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Offline mostly_sane

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Mistake I dearly repent :(
« on: March 16, 2009, 04:01:53 PM »
I visited a massage parlor in Pattaya (Thailand) while I was under influence of alcohol. I didn't realize that there was more than only massage on the menu. By the time I realized it I guess it was too late. What happened there is follows. First the lady gave me & herself a bath using soap (Protex). Then she made me lye on an inflatable bed then poured loads of soapy warm water & foam on my entire body & gave a massage using her naked body. This included massaging my groin area but she did pour more soap water before using her private parts to massage my groin including the penis area. She appeared attempting to cover his vaginal area with hand while massaging my groin area. Post this we both had a bath in the tub & then proceeded to the bed. There she took a condom from her bag & using only her lips rolled it down on my penis. She performed oral sex on me with the condom on after which she mounted me for vaginal sex. I believe the condom was intact till the end. She used a fresh tissue to pull the condom off after I had finished. Post this she again cleaned me up using loads of soap & water.
I know this has huge potential risk for me of contracting HIV. I've a lovely family & since my return from Thailand this anxiety is killing me. I'm not able concentrate on work, not able to sleep, lost appetite & generally full of anxiety. Based on the narration of the incidence of my mistake (huge one but definitely the last) what are my chances of not contracting HIV?

Its been only 5 days since my exposure so by when should I go for a Elisa test?
 
I can't be 100% sure if the condom was intact without any split/crack. Especially so because she used her mouth to roll it on to my penis.
There has been some new development at home which is scaring me to death. I'm experiencing nausea & slight dizziness all the time, I've also lost appetite. I'm also experiencing body ache feel fatigued.
The biggest worry is that my wife has developed sore throat & cold. She is also was feeling nausea for a couple of days. Worst thing is that she has been feeling feverish for the last 2 days.
I'd sex (protected intercourse but also I performed oral on her)with my wife 3 days after my exposure to the one at massage parlor.   
I'd forgotten to mention about some inflammation (inflammation) in the anal area that I've been suffering from the past couple of months. Does this medical condition increase my chances of getting infected during the massage session?
 Call me paranoid or whatever but the turn of events is making me crazy. Firstly the dizziness/lightheadedness that I was experiencing is still there. Now it is coupled with severe pain in the lower back area. My wife’s sore throat better (without medication) is but cold (running nose) still persists. Secondly she is feeling short of breath sometimes. I know you said I had virtually no risk of HIV contraction but the chronology of events makes me think otherwise. Please help.
I'll  be OK even if I have to die but nothing should happen to my loving wife....& I definitely don't want to be the reason (I've not told her anything about my idiotic adventure in Thailand). By the way I'm from India.
 
Only factor that worries me is the fact that when I withdrew my penis from her I saw that the condom was quite stretched with not much semen accumulated. That is why I keep worrying thinking that the condom failed. I asked the lady but she had problem understanding English & kept saying OK OK!!
Please don't get mad at me for a very long & abstract posting again but there is no one I can speak to or open about my anxiety. Thanks again. ???

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #1 on: March 16, 2009, 04:05:48 PM »
You posted 14 times on another forum over a non-risk issue and you were given a warning there. The answers here are not going to be any different . At no time were you at risk of contracting HIV.

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #2 on: March 16, 2009, 04:17:53 PM »
Thanks Rapid Rod/Teak. I know I posted a few times out fear & anxiety but me second post with 2 quetions was from learning perspective plus I thougt your answers will other petrified people like me. Its already 2am here & I've not been sleeping well for the past few days. I'll try to put this behind me & get some rest. Thanks again

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #3 on: March 16, 2009, 06:13:36 PM »
I don't see anything in what you have written to suggest you had any risk whatsoever for HIV transmission. NONE. ZERO. You used a condom which is exactly what you're supposed to do. They provide very effective protection.

Like many straying husbands and partners your only risk was for guilt. You did what you did and you can't undo that. Take a breath, let it go and get on with your life. That's the best thing you can do for all concenrned.

This is is absolutely NOT an HIV situation. Any persistent symptoms you may have should be discussed with your doctor. They have nothing to do wtih HIV.
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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #4 on: March 19, 2009, 02:48:24 PM »
Thanks a lot Andy, I've tried my best to keep myself busy in other things & not think too much about HIV infection. I also visited a doctor for the dizziness/light headedness that I've been feeling since my return from Thailand last week. The doctor has diagnosed it as respiratory track infection which is causing this light headedness. Although the situation has improved I still get those attacks of dizziness but less frequently. Even if I don't want to every small thing (rash, canker sore) that happens to me, I tend to relate it to HIV. I know as per you experts mine almost zero risk situation but it still keeps playing on my mind....my be the guilt is overwhelming my normal though process. The assurance from you folks is heartening & I hope & pray that I don't have the dreaded infection.
I know I'm at risk of getting banned but in these situations it is necessary & important to express yourself & what better place that this forum where experts will provide unadulterated, honest & straightforward answer. I'll test myself at end of 3 months only to reconfirm & then post again with hopefully negative result that I'll get. Thanks for all the help Andy & Rapid Rod (Teak)

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #5 on: March 19, 2009, 04:01:10 PM »
As long as you have reported accurately here then I don't see any reason to doubt that a negative test result will be a slam dunk for you.

Dizziness etc can among other things be related to stress. But if those symptoms persist then I suggest just to be cautious you discuss them with your doctor.

Cheers.
Andy Velez

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #6 on: March 19, 2009, 04:39:29 PM »
Thanks Andy.

I think the details provided by me are close to 100% correct. If there was anything different probably I did not spot it!
The only point that I've probably missed in my narration is the fact that when I withdrew my penis from her (missionary position) I saw that the condom stretched in th front. It was covering most of my penis but had elongated more than normal towards the front (obviously). That is why I've been saying I'm not 100% sure about the 'health' of the condom throughout this episode. You comments will be great helps. Thanks again Andy

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #7 on: March 19, 2009, 08:25:25 PM »
Anyone who continues to post excessively, questioning a conclusive negative result or no-risk situation, will be subject to a four week Time Out (a temporary ban from the Forums). If you continue to post excessively after one Time Out, you may be given a second Time Out which will last eight weeks. There is no third Time Out - it is a permanent ban. The purpose of a Time Out is to encourage you to seek the face-to-face help we cannot provide on this forum.

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #8 on: March 20, 2009, 08:44:28 AM »
Your mind is just going nutz with this stuff. What you described about the condom is perfectly normal in terms of its use. You had protected intercourse. Period. There's no need for concern nor for testing in relation to this incident.

Frankly it just looks to me as if you are just another guy who went straying and who's now suffering with remorse and anxiety after the fact. Take a breath, let it go and get on with your life. Really.
« Last Edit: March 20, 2009, 08:48:00 AM by Andy Velez »
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Unprotected Oral with massage parlour girl
« Reply #9 on: May 20, 2010, 01:08:34 AM »
I was worrying myself to death because of this recent incident. I'd been to a massage parlour to get foot massage. The girl (at least appeared to be a girl) while giving foot massage started touching & penis & got me all exited. In the heat of the moment I let give me oral sex (about 1 minute) without condom. I ejaculated in her mouth. What are my chances of catching HIV infection.

Not that it is of any consequence but wanted to add that this happened in Pattaya, Thailand
« Last Edit: May 20, 2010, 01:15:22 AM by mostly_sane »

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Re: Unprotected Oral with massage parlour girl
« Reply #10 on: May 20, 2010, 01:26:01 AM »
Please keep all your thoughts questions and comments in your original thread. This helps us follow your story and give you the most accurate advice.

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #11 on: May 20, 2010, 07:22:19 AM »
Mostly,


I've merged your new thread into your original thread - where you should post all your additional thoughts or questions. It helps us to help you when you keep all your additional thoughts or questions in one thread. It doesn't matter how long it has been since you last posted in your thread or if the subject matter is different.

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Getting a blowjob is not a risk for hiv infection. Not only is saliva not infectious, but it also contains over a dozen proteins and enzymes that damage hiv and render it unable to infect.

Not one person has ever been infected by a blowjob and you won't be the first.

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Nymphomaniac: a woman as obsessed with sex as an average man. Mignon McLaughlin

HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #12 on: June 04, 2010, 12:12:26 AM »
Thank you....this is very comforting. I was scared because this unprotected. I'll move on with life & not bother getting tested based on your reply.

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #13 on: June 04, 2010, 02:15:27 AM »
most,

Good plan. Please stick to it.

Ann
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"...health will finally be seen not as a blessing to be wished for, but as a human right to be fought for." Kofi Annan

Nymphomaniac: a woman as obsessed with sex as an average man. Mignon McLaughlin

HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #14 on: January 10, 2011, 12:15:02 PM »
Around a week back all of sudden I felt very strong urge to urinate & while urinating I felt very strong burning sensation on the tip of penis & generally in the scrotum area. Post that I was having a costant urge to pass urine. I went to a Urologist within 2 days of this incident who prescribed peridium tab & some antibiotic. He also advised 3 tests 1) Sonography of abdominal area 2) Routine urine test 3) Urine culture. Results of all the tests were negative. Doctor then prescribed Soliten tab. Inspite of taking 4 doses I constantly feel urge to pass urine & feel small amount of drip. I don't know if this urine or some other discharge. To be honest I don't think there is a lot of discharge as the area is not very wet but yes, it is quite moist. This has been very irritating & embarrassing. My wife too had similar problem the very next I faced the problem. Her urine test confirmed some UTI & was prescribed medication. She has felt no symptoms since she started medication. However for this constant feeling of urination & seemingly small amount of discharge especially pronounced when in sitting position is a big concern. Just for information, I'd sex with my wife a day before I first faced the problem. We had a bit of rough oral sex. So I'm not sure if what I'm facing is a routine UTI (ruled out by -ve tests!!) or some STD or some bladder muscle problem. Whatever it is, it is very frustrating & embarrassing.
I'm a 38 year old Indian male. I've been in a monogamous relationship with my wife atleast since last 1 year. Last sexual contact I had outside marriage was the one I'd posted here earlier (oral sex in massage parlour). Am I at risk of HIV infection?

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #15 on: January 10, 2011, 12:23:48 PM »
Most,

Nothing you describe has anything to do with hiv infection.

Nothing you describe in your entire thread was a risk for hiv infection.

Sometimes bacterial bladder infections can be missed. Go back to your doctor if you continue to have a problem. This is not an hiv concern.

Ann
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"...health will finally be seen not as a blessing to be wished for, but as a human right to be fought for." Kofi Annan

Nymphomaniac: a woman as obsessed with sex as an average man. Mignon McLaughlin

HIV is certainly character-building. It's made me see all of the shallow things we cling to, like ego and vanity. Of course, I'd rather have a few more T-cells and a little less character. Randy Shilts

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Re: Mistake I dearly repent :(
« Reply #16 on: January 10, 2011, 12:29:41 PM »
Thank you for your prompt response. I'll  be visiting my urologist tomorrow, I hope he will figure out the cause & suitably provide medication. I always felt that this has nothing to do with HIV but posted here to get reassurance from highly experienced people like you. I'll skip the HIV test which I was contemplating based on your response. Please pray for me that I get cured from this seemingly innocuous but very embarrassing & bothersome problem

 


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