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Offline keepingfaith

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #50 on: January 12, 2009, 03:23:14 PM »
HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUEEN!!!!!!!!! I called you last night but I didn't get an answer so I left you a voicemail.



Nothing much really happening my way. Just got on to say Happy birthday to queen. I'm still at work so I will have to check back in later!

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #51 on: January 12, 2009, 07:16:58 PM »


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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #52 on: January 12, 2009, 08:25:30 PM »
Happy Birthday Queen!

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #53 on: January 13, 2009, 08:50:59 AM »
Thanks for the birthday wishes. It actually turned out nice, the best birthday  I've had in a long time. My friend came over and spent some time with me. He seems so sweet. Sexy had wanted to get with me too but I was just having too good a time with my friend. Trying to think of a good name for him.... ;)

My sister has also chilled out, been spending a little time with her too. She actually had given me money for my bday along with a sexy teddy. She knows I love lingerie. Another friend of mine stopped over and bought me a pentacle necklace, it is nice. Now I have three. I'm going to have to find a silver pentacle ring to match the necklaces. I already have earrings. So, I truly had a good birthday and feel blessed.

I am waiting on my friend Jeff to call me to tell me when he is ready to go to the store. I was suppose to get labs done today but I ate. SO now I have to do it on another day. I think I am going to try to get a cat nap in before he calls. I'll check back later.
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #54 on: January 13, 2009, 09:38:21 AM »
Morning ladies,

Queen, I'm glad you had a good birthday and that you have a new man in your life.  You and Netta are going to have to tell me your secrets. 

Well, do you all believe where I live, we got 6 more inches of snow on top of the 8 we already had?!  Believe me, I could do without this.  I know, it's winter time in the north, so I should expect this.  I think it's that it's coming so fast, one event right after the other, that makes it so aggravating to me.  We have a winter storm warning until tonight, then tomorrow we have a blizzard warning that runs from  the afternoon tomorrow through the afternoon on Thursday.  And near to below 0F temps.  We're getting some system from Canada.  I wish I had the weather I did when I was in Phoenix.  I am definitely not a snow bunny.

My caseworker (Medicaid, food stamp) was supposed to call 1/2 an hour ago for a redetermination interview, but she didn't.  She's like that though, but will still cut a person off in a heartbeat.  Maybe she didn't go into work because of the snow, but I didn't see any offices that had closed on the news this morning.  I'll call her this afternoon, since they don't take calls in the morning. 

Nothing else going on today.  I might try to make it to the store a little later.  You all have a good day.
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #55 on: January 13, 2009, 10:30:39 AM »
Hello ladies. Hope everyone is well.   I am having a very good morning . I think it is because a little stress has been lifted. I got a letter Saturday from Social services and am getting a sizable increase in our foodstamps. I also called unemployment and finally got someone on the phone. They said I should expect a decision in the next week or so. The lady also said that my former employer did not send in a statement so I am thinking that my claim will be approved. Not a 100 % sure but looks promising. So those things are a relief. If the unemployment is approved, I can put gas in the truck(it drinks gas like I drink soda, slurpppp) and can start looking for another job. I can also buy Robert some new sweat pants, he is outgrowing the ones he has.All his school clothes are a size too big so he is good on those. He must change clothes as soon as he gets home so his good clothes will last longer.                                        Wow Betty, 6 more inches of snow. we haven't had any snow yet in NC but it's cold. Yes, I am a wimp(not ;D) and can't stand the cold. I go outside in coat, hat and gloves when it is cold. The temperature is going to drop down to 15 Thursday so I will put sweats over Robert's regular clothes to take him to the bus stop.  He doesn't care about the cold but I want him warm.                          Queen, glad you had a good birthday. Glad you have a new friend and that your sister has chilled a bit.  Makes life nicer.                                 Wendy, hang in there, things will get better.                                        Have a great day.    Cristy ;D

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #56 on: January 13, 2009, 12:09:48 PM »
Happy New Year everyone!! Happy Belated Birthday Queen!!


I am ecstatic that everyone is well and beautiful!! May this year be Blessed!!

Well Since I last posted I have gotten married and now doing public speaking!! yea!!!!!
things are well over here . I have missed you ladies!!

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #57 on: January 13, 2009, 08:03:34 PM »
I'm going to vent in this post.

After getting out of the shower last night I noticed pink spots all over my abdomen. First thought is SHIT I am getting shingles again. I've had them twice before so I know what it looks like and I know what the treatment is so I took a 1 gram tablet of Valcyclovir and went to bed. I took another this morning before going to work and the spots are nearly invisible now.
I went to my clinic and did a walk in because I felt it was a good idea to have it documented that I have shingles again.
The nurse practitioner that I hate came in and I explained the situation and showed her my belly which looks fine unless you examine very closely and know what you are looking for because I have already begun treatment trying to stop the leasions before they became painful. BTW I don't get to see a doctor unless I demand to. That's the way it works at my clinic.
Anyway she asked me what it felt like and I told her it was a crawly, tingly itchy feeling. She looked at me and said OH well that's not shingles, shingles burns. I told her I have had shingles before and if you let the blisters get big they do burn and hurt but before it gets to that point it is not painful.
She proceeded to contradict me again and I got pissed and yelled at her not to do that to me. Meaning not to treat me like I am an idiot. She apparently decided to believe me or not to fight this battle.

I was still mad. I've been mad at her since she suggested that my intestinal pain was in my head several months ago. So I told her that I did not want her to prescribe me any more antidepressants either because I am not and will not take them because I am not mentally altered and I am not clinically depressed. I told her I have been having anxiety attacks lately and that although my body is reacting to the attacks my mind is perfectly normal and rational at the times of the attacks.

Bitch wanted to argue with me.

So I began yelling at the woman. I almost never yell at strangers but this lady was trying to convince me that any sadness or depression I have is absolutely a chemical imbalance in my head and should be corrected with medication. I told her that any bad feelings I have are situational and to treat someone with medication for situational depression is stupid. That I do not need pills to make sadness go away. Things happen in everyones life. If your friend lies to you or you had a tough commute to work you feel bad sure but you don't need a freaking pill to solve the issue. She said she was going to make me an appointment with psych.
I finally said sure, what ever.

I left there feeling very angry. I keep picturing her smiling at me and trying to argue that all depression is a medical problem needing medication. Like she was enjoying a debate with me. I had just told this woman I was having anxiety issues and she wants to debate with a screaming woman. ???

I will never, never, never allow that woman to be my care provider again. Next time I go to clinic I will tell every doctor I see what happened and how I feel about it.  I really wanted to punch her in the head and get that freaking grin off her face. If I where truly mentally altered I might have.


Thanks for letting me vent.

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #58 on: January 13, 2009, 09:41:44 PM »
Win- Wow! She sure sounds like a bitch. I am sorry that you had to go through all that. It makes sense that it would be shingles since you said that you've been having anxiety attacks and that is what provokes it. I hope you feel better. I agree with you about the medication. I think it works well for those who need in conjunction with therapy but too many doctors just want to prescribe pills. I hope you don't have to see her again.

Tredai- Congratulations on your marriage! I had no idea...I must have missed something.

Cristy- Well it sounds like things are going better for you. Stay warm.

Betty- That snow is CRAZY! Now that you have a taste for the good weather it makes it difficult to deal with the cold. It has been in the low 80's here...I am sending some warmth your way.... ;D

Nothing much going on here. I guess that's a good thing...I am going to take a shower and go to bed early... :) :)

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #59 on: January 14, 2009, 04:46:44 AM »
Queen - i'm glad u had a great birthday and got a new man in your life
Tre - congrats on the marriage, im happy for you
Wendy - that woman needed a sock in the teeth. i hope they can get you someone else on your next visit
Viv - gone to the gym yet?
Betty - careful u dont get buried in snow soon..
Nothing much going on over here.  Work's fine. A lot slower than usual, where we used to see 20-30 patients a day we now see less than 10. Its expensive now $50US consultation. some afford it but most cant.  My landlady increased my rent to $150US from $50. Then took it down to $100. I was like 'Oh ok." and started making plans to move. for that much i can get a place with doors inside and a ceiling and my own bathroom. my little sister i stay with is moving out of town so i'll be alone again.  Guess thats the push i needed to get the guts to move finally. My main requirement for a new place is my own bathroon please God, i hate this business of having anyone and everyone using ours. Plus its outside.  Its weird that i feel bad about leaving my landlady, she's  a very nice woman.  its her evil daughter-in-law thats the problem.  and its not her fault the place is built so shabby. well anyway its not like they wont find someone to move in if i leave.
I'm still with Mr oout of town. He was here for about 3 days.  He's great in small doses. Too much of him is not so good.  He's got this filthy mouth. Words like "shit' and 'f**k' sound so much more obscene when spoken in our language and i cringe everytime he says them. I've started smacking him everytime he says something i find offensive.  Think i'll have to carry a stick coz my hands will end up getting more sore than his head :D

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #60 on: January 14, 2009, 05:59:25 AM »
Betty, my darling, I feel your pain.  It snowed all yesterday and is supposed to continue today.  We're not getting the accumulation that you are - maybe 3 inches by tomorrow, but it is blue blazin' cold.  As I sit here - before 6am - it's 15 degrees.  Cold? Yes.  But, it will feel like a Miami summer tomorrow when I wake up to 2 degrees.  We've not hit negative numbers, yet, but I feel it coming in the near future. 

I just hope I can get out today to the ENT appointments.  They are 1 1/2hrs away and to the north, where they got more snow.  The going yesterday to the eye doc wasn't too bad, but coming home took forever - over 2hrs - because no one would drive over 40 (in a 70mph zone).  #6 got a new prescription for glasses.  She wanted red glasses, but they didnt' have any small enough, so she chose purple.  The ones she has now are pink.  I was hoping for a primary color, but after being there for 3hrs, and facing the long ride home, it wasn't worth the argument.  We're changing eye specialists.

Wendy, hun, I would've knocked the woman silly then plead not guilty by mental defect.  How could she argue since she's the one who said you had one?  I end up arguing with every health care provider that sees my kids.  They have papers on their walls and letters after their names.  Who are we to argue?  The minion masses who live with ourselves everyday - how dare we question their authority after a 10 minute exam?  ::) 

And, um, Tre, you come waltzing in here, announce you are now married and give us NO details??  What's up with that?  We are women and therefore thrive on the juicy stuff.  So get your hiney back in here and dish it out.  Pictures would also be VERY nice.

I hope you all have a great day.  I need to turn on the news and check out the road conditions.  I really hate to reschedule ENT today, but I'd really hate to wreck even more.  I have until 8 to decide - we'll need to leave about 8:30. 

Much love to you all,
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #61 on: January 14, 2009, 08:25:54 AM »
Tenda- LOL! No I haven't been to the gym yet....so much for intentions... :D

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #62 on: January 14, 2009, 10:54:23 AM »
Morning ladies,

Cristy, I'm glad things are improving and I hope you get your unemployment.

TreDai, congratulations!  I didn't even know you had someone special in your life.

Wendy, I absolutely cannot stand it when I know how I feel and someone tries to tell me it's not how I feel.  Did that make sense?

Andrea, could you send the warmth again?  I'm not feeling it.

Tendai, do you not have a ceiling where you live?  I hope you get a better place when you move.  I'll be thinking about you.

Mum, purple glasses, aye?  Nothing wrong with that.  Actually sounds pretty cool.

Well, it's only 7F degrees here.  And we got about 3 more inches on top of the 10 we already had.  I swear, when I went out yesterday, there are spots I can stand in where the snow comes up to my thighs.  The thing that's driving me crazy is that it's one system after another.  We're supposed to be getting wind gusts up to 35mph later today and more lake-effect snow.  How much more can we get for God's sake?!

So far, my school is open.  I don't think we're going to close.  But, I don't know how many out of town people will be there tonight.  The city's road crew didn't even plow the side streets, so when I went out yesterday, there was about 4 inches of snow on the streets, which made it very hard to get around in.  OK, I'll quit bitching about the weather.  I hope you ladies have a good day.
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #63 on: January 14, 2009, 11:11:52 AM »
Makes perfect since Betty. I think this lady is wayyyy to clinical for her own good. She lacks the ability to connect with people in a human way. She appears to only be able to dribble out text book knowledge.

Tend - There are a few reasons this lady did not get punched in the mouth. A: I dont want to go to jail and B: I have never in my life punched anyone in the face and C: I'm honestly not as crazy as she apparently thinks I am.

I can still fantasise about it.  :)

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #64 on: January 14, 2009, 12:18:43 PM »
Hi ladies, been missing action. Winn I feel you about that woman, I would have cursed her out! I am going through a similar thing myself Winn. I have been on Zoloft for years about (20 plus) and have tried to stop on my own but the withdrawls are like heroin with drawls!!! I have nightmares and such!!! I also suffer from anxiety but I am not crazy or depressed. MY docs told me the same thing, that i need this med cause of a chemical imbalance!!!! I hadbeen described them long ago when i was going through a real depression, they called it clinical depression, after having an abortion. I found out this was normal after having an abortion, I felt really guilty, but it was a suprise pregnancy and i was not with the father who was already married and a coke head. Long story I won'tget into now, that was back in the late 80s.! I wentcold turkey and in the early 90s had to get back on them. Anyhow I am trying to get off them, when Igo back to my id or primary care docs I will see about weaning off them. Its something I really know about and the shingles also.I had a bad outbreak in 94.Since then  I have been having small outbreaks on my backside from time to time, and I tested negative for herpes, I know its shingles .I get acyclovir sometimes but mostly they go away on there own.
I hope things work out for you, I know how u feel.Yesterday I had a gyn appointment and the doc put me back on the premarin for my hotflashes and nite sweats. I ask her if the premarin was dangerous , she said no as long as u get regular checkups but then She also has me getting xrays to make sure I have no cyst or tumors. since I have pain sometimes after having a hysterectomy in 02. Reminder Oprah has a show this week on hormone treatment.
well me and my sweety are still talking on the phone every day until he gets everything set with his move.( he is waiting on his w4 and pink slip from his job )since they are laying off and closing . Ladies I have no secrets for meeting a man, just Prayer!!!!
Queen -Happy belated Birthday!!!!
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #65 on: January 14, 2009, 12:39:15 PM »
Oh gosh I hate it when doctors do that. You had every right to feel depressed.
I feel that taking the pills would lengthen the problem and have always been resistant to taking any antidepressant. I have no problem with taking an anti anxiety medication PRN as long as I dont become dependent on the pills. It really bothers me when doctors treat everything as a medical problem. Not everything can be solved with medicine. We are humans. We experience wide aray of negative emotions and it is perfectly normal to feel badly when something bad happens.
Now if I told the doctor I was having bad feelings and was uncomfortable with them and needed his/her help then I would be open to talking about suggestions.
However if a doctor asks me how I have been feeling and I am honest with them and then tell them I do not want to be on medication and that I feel that I am mentally stable and that this is not a medical issue they should listen and not insist that I am wrong.

Good luck with getting off the Zoloft Netta. I have heard so many stories of people having difficulty getting off these types of medications. I know they can be helpful for many people but its just not for me.

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #66 on: January 14, 2009, 09:10:53 PM »
Netta- Please be careful trying to get off the Zoloft. You are not supposed to just stop. It can really mess you up. You are supposed to ease off it. My Dad used to take it for anxiety as well and it does work for some. It definitely worked with him. If you want to stop taking it tell your doctor because it can be dangerous to quit cold turkey.

Betty- I wish I could bottle the sunshine and send it your way. Stay inside!

Mum- I used to have a pair of red glasses. I think I was in 7th grade... :)

Wendy- I would never hit someone either but sure is nice to run the scenario through your head.

Things are moving right along. I have some grading and planning to do tonight and that is what I am going to do right after I finish eating. Have a good night all my friends! :)

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #67 on: January 15, 2009, 09:10:41 AM »
Would it be so hard for a doctor to walk in the room, look me in the face and say, "Mrs. L, I hear you and I understand. You live with her and obviously know more about her than I do. Tell me what's going on.  What can I do to help you?"  I mean, honestly, would it cause some sort of rip in the time-space continuum?  Instead, yesterday, the ear doc walked in, said #6 "looked good", told me to take up Mini's ear issues with Doc, said, "see you in 6mths.", and left.

 I did NOT just drive 1 1/2hrs to be told to come back in 6mths.I chased him down the hall! I literally followed him into the next patient's room.  What about her hearing test?  I've called Doc and she won't return my calls!  I need you to take a look at Mini's ears and talk about tubes.  Do you even have her record?  YES, she has an appointment -I called a week ago.  I don't care about HIPPA - you should have thought about HIPPA before you blew me off!  No, I will NOT step out until you at least agree to have #6's hearing tested you jerk! 

So, on to the hearing test ;D.  #6 was very cooperative and ran through the entire series of tests which takes about 1/2 hour, or so.  When the audiologist came in to talk about the results, I brought up the necessity of aiding #6's right ear.  She argued with me "yadda, yadda, yadda...she can still hear, her hearing isn't that bad, it's not effecting her speech...oh, she's blind in her right eye, too?  I'm sorry to hear that (again!)...yadda, yadda, yadda..." 

I asked her to bring me the paper results, I wanted to read them.  She grinned and went to get them.  I made a comment about #6's consistent dip in the high frequencies.  She nodded and said that the loss wasn't negatively effecting her.  "What sounds are in those frequencies?"  A nervous look to the left, an eye roll, a spin around the room, a polite rub on #6's head, eyes back to me, a heavy sigh, and the admission, (quoted because nobody can make this stuff up) "All the important stuff.  All constanants and most of the vowels, dipthongs.  Basically, normal speech."  WHAT!!!!   Oh, good grief!!  So now not hearing speech doesnt' negatively effect someone?  Not hearing speech doesn't effect speech?  BITE ME!

I collected our coats, my purse, took the girls' hands, and walked out.  I didn't even take my billing sheet to the front desk.  I left in on the table.  I still can't believe it.  And, that's not the worst of it.

*If you're still with me, here's what happened when we got home*

#6 is very animated when she gets going with her babbling.  She ran up to me, all wide eyed, and I panicked!!  Tuesday her eyes were dialated at 1:40pm, Wednesday at 3:30pm, her left eye was still dialated and non-reactive to light.  I immediately called the eye institute.  Her right eye was slightly dialated, but had gone down enough to be light reactive, but we got nothing out of her left eye.  I was told that the doctor would be paged and call me back with-in half hour.  It's now 18hrs later and NO phone call.  Her left eye has gone down a bit, but it's still non-reactive.  I've called them back and got ugly, but I don't expect anything will come from it.  Now a blizzard has come through and I don't think we can even get to the highway. >:(  I'm so totally PISSED.

Hope everyone is having a wonderful day.  Love to you all.  If you read all of this, thank you.
Mum
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #68 on: January 15, 2009, 09:52:59 AM »
Minsmum, I read all of that and must say:that is ridiculous. That you have to argue with the doctor's to get them to provide( what I consider) basic care for your children. Good for you for standing up to those jerks. And for them to say that # 6's hearing is not that bad!! How can she be expected to speak correctly if  she cannot hear the sounds. Sorry didn't mean to rant, that just makes me angry . I know you will handle it but for you to be forced to go to extremes is stupid.        Wendy, I hear you about wanting to punch that lady. I have an extremely bad temper and  one of the  things that keeps me in check is:I don't want to go to jail. Been there, hate it. Also, I don't want to be separated from my Robert. He gets stressed here lately if he can't find me.                                                                                    On a bright note, I talked To unemployment yesterday morning and it is approved. It will total around 425 per month and I am so glad. I have a whole list of stuff we need so Saturday when the card comes(it should have 5 weeks worth on it) Robert and I are going shopping. He needs new sweatpants and undies and the house needs quite a few things. I need really nothing, I am good.( well maybe a little smoke would be nice,I've been out for 2 months, more important things to buy.)But it sure is a stress relief to know that money is coming. And I can help on rent, my dad got laidoff 2 weeks ago so they are struggling. He is a trucker with a 30 year excellent driving record so he will find another job.  Robert went on a field trip today, to see a play about the 3 Little pigs. He was so excited.  Things are good, I am just chilling, washed dishes, swept the floors, cleaned the bathroom. I feel like Suzie Homemaker but I feel good cause it's clean.   Hope you ladies have a great day

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #69 on: January 15, 2009, 10:40:18 AM »
Morning ladies,

Wendy, most doctors I have known try to prescribe meds for every problem.  I guess it's because that's what they're trained to do.

Netta, I hope you're getting off the Zoloft slowly.  It's not good to just "stop" the medication.   Even though the medication is not "addicting" per se, there are withdrawals the body goes through if you go off cold turkey.  If you really want to get off of it, please see your doctor.  I just don't want you to go through something you don't have to.

Andrea, I'm glad school's rolling along for you.

Mum, that really pisses me off about those doctors.  Doesn't sound like either one is that concerned.  My sister in Arizona goes through the same thing with the kids she watches (mentally and/or physically impaired).  I hope you get some answers.  Are you going to a different ENT?  How are #6's eyes?

Cristy, I'm so glad your unemployment is approved.  That's got to be a relief.  I couldn't imagine no income. 

Well, the weather is 2F degrees right now and we got a couple more inches of snow.  All the schools in the area are shut down, except colleges.  I don't understand why the colleges aren't shut down.  I haven't been outside yet.  Hell, I just got up about 1/2 an hour ago.  I've been sleeping lately until like 9:30, 10:00 a.m.  I'm not sure why.  Before I went to Arizona, I always was up by 8:00 a.m.  I don't think it could be because I'm still not over the 2 hour time difference with as long as I've been back.  I'm just very, very tired lately and don't know why. 

Today I think the only thing I'm going to do, besides going to school tonight (and that's a maybe) is to clean off my car and start it for a couple minutes so it will start tonight (if I go to school).  I didn't go last night because of the weather.  I guess a few other people didn't either.  It's assinine of my school to stay open, since some people drive 50 miles to get to it.  It's really assinine of any school to stay open during this crap.  We're supposed to get 3-6 more inches of snow today.  Yesterday, I did go to the beauty supply store to get my haircolor.  There was a lady at the checkout who was saying, "hell, years ago you couldn't see the ground from November through March.  The weather always used to be like this.  We just got spoiled."  Funny, I don't remember it being quite this bad for so long a period of time.  Of course, she could have been talking about before my time also.

Nothing else going on right now.  You ladies have a good day.
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #70 on: January 15, 2009, 12:56:40 PM »
Funny you mention that Betty. One of the last things I said to her was that I realise that she is trained to handle all problems in a clinical way but she needed to understand not everything can be fixed with a pill or her medical training.

Mum - holy majolly crap on a stick! LOL Sounds like you had a messed up time with the docs too. Too bad we cant kick people or pull hair without getting in trouble.  ;D

I had another poop day. I went to the pharmacy to pick up meds for the elderly man I care for and the credit card I use to pay for his needs did not have enough to pay for his meds. I dont get why they dont pay the card off at the end of the month so that there is never an issue with a credit limit. Its not like he does not have a ton of money. Not a huge deal really. It was annoying. He has enough medicine until tommorrow. His family will just have to go get his refills untill they fix the problem with the credit limit. I still get paid either way.  ;)

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #71 on: January 15, 2009, 03:28:03 PM »
Wendy, I had to laugh at your response.  The ENT is bald but boy, I would have LOVED to yank that audiologist's pony tail right out of her head!  Have you seen the movie "Matilda" when the teacher grabbed a girl by her pig tails and swung her around? LOL..that's what I kept imagining.  ;D  We will begin hunting for a new audiologist and ENT. 

The eye institute called this afternoon and said that we don't need to worry.  It can take up to 3 days for dilated eyes to go back to normal.  The difference in size was due, most likely, to the amount of medication each eye absorbed.  I told the lady it was nice of her to call, but it would've been NICER if someone would have called YESTERDAY.  Then, I could have SLEPT instead of being AWAKE worried that something was WRONG with my CHILD!  She apologized.  I told her not to say things she didn't mean.  Ignoring people must run in the family - did I mention that the eye doc is the PID's husband? ::)

We found an Occupational Opthamologist in Beckley - about 3hrs drive.  I've heard tons of wonderful things about him, but he's hard to get into see.  He even gives people computer programs to help with their vision, coordination, ect.  When we're done, we send it back to him, and he'll mail us another one. My friend with 15 kids goes to him and if she loves him, then I should at least be able to put up with him ;).

Other than that, I have nothing to report.  The blizzard that we were supposed to have today didn't do anything - it stayed more north and east of us.  We have a full weekend: Friday we're going to see a group of Uganda.  They sing, play traditional music, and do traditional dancing.  I can't wait.  Saturday, we're going to a conference that teaches churches how to incorporate special needs kids into their services / programs / ect.  It's free with a catered dinner and activities for the kids.  Then Sunday night is our church wide birthday party.  They hired a comedian / magician.  It should be lots of fun.

Christy, hun, you aren't saying anything that I haven't felt.  You feel free to rant away! LOL  I'm glad to hear about your unemployment coming in.  I know it takes a huge burden off your heart.

I need to finish up school with the kids.  We went grocery shopping this morning for fear the weather would get bad this afternoon.  Other than that and laundry, I have not a thing planned.

Love to you all - the weekend is almost here!!
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #72 on: January 15, 2009, 08:20:38 PM »
LOL I have seen that movie several times. Nice mental picture.
I'd be freaked out too about the eye dilation. I'd be worried she had a stroke or God knows what.
I'm glad you have an alternate Opthamologist to take the kiddos to. Stinks it is 3 hours away. But I hope it turns out to be a good doctor/patient relationship.

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #73 on: January 15, 2009, 08:49:05 PM »
Hey Ladies---

Sorry, I haven't checked in. I have been caught up with Rey, the new guy. We have seen each other everyday. He hurt his leg, I think he slipped on some ice around his house or something. He has to wear a knee brace but won't take anything for the pain. I get that, I don't like pain pills either all like that.

I know what you mean about doctors. My ID doc gets like that at times. When I think he is over medicating me, I kind of just let what he says go in one ear and out the other. Though they are medical professionals I still say a person knows their bodies better than they do. And other times I think docs just do it so they can get paid more. Finding a good doc that listens is like finding a needle in a haystack.

The weather here is bad too. Last weekend my town had a city emergency that lasted until Monday. We are suppose to get 3-5 more inches tonight with the temp down to 8 degrees. I can deal with that, I am just tired of shoveling. I shoveled the back porch this morning, it was deep as hell but I had fun. I threw Lucifer in the snow, well not throw, just kind of tossed him in some deep snow. Had a little snowball fight with him.

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #74 on: January 16, 2009, 01:57:48 AM »
Dear All

Sorry I have not dropped by for a few days - amazing how much happens if you are off here for a while, so I am sorry if I cannot catch up :(.

I have not been on here recently because my lovely mum died on Tuesday. As I said here previously she has been ill for some time and in hospital for some weeks with what we all knew would be her final illness. :'(

She was 84 so she had had a longish life but not always and easy one and I just wish she had not spent the last few years as she did. But thankfully she is in peace now - But I do not think I will be able to relax and get back to normal until her funeral has happened - which is not for another week.

I will try to catch up then here after that.

Wendy - that awful health professional struck a cord with me and it makes me very angry - I get very angry when we are not listened too and inexperienced workers who actually probably no nothing about life - or perhaps nothing about our lives as they probably have never faced the sorts of stresses many of us face - and are therefore maybe not that good at their job anyway!!!!  Think they know best and think they know you, your body and mind better than you do!!! -------- Which is plainly not so and is ridiculous.

Yes I too wish we coudl yank their hair or something when they do that!!

We do need Doctors etc do have the training to prescribe ( and we are not allowed to prescribe for ourselves and that would be chaotic so we need someone trained to do this) diagnose/treat and find funding/resources for our treatment  but they have to listen to us too! Its our body and mind and our feelings, descriptions, symptoms not theirs and within the limits of our non medical knowledge, we do know ourselves best!!!!!!!!

I have had trouble from time to time with inexperienced and disrespectful young workers trying to treat or medicate me unnecessarily i.e. antidepressants and not listening to me or showing me any real respect or empathy and patronise me. But more so recenty since my HIV was diagnosed.

I know I do not need anti-depressants but I would also know if I did - I am sure you would also Wendy.

But I am not clinically depressed and would know if I was but I have not had an easy life and have had most of my 50 odd years of life, to live with considerable stress,  - which I do actually cope with very well -

and of course since being diagnosed with HIV, and I have only been diagnosed for a year and having had a very ill husband with AIDs for a while , worries about my daughter and a dying mother plus money and other realted worries a hightly paid UK doctor does not have nor would ever understand ...............so my stress has been considerable over the last year, I do not have depression in fact I am not at all depressed, btu I do face considerable very real stresses.

Plus I suffer a lifelong phobia which can cause panic attacks when extra anxious or stressed - but none of this means I am clinically depressed or need or would benefit from antidepressants !!!But an inexperienced and I felt incompetent HIV doctor I had at first suggested they would and was like what you describe - not listening to me and acting like she knew best ???

In fact for my phobia and stress caused occasional panic attacks I know anti - depressants are not helpful to me at all and make me worse.....As after all I am 55 years old and know myself well and years ago when in late teens I was prescribed Anti-Ds for my phobia/panics which made me much worse in fact  ill and took me  a while to get off of, and I know they would be of no help to me now.

Yet I still now and then meet ignorant doctors that suggest that my very real sadness and stress due to my situation - would be helped by anti-depressants!!

And I hate it when they do not listen to you about medical conditions/symptoms that you know more about than them when it is about how it affects you!!!

Anyway sorry to rant also and to highjack your issue Wendy!!

but I have had a lot of this myself since diagnosed HIV, because I guess when I go to the doctors about it I tell the truth, I say yes I am sad and unhappy and stressed. But I also say given the situation I am coping very well and I know what I need from them and I will ask and I need them to listen to me first and aknowledge that I am an expert on me ;)


I KNOW I know my body and mind and what I need and what will help better than them and I am sure you do too Wendy

Same goes for Mum with your children and knowing what is wrong with them. You are right! Good doctors ask YOU what is wrong before they jump to conclusions and base their diagnosis on what you say. I am lucky as I finally have a HIV consultant who does this and listens to me, but it took me most of the year to get her

Tredai- Huge Congratulations, I missed that completely as I did not even realise you were seriously with anyone, but I hope you are very happy.

Queen - sorry I missed your birthday. I hope you had a good time? Sorry your new guy has hurt his leg - look after him!

Sorry to all I have left out, but my mind is scrambled due to my mums death - we are still arranging the funeral etc which will not be till next Saturday 24th and I have 2 younger siblings that are very upset and an older brother who is also upset and I am upset - she was a wonderful person and wonderful mum and we will miss her

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« Reply #75 on: January 16, 2009, 08:30:24 AM »
I don't have time to respond to everyone yet. I just wanted to pop in and say Happy Friday! It's a 3-day weekend for me which really means an extra day to get some work done...LOL! It's never ending. :)

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« Reply #76 on: January 16, 2009, 10:41:44 AM »
Morning ladies,

Mum, I'm glad you found a new ophthalmologist.  Have fun this weekend.

Wendy, I don't know why that man's family doesn't help him keep his bills paid up if he has all that money.  Are they neglectful?

Queen, that's cute about Lucifer.  If I did that to my cat, she'd probably have a heart attack.  I sympathize with Rey; I have to wear my knee brace every day, or my joints pop in and out.

Veritee, I'm so sorry about your mum.  Please accept my condolences.  I lost mine a year and a half ago and it's not easy.  I'll be thinking about you.

Andrea, enjoy your 3-day weekend.

Well, it's -10F here (yes, negative 10).  This is unbelievable.  I was talking to one of my friend's mums yesterday and I asked her if she remembers the weather being this bad in the past years, and she said maybe with the snow, but not with these frigid temps.  It's awful.  I didn't go to school last night, and neither did a lot of my friends.  I don't even know why they kept it open.  At 7:00 p.m. last night, it was like -15F.  Too cold for anyone to be out.  The high today is supposed to be 1F.  Tomorrow though it's supposed to recover a bit at around 15F.  Come on spring!

Today I was actually thinking about going to see a movie.  I want to see "Gran Torino."  That's supposed to be alright.  Has anyone gone to see "The Curious Case of Benjamen Button?"  I've heard mixed reviews and wasn't sure if it would be worth the time.  I want to see "Revolutionary Road," but it's not playing around here yet.  And who knows, I might just stay here all day and only go outside to start the car and make sure it runs for a couple minutes with these temps.  Other than that, I have nothing planned.  You ladies have a good day.
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #77 on: January 16, 2009, 06:31:29 PM »
Sorry for your loss Veritee. You said exactly what I was feeling. I have some phobias and occasionally have an anxiety attack too. But I'm never wacked out mentally when I am having one. Its just my body freaking out and my mind trying to coax my body into relaxing because I know logically there is no reason for my body to be freaking out.

Betty I saw Benjamin Button. I liked it very much. I'd like to see Gran Torino too.
The payment for the credit card may have crossed paths with my need to buy his medication. I'm not sure. I wouldn't say they are neglectful. But they do allow him to drive when a doctor has said he definitely should not. That bothers me. Its easier than the fight that would ensue from them not allowing him to use his car and they would likely have to get guardianship over him in order to enforce it. Which also would take time and effort. Now that I have had time to think about it I'm sure the credit card payment had not gotten to the card company and thats all it was. It was just frustrating is all. It has never happened before.

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #78 on: January 16, 2009, 09:04:14 PM »
Veritee-
Sorry to hear about your Mum, you have my condolences.

Mum- Good for you tracking down that doctor, I can't even imagine how frustrating that was.  I hope the new doc works out.  I have been trying Splenda in my tea and I found some sugarless hard candy with splenda in them that are actually pretty good.  Thank you!! ;D

BT- I haven't seen either of those movies, Gran Torino sounds good.  I wanted to see seven pds but the reviews aren't so good.  I feel you on the cold, it was -4 when I took the kids to school this morning.  I really wish I could move, this weather is making me nuts.  I hate being stuck in the house.  I always wanted to go to AZ but don't know if I could handle the heat. I would move in a heartbeat if I didn't have this child custody BS going on.

cjc- Glad to hear you got your benefits coming, that is a relief.

Queen- Your cat sounds funny. Glad things are going well with Rey?

Netta- I hope things work out with your meds.

Win- Hope you and Billy are doing well.

Keeping- How are you and the family doing?  How is the puppy doing?

Viv- You mentioned tweezermans in one of your posts and I had never heard of them.  I saw some in Bed Bath and Beyond and I thought I would try them.  They work pretty good so Thanks for the tip :)

I have been miserable lately.  I really hate this time of year. I have no energy and I am always tired.  I drop the kids off at school and came home and slept all day.  My oldest had a therapist appt today at 4:15, we got there at 4:00, she finally comes out of her office at 4:35, didn't know we were scheduled, which wouldn't be bad, if this wasn't the second time it happened.  I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel somewhere, I just can't find it right now?? ::) ::) ::) I really need to start working out and getting my head together so I am 150% by the time I have to go to court in April.  I think I have been dreaming about what happened a lot lately because my hand was hurting , my SO told me I punched him in the head 2 different times while I was sleeping. :o  OOPS!!

Well I hope everyone has a good weekend!  Anybody celebrating the inauguration (sp?)?  I told the kids I would make a cake.  It is so cute when the little ones see him on TV, they get really excited and say "Mommy, Rock Bama!!?


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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #79 on: January 16, 2009, 09:13:27 PM »
I saw Gran Torino this afternoon and it was an excellent movie.  You all should go see it. 

That's all.  Have a good evening ladies. :-*
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« Reply #80 on: January 16, 2009, 09:25:50 PM »
Veritee- I am sorry to hear about your mother.

Betty- I don't blame you for not going to school. I would not go out of the house at all in weather like that.
I want to see Gran Torino, Nixon Frost, and Doubt. I might just wait till they come out on DVD. Benjamin Button doesn't appeal to but I think that is because I think Brad Pitt is overrated.

Snow- I'm glad you liked the tweezers. They are more expensive than others but they last a long time. You can also send them in to be sharpened. You asked about the inauguration...at school we are going to watch it on TV. We are doing a little project explaining all the parts of the day. The kids are really interested. We have talked about how this is history making and how they get to be a part of it. We had an "election" too in November. I made a point to let them know that no matter what people's opinion is, it's still exciting to be a part of it.

Hmmm....let's see...what do I have planned this weekend? I have to go to the dentist tomorrow for a cleaning. They were going to do it last time but I had enough on New Year's Eve. Other than that...just resting!  :)



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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #81 on: January 17, 2009, 05:04:17 AM »
Thank you so much all for your kind words about my mum - she was a great mother and I will miss her very much I am sorry to others who have also ever lost peoplethey love.

I am afraid I am really upset this morning about my mum and because last night I had an awful row/argument  with my husband - I suppose it was bound to happen as I am very upset about my mum and so started to talk about how she was to me as a mum and this led to me talking about how it was for me to be a mum.

I wanted a bit of love and support but this is always a subject I just can not get on with my husband as try as I might the one thing I resent him so much for was staying in his job at sea - as a marine engineer away often for months on end for up to 8 months a year - after I had my baby.

I am afraid when she was born 20 years ago I just assumed that once we had a family he would come home from the sea for good and we could have a 'normal' family life!

But he never came home -

despite my pleading with him to so many times in the last 20 years and we never had what I thought of as a 'normal' family life because I brought my daughter up alone and for me it was worse than being a single mum - as had I been a single mum at least I could have had relationships and perhaps found someone to keep me company as I was quite attractive then etc?

But with a husband always at sea and only home for short stays I was often bitterly lonely - I did have many friends but I wanted a lover - and I was often physically on my own with my daughter for long periods because I live in a rural farm and of course friends only stay to chat for an hour or so ............

so I had so many long horrible dark evenings and days on my own with just my child and me and i hated it -so I was not a good mother to her either as she knew I was so unhappy and that being just with her was not enough for me .

I would go out when I could and of course worked but when she was asleep etc I had no choice but to stay in alone. And that was for a lot of time in 20 years of being married to a seaman!!

Anyway I totally hated it and at times hated him for not leaving the sea. I may have left him if he had made it clear and said he would never leave - but he was scared of losing me so he would never tell the truth which was he intended to work until he retired at 65 ...he would just say perhaps next year or perhaps when we get financially better off or perhaps thi or maybe that ...........and I would try so hard not to spend money so that we could have the money for him to leave and I would pray that this year would be the year he came home for good!!!!!!!!!

But I began to realise he never would and was and still am very angry about it . And angry at him for stringing me along for so many years by not telling me the truth that he never intended to leave the sea


but its OK most of the time as long as I do not get on the subject of my being a mother with my husband.

But with my mum just dying I did and then I poured out my anger with him and bitterness that he would not leave the sea to be a proper father to her and a husband to me .

And this is made worse that it is because he got HIV that he finally lest the sea and only then!! And he lost us our main income and also he is not yet well enough to work.

and now 20 years later my child is grown up and I made so many mistakes as a mother because I absolutely HATED being alone as a mother..............................................and then, when its too late to save the relationship with me and my daughter - my husband did leave the sea - but only because he has HIV.

And the other point is that if he had not been a seaman and away at sea and lonely and therefore had sex with other women - he - and I - would not have HIV!!!

So I am afraid I was just so nasty to him last night. It is not fair as what is done is done and you can not change the past and he is home here with me now...

but I know he is only here with me after over 26 years at sea because he has HIV and they will not let him work at sea so he lost his job!!!!!

So last night my bitterness and anger came out when I remembered all those awful years bringing Caja up on my own and the loneliness I felt and the mistakes I made and how I begged him at times to leave the sea and be with us ....and he did not/would not.

What did he do instead? - he screwed another woman while in Brazil and gave us both HIV >:( >:( >:(.

Now I have to somehow repair the nastiness I gave to him last night as while I will never understand why he did not leave the sea and I can not see me ever really forgiving him totally for staying at sea and while at sea sleeping with someone else and giving me HIV ......I do love him and I do not want to leave him now -

but he isnow today  threatening to leave me because I always get nasty if the subject goes on to him working at sea - it does not happen that often,  but he says he can not stand my anger at that anymore - and I do not blame him but can not seem to shut up whenever my being a mum is talked about.

So I have to try to make it up today - and another thing he said is that I do not do anything much now except go on the internet!! and he is sick of this too!

Which is not quite true but it is a bit true

as I do web design and run a support forum and come on here and other forums I am on my PC a lot and he does not like it - but it is the only place I get to speak to other women living with HIV and the internet is the only place I get any support at all for me - so I do spend a lot of time on the internet and he does not like it or understand it as he does not use computers at all..

Sorry this is all about me

But I am really scared that as well as just losing my mum my husband will carry out his threat and leave and I am so scared I will lose him too - I have already lost my daughter also as she says she will never live at home again and anyway she has a good job in London over 300 miles away

So if he leaves now it feels what was the point of all theses years that I stayed with him and struggled with hating being on my own and bringing my daughter up alone while he was at sea!! What was the whole point of my last 20 years of my life!!

I know I will get over it as it is partly my grief over my mum and I hope I can persude him not to leave.
 
But right now it feels like I have wasted 20 years of my life with a man wo did not love me enough to give up a job that I hatted and not an ordinary job but one that meant he was never home
so we hardly, if ever, had any time or fun at all as a family and now my daughter is all grown up and we have HIV - so it feels my life has been such a waste

sorry I will be Ok in a while
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #82 on: January 17, 2009, 07:03:26 AM »
I have got to tell you about the concert that we went to last night.  It was the most AMAZING thing I have ever seen and I'm still on a high from it.  It was the Watoto Children's Chior from Uganda, Africa.  There were 16 kids ranging in age from 8 - 12 and 7 adults.  The way those kids sang and danced gave me goosebumps.  In between songs, some of the children told their stories.  But, first, some background.

Watoto Village was started in 1993 by an American couple who moved to Uganda and saw a need to start a "kingdom of compassion".  There are now 3 Watoto villages that house nearly 1700 children who were orphaned due to HIV/AIDS and war. Each village is self-contained with modern houses (1 house mother and 8 children per house), their own school, and fully staffed medical clinic.  The children have 3 meals a day, snacks, clothes, uniforms, thier own beds, shoes, medications, and go to school M-F. 

There is a separate Watoto Gulu village that houses children who were rescued from the military regime.  There they are given counsoling, schooling, and therapy.  Once they have completed the program, they are moved to one of the other Watoto villages.  Also, in 2007, a special complex called Bullrushes was built for abandoned babies ages birth-2yrs old.  Many of the babies they found in trash heaps, dumps, abandoned buildings, and hospitals.  The babies are raised in Bullrushes until they are 2 and graduate to the Watoto Village.

Along with all of that, they are also opening a home called "living hope" for HIV+ women and single mothers.  They will have housing, medical care, counsoling, and be taught a vocation. Their children will be housed with them and will receive medical care and an education.

To hear these children talk about their lives was heart-breaking.  Because their parents had HIV/AIDS they weren't allowed to work and the family became outcasts.  The kids couldn't go to school because they couldn't pay the fees, the watched family members die from the war, the boys were hidden so they wouldn't be kidnapped by the military, then their parents died and things only got worse.  Then, someone brought them to the Watoto Village.  One of the kids said, "yesterday, I thought I was nothing.  But, today, I have hope."

The children are taught to be proud of being Ugandan.  They are being raised to become leaders so that when they move from Watoto (no one is ever made to leave), they can become positive influences in their country.  The kids shared that they want to become doctors, lawyers, teachers, accountants, farmers, and one boy named Julian (who I wanted to keep) wants to be a bus driver so that he can go find kids and drive them to Watoto where they can find hope.

Mim went up to one of the girls after the concert and gave her a hug.  She said, "I'm sorry you lost your parents.  They died from Hiv.  I have HIV, but I'm not going to die from it." 

I cried from the time the lights went down until we left.  I have never been so moved in my life.  We bought 2 of their C.D.s, so I cried all the way home, too.  The last song they sang was called "African Lulliby."  I'll leave you with some of the words:

Who will sing my lulliby?  Who will touch me when I cry?  Who will hold me when I'm scared?  I've lost everyone I love.  My father, my brothers, my sisters.  I cry for my mother, but she's not there.  Who will sing me a lulliby?

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« Reply #83 on: January 17, 2009, 07:47:56 AM »
Veritee, I am so sorry about the loss of your mother.     AS to the fight with your husband, I am sorry about that too but maybe you needed to get some of that anger out.                                            Not much going on here, I went to Walmart yesterday to get my medicine and the Toyota overheated cause the water in the radiator was frozen. My dad said if I would not have stopped when I noticed the steam, then I would have blown the engine. So glad I noticed. He added Antifreeze, Ladies make sure there is plenty of Antifreeze in your radiator, and drove the Toyota home. I got to drive the 2008 GMC, a real treat. I've driven it before but he doesn't know that. Mom does but not dad.   Got my approval letter yesterday but am waiting on my debit card with the money on it. It should be here today or Tuesday. Monday is a national (Federal?) holiday so the mail doesn't run.                                            Mum that concert sounded great. That is so sweet , what Mini said Queen, in the summertime, I throw the cats in the water barrel, they don't like it but I think it is funny. Sorry your friend hurt his Knee. I don't like most pain-pills, they make me sick or hostile.                 Betty, I would love to see Gran Torino, My parents went to see it and my dad thought it was great. Try to stay warm.                              Viv, they are out of school for 3 days here, Monday for the Holiday , Tues and Wed for teacher workdays. We have a meeting with  Robert's teacher Wed to talk about his writing.                                         Snow, sorry things are bad for you lately, I hope they get better.            Well, gotta go, the dryer is calling me. Hope everyone has a great day. TTYL. Cristy

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #84 on: January 17, 2009, 08:19:49 AM »
Morning ladies,

Snow, what state do you live in?  Our weather sounds comparable.  About the inauguration...some of the local Obama supporters are having something at a restaurant.  I might go to that, or I might go to one of my friend's apartments, and we'll have a lunch there and watch the goings-on.  Wow, that court date isn't far off.  What's going on?  Is SB trying to get custody of the children?

Andrea, good luck with the dentist.

Veritee, I'm sorry about the fight with your husband.  I'm sure you have some unresolved issues there.  Maybe you should see a counselor?  I don't really know how things work there in the UK with having to pay for counseling.  I didn't know you were still having troubles with your daughter?  I thought you were happy for her?

Mum, that concert sounds awesome.  It would have given me chills.  We never know how lucky we are, do we.

Cristy, I hope you get that debit card today.  I'm sure you're anxious to get the stuff you need.

Well, like I said last night, Gran Torino is a great movie.  It had me crying in a couple parts.  I'm a little surprised I went to see it, with what the weather conditions were last night.  Right now it's 7F out, a heat wave.  The roads are pretty bad, as when it gets this cold out, salt doesn't work.  It was worth going to see the movie though.

Today I'm supposed to be having lunch with a friend.  Yankee Candle is having their big after-Christmas sale at the mall; I was thinking about going there and seeing if they have anything left (it started Thursday).  I might just lay back down and see if I can get another hour's sleep.  This is the earliest I've been up since being back.    Anyway, nothing else planned today.  You ladies have a good one.
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #85 on: January 17, 2009, 09:58:53 AM »
Morning Ladies------

Not much going on with me today. I didn't see Rey yesterday or today because of work but that cool with me. I think we needed a little break. I know I am prolly over analyzing things but sometimes I think I like him too much. And kind of waiting for the shoe to drop, I know that's bad but it usually happens. He just seems too good to be true. But I have been scarred by bitch ass dudes that I guess I am a little jaded.

I am pissed off with my landlord because he was suppose to have an appraiser come look at the house.  This morning when I got up, my sister called me to the basement. There is a drain down there that backs up a little bit. It seems to happen whenever we wash clothes or I take a shower. My tub has now started to back up. I told him about this and he said he would send Roto- Rooter over to check it out but he hasn't. So when my sister called him this morning, he decided to cancel the appraiser visit and still ran that same bullshit of sending Roto_Rooter out. It's now like since he wants to sell the property, he no longer wants to fix anything. Not that there is anything major but it's like he is trying to stick it to the next person who buys this place. And he has still not paid the left over amount on the water bill that was left unpaid by the previous tenant. I sure as hell am not paying for it, that's for sure!!!!

As for movies, well, I like Clint Eastwood but that is not my type of movie. Same thing about Benjamin Button movie, though I do like Brad Pitt and Cate Blanchett. I'm stuck seeing her forever as Elizabeth, Queen of England. What I would like to see if My Bloody Valentine which is a remake on diff is that this version is in 3-D. I just love horror movies but the remakes lately has been disappointing. And being the music lover that I am, I want to see the movie Notorious which is about the life of rapper Notorious B.I. G. but if you're not into rap then you prolly have no clue as to who I am talking about. It just really burns me that no one has been able to solve his murder or Tupac's. And I think that is intentional on law enforcement's part but that's just my opinion...

I am off to chill, nothing planned today but laundry, rest and relaxation. And Veritee, you have my heart felt condolences on the passing of your mother. I know how that can be, I lost both of mine... :-*
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #86 on: January 18, 2009, 12:35:49 AM »
Hello ladies,

Mum-I love the Watoto Children's Choir!  The church my mother attends here in Houston has them perform every year.  They are inspiring...they truly live their mission!  We have a few of their DVD studio recorded performances, but I prefer the live performances because they are not only entertaining, but educational.   My daughter saw them perform for the first time last year, and when the kids told their stories during the intermission, my daughter, who had been dancing and clapping along from her seat, became a bit quiet.  When we got home, she told me something to the effect of, "Mom, when they talked about how people used to hit them and spit on them because their moms had HIV, I was sad because when I was in Africa, people did that to me too.  But I didn't know it was because of my HIV; I thought it was because I was ugly.  But those kids knew why people were being mean to them and I think they thought it wasn't fair."
Veritee-I'm very sorry for your loss.  Despite the ups and downs we've had, I can't imagine losing my mother.  Anger is one of the stages of grieving, and maybe all of the unaddressed hurt you've felt due to your husband's absence is coming to the surface as a result.  I don't have any wisdom to offer, but I will keep you in my prayers.
I'm sorry if I don't directly address all of you yet in my posts the way I've seen many of you do (I mostly just reference the longer posts); it's not to exclude but more so that I'm still trying to learn who everyone is  ;D through reading and don't want to just write something that may be seen as contrived.  I do enjoy reading the posts; it's interesting how  such a diverse group of women can be the same, yet so different.  For someone like myself who has only brothers and also has more male than female friends, it's refreshing.

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #87 on: January 18, 2009, 03:23:44 AM »
I am sorry I offloaded.It is an upsetting time. Death is always difficult

And Sheri I always find it hard to address people here individually, I do try but it is not that I do not care, and I do find it very interesting what I understand from the descriptions of people/women's lives on here. I do not come on here every day and so find it hard to keep up as so many things happen in our lives and as you say we are so diverse in background, current lifestyle and circumstances that I do not always relate to what people say or know what to say about it.

For example I did not know what the Watoto Children's Choir was not had I heard of it or anything like it?  Thank you for telling us about them Mum and what your daughter Mim said to them. Fantastic! it is our children that might do the most to change how HIV is viewed.

It is a concept and a choir that I could not see ex sisting or performing in the UK, or if they or others do only in the big cities like London. But they might come here, maybe they do already and it is because I am out in the country I did not know. Love to see them if they do ever perform here .

Snow and Betty
I too struggle to participate in life this time of year when it is so cold. We have had temperatures as low as -10 which is unusual for here. Perhaps for you Snow things will look up when the court case is over? I hope your OS is not to upset by you punching him in your sleep. You must be under so much stress and I find it has to come out someway. I keep saying I will start the gym again regularly but never do
 
And Betty I nearly did not go to my class either because it was so cold - I am glad I went but nearly did not

I am usually fine in the summer but while I do not sleep all the time I feel cold and always tired and spend too much time on my PC - which is partly what my husband gets annoyed about as he always tries to do something practical and constructive for at least part of the day. But then he does sleep a lot when he is not doing stuff and usually goes to bed as early as 7 to 8pm and I do not like this as he never wants to go out in the evening and I would like to go out, also it leaves me alone most evenings while he sleeps so again I go back to my computer to talk to people. It is a bad circle for me in the winter.

This is why I can not even relate to you all even when you talk about films - I have never heard of the films you talk about. We do not have a place to hire DVDs for miles, we do not have satellite TV. And I have not been out to see a film in about 5 years, not since Barry began to be tired and unwell when home and slept all the time. Nor do we go out anywhere else as he has no interest in anything but sleeping and the TV in the evenings. I am go gin to try to change this as I think it will be good for us both. If he gets tired when if we go out he can sleep in the day.

Winroo - perhap the relatives of the man you care for are being hit by what in the UK we are calling ' the credit crunch'? Do you call it that in the US?

For us what is happening is that due to the world financial situation and banks struggling many of us even with a good credit record who service our cards properly are having our credit limits on our cards severely restricted or our cards taken away altogether. I have a good credit rating and while I do not always pay off every month  I have up to now had a large limit on all cards because I pay them off about every 4 months

I do not know what it is like in the US or other places but we mostly live on card credit here. I have not carried money for years just a card and then pay the card - I have a card for different purposes, one for my daughter Caja's expenses, one for food and household things and one for luxuries and presents.

But all my cards have had my spending limit brought right down with no prior warning and one card was taken away from me by the bank. Not for not paying it but because it was my 'luxury card' and I had paid it off totally months ago and not used it since, so as by not using it I was not giving the bank any interest income they took it away with no warning!

Maybe it is the same for your old mans relatives i.e that the card spending limit was lowered drastically and unexpectedly by the bank and without their permission, or even the card facility taken away


Thank you Queen, BT65, sherri, cjc, vivyt, snow winroo - hope I have not let anyone out? - for your condolences re my mum. It will take some time to get over her death even though she was in her 80s. My dad died several years ago and even though I did not have a great relationship with him it took a while and my husband has lost both his parents and as I nursed his mum for 4 years it was sad for me too when they died.

My husband and I have had a good talk and I think we will be OK. And I am sorry if I gave the impression that we argue all the time - which we don't - or that theses arguments are triggered mostly by my anger, it is not, as most of what I feel is huge sadness and loss at the moment.

But when we argue all I see is my anger and not my sadness for that short time and then regret my anger as I do love him very much. But the only opportunity I have to get my anger out is when we argue and he also of course gets angry back. Well I suppose that's what arguments are all about but I hate and regret them and hate that we do have them now and then.

The issues that are about my relationship with my husband is - and always has been -  the sadness that we lived apart yet remained married for so long and the loneliness we BOTH felt that has led to so many consequences, including him having sex outside the marriage and him obviously not protecting himself and ultimately me - A situation that beyond a doubt would never have happend if he had not been at sea away from me and Caja for months at a time

But yes my mothers death brought up the sadness and loss I felt most of my married life and the loss I feel that due to my unhappiness for much of her growing up that I was not able to cope with my own emotional needs nor therefore meet my own daughters emotional needs and consequently I destroyed any chance of my having the great relationship with my own child that I had with my mum.

And yes I am of course very pleased and happy for her in her new life and her new job.

And do not as such have any issues with her at present - despite my feelings due to my knowing she does not like or love me and consequently her behaviour towards me not always being great - as she has mostly been a good kid and behaved well towards herself and well towards others, other than me and has done her best under the circumstances and survived well ( as she is so relsilent and determined ) with having with one parent who was never there for her at all either physically or emotionally as he was at sea and another who was there physically but was not always there for her emotionally as I was struggling so much myself, did not have enough left for her.

But I have always done my best for her to the best of my ability and love her dearly.

but I can not change that she does not love me nor care for me as I do/did my own mum. This makes me so very sad right now as I do love my daughter and wanted so much for us the same sort of relationship that I had with my mum. But it is not to be and mostly it is my fault.

At 19 and soon to be 20 she is an adult now and only she can change this if she wants to ....but for many years she has not wanted too, she is happy with the way things are and sees no reason to change. I understand why totally - but for me, especially at this time - it is a very sad fact which I struggle to come to terms with.

Anyway counselors in the UK can be got free if you only want/need about 4 to 6 sessions, above this you normally have to pay unless you are considered to have an ongoing mental health problem, which I am not.

I have over the years had counselling for the loss I have always felt at my situation of living in a marriage with a seaman and since the HIV diagnosis have had a few sessions and will after my mum is buried go for a few more and try to continue to find peace or at least acceptance.

OK - I will now stop going on about me again and thank you all for being there and at least reading my rantings. It does help.

Veritee

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #88 on: January 18, 2009, 05:40:24 AM »
Snow, they make sugar-free Dove chocolate, too, and it is WONDERFUL!  I have to be careful with it though because it has aspertame in it.  I couldn't tell you the last time my kids had something with "real" sugar in it - except when their Nana sneaks it to them. ;) 

Veritee, the Watoto chior does perform in the UK, but I'm not sure what states.  They also perform in Germany, Isreal, Argentina, and a whole list of places that have no slipped my aging mind.  I'd never heard of them either, but was not disappointed that I went.  Also, I am so terribly sorry about the loss of your mother.

Kids here ended up with a 5-day weekend due to snow days on Thursday and Friday, and Martin Luther King, Jr. day on Monday.  We had school Thursday, some on Friday, and will still have school on Monday.  I know, I'm mean ;D.  We'll take our "extra" days when the weather is above -12F and it's sunny.  Our #6 is so fair skinned that her cheeks and nose got wind-burned just from going from the house to a warm car, then to a building, back to a warm car, and into the house. She was outside less than 30 seconds each time.  We've been putting Carmex on it, but does anyone know of something else that will work? 

Oh, yes, by the way, do you all remember a month ago when we called Doc and told her that Mini needed another prescription for her Kaletra?  Lo and behold, we got it yesterday - yes, yesterday!  Thank goodness I'd already found an "old" prescription for it that was still good.  I think someone is drugging the doctors over there - they've all lost their minds.

Queen, I think I've missed something and I apologize.  You and your sister are renting a house, yes?  And now the landlord wants to sell it.  Is he selling it as a rental property, or will you have to leave?  I do agree that he probably has no intention of fixing anything that doesn't "show up" in the appraisal or the inspection.  I know the people we bought our house from didn't and we got totally screwed.  Have you found a new place to go yet?  I know that you said you liked the place and you haven't lived there that long.  Good luck with everything - sounds like a huge headache on your end. 

Sheri, don't worry about addressing everyone individually.  I don't think anyone gets upset - I know I don't. 

Christy, hun, what can I say.  It seems like when it rains it pours.  What exactly are the teachers worried about with Robert's handwriting?  Isn't he only in kindergarten?  Are they thinking fine motor stuff or is he just practising to become a doctor? ;)

Well, ladies, it's early and it's cold.  My nose is stuffy, but runny, if that makes sense, and I'm coughing a storm.  I need to have a breathing treatment, but the machine is loud and the last thing I need is to wake up the kids before 6am.  Ladies, stay WARM and safe.

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #89 on: January 18, 2009, 09:59:08 AM »
Morning ladies,

Queen, I know who B.I.G. is.  I remember when he got shot.  And I also knew about the law not solving his or Tupac's cases.  I think they're probably getting paid off.  Or they could have even been involved.  That's just my opinion of course.

Mum, try bag balm on your little one's nose.  I believe it's also called udder cream.  It's what they use on cow's udders when they become dry and cracked.  I always found it in the drug store, though I can't remember if it was by the lotion or the diaper rash stuff.  I used that on my daughter's diaper rashes and it was the only thing that worked.  It's really good stuff. 

In a little while I'm going over to my grandkids' house.  Their "mom" wants to go grocery shopping and needs someone to watch them.  I don't blame her for wanting to go without them.  They're at the age now where they'd probably want everything.  I'm going to be taking them the stuff from my sister in Phoenix, and the couple little things I got them while out there.  It should be nice.

It's actually 13F here right now.  It snowed last night though.  I don't know how much snow we've gotten so far this year, but I think it's already way more than we got all of last winter.  Oh well, that's life.  You ladies have a good day.
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #90 on: January 18, 2009, 10:28:32 AM »
Happy New Year Ladies- it's been some time since I posted. 2008 was a year of changes for me and hard times.  I'm in a really good place now emotionally, physically, and financially.  2009, I believe, is my best year so far.  I see there are new faces and would just extend a big hug and hello. I have a bit of catching up but I'm going to start reading through this thread.

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« Reply #91 on: January 18, 2009, 10:41:34 AM »
Hey Camms! You look really good in your picture. It's nice to hear from you!

Queen- I want to see Notorious too. So is Rey replacing Sexy???

Betty- Wow! What are you going to do to celebrate the "warm-up" ? LOL Can you feel the difference between a negative temp and a positive? Have fun with the grandkids.

Mum- Look at you with all the days off. That's the one thing about California, we don't get snow days.

Veritee- Don't worry about ranting. If this is where you have to do it then go for it.

If there is anyone else I forgot....sorry.

Today Vivian is finally getting her hair cut. The groomer at the vet has been out on maternity leave so she has not had a haircut in a long time and it is past time. I thought I could wait till February but I think it is driving her crazy. I like to have her hair cut when I leave her at daycare because she gets to play before and and after. When I take her to a regular groomer she has to sit in a cage and I hate that. I told them I want her in and out today, so we shall see.

I have laundry to do but I might save it for tomorrow. I don't know what I am going to do today. Maybe just be lazy.

Have a good day everyone!

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #92 on: January 18, 2009, 12:22:26 PM »
Well-  I just finished reading through everyone's post.

Queen-  Belated Birthday to you.   I'm glad you had a good one.  My 40th is coming up in a few months and I'm wondering "what to do".

Betty-  Sounds like things are working out now that your living free of the white trash neighbors....busy with school too.

Veritee-  It sounds like you've had a really rough time and I'm sorry for your loss.  It sounds like years of pain have really taken a toll.  But those years are the past and it's time to move forward.  Don't be defeated by negative thinking for the future.  Your daughter is still very young and can still have a good relationship to with her.  It may not be easy and it will take work.  I had a close friend who's daughter absolutely despised her because of the past.  But through changing her victim mentality (as she puts it) and determination she was able to build a new relationship with her daughter.  There's always hope. 

Win-  Oh boy can I relate to your frustration at the clinic.  About  two months ago I had started meds.  I started feeling itchy and I knew something was wrong but I knew it was not the meds.  I was spending a lot time with a friend with was also itching but he had  been afflicted for months before.  So I started checking online and I was sure it was scabies.....yuck.  But my doctor told me it wasn't.  Then my Id doctor told me it wasn't.  My friend went to his doctor and he said if was dry winter skin???  If you had seen the marks you would have thought his doctor was insane.  Then  about a month  his itching got so bad I said,  "we're going to the ER today and getting to the bottom of this."  As it turns out, he was diagnosed with scabies and treated along with myself. I had just moved into my new cottage and had to clean everything...and this could have been prevented much earlier.  It was beyond frustrating and time consuming. Oh and did I mention 'ewwwwww'!

Well hope you all enjoy the rest of this day.

Hugs to you all  Christy, viv, netta and anyone else I missed.

Camms


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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #93 on: January 18, 2009, 02:39:59 PM »

Christy, hun, what can I say.  It seems like when it rains it pours.  What exactly are the teachers worried about with Robert's handwriting?  Isn't he only in kindergarten?  Are they thinking fine motor stuff or is he just practising to become a doctor? ;)


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      Minismum, that was really funny. I think he is practicing for becoming a doctor ::)    Really I think his fine motor skills are fine, he just writes very sloppy.                                                           Not much going on , just sitting around broke since unemployment didn't send me my card yet >:(.  Oh well, maybe  tuesday.                        Have a great day ladies. Camms, great to hear from you.    Cristy

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #94 on: January 18, 2009, 06:36:05 PM »
Snow, they make sugar-free Dove chocolate, too, and it is WONDERFUL! 

Sugar free chocolate usually makes people poop too. Sugar alcohol is the culprit I think.

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #95 on: January 19, 2009, 07:49:24 AM »
Good Monday morning from the frozen northern mountains.  I look out my window and all I see is white, white, white.  It's beautiful, but very short lived.  Later this week, we're getting into the 40's, a warm up of 52 degrees ;D!  Then, all I will see is brown, brown, brown...mud (YUCK!).  I checked our forecast on accuweather and we're supposed to get a dusting at 9am and 9pm.  I'd thought about bugging out of dance class, but now I won't have to.  Thank goodness for 4 wheel drive.

And, you all know how I feel about TV - I HATE it!  Well, guess what?  I turned it on to hear the weather Friday night and it went capooey!  YEAH!!!  Although, I'm not happy that it's only 13mths old - 1mth older than the warrenty. >:(  The kids still get to watch a night time movie on the computer and Hubby can watch the shows he'll just DIE without on the internet. 

Andrea, schools have been out since last Wed. and not sure if they'll cancel tomorrow or not.  We've had school, amid the groans of our kids.  We'll take "weather" days when it's sunny and warm. 

Camms, that happened to a friend of mine when they adopted their baby from Guatamala.  The doctor said it wasnt' scabes and gave them a medication that scabes actually thrive on!  She finally went the ER route, too, and that's when it got properly diagnosed. 

Winni, Mim doesn't seem to have problems with the sugar alcohol or splenda - just aspertame.  Of course, she poops all the time anyway, so honestly, who would know? 

Christy, you should see Mim's handwriting.  We're teaching her how to type, it's so bad...lol!  Our #5 (nearly 6yrs old - kindergarten) has a weak grip that makes his letters look wavy.  We got him fatter pencils, didn't help.  Then, we got him triangle pencils, and those have helped some.  Also, we give him a piece of black construction paper and a white crayon.  We tell him to color dark (which he can only do if he presses hard and grips the crayon tightly), then color light (he has to change his grip).  We do this as a "game" before his writing assignments and it has made a difference.  Maybe something you could do at home and see if it helps.

Ladies, I need to feed my army and get started with the day.  I have laundry calling my name and it's too cold for everyone to be running around nekked. :P  Have a great Monday and remember not to check the mail - it won't be coming.

Much love to you all!
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #96 on: January 19, 2009, 09:35:43 AM »
Morning ladies,

It's a bit hard to write, since reading about the passing of Kate in Living With.  Damn, life sucks sometimes, really bad.  Life ends with some people before it should.  I'm very saddened.  Anyway..

Camms, it's great to hear from you.  Scabies, aye?  Yuck.  Glad you got them cleared up.  The white trash neighbors haven't moved yet.  My landlord said they should be gone by the end of March.

Andrea, how did Vivian's haircut look?

Cristy, I hope you get your card tomorrow.

Mum, did you try the bag balm? 

Today I'm supposed to meet my best friend for lunch.  It's sunny here, but we're supposed to be getting lake snow.  No warm-ups for us for a long while (probably not 'til spring).  I hope you ladies have a good day.
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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #97 on: January 19, 2009, 12:12:47 PM »
Hey Ladies,

Just checking in. I had a great weekend. Me and DH went out to eat saturday. We had a great time. The weather here has been up and down. Today it will be 60. Last week it was 18 in the morning. We had to work to day.

BT- what happpened to Kate. Did she just die from HIV related illnesses. Every time I read that someone has passed on from this illness i just get so scared.  How old was she?

Snow- How's it going. I haven't seen you on facebook or myspace in a while.

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« Reply #98 on: January 19, 2009, 03:20:24 PM »
I  came in and read that Kate had died and rushed over to LW.  I couldn't write anything else and locked myself in the bathroom.  The kids were supposed to only have a break, but after reading it, I cancelled school for the rest of the day.  We don't cancel for holidays or snow, but we'll cancel so I can mourn in the bathroom for an hour. 

I'm really worried about her brother, Matthew.  He has Asperger Syndrome (a form of autism) and Kate took care of him while they were growing up.  He's a music teacher, but they really depended on one another.  He would send our #2 (who also has AS) Spiderman comic books.  I know he's so lost right now - I hope someone is there to help him.

I thought I could post more, but I can't.  It's just a very sad day for the entire forum.

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Re: Ladies Thread part 1. 2009 "HAPPY NEW YEAR, YOU ALL ARE SO DEAR'
« Reply #99 on: January 19, 2009, 11:50:54 PM »
Evening Everyone----

OMG, Kate passed..... :'( Geez, another lovely soul gone. It seems like when it rains it pours. My friend Jeff's sister had gone into cardiac arrest just like week. They had to induce a coma thinking it would help her body heal itself or something to that effect. Jeff told me on Saturday she never came out of the coma and that she is brain dead. Machines are keeping her body alive but her brain functions are dead so to me she has passed. Wow, I am just so blown away by this......

Snow..snow..and more snow. And I am freaking tired of shoveling. I did last night and the snow was deep as hell again today....WTH? I see I have some questions to answer here. Rey, is the new guy but we are not in a relationship, I guess you can say we are friends who are attracted to each other. Of all places to meet him, I met him on MySpace. We met in person the Sunday before my birthday and had seen each other up until Thursday. I haven't heard from him since Friday though but that's cool with me. And to answer someone's question, yeah Sexy is still around. We usually talk once or twice a week by phone or I see him once a week. He came over today..... ;) Now there is a 3rd guy but we haven't met yet, just been chatting on Yahoo. He lives a couple of hours away. Hmmm, what shall I call him...Orlando it is. He wants to come visit me. I am still thinking on it...I seem to be leaning toward Puerto Rican men which is what Rey and Orlando are. Not that I mind, I have been with black men most of my life so I don't mind the change..... :D I'm giddy from all the attention but I refuse to rush into anything. And I am leaving my options open... ;)

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