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Offline minismom

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Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« on: September 17, 2008, 07:38:48 AM »
Good morning ladies!  I know I started the last thread, but it's a new day, and we needed a new thread. 

MplsLady: Welcome, welcome, welcome to the thread.  You are officially not alone.  I've been here almost a year and I can't imagine what I ever did without these ladies.

LM: LOL..that was a duct tape moment.  We've had to padlock our upright freezer, and our laundy room.  We have 3 autisitc kids and 1 with a duel diagnosis of autism and MR.  We'd wake up with meat thawing in the dryer, or liquid detergent dumped in the icecube trays.  After a year of missing food and frozen detergent, we padlocked them this summer. 

Snow, I have SO done that!!  Heck, diapers are expensive.  When i had 5 in diapers, they would forever take each their diapers off and run around nekked.  So, I would chase after them with duct tape.  The bad part came when i couldn't find scissors to cut them out...LOL.  Or, when we were out in public and I had to buy scissors because I forgot to bring them.  You can imagine the looks I got when someone walked in and here I am wtih my 4yr old son on the changing table with a pair of scissors and him saying, "No cut me winky."  How I've not been arrested...LOL.

Betty, hun, no thanks necessary.  You touched my heart the 1st time I came here.  You are my hero and always will be.

Queen, did you ever figure out where the meetings are?  I assumed they were at your ASO.

I think I got to everyone.  If I missed someone, I'm SORRY!  I need to feed my rambling horde and get the day started.

Much love :-*
Mum

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #1 on: September 17, 2008, 09:31:00 AM »
Good Morning Ladies


Yesterday was a busy day for me. I went in to get my labs done. They also sent me to the head doctor and to the dentist.  Besides that nothing really really interesting happening in my world. I'm trying to keep my head in these books so I can graduate next year.


MplsLady: Welcome to the Forums. You are among a bunch of great women

Betty: How is school going for you.

Snow: Hiya

To all my other ladies I Love You Guys!!!

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #2 on: September 17, 2008, 11:04:00 AM »
I dont know why but I am feeling blue today. Its probably hormones.

I'm thinking today has to be the day of stupid questions here.
Step sons girlfriend has asked me

Is this your soda?

My first thought is "Did you buy any coke?" Knowing full well it is mine. She was just asking because she wanted some. No big deal.

Second question while she was folding towels from the drier.

Is this ya'lls towel?

My first thought. Well if its not yours its obviously mine. The answer is yes it is my towel.

My favorite mop broom got broken accidently. No big deal but it was worth mentioning. I'll have to replace it myself I am sure. Plus I am thinking they wont be buying any detergent or toilet paper while here.

I guess I am in a mood to bitch. Even though I am so mellow you'd never think I was annoyed. Hormones...

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #3 on: September 17, 2008, 11:40:50 AM »
Morning ladies,

Andrea, I forgot to mention you last night when I posted and I thought about it when I was in bed.  I was just too tired to get up and edit my post.  Anyway, I wasn't saying because you didn't vote in whatever that was (neighborhood something) that you couldn't bitch.  I mean people who don't vote in the big elections.

LM, I think (even though it's been years since I had a little one) you did the right thing.  Those pics you posted of Lucas are so cute. 

Queen, good for you for registering to vote!  I wish everyone felt like that.  I have a niece who doesn't believe in voting because of the electoral college.  She doesn't realize we're the ones who elect them in, and they're also influenced by popular vote.  Well, all I have to say is I better not hear her bitch.  This election is way too important.

Mum, thanks for starting the new thread.  Like the title also.  Have you heard from Mini's PID yet?

Keeping, I hear ya on keeping your head buried in the books.  My classes are hectic.  You've probably already read about my frustrations with the Microeconomics class.  I will be soooooo glad when it's over.

Wendy, it bothers me when someone stays with me and doesn't buy anything.  But, I have to remember I have to kind of lay out the rules with them.  That's why, when Alex was staying with me, I couldn't really get mad at him when he wasn't paying.  I never told him what I expected.  He finally did give me some money, but only after I mentioned something to him about it.  People who don't offer money when they have it to offer I think are rude (when they're staying with someone else and using the facilities, amenities, etc.).   Most of the people I know now would offer money for staying somewhere; but there are those people who just don't.  It seems they want to see how much they can get away with for as long as they can.  It's irritating, I know.  Well, I don't really know 'cause I only had one person staying with me.  I couldn't imagine what I'd be like if there were 3 or 4 people and no one doing anything.  I'd probably explode.  I don't know why sometimes it's so hard for us to say what we expect upfront.

I really don't have any news.  Today I'm supposed to get my glasses.  I'll be so glad to be able to see things at a distance again.  And, it says on my license I'm supposed to be wearing glasses.  So, what I've been doing is driving with my sunglasses on; that way if I'm ever pulled over, I'll tell the police they're prescription.  I don't know if that would work or not (probably not), it's just a thought.

Tonight is my government class.  We're supposed to have our first exam.  I can't believe after tonight there's only five more weeks of these classes left.  Next week will be the 1/2 way mark.  It seems the older I get, the more time goes by quickly.  When I was young, even into my early 30's, time seemed to drag ass.  Not like that anymore; well, not too often.  Have a good afternoon ladies.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #4 on: September 17, 2008, 12:12:55 PM »
Anybody want a nearly 9yo son?  He's blonde and really cute and totally annoying me at the moment.  That's why I'm on in the middle of school...LOL...otherwise, I'd be choking him (not really, but maybe).  He's decided that he is NOT going to do any work and has informed all that he doesn't care if he sits there all day and night for the rest of his life, he isn't doing anything.  Well, I guess THAT settles it, then.  I'm trying to be calm and rational and all that.  Problem is that I'm not a calm or rational human being. 

I was going to take him and Mini to our church Thursday morning to make apple dumplings, but I'll just make it a point to remind him that he's not going because his work isn't done.  AND, the kids are supposd to go to church on Saturday morning to make cookies that will be sold Sunday morning.  The money is going to buy stuffed animals for the kids who are at the Mission (homeless shelter) over Christmas.  I hate to punish him from that, too, but I'm thinking after he's left here on Thursday, he'll rethink his "no work" position.  OH, and he's not allowed to have any outside or quiet time (the only time they watch TV) until his work for today is done.  So, there he sits.

Oh, and LM, this is a combo situation: bungee cords, duct tape, AND hot glue. ;) - just in case you're taking notes.

PID hasn't called, so I'll be calling her back after lunch and leaving the exact same message, except now there are 4 days of Zerit left.  I'm already seeing that I'm going to have to modify Mini's math work.  I tried to simplify it, but it's not working out.  Dysgraphia is a serious blue donkey-butt. 

My morning gripe session is now over.  I hope you all are having a better hump day than I am. 

Love to you all!
 :-*Mum

edited to add: the title came from a cross-stitch thingy in my bathroom (I'd just gotten out when I logged on).  The complete quote is, "Prayer is asking for rain.  Faith is carrying an umbrella."  So, ladies, even if the sun is shining - go get those umbrellas!
« Last Edit: September 17, 2008, 12:16:14 PM by minismom »
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #5 on: September 17, 2008, 12:14:15 PM »
Hi GFs~

I am at home today, taking a day for ME.  I worked so far ahead at work these past two days, that tomorrow shouldn't be so bad when I return.  I guess that's why no one ever thinks I do anything at work.  I do it with lightning speed and get the shit off of my desk asap.   ;D

My mother called Monday and didn't leave a voicemail (VM).  Then she calls yest on my drive home from the docs and leaves a VM.  I didn't want to listen to it, but I did.  I love Karma!  Mom leaves this VM about my brother staying in town for two weeks and to call her.  Nope, nothing about being a bitch to me last Sunday, as if it never happened.  The Karma part?  She has laryngitis so she really can't talk!  LOL  Did I mention I really didn't want to listen to her crap anyway?  Hee hee!  I sent my brother a text and he ended up calling.  He may be in town as soon as this weekend.  He's in the Army down south, and may be redeployed overseas again sometime in the next few months, not sure.  He's been back and forth about 6 times now.

I have been really tired lately, or maybe just sleeping more soundly until that usual 330am wake-up thing I have.  I wake up at 330am, usu with high blood sugar.  Last night I was hot as hell and tested, I was 133, which is good for me overnight.  I cracked the bedroom window cause the nights are cooler here this week.  I think that fresh cool air just got to me.  I didn't fall back asleep, but I sure was tired when that alarm went off at 530am.  I snoozed until 6am, and then said nah, screw it.  They'll be fine without me.  Plus, I still have leave left and haven't called out in a few months.  I really needed the rest.  I still feel sleepy.

Yes, Queen, I have been following my division with the NFL.  I heard it was a good game from my coworker.  I wear my Redskin crocs to work everyday now cause they make my back feel better!  :D

Betty, congrats on 2 months!  You really displayed some willpower when you got that stuff in the mail.  Good job!  Are you getting 3 credits for your class, and is it just 1x a week?  Seems they are over before they start, never very long-lived.  That should make it easier if its something you don't have at the top of your list.

Win, sorry to hear about how spooky Houston looked.  I can't imagine.  I would put my foot down at home and ask when they are going to start paying you something to stay there, even if its only $75/mo or so, cause you know they'll eat that in food, and use it in TP.  :D  Maybe say that on Oct 1st you'll start "collecting rent."  Then they can slide a little cash your way, even if its late.  Are either of them working?  I forget.

The four of us bookkeepers sat around talking yest, incl PITA.  We all got along well.  We were discussing the cross-training and we all admitted we didn't really understand the benefit of it.  All its doing is confusing the entire company as to who does what in our dept.  I admitted that even though I was catching on to everything, I agreed that I didn't see what great results the changes would bring.

OK, I have to get motivated to go to Walmart.  For the first time in my life I REALLY have no money.  Savings was depleted last week, and now gas is going on my credit card so I can get to work.  I am doing my 1x/month grocery run and charging it.  I'll never get out of debt at this rate.  Well, maybe, but I'd have to get a lot of bonuses or raises at work.  I am holding out for that.  I have to work to keep my benefits.

Crap!  Almost forgot to post about the docs visit.  He added a few labs onto my usual routine, and then I said I would follow-up in October.  He thinks this may be long-term effects on my CNS due to the Sustiva and for being on meds for so long, but we can't be sure.  He said that as a last-ditch effort I could do a 4-week drug holiday, but that's only a last resort.  I told him I feared resistance and opening up a can of worms, messing up my CD4 and VL, which are good now.  He is in control and I am happy.  I feel like I have been taking care of myself, with no help.  I'm really glad I found this new doc.  This was my third visit to him, since April.

More tonight.  Anyone watch The Biggest Loser?  I liked it, should be fun!  :)

~ Cindy
« Last Edit: September 17, 2008, 05:30:28 PM by MOONLIGHT1114 »
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #6 on: September 17, 2008, 12:22:42 PM »
Mum, that story about your 9-year old is funny (him not caring if he sits there forever).  I needed to read something humerous.

Cin, yeah, the classes are 3 credit hours each, even though we meet for four hours each week.  So, this eight weeks I'm taking two classes (6 credit hours), the next eight weeks another two classes (6 more credit hours).  So yeah, in one semester (which is 16 weeks, divided by 2 8-week sessions) that'll be 12 credit hours.  It's pretty intense, because for the 8 week classes, they still shove 16 week's worth of work. 

Just wanted to stop in for a minute before I eat and try to do some micro.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #7 on: September 17, 2008, 12:49:26 PM »
You are doing good Mum. He will give in eventually. They always do.

I just felt like bitching Cindy. I'll let Billy worry about getting anything out of them. Its his blood relative not mine. I'll be sure to let the dishwashing detergent run out and the laundry detergent and this is the last pack of toilet paper I'll buy for the month.  :)

You are right Betty. My problem is once I open my mouth I cant seem to close it.  ;D

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #8 on: September 17, 2008, 04:38:46 PM »
Hello everyone.
Lucas has been his more usuall good self today. We had a wonderful time playing in the park :).
If it wasn't for his pharmacy it would be a great day. Lucas is on Videx which has to be mixed by the pharmacy then kept re fridgerated. It is only good for thirty days. He's been on this since November '06 and has been getting it from the same pharmacy every month that whole time. I called Monday morning to order his refills which should have been available Tuesday at three although I had enough through Wedsday. Tuesday night I had to run out for milk so I called the pharmacy so  they would start mixing his medicine. There was a screw up and they didn't have his request. I asked them to fill his order then and they said they didn't have the Videx. They said it was too late for an overnight delivery, but they would have it sometime Thursday. I said that wasn't good enough. With pushing they agreed to try their other pharmacy site in the morning. This morning I waited till the pharmacy had been open an hour then called. They said the other site didn't have Videx either, but hadn't bothered to call >:(. I was so hot, but kept my voice cool. They finally said they would try calling other pharmacies to see if they could get it. Unfortunately Lucas is apparently the only one on the liquid Videx in our part of the state so no one else had it. They said they would have it before noon Thursday and that being late but not missing a dose shouldn't be a big problem ::). Thank God I'm always paranoid about running out. When I measured what was left in the bottle I actually have enough for Thursday. Sorry, I just needed to vent.

Minismom - Thanks for the picture of things to come LOL. Good luck with your standoff! I love the title by the way.

Betty - My hats off to you. I don't think I could take your class schedule now that I've been out of school so long. Good luck!
 
Winiroo - My family are great house guests in that they always want to help out with cooking/cleaning and they insist on buying food even though they don't usually stay more than a few days. Even though they are great guests, I miss my freedom and am glad the visits aren't too long (I need MY space). I'd feel bitchy too if they stayed indefinitely and never helped out. Any time you need to vent feel free ;).
Amy

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #9 on: September 17, 2008, 06:23:27 PM »
Hey Ladies--

I did miss the support group but I will be going next week. Today there was an advisory meeting at the same place the group was so I went to that. I will go to the group next week. But while at the meeting, I had been listening to what others had been saying and also noticing that beside myself there was only one other female there. I also expressed wanting to work with those newly diagnosed so I am thinking, not sure though, that they might make me a Peer Advocate which would mean I would have to go through training. I just feel I would be more help there because my town is not really supportive of people with HIV or AIDS. I did refer a gay guy to the Poz site for support and knowledge. That was my good deed for today but I do feel that I want to be more involved.

Cindy, Yes, it was a helluva football game, one of the highest scoring of the season I believe they said. When do we play your Skins?

I will check back later, I have dinner going.
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2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #10 on: September 17, 2008, 07:30:11 PM »
DallASS plays Skins on my birthday weekend  :(  11/16

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #11 on: September 17, 2008, 08:24:53 PM »
DallASS plays Skins on my birthday weekend  :(  11/16

 :P

And by the time we're done with them, their booties will match their uniforms.... ;D
Started Atripla/Ziagen on 9/13/07.
10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
4/27/09 CD4- 664 VL-- undetectable
6/17/09 CD4- 438 VL- 439
8/09 CD4- 404 VL- 1,600
01-22-10-- CD4- 525 VL- 59,000
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #12 on: September 17, 2008, 09:48:51 PM »
Hello Ladies,

First I have to say WOW. I loved the 9 year old son. I don't have kids yet, but I can relate.

Today was a better day. I currently work for a major bank. I am a coordinator hoping to move up to becoming a supervisor. The issue is that in this company everyone can apply for the job. So if I want to move up, I have to apply, interview, and pray for the job. That sucks. On top of that, it does not pay as well as other banks. I though about changing jobs, but that would be a huge mistake. I found out there are over 75 applications per 1 job opening.

I have an appointment next week for my quaterly check up. I am interested to see how my stress levels have been affecting my viral load. My CD4 count has been doing good. Around 450. My viral has been staying below 10,000.

This is all due to my life at home. It is a long story. Maybe next time I post I will explain. It might be nice to hear other points of view.

Currently, I have been living in my room surfing the net. I do get out, but it is becoming increasingly cold. This worry me because I don't want to become sick. Last year I got sick and it took almost 2 months to recover.

Thank you again for allowing me to join the party.

Love all of you.

Mpls Lady
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #13 on: September 17, 2008, 10:10:24 PM »
Hi MPLS, and welcome to the Forums.  I just looked up an old thread where we have all done our "introductions."  Feel free to post your story there and read about us as well!  :)  I am Reply #22.  "By way of introduction."

http://forums.poz.com/index.php?topic=11765.0#bot

~Cindy
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #14 on: September 17, 2008, 10:18:16 PM »
Aha!  So this is the Ladies' thread.  I get it now :)

I am Ayla and am the negative (adoptive) mom of two positive kids - a first grader and preschooler.  They have been with me for less than a year but are doing fantastic.  My oldest has been on meds since she came to our home and has been undetectable the whole time.  Her CD4 count inexplicably took a plunge about four months ago and a med dosage adjustment didn't help, so we are looking into that when we see the PID next week.  My preschooler has never been on meds and maintains a VL less than 10000, CD4 counts in the high average range.  Go figure!

Anyway, I am glad to join the group!

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #15 on: September 17, 2008, 10:29:50 PM »
Welcome to the ladies area of AIDSmeds Aylaeight. We look forward to getting to know you.

My name is Wendy. I've been positive for 16 years. I tested positive while pregnant with my youngest son Justin. He passed away at the age of 4 in 1997. My husband Michael was bisexual. He passed away in 2001. I live in Texas and have a great boyfriend named Billy who has been positive for 18 or 19 years.
Billy has a son Jon that is 20 years old and I have a son that is 19 years old his name is Aaron.
Billy's son and his girlfriend Amber and their baby Haley are living with us temporarily while he is in the process of getting a job with a small town sheriffs office. Aaron lives in his own apartment right now.

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #16 on: September 17, 2008, 10:45:45 PM »
You'll all be happy to know that 9yr old made it, but Hubby's continued existence is questionable at this point.  The Boy didn't get all his work done, and wound up breaking the calculator he was using.  Hubby's answer to it: quit letting him use a calculator because when he's taking a test for a job he won't be able to use a calculator.  First, the boy is 9! Second, he's dysgraphic (the blue butt donkey, remember?), and he's autistic.  AAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!  So, I modify my last post to ask who wants a 41yr old Hubby who cleans a mean kitchen. ;)

I sat here and almost cried.  Instead, I went and colored my hair.  Then, I got mad because I picked the color, cafe con leche, because it's the way Hubby drinks his coffee.  And if that's not stupid enough, remember that i'm now stuck with a hair color that's a tribute to someone I'm mad at. 

Welcome, Ayla!  I'm the mum of 6 - 1 of whom, Mini, is poz (that's her in my avatar).  She just turned 8 and has been on meds since she was born.  It took her nearly 2yrs to become u/d.  She has multiple comorbid conditions that were originally attributed to "something" other than HIV.  Now, I know better.  If you have any questions, or just things you want to share, feel free to either post here or you can PM me.

Well, ladies, i'm off to read before I go to bed.  I feel like I need to try and work something out to revamp The Boy's curriculum.  EEERRRGGG! >:(

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« Reply #17 on: September 17, 2008, 11:21:03 PM »
Evening ladies,

Wendy, I don't know how you could stand having them stay there without saying anything when they're taking advantage of you.  I would probably explode.  I'm glad you can vent here.  We're here ya know.

#1, that situation with the Videx sounds very frustrating.  It seems to me that I was on Videx (not the liquid probably) years ago.  That med just sounds awfully familiar.  I hope you get some soon so you can stop worrying.   You know, going back to school was one of the hardest things I've done.  I graduated from high school (through adult ed) in 1983.  And the last time I was in a classroom before I went back a year and 1/2 ago was 1989.  So, it's difficult, but I also like to learn new things.

Queen, I think that's fantastic that you want to get involved with people who are newly diagnosed.  I feel like, who else to better help them than someone who actually is HIV+? 

Mpls, you're living in a room?  Do you live in a boarding house?  And do you have heat (you mentioned it getting cold)?  I wouldn't want you putting your health in jeopardy.

Aylaeight, welcome to our ladies' family!  I'm so glad you found us.  Please keep us updated on your oldest.  We get to worrying around here. ;)

Mum, hee hee.  Sorry, I'm not buying your hubby.  I've been married twice and that's enough for me.  I'll check things out with a few of my single friends though. ;)  What's your asking price?

Class went well tonight (government).  The teacher is going to e-mail us our exam, he said by 3:00 tomorrow.   So, I'll be working on that most of the day I'm sure.  I have to do laundry and tomorrow night is my HIV support group.  Other than that, just thought I'd drop by.  Have a good night ladies.
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« Reply #18 on: September 17, 2008, 11:58:04 PM »
Hi Ladies,

Betty, I don't live in a boarding room. I rent a townhouse with two guys. I like it because it is quite, but for the most part I miss living in the city. I stay about 15 miles outside of Minneapolis. I work in Minneapolis and I like it. However it is nice to get away each day. The hardest part is seeing my friends or meeting new people. Cause I live so far out it makes it tough to get into town. Mostly cause of gas prices.

I am a home body person. I love watching movies. I do enjoy it.

Well, I better go to bed. Good Nite to all.

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #19 on: September 18, 2008, 02:49:01 AM »
Hi GFs~

I woke up hot and bothered and not in a good way, mind you, lol.  My sugar was 229 at bedtime, so I took my 2 insulins at 1030pm and now here I am with a BG of 45.  I just ate 2 brownies  :D and I am waiting for them to kick in.  This doesn't help my sleep, which I have REALLY needed lately. 

Mum, sorry you're pissed at hubby.  Maybe you could use duct tape on HIM and dye HIS hair a color that everyone would be sure to notice?  Then when the color grows out, make sure you promise NO TOUCH-UPS for him, just the dreaded STRIPE down the center?  Hang in there, and if he's blonde, use Grecian formula and if he has dark hair we'll channel in some Heather Locklear L'Oreal for him, ok?   :D  There's always hot glue......

Welcome to Ayla and again to Mpls.  :)

Betty, I used to be on Videx, what Lucas is taking.  I took it along with Sustiva and Zerit a few years ago before the lipo issues set in.  What I wouldn't give to have had an exam emailed to me in college.  We didn't have email back then!  :P  We also didn't have the privacy of our home and an entire day to work on it.  I wonder if a lot of classes are like this now?  Betty, are you in adult education classes or mixed in with the spring chickens who just got out of high school?  Curious to see how things are done these days.  Part of the reason I don't go back to school is cause I'd probably knock any annoying 19yo in the nose who wouldn't shut the hell up in class, but that's just me.  Its a financial thing, lol.   "Shut the hell up because I've spent good money to take this course!"  :o

OK, I think my sugar is back to normal, and will prob rebound to 300 by 6am when I (try to) get up.  Sigh, lol.  Nighty-night.

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« Reply #20 on: September 18, 2008, 08:10:59 AM »
Cin, the teacher is e-mailing us our exam because he said there were parts of it he didn't like, so he was going to redo it.  And he can't push it back to next week, because the week after next we have another exam.  And believe me, this guy's exams are not easy just because we get to take them home.  We have to research answers; not all of them are in the book.  I mean, they have to do with the subject matter we've read (3 chapters a week), but the answers require more than just the book reading. 

I've gotten an associate in law enforcement and also certified as an executive medical assistant.  Until I came to this accelerated school, I've never had take home exams either.  I think there's just too much to remember in a short time to expect us to know everything without a peek into our books (or being able to research the answers).  Not every class I've taken here is open book or take home either.  In fact, most classes aren't.  There are only a couple teachers who (sometimes) allow take home.  So, I'm not spoiled or anything.

It's mostly adults at the school.  Thank heaven.  I feel like you Cin, that if there were some spoiled brats in the class, I'd definitely lose my temper.  In my government class there's a younger girl that sits next to me, but she keeps her mouth shut most of the time.  I've spoken with her a couple times and she seems pretty mature.  I don't know if I could go back to traditional college where it's mostly kids out of school. 

Anyway, I know I'm on early, and I don't have anything else significant to report at the moment.  But, I  just wanted to respond to Cin's questions.  And girl, I hope your blood sugars get better.  I hate it when my blood sugar crashes, even worse than when it's high.  Good luck.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #21 on: September 18, 2008, 08:36:57 AM »
Good morning!

Mum- Funny about the 9yr. old...you weren't being mean at all. Kids have to learn there are consequences to their actions.

Welcome to Ayla and Mlps! These ladies are so wonderful! I don't know what I would do without them.

Well tonight I have Back to School Night which I absolutely HATE! I have to talk about the whole school year to a room full of parents. I do not like talking in front of people. Yes, I know being a teacher I do that all day but they are kids not adults. What makes it worse is that some of the parents at our school are too involved if you know what I mean. They like to tell the teachers what they should do and how they should do it. We have a high Asian population and there is a lot of competition among them. They push their kids so much. Most of my kids come to school all day and then go to a "tutoring center" until the early evening. Some barely have time to be kids. I just get so nervous....oh well it will soon be over. :) Tomorrow night we have a Back to School Family Picnic which is fun. They bring in a Carl's Jr. truck for food, or you can bring your own, and kids, teachers, and their families can come and eat and listen to music (there is a D.J.) It's fun.

Nothing else to report.... ;D

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« Reply #22 on: September 18, 2008, 10:09:53 AM »
im so shocked! my boss paid us in forex! $50US! knock me over with a feather.  its not all that much now that the rates have plummeted coz illegal forex dealers are panicked about the new government and noone knows whats in store for us  exactly.
welcome Mpls - im also a homebody, sit me down in front of a good film and i'll never step outside. so i guess its a good thing our bathroom is outside otherwise i'd never step outside on weekends!
alya - welcome to the forum..
viv - good luck with teh back to school thing. i also hate talking in front of people ever since i was a kid. have fun at the picnic!
i gotta split , its almost home time and im so hungry all i can think of is food right now. i'll properly catch up with u later
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #23 on: September 18, 2008, 11:23:16 AM »
Morning Ladies---

Sorry to hear that your sugar crashed, Cindy. I think the Lantus shot is working better, my past 3 fasting sugars have been between 175-160 which was todays. I am up to 24 units tonight, I predicted 25 would get me at 100. So we shall see.

Betty, Yeah, a few of the people who work at the ASO thinks I would a good Peer Advocate. So, I am hoping that they will take me seriously and let me be one. I may call the one case manager and see what she says.

Not much for me to report either. I am just waking up so I am trying to clear out the cobwebs.
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« Reply #24 on: September 18, 2008, 09:41:00 PM »
Queen- I think you would be a good peer advocate too! You are good at getting your point across and don't take any shit. 

Welcome to the new ladies!  Mpls and Ayla

Ten- I don't know how you deal with the not knowing, I think I would be a mental case.  I have been thinking of you.

Viv- Who is Carl Jr?  I hope today went well and you had fun tonight.

Win- Those questions would drive me bonkers too, my sarcastic side would show its ugly face.

Betty- Hope your exam is going well and you had a good time at your support group!

Moon- Where you on the liquid Videx or the chewable?  I had the chewable and hated, HATED them.  This atripla  I take now ,one time a day is a beautiful thing.  I hope you are feeling better!

Mum- LOL!!  You are too funny!  That is just a small detail, that your son has like 7 to 10 years before he actually applies for a job that might give him a test!!  Tunnel vision is wonderful, isn't it?

I haven't been up to much.  Went to football practice tonight and froze so I went and sat in the car.  I am all messed up this week as far as what day it is, it doesn't feel like tomorrow is Friday, at all.  I am reading James Pattersons "Lifeguard" and trying to clean up around the house.

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #25 on: September 18, 2008, 10:09:02 PM »

Viv- Who is Carl Jr?  I hope today went well and you had fun tonight.


He is "Ronald McDonald"   :D    :D    :D

Sorry, just had to!

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #26 on: September 19, 2008, 05:51:23 AM »
Good morning ladies.  Another sleepless night and I'm back to my stuffy nose and coughing.  Don't worry, though it is NOTHING like the 10mth-lung-yeast-infection mess that I just got over.  This is just the typical sinus / allergy crap that seems to be going around.  Yes, I'm still taking Zertec every morning but it hasn't been working the past few days. 

Last night at the dinner table, Hubby looks at me and says, "we need to get another cheap calculator for Mini - I just don't see her doing higher math (multiplying / multi-step) without one."  I was ready to leap over the table and strangle him!  And, to top it off, Mini looks at him with those big brown eyes and says, "Thank-you, Daddy."  Thank-you WHO???  Oh, good grief!

#1 had a baseball game last night and they won 8 to 5.  Son whacked it and got on base all 3 times up and even managed to steal 2nd and 3rd with 2 outs and a full count on the runner.  He went on to home and scored the 1st run. ;D 

Queen: I, too, think you'd be a great peer counselor.  You have a good mix of sympathy and "get over it".  Let us know how it goes.

LM: I'm with you on the "oops, we don't have your meds" pharmacy thing.  It burns my butt.  Especially since, like  you, I call WAY before the prescription is due for a refill to make sure they have it.  And, if not, get them to order it.  It doesn't happen often, but it does happen. 

When Mini was on liquid Zerit, which they don't mix until i get there to pick it up and it takes forever because it was 8 bottles, some new girl handed it straight to me.  I didn't think anything about it and was greatful I didn't have to wait.  Then, I get home and find out it wasnt' mixed - still powder.  So, I called the pharmacy, which was about to close, threatened them if they didn't stay open since this was their mistake, and made the 23-mile trekk back over there.  I was FUMING!  The pharamcist had the NERVE to complain about having to stay open 15 minutes past closing.  Well BOO-HOO!  I'm so glad she's on pills now.

Betty: how'd the exam go?  I didn't realize you were in an excellerated program going at break neck speed.  That would blow my brain.  Continued good luck, hun.  The end is almost here.

Moon: how's the job going?  Are things getting any better at all?

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« Reply #27 on: September 19, 2008, 08:32:32 AM »
Well Back to School Night is over....YAY! It went well. I covered most of the stuff I needed to which was good. I always have the parents fill out a form about their child which ask them to put their hopes for their child and their strengths and weaknesses. I also have them include anything that is going on at home that they think I need to know. I like reading what the parents put. That is probably the best part!

Mum-Well I'm glad Mini is getting her calculator back. Relief for you right?

Snow-LOL! Carl's Jr. is just a hamburger place like McDonalds or Burger King.

Today is Friday!!!!  ;D ;D ;D Talk to you all later!

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« Reply #28 on: September 19, 2008, 09:15:03 AM »
Good Morning Ladies. Well, I finally got Lucas' medicine. I called yesterday at 1120 because I had been told it would be available by noon and they hadn't called. A girl with a major attitude >:( told me they just got a big shipment in and that it was probably there but they hadn't had time to go through it yet ::). She said they would call as soon as they confirmed it was there. Lucas had OT (done in our home) so we were busy till 1:30 but no calls came in. I got Lucas changed and down for his nap then called again. After being put on hold for awhile she finally comes back and says yeah its here but not ready to be picked up. When pressed she said that they needed to mix it and would do that when I arrived. Thankfully, I had enough medicine for the day. I decided to get the medicine after my grocery shopping that evening. I called as I was loading the groceries in the car and asked them to start mixing his medicine. They agreed, but oops hadn't gotten to it by the time I arrived 30 minutes later. They apologized and said it would be just a minute ::). Thirty minutes later I finally got his medicine >:(. Unbelievable! Hopefully this never happens again. One of the Pharmacists I talked to Wedsday gave me her name and hours and said to call and ask for her from now on when ordering his medicine. Sorry for going on like that, I just needed to get it out of my system.

Mum - I'm sorry you've had the same kind of problems. It's like they don't have any concept of how important it is. I'm glad minis on pills now. Did the Doctor ever call to change her medicine? It sounds like your hubby and mine are a lot alike  ::). They just don't look at things the same way as us. It's a good thing we love our men or they would be the ones with duck tape, bungee cords & hot glue LOL. (Speaking of duck tape, Lucas presented me with a dry diaper and wet crib yesterday so I guess it's duck tape here I come LOL.) Congratulations to your baseball star. I hope you feel better soon.

Cindy - I hope you feel better. Those big blood glucose swings really take it out of you.

Well I better get going. I hope everyone has a Blessed day. Thanks for giving me a place to come and vent or chat where people understand :-*.
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« Reply #29 on: September 19, 2008, 03:20:52 PM »
We dont have Carl's Jr.s here either. But I've seen one on a road trip before.

#1 "makes me think of Star Trek's William Riker" I'd want to choke those pharmacy peeps silly

I'm not a sports fan but I am going to a baseball game tonight. The Texas Rangers vs who knows I dont care. LOL Supposedly they are good tickets and I should be excited. Billy got them from a business meeting. The upside is that there where 4 tickets and Billy gave the other two to a gal pal and her boy toy so I should have fun even though I hate sports.

I've been sleeping during the day more often. I think I am trying to get my own space. No one bothers me when I am asleep and in my room. I likely need more sleep anyway.

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« Reply #30 on: September 19, 2008, 05:05:16 PM »
good afternoon my virally enhanced sister hood
welcome to the new ladies :) glad you found us
sorry ladies that i haven't been on
daughter update well she finally came home but she tells me I have only come to get some things I'm staying with a friend like I don't know its the guy, anyhow a week goes by and she come by wants a ride to my sisters, later that day right after my dentist appt( they pulled 2 teeth ouch) my sister calls to tell me my daughter realizes she made a mistake but doesn't want to admit it to me so shes moving in with my sister, which is better then the guy but my sister is having a hard time right now and is getting ready to lose her house our mom already lives with her, so I must be this really bad person that my daughter would rather live there then with me where she'll want for nothing, and may I deserve all this who knows anyways i haven't really felt much like being or doing anything if I don't pull my head out of my $$$ I'm going to end repeating this semester Ive already gotten bad scores on 2 tests this last week, you know something gotta break and at this point it feels like its going to be me. it seems lately I'm more down then up and I'm always freaking out about something sorry to let it all out here I have got to get homework done hope everyone is good
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #31 on: September 19, 2008, 06:01:48 PM »
Try not to blame yourself Brandy. Our kids do some fucked up stuff sometimes. It isnt always our fault. I keep trying to tell myself that all the time about my son. Who BTW keeps me awake at nights often worrying about him because he is consistantly doing things that make me shake my head and wonder or he is doing the opposite of what ever I tell him because he thinks he knows more than I do maybe.
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« Reply #32 on: September 19, 2008, 07:52:08 PM »
Evening ladies,

I hope this posts. I came on this morning and couldn't get anything to work.  Anyway,

Andrea, I'd like to read those papers the parents turn in.  Is there a lot of "situations" they put going on in the home they feel you should know about? 

Tendai, I just wish ya peace, gf.  I wish you had knowledge of everything that was going on with your govt. and everything that was coming.  I don't know how you do it; you're tough.

Snow, it doesn't feel like Friday today.  My days are mixed up and I don't even have kids living at home. :P

Mum, I hope you feel better soon.  You sure have your share of chest/sinus problems.

#1mom, sorry you have to go through so much to get your son's medicine.  I would rip them a new one.

Wendy, I don't blame you for wanting your own space.  That's a lot to deal with.  I hope you enjoy the baseball game.

Brandy, I'm sorry your daughter is putting you through all this turmoil.  It sounds like you two need joint counseling (and she needs individual as well).  I'm sure there's a lot of stuff you two need to deal with if things will get any better.  Good luck to you and hang in there.

Nothing much to report.  Today I got some gas, a new bed for my kitty, and a few other things.  My best gay friend and I went out to supper tonight.  Other than that, I'll probably do some homework later.  I hope you ladies have a good evening.
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« Reply #33 on: September 19, 2008, 09:08:44 PM »
"Sisterhood of the Virally Enhanced"...I think we've found the title for the Ladies' Thread #47.

Betty, where'd you go for supper?  Have you finished your exam yet?  I'm glad you got out and had some down time.  Are you down to 5 econ classes yet?  We need to have the official Econ-Countdown..lol.  Keep trekken, hun, it'll all be over soon.

Wendy, have FUN tonight.  I think you and I were twins separated at birth.  I HATE sports.  I've wind up having to figure out the ones my kids play, but I can't stand to watch them.  I went to a highschool that had no sports, so the whole Friday game night never meant anything to me.  When I was in college, Hubby took me to a basketball game and a couple of years ago, my uncle and aunt got us tickets to a WVU vs LSU (our alma-mater) basketball game.  LOL..I brought a book - and they won!

Cindy, I read your response in T&SE and thought it would be better to post some thoughts here.  I didn't want to hijack your thread.  Honestly, this is one of my biggest fears: that the side-effects that Mini is having now will only get worse.  You've been poz for 16yrs (?) and I see the issues that the meds and virus are having on you and other LTS.  Then I think, wow, when Mini's been poz for 16yrs, she'll be 16yrs old.  In 2yrs, at the age of 10, she'll officially be a LTS. 

By the age of 8mths, she was diagnosed with delayed mylenization, motor planning issues, and fine motor delays. By the age of 4, she was diagnosed with spastic diplegic CP, diabetes, high cholesterol / triglycerides.  By the age of 6, she was diagnosed with dyslexia, dysgraphia, long- and short-term memory issues, and poor hand / eye coordination.  So, yeah...crap!

Andrea, using a calculator is just about the ONLY way Mini can do higher function math (multiplication / multi-step problems).  At 8, she still has problems counting to 20. :-\  We use touch math for her simpler addition problems.  She also has an addition chart to use for "bigger" numbers.  Problem with the chart is that she has problems keeping her fingers on the right line and is usually 1 number off.  We're working on having her use a ruler for the verticle number and then sliding her finger down from the horizontal (top) row.  I hope that makes sense. 

She's come SO far with her reading and went from reading on a kindergarten level to reading at a 2nd grade level in a few months - I kid you NOT.  We used a technique suggested by the leading dyslexic researcher in the US.  I didn't think it would work, but it did!  Now, she's starting 3rd grade and reads on level.  Just don't ask her to spell.  At the suggestion of her Neuro-psychologist, we're also teaching her how to type...don't ask.  No, really, don't ask.

I'm feeling a wee bit better, but not up to par.  Betty, I've always suffered from sinus / allergy stuff.  Whatever I'm dealing with is going around.  My mom had it towards the end of our trip and it took her about a week to get over it.  My biggest problem is that when i don't feel good I don't eat.  Then, my sugar crashes and I get into really bad shape.  Hubby went to IGA and got me some OJ and soup.  He's doing a good job making sure I rest and eat. (suck up!)

Tomorrow, the kids are going to church to bake cookies that will be sold on Sunday after church.  The money will be used to buy stuffed animals for kids who are at the Mission (homeless shelter) during Christmas.  The coordinators said that there are between 17 - 25 kids every Christmas.  The animals have to be small because the kids sleep on cots.  It's so sad, but the kids are excited about being able to do something.

Then, we're bringing them to the airport for Young Eagles' Day.  It's when the EAA and Pilot's Club get together and give kids ages 8 - 17 free airplane rides in Cessnas.  My dad is one of the people flying, so he's going to "sneak" #5 (he's only 5 1/2) onto the plane because he wants to fly, too.  I'll be sure to take lots of pictures.  After they fly, the kids get certificates and t-shirts.  It should be a lot of fun.

It's just after 9pm and I don't think I'm going to make it to 10pm and Stargate Atlantis.  I'm finally getting sleepy.  I hope you ladies have the best of weekends.  Stay safe and have fun!

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« Reply #34 on: September 19, 2008, 11:10:23 PM »
Mum, I haven't even started on the exam yet.  I'll do it tomorrow.  And yeah, only five more microecon classes (and government classes).  Let the countdown begin. 

What you're doing with Mini is fantastic.  You and I disagree on political issues etc., but you really do a great job with those kids and I take my hat off to ya, mum.
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« Reply #35 on: September 20, 2008, 09:17:50 AM »
Hi GFs~

Had a good night's sleep at Iceman's the past two nights, and actually left work early yesterday.  I was talking with some women at lunch, one of whom lives in Ice's same town, and I told her I drove down from there Friday morning.  I told her how long it took and her jaw dropped.  I was thinking to myself,"Go ahead and say that it took forever for me to get here, and get it the hell overwith."  She is a supervisor of sorts while mine is out of town.  She started ranting about how it takes her half the time to get to work.  Granted, she comes in late and misses the traffic while I am in the throws of it.  I told her I stayed off of the highways cause I can't drive fast these days.  I would rather take the non-highway roads and have the lights to "rest" at with this entire motor function/sensory perception/balance/wtf is going on thing.  Sigh.

I told the table I have had probs for years but they are becoming more bothersome as of late and that they are checking me for Lyme disease (which doc IS doing, anyway).  Can you see if I said I was on toxic meds and they are possibly having long-term effects on my CNS?  Hee hee, but I shudder at the thought.  People are so rude anyway, imagine if I threw that out there, lol.

Mum, this December marks 15 years since my diagnosis.  I mentioned to doc that Sustiva has only been around about ten years and maybe just NOW we are starting to show these weird long-term effects.  I was on AZT in the beginning in 1995, then Combivir and Fortovase(saquinavir) for 6 years 1996-2002.  I started Sustiva/Videx EC/Zerit in Sept 2002 and that was switched to Sustiva with Truvada in Oct 2005. 

So, its been a lot of years with meds.  Labs will be drawn this week, so we'll see.

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #36 on: September 20, 2008, 05:31:44 PM »
It seems to be really quite around here on the weekend. Everyone must be out having a life... ;D

Cindy-Have you ever told any of your coworkers about being HIV + ? I know you are pretty open so I just wondered how you handled that

Mum- Touch Math is really good program. A lot of the primary teachers at my school use it. I went to a meeting about it a couple of years ago but I have not used it in class. My grade levels for math and I have the lower group and I have thought about using it with the kids that really have some gaps.

Wendy-Still hanging in there with your house guests?  :)

Last night was the picnic and it was nice. Some of my old students came back and it is always nice to see them. They grow up so fast! It's funny because when they come to visit sometimes they do not have too much to say, especially the boys. They just kind of stand there and I just make small talk. It's cute because they are at that awkward age (12-14) and don't really know what to say. Anyways...I only stayed for about an hour because I had to pick up Vivian, my four-legged baby.

I haven't done much today except some laundry. It is nice to just rest....Have a good day everyone!


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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #37 on: September 20, 2008, 06:20:07 PM »
Cindy-Have you ever told any of your coworkers about being HIV + ? I know you are pretty open so I just wondered how you handled that

I have never told co-workers, I am actually very private about most things.  It took me 5 years to disclose to my parents, AFTER I walked down the aisle and buried my late husband.

If I WERE to disclose to co-workers, it would be when someone REALLY REALLY pisses me the F off and I throw it out there to get them to leave me the F alone.  Like PITA, for example.  People look at me and THINK they know how my life is.  Great boyfriend, great smile, home-owner.....They have no idea what really goes on with me.  Yep, saving disclosure for pure AMMO, nothing else, for the shock factor, if needed.  Heh-heh.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #38 on: September 20, 2008, 06:27:29 PM »
I actually enjoyed the game. I suppose because I understand baseball unlike other sports plus the $11 margarita helped. LOL  I still wouldnt want to watch any sports on tv.
They where super good seats. We where 5 rows behind Nolan Ryan and 6 rows behind the owner and manager of the team. I covered the faces of my friends because they aren't as open about their status as I am.



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« Reply #39 on: September 20, 2008, 09:39:17 PM »
Cin, what does your doctor think about the possibility of your problems being a result of being on Sustiva for so long?  Is that something he's willing to explore?  I sure hope so.

Andrea, glad you had a good time at the picnic.  It is quiet here today.  Of course, I just came on.

Wendy, those are cool pictures.  I watch the Chicago Cubs.  I was raised with them (my older brother).  I've been to a few games and I just love it.  Hopefully they'll make the play-offs this year.

I got my government exam done and even did another chapter in microecon.  My best friend and I went out to eat, went and got a coffee and went to a meeting (NA).  I actually got teary, talking about writing letters of ammends to both my parents.  I still miss them, especially my mum.  Anyway.....have a great night ladies.
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« Reply #40 on: September 20, 2008, 11:21:07 PM »
Hello Ladies!!

Just checkin in. welcome to the new ladies.. nothin new happening. i had a bitch of a week i will hv to catch up with all of you tuesday. hugs n kisses

so is anyone voting? i came acroos this. i found it very enlightening, the heading was please help me I am a bit confused!!!!

Author unknown

I'm a little confused. Let me see if I have this straight.....
If you grow up in Hawaii, raised by your grandparents, you're 'exotic,
different.'
Grow up in Alaska eating mooseburgers, and you are a quintessential
American story.

If your name is Barack you're a radical, unpatriotic Muslim.
If you name your kids Willow, Trig and Track, you're a maverick.
Graduate from Harvard law School and you are unstable.
Attend 5 different small colleges before graduating, you're well
grounded.

If you spend 3 years as a brilliant community organizer, become the
first black President of the Harvard Law Review, create a voter
registration drive that registers 150,000 new voters, spend 12 years as
a Constitutional Law professor, spend 8 years as a State Senator
representing a district with over 750,000 people, become chairman of the
state Senate's Health and Human Services committee, spend 4 years in the
United States Senate representing a state of 13 million people while
sponsoring 131 bills and serving on the Foreign Affairs, Environment and
Public Works and Veteran's Affairs committees, you don't have any real
leadership experience.
If your total resume is: local weather girl, 4 years on the city
council and 6 years as the mayor of a town with less than 7,000 people,
20 months as the governor of a state with only 650,000 people, then
you're qualified to become the country's second highest ranking
executive.

If you have been married to the same woman for 19 years while raising 2
beautiful daughters, all within Protestant churches, you're not a real
Christian.
If you cheated on your first wife with a rich heiress, and left your
disfigured wife and married the heiress the next month, you're a
Christian.

If you teach responsible, age appropriate sex education, including the
proper use of birth control, you are eroding the fiber of society.
If , while governor, you staunchly advocate abstinence only, with no
other option in sex education in your state's school system while your
unwed teen daughter ends up pregnant , you're very responsible.

If your wife is a Harvard graduate laywer who gave up a position in a
prestigious law firm to work for the betterment of her inner city
community, then gave that up to raise a family, your family's values
don't represent America's.
If you're husband is nicknamed 'First Dude', with at least one DUI
conviction and no college education, who didn't register to vote until
age 25 and once was a member of a group that advocated the secession of
Alaska from the USA, your family is extremely admirable.


OK, much clearer now.

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« Reply #41 on: September 21, 2008, 05:34:40 AM »
Hi ladies, long time....

I came back from france last week and had a lot on my plate. Im sorry not to keep with you in presence, but I do in spirit.

Tatenda, that was brilliant!!!
I wish I were optimistic i really do. that woman scares the living crap out of me  :o just looking at her plastic face gives me shivers.

Tendai, congratulate you sis for me. I am hopeful about the situation, at least its a big step for mugabe to share the throne. i know it is far from secure, I am just hopeful.

#1mum hi & welcome

Wendy I read what you wrote about houston. my BF has been to houston downtown and he told me it was the scariest place hed ever been. of course he'd never been to any other inner city in the us but he has lived in london so he knows some rough areas. but i imagine with the electric down and all that chaos was scary as hell. Im glad your families are doing good.

Betty Im so proud of you for keeping up the struggle and not smoking, i know how hard it is. how ironic with those coupons coming in the mail. ugh. whenever you get the urge think about all those eveil tobacco company execs trying to get people hooked and lying about putting addictive substances in the cigs, there was a movie about it but cant recall the name. (((Betty))) did i say i was proud of you?

Cindy sounds like things are cooling off at the job. PITA must feel threatened by you and thats why she is being so snotty. Let it slide off of you... congrats on meeting ice's 2nd child. i knew you'd get along, what's not to like? btw your hair is so blonde now... since I live in the land of natural blonds, I am so envious. I dont even try to look blonde anymore, i cant pass it off here... i hope you get off sustiva, i couldnt handle it myself. maybe your symptoms will get better, hopefully.

Jamie its nice to see you back here and Im so glad the kids are with you!

Andrea have a great school year! looks like youre really good if kids come back and visit, i certainly never did visit my teachers again.

Brandy hope things improve with your daughter but at least you know shes at a safe place with your sis. I feel so bad reading your posts b/c Ive put my folks thru so much worse! now I have so many guilty feelings about that. Its been over 20 years though but still makes me shudder...

Queen so how is Mr Sexy? enjoy...

Mom (mini's) you must have the patience of a saint, even though you say differently. Id love to be a fly on the wall in your house and see how things operate, Im sure Id get a lot of ideas on time management and getting things done.

I know Im missing some people, its just been ages and writing off the top of my head with what I recall. Things here are good, the wedding is approaching in huge stpes, less than a month now, but at the end of next week I go away again for about a week, so thats another thing Im preoccupied with. but when I do think about the wedding I get super nervous as well as super happy. We are going to start fertility checks in 2 weeks and have a meeting schedueled next week to see what all that entails. Its a meeting with couples who have problems and will be all in dutch so Im not sure what I'll understand. of course, the other couples will not be aware that Im poz and on HAART and thats an additional factor.

Ive been a bitter bitch before getting my period, which was 9 days late. Its amazing the mood shift that happens when you get it. it was not externally (thank God) but inside I was seething with anxiety, anger, resentment, restlessness (and you may continue this list with any negative emotion that comes to mind). I wish there was something to do about that.

so, sending you all a big hug from the muddy plains (the netherlands)
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #42 on: September 21, 2008, 12:49:01 PM »
So nice to hear from you, Drag.  I know you're a busy girl, but stay in touch when you can!  :)

BTW, that pic is from last March 2008, I go out more in the cold months and my hair actually gets lighter then, lol.   :P

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« Reply #43 on: September 21, 2008, 12:58:18 PM »
Hey, Just checking in. My shoulder has been killing me. I have to get it x rayed next week. My doc thinks it is a pinched nerve so he gave me some darvocets. Not a pill popper like that but have been taking it, it really knocks me out but then 4 hours later my shoulder is hurting again. I usually go between the pills and some Icy Hot which is starting not to work as well either.

Messing around with downloading stuff for my MySpace page, I caught a freaking virus so I had to reformat the computer, lost everything....Grrrrr. Woke up today with a high sugar of 290 but I had been munching last night.

I guess Sexy is alright. I saw him when I went out Friday night with some friends. We have talked off and on some. Not to say the thrill is gone but kind of been sidetracked with the pain in my shoulder.

My nephew should be over later, I have to braid his hair. I can feel the pain now...*sighs*

Modified to add: Sexy just called. He says he has been leaving me alone because he knows about my sore shoulder. But plans are in the works....
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« Reply #44 on: September 21, 2008, 05:50:07 PM »
I could have sworn I posted earlier; it must have gotten lost.  Anyway,

Tatenda, someone sent me that article about a week ago.  I really like it and of course forwarded it to everyone I know.

Drag, so good to hear from you.  Wow, less than a month.  You must be so excited.  Good luck with the fertility checks.  I'm not sure what all that involves, but I hope it's successful.

Queen, good luck with Sexy.  Sorry about the pain in your shoulder.

I haven't done squat today other than get a newspaper this morning.  No shower, no homework, zip.  I did take a two hour nap.  I'm not sure what's going on, just a lazy day I suppose.  I hope you ladies have a good day.
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« Reply #45 on: September 21, 2008, 05:54:50 PM »
Hi Ladies, Mis you all, just checking in, At my DD house. I will be gladto get my internet up and working again soon. The play at church was great! I was hilarious!!! lol played a bimbo at work sleeping with the boss!!!!
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« Reply #46 on: September 22, 2008, 02:17:32 PM »
Hey laides,

I'm not going to drone on too much.  I'm having a hard day, mentally.  I was in an NA meeting Saturday night and someone talked about the feelings surrounding losing their father.  That brought up a lot of memories of my parents, mostly my mum, that has, in a way, gotten me down. 

I realize not everyone has, or had, the luxury of having good parents.  Well, my mum was my stronghold through all of my fucked up life.  Whenever I went into severe withdrawals from the mess of drugs I was on, my mum cleaned me up and took me to the ER to get some relief.  She would drive me to the local mental health hospital when I decided it was time to dry out (several times that happened).  She would always call to find out how I was doing.  She would bring me groceries when I had none because of wreckless spending.  I'm not saying she poured money on me (my parents were not, in any way, wealthy).   She just sometimes provided the basics of life when I squandered my disaiblity money.  And my dad, well, he would tell me he loved me anyway, no matter the mess I made of myself.

I went out and bought a pack of smokes today.  I guess I needed that little rush of dopamine to feel a bit better.  I tell myself it's better than picking up a drink (or 10) or buying a bag of h.  The ill-feelings of smoking two packs a day are a distant memory right now, though I know will return if I keep smoking.  I took myself off the Chantix after six weeks, and I believe one's supposed to stay on it for 12 weeks, not 100% sure.  So, back on the Chantix I go.  And hopefully, I can get some homework done today. 

Edited to add:  I'm not saying I need to be treated like a baby or coddled.  I'm saying I miss my parents. I also have not felt well physically these past couple days, which always adds to a fucked-up mental attitude.  I've had horrific runs and a burning tummy.  Yeah, I know, waah.  I'll feel better.  I guess I just needed to vent for a minute.
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« Reply #47 on: September 22, 2008, 04:55:25 PM »
hi ladies,

Im pretty wiped out...

Netta - Im sure you were great its so nice to hear you had so much fun. Ive never been in a play, it must be such a high.

Snow - I forgot to mention that I read your post on the Living with, I am so concerned with you about minimizing the nightmare of that piece of crap. some people should just be seperated from society and he's one of them, even if he doesnt sufficiently break the law to warrant it. I hope you will have your SO, friends, and family around you to give you the protection and support that you need, cos you need it. Sorry for writing it here its just a bit old thread and I know you check in regularly and I have been thinking of you. Its just, you and the kids deserve to be secure, you know?

Betty, it sucks about the smokes, but hey. You have the 2 months behind you and you will get back on the wagon. Im sorry youre in so much pain right now. Your parents were there for you and you were there for them. You shared a lot of love and thats what matters, they would be happy knowing you continue to share that with your siblings and a lot of people around you. I too have my "black holes" of regrets and all that. But you know what, not many people get to live thru second chances like that. And your parents got to see you make it there.

I really feel like crap so cutting short, its just been a long day and my muscles are so cramped I walk like an old lady. I hope everyone else is doing good.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #48 on: September 22, 2008, 08:23:36 PM »
Betty, I'd rather you smoke a few cigarettes than get mixed up with drugs again. Don't be too hard on yourself.

I found out today the kids are supposed to be moving out around the first of the month.  :D
I've taken two naps today and I am still tired. I've been bleeding all week and I think thats why I am so tired. It's menstral bleeding dont worry about it.
I'm nearly done with my Dreamcatcher book. The book is nearly identical to the movie. It has a little bit more stuff in it though. I am enjoying it. I dont know what I will read next but I have several books waiting in the front bedroom.
Now that I think about it I guess I had 3 naps. I went to the county hospital pharmacy to get refills and since you have to wait forever I brought a comforter and a couple of pillows. I covered the back window of my car and one of the windows in the back seat and laid down in the back of the car for an hour while I waited.


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« Reply #49 on: September 22, 2008, 09:37:20 PM »
Betty, don't beat yourself up. One day at a time... :) We've all had bad days. Your parents had unconditional love for you and that's all you can ask for from parents. I wish I was there so I could give you a big hug!!! Tomorrow's another day.  :)

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« Reply #50 on: September 22, 2008, 10:33:01 PM »
Now that I think about it I guess I had 3 naps. I went to the county hospital pharmacy to get refills and since you have to wait forever I brought a comforter and a couple of pillows. I covered the back window of my car and one of the windows in the back seat and laid down in the back of the car for an hour while I waited.

OMG, lmao, Win, you are a HOOT!  You always make me laugh!  YAY on the kids movin' on out (don't hold your breath, tho.....)   ;D

Betty~  I can feel your sadness.  You are a big poster in this thread, you're always here lifting others up when they need you.  Its OK to FEEL emotions once in awhile.  I'm so sorry you're missing your parents.  Your mother was always there for you, and because she gave you strength, you are passing it forward in a sense.  You're here for US.  She's smiling at you tonight.  Maybe she's saying, "Look at my girl, she could be using or drinking and she's beating herself up over a few cigarettes."

Ya done good, BT, pat yourself on the back.  Big hugs to you tonight.  {{{{{ BT }}}}}

Queen, how's the shoulder?  We want the latest soap update on Sexy when ya have it.   :P

Netta~I have a vision of you up on the altar messin' around with the boss!  Hee-hee!  Sounds like you had a blast from what you posted, just keep your pants on, GF!  Hee!!   ;)

Drag~You and I could have races, or maybe be on the same team and have a three-legged race.  I have been having it rough over here myself.  Lots of warm blankies for you, feel better!

Not many posts tonight, I wonder if its because they are fixing that corrupted file?  Well, I called insurance yesterday, 3x today, as well as the lab, trying to figure out if a not-so-popular but much better lab could do my blood draw.  You know I got six different answers.  I kept telling my insurance that this location HAD to be approved because a certain other similar location was approved.  Wouldn't you know it?  I was right!  :D  The lab is only a year old and insurance didn't have them updated on their website.  Yeah, call me Sherlock Cindy, cause I'll figure the shit out, esp if I have a gut feeling about it, lol. 

So, I fast tomorrow morning and go get my labs, incl Lyme disease, syphilis and Hep C.  I REALLY think I may be having NECK trouble which is leading to my unbalanced feelings.  I felt my blood pressure suddenly take a nose-dive while sitting at my desk today.  I got very hot, cheeks felt flushed, and I had that "full" feeling in my ears, like I was gonna pass out or something, although I have never done that before.  I leaned back and supported my neck on the back of my chair for a moment.  A co-worker stopped and said I looked as white as a ghost.  When DON'T I lol?   :D  I had been bent over checkbooks, reconciling statements for hours and I think my neck stiffened up, then got too tight and then the BP dropped.

I'll be sure to tell my doc about it when I see him.  I really don't want to go off of Sustiva if its my neck that is screwing with me.  I came home after a long slow drive tonight and put heat on my neck.  A little later I put my head in traction with a chin strap device that hooks over your door.  You add weight by putting water in a bag.  I did 8lbs for 12 minutes and it felt like pure heaven to not have to support my lolly-gagging head.  I am going to try and do this every night. 

Iceman had me walk around his neighborhood and down the main drag yesterday for 1.25 miles, a 30-minute walk.  I held his hand the entire way so I wouldn't fall over.  We did good.  My sugars have been averaging around 205 for weeks now, but I keep loading up carbs so I don't have something else in the mix on the drive home from work each day.  I need to let go of this fear of low blood sugar and get in better control.  We'll see what the labs read.

OK, I've been rambling.  Time to go sleep cause ears are ringing and Sustiva is kickin' in.  Good night to all of my GFs.  :)  Where is Mum?

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« Reply #51 on: September 22, 2008, 11:29:33 PM »
Evening all,

Netta, I would love to see that play.  Sorry about not commenting on it earlier; I was kinda in a funk. 

Drag, why are your muscles so cramped up?  Do you get that often?

Wendy, you are a funny gal (putting the pillows in the backseat).  I can't say I blame you.  So, you've been bleeding for a week?  Is it heavy?  Is that normal for you to bleed so long?  And hey, good on the kids moving.  That'll free up some of your space.

Andrea, thanks for the kind words.  How's school?

Cin, you are quite the detective.  I'll have to remember that next time I want to know something about somebody. ;)  I really hope the doctors can figure out what exactly is causing your neck problem.  It's so frustrating! Have you discussed with your doctor the possiblity of it being Sustiva?  Kinda doesn't sound like it since you seem to have centralized pain in your neck when the episodes happen.  Of course, I'm not a doctor.  I just wish they would find out what it is so it can be treated.

Once again, you ladies help more than you know.  I thank you for your kind words.  I know I'm going to have days that are worse than others.  When my 1st husband died when I was in treatment, it took a couple years to get back to an emotionally even keel.   Drugs aren't an option.  If I started using again, this time I'd never come back.  And that's one of the main things that keeps me clean.  Actually the withdrawals are the #1 reason.  'Cause when one's a using addict, withdrawals are a given (running out).

The evening seemed to go by better.  I had to call my landlord over because of plumbing issues.  He looked around, called the plumber and got the answering service.  He said he'd call them again first thing in the morning then call me and let me know what time they'll be over.  Tree roots.  I just hope things don't back up into my shower (which has happened before) before they get here.  Other than that, I'm going to check out a few threads and call it a night.  Have a good one ladies.

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« Reply #52 on: September 23, 2008, 06:52:24 AM »
Hie ladies

Betty - i hope u feeling better, hang in there. Better a couple of cigs than readdiction to drugs. Did the plumbers come and fix the pipes?

Queen - hows the shoulder now?  Sexy should've taken the opportunity to come over and fuss over you :)

Drag - u need to go to a spa or something, get a full-body massage and the steam baths and everything.Or maybe Mr Drag can do that for you ;).  i hope u're not oveworking or anything.  Good luck with the fertility tests. How cool would it be if u got pregnant on your wedding night :) 

Cindy - sorry u're still having problems with your balance, must be awful. i hope they find out whats wrong and fix it.  Hey congrats on meeting Ice's kids, glad it went well.

Wendy- looks like u had fun at the game. bet u're thrilled to be having your place to yourself soon. i sometimes end up feeling invaded when i have guests im not crazy about

Netta - glad u had fun with the play. will u be doing anthing like it again?

Viv - hows those kids of yours?

Tatenda - ndeipi yako? hope this week is better than last week..

Brandy - im hoping the phase your daughters in will be over soon.

Well, work is fine these days, dr evil's calmed down a bit so no major dramas on that front lately. i guess if he sees the money rolling in he's a happy man.

That guy (the leg-humper) this weekend, on Friday he just shows up at my place uninvited and unwanted and my older sister was there for the night. i was so furious. of course i couldnt show it coz i had to behave in front of my sister. i was pissed off coz i felt taken for granted that he felt he could just get up and come to my place without an invitation.  I told him as i walked him to his car that i didnt like suprise visits and he says but i sent u a message that i was coming. Liar! i never got any message. i told him the only message i got from him was when he was asking if i was still in town. apparently he thought that that message therefore meant that he could come to my house since i couldnt reply him having no airtime in my phone.  I just felt it was disrespectful and he was being too.. familiar? (Tatenda i told him Usandijairira).

 I know it was rude of me seeing as he's been doing all this stuff for me even though i never asked him.  I mean it wont make me fall in love with him or anything and i dont want to take advantage of his generosity.  he's just not what i want exactly in a boyfriend.  and i know i shdnt be so choosy since generous guys arent exactly numerous here. Gosh he even showed up at work and my colleagues were laughing at me.  I was supposed to see him on sunday but i had a real excuse.  I had no airtime to call him and he wouldnt dare just show up after what i said on friday. He's been quiet since then , not phoning or texting as he used to do. Oh well.

Anyway ladies, u all have a great day!



 

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #53 on: September 23, 2008, 08:21:27 AM »
Good Morning Ladies!

Tendai- You should not feel bad about anything. Just because he wants to do thing for you doesn't mean you owe him anything. I am with you about the showing up. I can't stand it when people do that. You have every right to be choosy. Don't settle.

Drag- I hope thing settle down soon. Good luck with the fertility stuff!

Queen-What did the doctor say about your shoulder?

Betty-That's the least I could do... :)

Cindy-I hope you get this balance thing figured out. It has been going on for way too long. How are things with Ice's girls?

Netta- You are crazy!  :) How are things?

Wendy- Well that's nice that you have an exit date. I wonder why you are so tired? I get bouts of tiredness too. Must be the HIV

If there is anyone else I forgot I am sorry. School is good. It does get a little discouraging sometimes. There are MANY bad habits that a lot of these kids have learned. This is the time of year when they have to be "trained". There are many very bright kids but they do the bare minimum...such is the struggle of a teacher. There really isn't anything exciting going on which is good and bad, LOL! Oh, I did have a request from a student that I do something fun over the weekend so that I could tell the class about what I did. He is a little strange....

That's all for now!

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #54 on: September 23, 2008, 10:55:35 AM »
How old are these kids again Viv?

Cindy the mental picture I got of your head in traction was funny. I hope you figure out what the deal is soon.

Betty I'm glad you are feeling more like yourself.

I could be tired because the HIV. Could be a combination of the bleeding and HIV. Dont know.

I used to have a period for 3 days 2 of which would be heavy bleeding. This has been 5 days of spotting. Just enough to smell bad and make you feel uncomfortable along with bad cramping. and 3 days of heavy bleeding now.
I am on birth control so I shouldnt be bleeding at by now. I have hormone problems so that is the culprit. The cramping is what is bothering me the most I think. I hate the dirty messy feeling too but its not as bothersome as the cramps. I expect it will go away in the next couple of days.

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #55 on: September 23, 2008, 11:27:34 AM »
Hey beaus, haven't even read a single post here. just want to give u an update, haven't been here for a while, network failures, lots of work...ma boss delivered a baby boy last week and is only coming back in Dec!

Ok, great news; i got a job offer today. now its not much of a package but i love the work, m starting as a trainee(asset consultancy) but m so..o over the moon, plus it involves traveling so hey!and finally i get o  leave this dumpster!!!!yippie! now the tricky part is when i shud go, they said i can start anytime but remember m alone in the office and i also manage another division alone!tips anyone?

Ma young brother moved out beginning of the month and now there's only mummy dearest and I alone! Now i spend the weekend with am boyfy, went of Friday and went home on Sunday, guess what?! Friday nite i got so sick i could not even walk, twas terrible and scary too coz I'd lied and said m spending the nite wit a friend!

Ladies, please i need to get ma bod back and m struggling!whoever said losing weight is a struggle i dare you to try gaining  weight!!!M so frustrated, anyone tips...?

Y'all have a great day/nite, will talk to u 2mrw, gotta go home.

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #56 on: September 23, 2008, 12:30:19 PM »
Been there done that Mahalia. I gained weight by over eating. I was at least 20 lbs under weight now I am at least 20 lbs over weight.

I was depressed and stuffing my face as a result. The last couple of years of my late husband's life he couldn't get a hard on anymore. So he lost intrest in sex and stopped having sex with me and was not being affectionate with me at all either. Thats a jerky thing to do in my opinion. I could have lived without the sex as long as there was some kind of loving affection. He wouldn't even hold me at night.

So I turned to food. I wish I'd realised what I was doing before I got up to a little more than 180 lbs. Taking it off has been a bitch. I still haven't taken all the weight off and he has been dead since 2001.

When I was underweight I had some troubles with my legs giving out and I had chest pains from the muscles in my chest constricting and shrinking.

I wouldn't suggest over eating but you can eat more frequently and eat foods with more fat in them.
Try to eat a little something every 3 to 4 hours. It doesn't have to be a full meal.  Snack sized portions are ok or add a couple of protein drinks to what you already eat per day. 

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« Reply #57 on: September 23, 2008, 01:33:24 PM »
Afternoon ladies,

Tendai, don't feel obligated.  And just 'cause there aren't a lot of generous men there (where are they at anyway-none here either) doesn't mean you have to settle for just anyone.  I also don't like it when people just drop in.  I think that's extremely rude.  You just keep settin' those boundaries girl.

Andrea, maybe you should do something exciting and tell the kids about it.  Do you think that might help with their behavioral difficulties?  Gotta hand it to ya-I couldn't do that.

Wendy, why don't you go to a GYN and have hormone testing done?  Maybe you could get some treatment so you don't have to suffer when you have your period.  That sucks.

Mahalia, when I went through the wasting, it took me a couple years to put adequate weight back on.  I drank nutritional drinks (Boost, not Ensure, no way), ate things that had lots of protein, and high-calorie things.  Of course, I had to gradually add the high-caloric foods into my diet because of the chances of having diarrhea.  Have you talked to your doctor about it?

My landlord called me this morning at 8:10 and told me the plumbers would be here at 9:00.  So I jumped in the shower (which thankfully didn't back up) and got done right when they got here.  It took the guy an hour and a half to do whatever it is he did.  Root out the tree roots I suppose.  Then I went to the store, came home and ate lunch.  Oh yeah, when the plumber was here I did the rest of my homework.  I did a few questions in the microecon book, but not all of them.  A lot of them still have me totally confused.  Tonight's that class, so the teacher will go over the answers, I'm sure.  Tonight is also our first exam.  Ugh.  Keep fingers and toes crossed ladies.  Have a good one.
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« Reply #58 on: September 23, 2008, 01:41:07 PM »
The GYN says I am premenopausal and gave me birthcontrol to try and regulate my hormones.

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« Reply #59 on: September 23, 2008, 11:13:49 PM »
Hey Ladies---

I got the xray done of my shoulder yesterday and picked up the film today. I am not due to see him til the 29th but I think the lady said they were going to send him a report. I plan on calling him tomorrow anyways because the pills are not working as much, it just dulls the pain, not take it away like it did at first. The pain also moving down my arm now too. The only reason I am online now is because I took a pill a few hours ago and smoked a joint which my doc told me not to do but it seems to help. He was droning on about them both being downers. I simply told him that weed has never made me feel down.

I went to the Women's support group today. Nice little group of 8, all of us with a story to tell of course and a few had some things in common with me....like the issue of disclosure. Being that we had that discussion here already and some disapproved of my choice, there was one lady in my group who agreed with me. Because I really thought my view of it was distorted after reading some of the posts here. Anyhoo, the group was nice and I plan on going to the next one. I am also considering doing some public speaking or would that be advocating? But I am really going to do some soul searching before I make a decision. I want to be sure I am ready for this.

After group, I was feeling a bit tired so I took a nap and slept til 6:30. When I woke up I felt like crap so I checked my sugar, it was 77!!!! But the only food I had eaten was at the group meeting so I drank some tea and fixed something to eat. I checked it again at 9 and it was 159. I ate a little more, steak and corn then took my shot at 10. I gave myself 29 units, I just hope I won't drop too low again since it was only 159 and hour before I took the shot. I have my first dietary class tomorrow night.

Betty, I agree when someone said you shouldn't be hard on yourself. I'd rather you pick up a cig than any drugs, you have come too far.((((hugs))))))

Tendai---I agree with Betty, don't settle. It took me a long time to realize that was what I was doing with the guys in my past relationships. And anyone I date I tell them up front not to come to my house without calling, not because someone else might be here but because sometimes I just don't want to be bothered. Hell, even my friends know that. I am that way because I never show up at anyone's house without notice, unless they don't have a phone.

As for Sexy, well we have been playing phone tag on the phone. And when we do talk, it usually about football. Most of our conversations has been through messages. It is what it is and am not really concerned about it one way or the other.

Well, I am going to check out a few more threads and do some more with this computer. I am sure to be up for awhile since I had a long nap. Manana chicas.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #60 on: September 24, 2008, 08:37:31 AM »
How old are these kids again Viv?

I teach 5th grade so they are 10 and 11 years old. It's really a great age.  :)

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« Reply #61 on: September 24, 2008, 08:38:47 AM »
Ok, I tried to reply with a quote and it put my reply with the quote! How do I get the reply outside of the quote?

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« Reply #62 on: September 24, 2008, 09:59:28 AM »
Hi ladies,

WIN- Hahaha, u take weed?!thats reminds me of ma boyfriend, he Rastafarian...but the smell just knocks me out, n gives these thumping headaches!hope u get better hey. and m wit Tendai on Sexy, he should be using this some of ur pain to give sum bit of rubs maybe....lol, yeah u take time with urself before taking up public speaking, u just gotta be ready...
Tricky thing for me is i have always avoided food with more fat, i'll try

BETTY- haven't talked to ma doctor bout it yet, i should be making a call to ma dietician one of these days. Whats wrong with Ensure, was planning on getting some?Good luck wit ur exams, we know u'll do well.

TENDAI- that man should be asking to come over!!!how do u just rock up at one's house!

NETTA- u were playing what?!hahaha, sounds like u enjoyed it!

TATENDA- loved the post, definitely forwarding it to ma friends

M feeling so crappy, m hungry, didnt have a proper lunch, kinda broke at the moment! I just havent been physically great for the past few days, a little dizziness, feeling of lightheadness and that little episode at ma boyfriends. m a little worried...ma medical aid is a little messed up at the moment, so...

To all the new ladies, welcome

Didnt manage to read all the posts...but lots of love to y'all


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« Reply #63 on: September 24, 2008, 12:05:45 PM »
Hey ladies,

Queen, I hope nothing serious is wrong with your shoulder.  I would have no guess at what it is; maybe a pinched nerve?  I'm not sure what docs do for pinched nerves either, has your doctor told you what might be done?  I hope all it requires is something simple.  Glad you liked the women's group.  About the advocating, I'm sure you'll make the right decision for you.  And you know how I feel about disclosure; I don't think one has to as long as it's safe.  So, I'm with you on that.

Mahalia, the reason I don't like Ensure is because of the taste.  Boost is a lot better.  When I was using Boost, my ASO (Aids Service Organization) used to carry it and provided it for me.  Of course, I haven't tasted Ensure in years, so maybe it's improved.   I feel ya on being broke.  It's the end of the month and I have exactly $3 in my checking account and no cash on hand.  And it's another week until check day. 

Andrea, I'm not sure you can remove quotes. Ann or Jan would be the people to ask about that.  How are things going?

Wendy, if those pills aren't doing their job, tell the GYN so (s)he can try something else.  You don't have to suffer needlessly.

Well, today I've not done much.  I did quit the smokes again and exercised this morning.  Then I read for a little over an hour.  The book I'm reading is really interesting.  It's talking about the unfairness between classes of people in America.  It's written by a senator.  It said that the average CEO in the U.S. makes 400 times more than the average worker in the same company.  Bush has let this country get so far out-of-control financially, I just hope we can recover. 

I haven't even looked at the microecon exam.  I'll worry about that tomorrow or Friday.  Tonight is my gov't class.  Nothing else planned.  Have a good one all.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #64 on: September 24, 2008, 12:10:49 PM »
Morning Ladies---

I slept in til 11. My shoulder is still hurting but not as bad but the pain is still moving down my arm. I called my doctor today but had just missed him. So, I spoke to the nurse and told her about last night with the crash and was hoping they would've gotten the report about my xray. But she said she hadn't but she would call the hospital and have them fax it. I am suppose to go to the dietary class tonight but not sure if I feel up to it.

Betty, my doctor does think it is a pinched nerve, I guess he wanted the xray done to make sure. I have the xrays and looked at them but I can't tell anything. He did mention that I may have to go through physical therapy. Ugh, I am feeling old, everytime I move my arm in a circular motion is pops. I hear it and feel it.

I have to take my sister to the store, I'll check back in later. Have a good one ladies...
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« Reply #65 on: September 24, 2008, 12:31:14 PM »
Sweet Queen, I feel ya on the getting old.  Every time I get up it takes longer and longer.  What to do....
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« Reply #66 on: September 24, 2008, 05:40:32 PM »
The nurse called me back after talking to my doctor. Now I have to get a MRI done of my neck and shoulder. The xray says I have some type of degeneration going on in my neck but doc thinks it may be the onset of arthritis. And I'm thinking to myself, freaking great. Told him about last nights crash so now he wants me to stay on 30 units til I see him on the 3rd. He is also going to prescribe me some stronger darvocets but is allowing me to take the ones I have twice a day. Started doing that already about a few days ago.

I need to get up and fix something to eat but I feel drained. Sexy even called but I didn't answer the phone. I just don't feel like being bothered today. I might call him back then I might not.
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« Reply #67 on: September 24, 2008, 09:15:11 PM »
Queen- Sorry to hear about your shoulder pain.  I hope you can find out more when you have the MRI.  I hate when people show up unexpected too, not that it does me any good, there are always people knocking at our door.

Betty- Glad you got back on track with the cigs.  I have to agree with you and everyone else, they are much better than the hard stuff.  I still think you have been doing an amazing job.

Mahalia- I hope you are feeling better.  Sorry to hear about the fainting spell.

Win- You are so funny, putting your comforter in the back of your car.  I wish I could do that, there is not enough room with all the car seats.

Viv- I don't know how you do it really?  I chaperoned my sons  4th grade class for the last 2 days and I wanted to drop kick a few of the girls.  I am so tired, I think I could sleep for a week.  Most of the kids were cute and sweet but the attitude on some of the others was crazy.

Ten- How are things going over there?  I read in the paper that Mug conceded, that is good news right?

Drag- Nice to see you.  I hope you are feeling better and having fun getting ready for the big day.  Does anybody watch that show Bridezillas, those women are a trip, most of them have lost their damn minds if you ask me, treating everyone like complete shit.

Keeping- How are you and your kiddos doing?

Mum- How is school going?  Have you forgiven your hubby yet?

I am busted, mentally, physically.  I am getting a cold.  3 of my 4 were sick last week.  I was playing football with my oldest last week and got kicked in the chin, cut my lip, my jaw was killing me for days! LOL.  I am dreading shitbag getting out in the next couple of weeks.  His wife got her restraining order permanent for the rest of her life, lucky duck.  I talked to my lawyer and they told me to go try to get one too.  It has been going on 15 years I have been dealing with this drama and I am sick of it.  I am just a mess!  I am exhausted but haven't been getting much sleep.  I just have to keep saying to myself things will get better...eventually :-\  Thanks for letting me vent. ;D

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« Reply #68 on: September 24, 2008, 10:56:22 PM »
Queen, I'm sorry you're going through so much.  You have more MRI's, bummer.  I hope you feel better soon.

Snow, did a doctor look at your jaw?  Is it broken?  That sounds awful.   I'm sorry SB's getting out in a couple days.  You really should look into getting a restraining order.  He sounds like a dangerous kind.

That's basically all I wanted to say.  I have nothing spectacular to report.  Just gov't class tonight, that's all.
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« Reply #69 on: September 25, 2008, 03:39:41 AM »
Snow - ouch! must hurt like a mutha. and i agree with Betty - u definitely need to to get a restraining order, for your family's safety and some peace of mind. hope the pain goes away soon.  Mugabe did concede a bit but they're at another deadlock as to the cabinet ministers.  mugabe wants to control the major ministries like defence, information, finance, foreign affairs and the MDC want those too.  They will give Mugabe too much power and control if he has them so they have to go back to South Africa's Mbeki for more negotiations.  U heard Mbeki was forced to resign? We had hoped that they would choose another mediator but no such luck, SADC wants him to continue. Hopefully he can do something.

Betty -  good luck with the cigs. We've also a huge divide between the rich and the poor thats growing wider by the minute. theres people driving around in Hummers for craps sake and other people eating the leaves off trees coz they cant get food. its just crazy around here these days. either u're really dirt poor or u're flithy rich, even if u cant get your money out of the bank.. >:(

Queen - i hope they can do something with your shoulder.  my boss usually injects this medicine called depo medrol into the shoulder (impingement he calls it) or maybe its a different thing from what you're having. 

Mahalia - get well hey. go and get checked out at the clinic or something.  u never know it could be something that needs urgent attention..

i miss my little nephew even though i saw him a couple weeks ago.his mother got officially married then and my uncle was teasing my nephew that he's now legal and no longer a street kid.  im going to invite them to my place for the weekend. u should have seen him running to get his lunch from the kitchen, didnt think he could run so fast, so serious and intent with his head tilted forward. bet he wouldve given Usein Bolt a run for his money :D
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« Reply #70 on: September 25, 2008, 06:48:52 AM »
Tendai-  hahaha, ur nephew musty be a bowl of fun!!!kids are just awesome, aren't they?! yeah, i hope to do the doc one of these days...

Snow-  things will definetly get beta

Queen- get better hey...

Betty- i'll try Boost but i like Ensure maybe its the improved one...well i hope i have been paid, need to check ma account. wow, a week!, thats long, hang in there.

gotta go for lunch, will pop in later


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« Reply #71 on: September 25, 2008, 12:22:24 PM »
Afternoon ladies,

Tendai, I have to say that, at least where I live they have "food banks," where you go somewhere, show an ID and a current piece of mail (so they can match the ID to where you live) and they give out some cans of food.  But, I do know there are places that don't have these, or people who can't access them 'cause they have no address, and they eat out of dumpsters.  The place I used to volunteer at also feeds anyone who needs a meal 3 meals a day, 365 days a year.  Of course, it's not the same in every city.   So, you can't get your money out of the bank?  It kind of sounded like that.  I can't imagine that.  Hang tough, girl.  I'm glad you're spending time with some of your family.

Mahalia, I'm glad you like the Ensure.  If it's working, stick with it (just a saying coming to mind, "if it ain't broke, don't fix it").  I must have missed something.  You have something physically wrong with you that you need to see a doctor for?  If you do, you need to go.  We can't neglect our health. 

I'm waiting for my therapist to get here.  He should be here in about 20 minutes.  After he leaves,  I'm going to work on my microecon exam.  Hopefully I'll at least get a "C." 

I wonder where mum and Wish (and anyone else who isn't posting) have been.  Hope everyone's o.k.  Take care all.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #72 on: September 25, 2008, 01:22:54 PM »
Not much going on with me either. Shoulder is still hurting but what else is new? I haven't heard from Wish lately either. I'll have to hit her up on MySpace. I hope she is alright. I got kind of bored for a sec and moved some furniture around in my entertainment room. Nothing major just the computer and this stand with my stuffed animals on it.

Sexy called me this morning and left a message. So I called him at lunch and was amazed he answered the phone on the second ring. I think it is sounding like he wants to get together later, we shall see. I guess that is about it for me, I'll check back later.
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10/31/07 CD4-265 VL- undetectable
2/6/08 CD4- 401 VL- undetectable
5/7/08 CD4- 705 VL- undetectable
6/4/08 CD4- 775 VL- undetectable
8/6/08 CD4- 805 VL- undetectable
11/13/08 CD4- 774 VL--undetectable
2/4/09  CD4- 484  VL- 18,000 (2 months off meds)
3/3/09---Starting Back on Meds---
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #73 on: September 25, 2008, 07:50:51 PM »
Hi GFs~

I have been doing traction all week and my neck muscles are sore cause they aren't used to a workout and have no strength at all.  I have been having episodes of exhaustion while driving and even while sitting at my desk, like last Monday, where I feel like my BP is low.  This chicken neck can't support my bowling ball head.  I'll try to post a pic of me in traction over the weekend, it looks like my head is in a bra, lol.

I am in a lot of pain, and I am scared.  It is exhausting to get through the day.  I have a 4-day weekend, but may call in tomorrow and make it 5.

QUEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I have "mild to moderate disc degeneration in my c6 and c7," as diagnosed in May 2007.  I somehow think "moderate" has blown to "full-tilt-your-neck-don't-work-no-more" mode.  BEWARE and get treatment.  You don't want to end up like me.  It SUCKS.

Iceman is wonderful and so are his girls.  My father has offered to help me buy gas so I can get to work.  I refused and then called today to say "ok" in case I get in a bind.  Well, I'm in a bind, I can't afford copays or anything.

Win, are you on HIV meds?  I was on the pill for 19 years and when I went on Sustiva I started spotting.  Went off it a year ago and I am back to normal, just a little crampy.  The liver can't handle the HIV meds and renders the (birth control) pill useless.  Food for thought.......

Love you all, have to go watch Survivor.  "Dan from Boston" went to school with a girl from my office, lol!  :D

Muah!  ~Cindy
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #74 on: September 25, 2008, 08:08:06 PM »
Well, Cindy....I hope you can hold your head up straight when my Cowboys kick your Redskins ass.... ;D I have to get an MRI done for my neck, I think C-5 is giving me all the grief. My doc is thinking I will need some therapy for it. Just thought I would comment, I'm out to watch Smallville.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #75 on: September 25, 2008, 08:26:17 PM »
Cin, was what I read correct-are you off Sustiva and all HIV meds?  I really hope you feel better.  My mum had disc degeneration in her whole neck. 

Queen, I wonder if you had a little neck support when you laid down if that would help?  I dunno.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #76 on: September 25, 2008, 10:15:28 PM »
BT, I stopped birth control pills.  I have been on ARV meds since '95.  Sustiva since 2002.  :)

Not really concerned about football right now, Queen, its been a scary, rough week......
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #77 on: September 25, 2008, 11:04:34 PM »
Tomorrow is Friday!!!  :) :)

Cindy- Wow, you have had a tough week! I know how it is when it comes to asking for help. I hate asking my dad. My mom tells me all the time to not let my pride get in the way. I think dads like helping, it makes them feel useful. I hope you feel better.

Betty- How have you been feeling? If you don't mind I'm going to ask a question. You don't have to answer...How long have you been seeing your therapist? I've been seeing mine for about 3 yrs. I think and the last 3 times I have not wanted to go. She says it is usually because there is something bothering me and I don't want to deal with it, that is how I usually deal with things, stuff it down, anyways, what I am asking is have you ever felt that way? Moving on...did you ever find any help with your class?

Queen- Is the pain still bad? Maybe Sexy can take your mind of it   ;D

Snow- I know how you feel. I truly love being around the kids and care for them, but there are some I have to avoid. A veteran teacher told me that if there is a kid that rubs you the wrong way and you notice yourself always nagging at him/her, try to sit them out of your eyeline so you don't notice every little thing. This particular group has been tough. There seems to not be a real concern for consequences. Some of them are just really defiant. I still love it though!  :D

Hi to all you other fabulous ladies (Tendai, Mahalia, Wendy, and anyone else I forgot)

Have a good night and sleep tight!

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #78 on: September 26, 2008, 06:45:05 AM »
Dad and I were talking about my brother's family of 5 not having any money and I said I didn't, either, but I was making things work, getting through a rough patch.  He just offered to help and I refused and refused and then said what the hell, that's $250 extra a month.  I think I'll just try 1x a month to help between paychecks.  I can put that money towards the chiropractor, I'm sure!  :)
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #79 on: September 26, 2008, 07:09:03 AM »
Betty- yeah i just have not been feeling too good of late, esp pafter that episode at ma boyfriends, so...yah i do need to see the doctor, m just working on sorting ma medical aid. all the best wit ur exam, microec is not so bad...

Queen- Sexy reli likes u huh?!!!

Moon- thats a lot of help, i know how sometyms we try at modesty even when we are in need, m glad u took up the offer.

Well, m happy its a Friday, i wish it could be a longer weekend though. this coming tues n wedns will be independence holidays, just don't understand why we have to come to work on  Monday!it don't make sense!!!!

Ma wonderful boss got himself a new ride( the second one in l;less than year!) and he's like "yeah just work and i'll buy more" and of course he aint joking. on top of the car he is planning on going for a holiday with his wife...well i burst his bubble!gave him ma resignation letter, bot aint happy i tell u, he gave it back to me and says maybe we can discuss more(discuss ma Indian toe!!) I've been complaining bout pay for i don't know when but every time he'll tell u how there is no need for that, ma boss is on leave and m handling the office alone, there is not even an acting allowance! no thank you, m not staying!

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« Reply #80 on: September 26, 2008, 10:28:51 AM »
Morning ladies,

Cin, oh, thanks for clearing my head up on that.  I thought you meant you stopped Sustiva last year.  I really wish things could improve for you.  Didn't Mahalia mention something her doctor used for people who are having problems with disc degeneration?  You need to bring this up with your doctor and ask what (if anything) can be done to help this condition.  Really, you shouldn't have to suffer.  And about taking your dad up on his offer, you shouldn't feel bad or let pride keep you from asking people for help.  I know how that is, and for some reason, for me, asking people for financial help is especially difficult.  I think my reasoning on that is, when I was strung out, my mum used to help me out occasionally and I caught a lot of shame about that.  So now, it's hard for me to ask anyone because of being ashamed.  But, if someone sincerely offers, then we shouldn't feel bad about letting them help us.

Andrea, I've been seeing the same therapist since 1991.  There are times when something is bothering me that I put dealing with it off.  But for me, usually it's because changing it is going to involve some effort on my part, and I hate that (emotional effort).   And everyone hates change.   If you've been doing this for years, just talking about it is change.  Change is always uncomfortable, for awhile.  Yet I always find that once I just do it, it's not as bad as I thought it was going to be.   Good luck with those kids.  If I had a whole room of kids, no matter what the age, I would be a heavy smoker, for sure. :)

Mahalia, I complain so much about micrecon because math and/or business is not my major.  My major is psychology.  And to have a class like microeonomics required for a psych degree makes no sense.  Even the teachers say that.  I hate math, anything involving graphs (which is heavy in microecon) etc. and I will never use this.  I can understand having a math class required (I took college algebra).  Every degree has math requirements.  But not a business math class.  Anyway, I'm glad you gave your boss that letter, even if he gave it back to you.  Let him grovel for awhile.   If he makes you a good offer are you going to stay?  Or are you still gonna take that other job?

I was supposed to meet my old algebra teacher at the library this morning.  I totally forgot about it, and didn't get up until 8:30.  So, I called her to tell her I wasn't going to make it, and we talked for awhile.  She is such a nice person.  Anyway, she told me where her office is at the university she's teaching at now, and told me to stop by if I ever needed help again; or to call her. 

All I have to do today is read a couple chapters, go out and get a few things, and pick a script up at my doctor's.  Of course, that's going to require me putting on make-up, 'cause I won't go out (unless it's down to the corner 7-11) without some kind of make-up.  I'm extremely pale and people ask me if I'm sick if I don't wear any.  Anyway, you ladies have a good day and I'll be back later.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #81 on: September 26, 2008, 12:16:39 PM »
good Morning ladies
hope everyone is well
i have been having work done on my teeth ouch. . . had to have a couple removed then the bone broke and was coming Thur they had to cut into my gums and remove the piece of bone so now I have stitches BIG OUCH I go back in an hour to get a deep cleaning so they can make me a new plate, I really wish I had learned to take care of my teeth when I was younger and of course the drug use made them worse! but I keep telling my self I'll finally be able to smile nice and big when its all said and done :)

MATH oh my yeah I'm not doing so hot in that subject first test got a B not really sure how I pulled that off lol but this last test I totally bombed yuck I really need to crack down its math that's keeping me from  moving on if I don't get Thur it I'll never get my degree ???

any how I'm doing good all considered hope everyone is great
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #82 on: September 26, 2008, 01:20:32 PM »
Brandy, my teeth fell apart a long time ago, due to booze/drug use, so don't feel alone.

As for the math, why don't you check into getting a tutor if it's giving you fits?  Just a thought.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #83 on: September 26, 2008, 02:09:57 PM »
Afternoon Ladies--

Really feeling like crap, I woke up about 6 am feeling really sick to my stomach. I was fighting back the urge to hurl and woke up sweating. I still feel sick to my stomach now, not sure what to do but I figure I would just ride it out.

No problem, Cindy. I know you been going through it. I was simply trying to take your mind off of it. You are the only female I know online who keeps up with football like I do. Not to worry, I will keep you informed... ;D

Mahalia-- Yeah, I think Sexy is feeling me a little bit more. I went over to see him yesterday afternoon and actually had a really deep conversation. I think he is warming up to me, he starting to tell me personal things about himself.

Hopefully I'll feel better and will check in later.
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« Reply #84 on: September 27, 2008, 09:10:49 AM »
Morning ladies,

What's going on with everyone?  Wendy, how have you been? 

Queen, I hope you're feeling better.  I wonder if you have the flu.  I've been reading about people getting it. 

Not much going on right now.  I have to make some cornbread in awhile.  The NA speak-a-thon I'm going to tonight is having chili and cornbread and I volunteered to make some of the cornbread.  Other than that, I have studying to do.  I hope you ladies have a good day and that everyone stays safe this weekend.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #85 on: September 27, 2008, 09:25:31 AM »
Today I am going to my friend's 40th bday party.  I have gained weight and have nothing to wear, so screw it, I am going to Kohl's.  I looked online and I REALLY need a new pair of shoes for work.  I can't wear these Redskin crocs forever, they let the rain in, lol.  I also need a new bra cause I have gained weight and the others don't fit right anymore.  I'll just put it on my damn credit card that I'll never pay down after using it during unemployment last year.

Ice is going to Pittsburgh Monday night for the Steelers Ravens game and then driving back home.  I was a little sad at first cause I have 4 days off work, and he won't be there until late late late Monday night.  Oh well, its not like I get good sleep anyway.  I just worry about him working all day and then driving both ways in one night to the damn game.

Wish I had that energy.  Off to shower and buy some clothes, lol.

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« Reply #86 on: September 27, 2008, 10:36:22 AM »
good morning ladies
Im feeling much better thank goodness
not much going on today I have to work 4 hours over time today so it'll be a long day for me yuck anywho hope everyones doing great
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #87 on: September 27, 2008, 03:31:00 PM »
Not much going on with me today, though I do feel better. Had to listen to my best friend talk about her son disrespecting her. I went over, of course he was gone but I told her it is time to take her tit out his mouth. He is 20 years old and spoiled. He also seems to be picking up his gf's bad habits. It's just a hot mess.

I am off to get me something to eat, will check back in later.
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« Reply #88 on: September 27, 2008, 09:31:58 PM »
I got back from my friend's bday party a little while ago.  I saw four people from my graduating class that I hadn't seen in over 20 years, it was nice!  I also saw my best buddy from high school who was on the Pom Squad with me and lived across the street.  I last saw her about three years ago.

I was talking with some ladies in their 50's and 60's and most of us had one ailment or another that we chimed in about.  My ailment was my neck (if they only knew what I really dealt with....).  One woman was so kind and talked about seeing a healer.  I thought she meant accupuncture or something, but she meant a healer, as in the church.  She wasn't pushing religion on me, and I really enjoyed talking with her.  She had so much compassion and teared up when she found out my husband had died from cancer.  Again, if she only knew the REAL story.

My neck was bugging me tonight, I was unbalanced when I got up to get food and things, but I managed to have a good time.  I had to drive home in the dark and rain, which I haven't done in awhile, but I just poked along and took my time.  Hope everyone is having a nice Saturday night.  :)

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« Reply #89 on: September 28, 2008, 11:41:08 AM »
Morning ladies,

Cin, when I was reading your last post about you seeing your friend who was on the pom squad with you, when I first glanced at that I thought it said "porn squad." :D  Anyway, I'm glad you had a nice time.  It's hard when we have to censor ourselves around certain people, isn't it.  I usually don't.  And I hate driving when it's dark and rainey.  Glad you made it home safely.

Queen, glad you're feeling better as well.  (and you too Brandy)

I didn't go to the speaker jam last night.  I laid down around 3:00, woke up at 6:30 and didn't feel like going anywhere.  So, I just stayed home, watched t.v. and messed around on the computer. 

I was thinking about looking for a part-time job again.  Now, having gone to the all-day workshop on being on disability and working a couple weeks ago, I have a better picture on how much I want to make to stay under the radar.  I know that if one makes $670/month for nine months (and that doesn't have to be nine months in order) that's when disability reviews the person.  And the income limitation after that is $940; this year, anyway.  I think it raises each year due to cost of living.  So, I would really only want to make about $400 or $450/month.  Not a whole lot I know, but that would be an extra $100/week.  That really makes a huge difference.  When I got on disability, I was labled as "never going to improve."  There are three labels social security gives someone, and that determines how often one can get reviewed; "going to improve," "might improve," "never going to improve."  Of course, that's not exactly the wording, but it is the interpretation.  I haven't been reviewed in about five years, so I don't know when the next one will be.  It makes me nervous though to think about.  Anyway.......

I really don't have anything other than homework planned today.  My brother is supposed to come over later to continue "The Wire" watching.  I think we're just beginning season 3.  I was going to go to my 1st husband's grave today, but changed my mind.  I hope you ladies have a good day.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #90 on: September 28, 2008, 02:32:10 PM »
just droppin in to say hello ladies
I have lots of homework and i have to go into the office today Yuck
hope everyone is great
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« Reply #91 on: September 28, 2008, 10:06:33 PM »
I took tomorrow off work because we are closed on Tuesday, so I have a 4-day weekend.  I am at Ice's with Cheech.  My football team won, the Redskins, and now I am rooting for the Bears over the Eagles.  I also watched Extreme Home Makeover which took place in my hometown, pretty neat.  I am so tired and so happy I don't have to do a damn thing tomorrow.

Nighty night...

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« Reply #92 on: September 28, 2008, 10:17:38 PM »
Moon- I watched that show too, it always makes me cry.  I don't know how the hell she did it with all those kids, shoot 4 is bad enough!

Betty- I wish I could go back to work too, that whole things sounds so screwy though.  I don't know if I could do it physically, I get so tired if I am up and busy for any length of time and then there is always the bathroom issue to worry about, especially in the morning.

Queen- I hope you are feeling better!

I hope everyone else is doing well!
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« Reply #93 on: September 29, 2008, 12:05:20 AM »
Hey Chicka's

I hope everyone is doing well. Nothing exciting going on with me. Went to church this morning and have slept most of the day. I am in a new accounting class and it is really scaring me. I suppose to graduate in May. How can I do a 3,000 word report on numbers  ??? I have never been the MATH person. I hope I at least get a C. It's better than a D. Me and DH was thinking about having another baby. I talked to my GYN and ASO and they said everything should be good. I have been undectable for over 6 months now. She said all I would have to do is change my meds before trying to conceive. I'm on Atripla now. I met some women at my ASO office. One has been poz since 96 but she also has stomach cancer. And the other one just found out when she was 5 months pregnant. Her baby is 3 months now. Well I was just checking in and I hope everyone is doing well. Please pray for me and this class

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #94 on: September 29, 2008, 01:49:09 AM »
Not sure what is going on with me.Besides my team losing to Cindy's team by 2 fucking points, it seems like I have been in tears most of the day. The weird thing is I don't even know why, maybe hormones changing. A little bit of drama with the ex room mates but I was teary before their bullshit.

I was talking to my best friend's cousin who is going to school for computers. The course is like 6-9 months which I think is doable. Plus I need some extra income and I think this is the ticket without having to do something illegal. So, I am thinking I am going to go for it and call them tomorrow. I told Sexy about it and he has been totally supportive. It seems lately that him and I have been having some serious conversations about life, not being content, feeling like something is missing and all that.

I'll probably be up most of the night since I have slept most of Sunday.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #95 on: September 29, 2008, 06:13:41 AM »
hey ladies, i've been on the phone for an hour wit a friend of mine. just dont know why we had to come to work!oh, yippie, just got a memo to say we knocking off at 1pm. lovely, we coming back to work on Thursday.

Betty- yeah then i understand, it beats me why you have to do it, it dont make sense to me. u should be asking them to review that, or that they explain why you need it for your major.

Moon- sounds like you had fun. must be interesting seeing pple u went to skul wit after that long, cant wait for that time in ma life!seeing all th echanges in our lifes

Queen- Maybe there is a good man in Sexy

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« Reply #96 on: September 29, 2008, 11:00:34 AM »
Keeping,
That would be so exciting.  I am glad to hear that you met some people in your area.  Now if I could just meet some in mine ? :-\  Good luck with the accounting, 3000 words about numbers, good googly moogly, I couldn't do it.

Mahalia- Have fun on your mini vacation from work!

Queen- Are you getting your period?  I sometimes get like that around that time.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #97 on: September 29, 2008, 11:26:51 AM »
I am vegging out at Iceman's, tried using the electric trimmers on Cheech.   :D  He was pretty good, I kept rewarding him with pieces of donuts as we got through the "cut."  He's been hot since his coat has grown back in, so I shaved his neck, chest and tummy.  He was scared but was a good doggie.

I applied to a job in my city today, I don't know how much longer I can go down the road to my current position.  Ice isn't going to the Steelers-Ravens game tonight.  His buddy called and said his daughter wanted to go, since the kids don't have school tomorrow.  It makes me feel better, knowing Ice won't be driving 225 miles back home after an 830pm game!

Queen, sorry you feel like crap, maybe its the weather changing.  I get weepy too, and feel overwhelmed once a month since I went off the pill.  I just figure its natural and that things will improve.  They ususally do.  :)  You'll be OK.  (((((Queen)))))

Going to catch up on TV shows......

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #98 on: September 29, 2008, 01:11:11 PM »
Hi ladies.
I had to go to Houston last Thursday. Billy's step dad passed away. Due to the hurricane there where hardly any time slots available for funerals so it was done really quickly. He passed away on Wednesday and the funeral was Friday.
I'm back home now.
Got a letter from the health department in the mail saying that they had been notified that lab results indicate that I "may" have Salmonella and for me to call them to answer some questions.
I had missed an appointment with my clinic Friday so I tried calling them to set up another appointment. The lady I spoke with said she couldn't give me an appointment with the doctor without me having labs done first. I explained the situation and the letter from the health department and she said she would just transfer me to the clinic. What ever the hell that means. I stayed on hold for 10 minutes and hung up. I hate stupid people. I am just going to do a walk in sometime this week. Maybe tomorrow.

Any way, I feel basically the same. I'm not feeling too bad, I am functional and able to do my normal stuff. I am still spotting. Its been like 16 days now. Putting a real damper on my sex life. LOL

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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #99 on: September 29, 2008, 03:49:55 PM »
Afternoon ladies,

Just to let people know, my screen name has changed (no one's seeing things).

Cin, I hope you get that job you want.  And I'm glad you're getting a few days off.

Snow, do you have a lot of diarrhea in the morning?  Is that what you were talking about?

Keeping, I would have no idea how to do a 3000 word report on numbers.  I would have to talk to someone who had taken the class or talk to the teacher to try to get some ideas.  Good luck with that, really. 

Queen, sorry you're feeling blue.  I'm like that a lot.  I can see an advertisement on t.v. like about abused animals and I'll start balling.  I'm just real touchy like that.  I do hope you feel better.  And the class about computers sounds good!  Let us know what you find out.

Mahalia, enjoy your free time, I know you don't get enough of it.

Wendy, give my condolences to Billy.  I would get in touch with the doctor about that spotting.  I wouldn't let that slide.  And salmonella?!  Ugh. 

I changed my screenname for security reasons.  There are some real strangoes that come on these boards.  Not any of you guys, just some other people. 

Well, Thursday night I'm going to Obama's campaign headquarters here to volunteer.  I'm not sure exactly what I'll be doing; going to find out when I get there.  I really, really hope Obama wins and if there's anything I can do to accomplish this, I'll do it. 

I also went to my ASO to get some food.  Me and my care coordinator talked for about an hour about different stuff.....death, working vs. public assistance etc.   They had some pretty good stuff in their food pantry, which helps a lot.  I don't understand people who won't use food pantries but want to bitch about not having enough food (there are some people around here like that).  Oh well, not my problem.

Other than that, nothing else to repot.  Have a good day everyone.
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #100 on: September 29, 2008, 06:54:27 PM »
Win- My sympathy to you, Billy and his family.  Nothing like having to hurry up and wait, I can not stand being put on hold and then having to answer the same exact questions I already answered.  I am glad you are feeling better.

BT- LOL! I saw the BT65 and thought someone had the same intials as you but then I noticed the same pic. Yup, I have to agree a lot of wierdos around.  Good luck volunteering at the Obama headquarters, I actually got one of his bumper stickers, and I usually don't do bumper stickers, but its for a good cause.  I usually have diarrhea in the morning and if I can't go the bathroom before I leave, I can't eat or drink anything until the afternoon or if I do, I have to take it with Immodium.

I just hung out today.  Didn't do much but finally get a hold of a nurse that I used to see for a study I was involved in.  I had wanted to tell her about this site but she had found out about it already and tells all her patients.  It was really nice to talk to her, she is such a sweet women.  She looked in her files for me because I couldn't remember when I had intially tested.  I got tested and diagnosed in Jan 97, but she had written that I thought I got infected in 94.  I really need to go to a hypnotist or something because I can't remember anything from 93 till I had my son in 98, except that I was living in hell.  Maybe it would help me to get past all this shit if I got it out of my system.  Has anyone ever done
hypnotism?

Hope everyone is doing well.  I wonder where Mum and Drag are?
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #101 on: September 29, 2008, 07:09:03 PM »
Someone needs to start a new thread. I'll wait until someone starts one before I go on about my day.

Win--You have my condolences

BT--You know me, I thought it was the green and seeing things. What's up with that? No one was using the other name were they or you just felt like a change? Change is good. ;D
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Re: Ladies' Thread 46: Faith is carrying an umbrella
« Reply #102 on: September 29, 2008, 07:19:24 PM »
Win~

So sorry about Billy's step-dad and the rush of events.  It must seem kinda surreal right now.

This thread is closed, got to Part 47.
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