff with sugar in it.  I still eat it, sparingly.  And I hate watching carbs also.  And I don't all the time.  But, when I don't, I pay the price. >:(
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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #105 on: June 21, 2009, 02:47:07 PM »
Cams, I'm SO glad the surgery went well.  Recovery sucks, but know that once it's over, it's over.  What's not there can't hurt you anymore.

I remember the day docs told us that Mim was diabetic.  It was just before Thanksgiving, 1mth after being told she had CP - she was 4.  I cried all the way home.  All I could think about was how I was going to tell my 4yr old that she couldn't have any of the tables-full of sweets and goodies during the upcoming holidays.  I called my mom who said that she'd start making things that Mim "could eat".  We discovered Splenda and seemed the whole world opened up for her. 

Birthday parties are hard.  Not all moms remember that she's diabetic when making out the menu.  I keep her drink powder in my purse and end up making cupcakes so that she can bring one with her.  Goody bags are a nightmare since I have to confiscate all the candy.  Don't get me started about Pinatas. 

When Dr. F asked her if there was anything she wanted him to do for her, without hesitation, she said, "I want you to make me not be a diabetic anymore."  She just wants to be like everyone else - can't say I blame her.

Hope you all are having a wonderful Sunday.

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Re: LT #60: All who wander are not lost
« Reply #106 on: June 21, 2009, 07:42:16 PM »
MOVING !!!! :) just checking in. will holla at you all later.
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